Fallen Angels

Chapter Forty-nine - Lessons in Love

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Yohji cursed the car in front of him, he needed to go faster. He had to go faster so the wind and the speed could blow away the memories and the pain and the anger. He didn't want them anymore, he didn't need them in his life anymore. He jerked the steering wheel to the side and heard the blare of a car horn as he started to go around the vehicle in front of him. Instinctively he dragged the wheel the opposite direction pulling the roadster back into his lane.

In that sort of sickening slow motion that you can never understand how it happened later he saw the terrified faces of the couple in the other car as they passed and the children in the back. Seeing a section of road where there was a wide expanse of grass between the hill and the road he pulled off the road and shut down the car. He was shaking realizing how close he had come to killing himself as well as an innocent family.

Then just faintly he heard his lover's voice calling him. /Enzu!/ he called back as he curled his long body tightly into the driver's seat staring out at the encroaching darkness.

Enzeru smiled as he heard his lover's voice in his mind. He thrust his wings and folded them behind him, picking up speed as he rode the wind currents. He finally spotted Yohji's car in the distance and with another powerful thrust, was there in the blink of an eye. He landed in the gravel, his bare feet making no sound as he approached the oddly parked car.

/Yohji, nushi, why did you leave?/ He stopped beside the car and watched his lover's face, not sure what he read there, if anything at all.

The blonde looked up as the voice penetrated his chaotic thoughts and saw his lover standing against the driver's side of the car. Shifting a little he wrapped his arms around the angel's waist resting his head against the firm stomach.

"I needed to get away. Seeing him there like nothing had changed, I was so angry and it hurt..." he trailed off unable to explain all the things that had driven him to flight.

Enzeru nodded, still not understanding, but trying to offer his lover the comfort he needed. He stroked Yohji's hair gently, running the silky locks through his fingers. He felt Yohji's pain, but still did not understand why the redhead's return would cause him pain. If any of Enzu's ex lovers' resurfaced, he would be happy that they were alive.

"I don't understand your pain," he admitted. "But I am here to offer any comfort I can give." He reached down and undid the seatbelt, then lifted Yohji into his arms, placing a kiss on his lips.

The ex-detective sighed as the long fingers ran through his hair and he could feel himself relaxing. "I wish I knew how to explain it. When he left it was like he didn't care how I would feel or the others would feel that he'd just gone. And now he walks back in like he'd never left and he's angry that I finally moved on? He expected me to just wait around even though I didn't even know if he'd be back."

Enzeru held Yohji tighter. "I think I understand. What can I do to make you feel better, nushi?" He leaned down and brushed his lips across his lover's forehead, pulling him even closer to his chest. He sighed and lifted Yohji so he sat on the door, then nuzzled his neck. "I am still new to all these emotions."

Yohji settled against the warm chest resting his head on Enzu's shoulder arching his neck to give him better access. "You are already," Yohji murmured against the angