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Ironic
BY: Mahie/EvenStar*** *Will* He didn't know why he was looking at the sea again. Yes,again. How could it be possible? It seemed it was now almost authomatic. Will Turner left his smithy and walked to the beach every night. He sat on the docks,and looked at the sky and the waters who seemed so calm now. This was his life these days - calm. So much calmness it was a complete boredom. Will didn't understand why he kept this habit of every night going to the beach. It was clear,but Will couldn't see it. He missed a certain pirate captain who had left to be at the sea. Yes, Jack Sparrow would never belong to anyone. He was a pirate,and that explained it all. He only loved his ship and treasure. Oh,don't forget the rum and the whores. Right? - Right? - But still William Turner couldn't realize he was looking at the sea searching for something - someone - he couldn't find in the waters. He took no notice he was thinking about Jack. Well,at least not in *that* way. 'Jack is my friend. Whenever he can,he will look for me.'. And Will tried to deny he missed the pirate so much. He wanted to believe it was just a friend's normal behavior. Of course he missed his friends who weren't around! And as the moon was high in the sky,Will left the beach and went home. Now there was no Elizabeth to think of. The lass had decided to marry Norrington after all. Will was sad to know it,but only because of his ego. He had fallen in love much before he shared his first kiss with Elizabeth,the day Jack had escaped from the gallows. And he hadn't fallen in love with her. From the first day he met Jack,he was stunned. He got angry with the pirate,for sure. He had called him an eunuch and had threatened Elizabeth. Will was very angry the first day he met Jack,but...he couldn't *not* notice his eyes and the way he seemed - and he *was* - so exotic. Will sat on the docks and a single tear rolled by his cheek. And then Will realized how much he missed Jack already. But still tried to deny it was love that he felt for the pirate. 'But he'll never come back here. Norrington and the others will be ready to hang him. Besides,he has nothing to do here. I don't really think he'll be looking for me that often. Jack only does what he wants. He belongs to the sea and the sea only. Okay,perhaps he belongs to the Pearl,too.' ---- The next day Will was at the beach at night,as usual,and he saw a little boat docking. He frowned. It was not one of the Royal Navy's boats and was no Port Royal boat at all. The person who was on the boat went out and so Will saw who was her. It was Annamaria. Will's heart started to thump on his chest. Annamaria reminded him of Jack. But Jack wasn't with her. She payed the boatkeeper and was going to the market. Will called her, as soon as he could: "Annamaria!!", he smiled. "Will! It's so good to see you!!!",she went to him and they hugged one another. They had become friends since their adventure together. ' I was looking for you',Annamaria thought. "How is Elizabeth?",the woman said out loud. Will fell silent. Annamaria frowned and said: "Did I ask something wrong?" "It's okay.",Will replied. "But...we're not together anymore. She's just married Norrington." "Oh,Will,I'm so sorry...",she said,sincerely concerned. "Thanks. But maybe it was better that way." Annamaria didn't understand why Will had said that,but asked no questions. Will asked her: "And what brings you here?" "I'm going shopping. Our stocks are finishing. We've been travelling a lot." "Shopping?",Will laughed. "Thought you and the crew only plundered." Annamaria laughed as well and said: "Not many ships nowadays...actually,there *are* many ships,but..." "But...?",Will frowned. "Never mind",she dismissed it with a wave of her hands. Will asked: "And how's the crew? Gibbs,and the others...and how's Jack?" "They are fine. Well,except..." "Except for whom?" "Jack's not very well. That's why we haven't plundered many ships lately.", she sighed. "But he's a good captain and a great person. I have nothing to complain about." Will was worried to know Jack was unwell. He said: "What's wrong with Jack?" "I dunno.",she replied. "Nobody knows it. He doesn't talk. And nobody feels comfortable to ask. The man is a shell!" "Since when he's like this?" "I believe it's...oh,I'm not sure,Will. But I think it began just after we left Port Royal on that day you saved him from the gallows." Will was astonished. He asked: "Do you think he's kind of...depressed?" "Aye. Something like it. He's not interested in piracy,or even the Pearl. And you know he loves her." "I know.",Will replied. He was so worried now. So he asked: "Where's the Pearl docked?" "It's near that island.",Annamaria pointed to a distant island. "We couldn't dock here,you know." "Yeah." Annamaria seemed deeply in thought and then spoke: "I was thinking...could you talk to him,Will? I believe he will listen to you. Besides,it'll do him good to meet again a person he likes so much." Will's heart started thumping harder. He answered: "Sure I will talk to him." "Come with me to the market. Then we'll go there." "Okay.",Will replied. They finished shopping fastly and then went by boat to the Black Pearl. Will asked: "Do you and the crew have any idea of why is Jack like this?" "My female intuition says it's his heart." "What?",Will didn't believe. "But Jack is so free,he meets so many women." "That's why I think it's a love matter. He's not used to fall in love with anyone." Will had his eyes wide open: "Do you think he's in love?" "Aye. And he doesn't know what to do about it. You're right,Jack's wish of freedom is bigger than anything. Loving is so much complex to him. But it's just what I think,I'm not sure." Will nodded. His heart was on his throat. He surely didn't want to know, whether that was true,if Jack was in love with someone. 'Wait',Will thought. 'I don't think it's possible. Jack cannot be in love. No, Annamaria may have misunderstood all this.' They made it to the Pearl. The lights were off,for no one there wanted to be noticed by the Port Royal Navy. Annamaria climbed the ship and helped Will do it. Jack was sat by the deck,his back to them,and didn't notice they had arrived. The captain looked at the sky,wondering. Annamaria whispered: "He passes all nights like this,Will. Looking at the sky. And I hear him cry sometimes. He barely leaves his cabin during the day." 'Oh God' Will thought. Jack seemed to hear them and turned around. His eyes went wide when he saw Will. The lad smiled at him,and Jack smiled genuinely. *** *Jack* (some months ago) After Jack had been freed from the gallows - by Will,that was important - he was really happy to know the Pearl was *his* again. She had always been,that was for certain. The crew who had accompanied him to the rescue of Elizabeth had stayed and now he would be the happier pirate captain in the world. He could return to a pirate's life and everything it meant. And it would make him the happier captain. Right? - Right? - Then why did he keep looking back to the ocean,almost if he could see something he had left behind? He was happy to get his Pearl,aye. But why did he feel something - *someone* - was missing? While Will suffered because he thought Jack would never love him - would never love *anyone* at all - Jack started to realize he had fallen in love after so many years. He was in love with Will. It wasn't difficult to realize. The second day after his rescue of the gallows,Jack was in his cabin and realized that there was a sword there. He remembered it all too clearly. ---- *flashback* Just after the Dauntless arrived at Port Royal after leaving the Isla de Muerta: Jack Sparrow was locked in a cell again. This time,it seemed he wouldn't escape from the noose. He was locked and there were lots of guards making sure no one would help him escape this time. The last time,Will had sprang him out of the jail and now the guards were really strict - no one would be there with the prisioner alone,as Will had done the last time. Jack was resigned. Maybe it would be better this way. What did he have left? He had no Pearl,had no wife or children,and no hope as well. Even Will was to be married and wouldn't be a pirate,just like he desired Will to be. Yes,maybe it would be better to everyone if he died. "Move!!!",came a familiar voice and the sound of a sword. Jack turned around to see Will in front of his cell. The lad smiled at him. But anyway,there were a lot of guards looking at them. "It's just for a few minutes.",Will spoke,exhasperated. "I'm not gonna spring him out. I need to talk to him." "It's okay,lad.",a guard said. "We'll let you stay. But make it fast." Jack was surprised - and really happy - to see Will. Will kneeled in front of the cell Jack was and Jack looked at him eagerly. They took the hands of one another. Will spoke: "Jack. I don't have much time. You've heard it. So I'll make myself clear fastly.",he lowered his voice,glaring at a guard who had his sword on his back. "Don't. Worry.",Will looked at Jack in the eye and lowered his voice even more. "You're not going to be hanged,or my name is not William Turner." "How?",Jack asked. "You'll see.",Will smiled beautifully. "Just don't worry,okay? No need to worry anymore. You're not gonna die,luv." That word - love - make Jack's heart melt. He squeezed Will's hand and said: "Be careful. I don't want any trouble coming to you." "Don't worry about me,Jack. Look.",Will put his hands on his own hair,and looked at Jack deep in the eye again. "The Pearl is here.",he lowered his voice again. "What?!",Jack asked confused. "They've returned and they're hidden. They've returned to you. And tomorrow you're going to leave with them,okay?" "But the Code..." "Fuck the Code,Jack!" Jack breathed,relieved and wanted to cry from happiness. But he didn't. "I gave you a sword.",Will said. "It's with Gibbs. You can ask him later." "Thank you,Will.",Jack said,sincerely thankful. "I was in need of a new one.",and with that Jack started to cry. He couldn't stand it anymore. He was really stressed with all that situation. He had believed he would be leaving with the Pearl and treasure from the Isla de Muerta and found himself locked in a cell again. It was really too much to bear. "It's okay.",Will said,squeezing Jack's hands. "I'm here for you. I'll always be." "Time to go,mate",the guard angrily said. Will glared at him and looked at Jack caringly. "Just don't worry,okay?" "Okay.",Jack replied,but was worried all the same. "I thought no one would be missing me,but now I know you will." "I'm not gonna miss you,Jack,because you're not going to die.",and with that Will kissed him full on the lips. The guards looked at them and didn't know what to do. Jack responded the kiss eagerly,even if he didn't understand why Will had kissed him. Was it a goodbye? He didn't want to think about it. He didn't know what Will was up to. But he knew the boy cared for him. A lot. And it made him want to live again. "Get the fuck out now!!",two guards separated them. Will left,but looked at Jack in the eye all the while he was being pushed away. His look seemed to be the look of a lover. But Jack didn't want to think about it. He was far too worried. Will didn't think about that kiss,either. It had been a desperate kiss, a kiss of fear of losing someone he loved so dearly. But he had swore to himself that Jack wasn't going to die. And he didn't,really. Will managed to save Jack from the noose and helped his friend leave with the Pearl and his crew. ---- End flashback Jack looked at the sword at his hands and caressed it. He wished to caress Will that way. Now that he was free,and wasn't going to die anymore he couldn't forget about the kiss they shared. It had been rash, sure,just like everything Will did,but not less passionated because of it. If so,the rashness had made it even more passionated. It had been short and desperate. He couldn't stop thinking about Will and the thought he was to marry Elizabeth haunted his mind. So Jack realized with ease that he was deeply attached to the boy. Jack had tried to push it off his mind. Oh,he did. But it wasn't - it wouldn't be this easy. He thought about Will every single day. Once he had written Will a letter. Didn't tell him anything about his feelings but wanted to know if he was okay and how was marriage. He couldn't have known Will would never get that letter. --- *flashback* "Commodore!",Gilette called him. "Yes,Gilette?" "There's a letter here.",he spoke. "It's addressed to Turner." "Thanks,Gilette. I'm sending it to him." Commodore Norrington was really suspicious. After Jack had escaped again from the noose,he was searching for anything who could tell where he was. He imagined the pirate would keep contact with Will,and so it wasn't difficult to realize the letter was from him. Will never received letters and so Norrington was suspicious of that one. He opened it and read. But he was disappointed to know Jack hadn't said a single thing about where he was. Anyways,he couldn't deliver an opened letter. And Will never knew Jack had written to him. ------ end flashback Jack was becoming really sad with the passing months. Three months after he had left Port Royal,he was depressed and was losing much of his interest in piracy. He stood on his cabin,letting Gibbs take the wheel, attacked few ships and whenever he did it,it wasn't with the same passion he used to do it. He was feeling lonely. He couldn't stop thinking about the boy who had stolen his heart. He needed to see him. But how? He would be married by now. 'Will's never going to love me back',Jack thought,without any clue that Will thought the same,that Jack would never love him back. 'I need to forget him. What would a precious boy like him would want with a scallywag like me? He deserves so much more!' A month more had passed and Jack was still down. He was at his cabin when he heard a knock at the door. "Come in.",Jack spoke. Annamaria entered and said: "Captain Jack. There's a merchant ship not far away from here.",she was anxious,Jack could tell. He knew the pirate woman loved to attack ships. "So what?",Jack replied,bored. "Well...",Annamaria replied. "I thought ye would want to take it." "Not today,Anna. Just let me sleep." "Captain.",Anna spoke. She liked Jack a lot and was concerned about him. "Aye." "You've been so...different,Jack.",she used his name because they were friends. Only her and Gibbs called him Jack,and never in front of the crew. The others had to call him *Captain Jack Sparrow*. "You don't want to take many merchant ships anymore. You don't care about gold,and other treasures anymore." 'Oh,I care about treasure.',Jack thought to himself. 'Just not the one you're thinking about. Gold. Fuck the gold. I just wanted a certain lad's heart.' Anna continued: "You don't even care about the Pearl anymore. Or rum. Jack,you're ill. It's the only reason I can think about. What is happening to you?" "Just leave me,Anna. I don't wanna talk about it. I'm fine,okay? If you do want to take the merchant ship,then let's take the ship." And with that Jack rose from his bed and prepared his crew to attack. But Annamaria knew he had no joy of doing this anymore. He was really down and did it just because he had to. He fought and won,as always,but now it seemed to have no value to Jack. Several weeks had passed,and Jack had no wish of being a pirate anymore. His crew was astonished and if was there a mutineer,it would have been easy to take the Pearl from Jack. Fortunately,all of them liked his captain a lot. And they were concerned about him. Jack had left almost everything in Gibbs' hands and passed almost all day at his cabin. He was drinking rum again. But not because he was happy about something and wanted to celebrate. He drank to forget his problems. He drank to try to forget Will,but it was impossible. Annamaria was a very smart woman. One day she was at the wheel,and Gibbs was doing something next to her. She spoke,voice low: "Gibbs." "What?" "Don't you think Jack is suffering because of Will?" Gibbs widened his eyes and said: "Why are you saying this?" "He keeps staring at that sword Will gave him all the time. Every time I reach him at his cabin,he's staring at it. Almost caressing it. And lately we've been talking a lot. He doesn't say a word about why he's down but he talks about Will all the time. He says ten words,and five of them are 'Will'." "Really?",Gibbs was astonished. "Gods,he must be missing the boy really deeply." "Aye.",the woman spoke,and her tone became serious. "Gibbs. I'm gonna make it to Port Royal. It's the only way we can have our captain back to us. We need to find Will. And we need to buy things for the ship, because soon there'll be many things missing. Jack doesn't want to attack many ships,you know." "What if you're wrong?" "Then it was worthy a try. But we've got to try,because we have nothing to lose. We've already lost Jack. We've got to bring him back to us." With that Anna advised the crew and headed to Port Royal. ---- Some hours later,Jack left his cabin. He realized the landscape had changed and asked Anna,who was at the wheel: "Where are we?",he said but was uninterested. "I'm heading to Port Royal." "What?!?",Jack had his eyes wide open. "I need to buy some things for the ship and it's the nearest city.",she lied. Jack was astonished,but Anna realized he had become really happy. He spoke: "Let me take the wheel." Anna grinned: "It's all yours." --- Jack headed to Port Royal and they arrived by nightfall. They were hidden not to call attention. Anyways,as the Pearl had white sails now,she wouldn't be recognized this easily. Anna was leaving to buy some things at the city. Jack was looking at her eagerly. He wanted to say 'Bring Will to me',but didn't. Couldn't. "Want something?",Anna asked. "Oh...no,I think you're better when it comes to shopping. I don't even know what is missing on the ship.",Jack spoke but thought. 'Oh,I know what is missing. Better,*who* is missing.' "You should've known,Jack." "Aye.",Jack finally spoke. "Um...Anna?" "Aye.",she replied. "If you find Will..." Jack didn't need to end his request. Annamaria said: "I'll bring him,Jack.",she put her hands on Jack's shoulders. "I'll find him." Jack stared at her. She knew. He was sure of that. He smiled at her and felt really relieved. |
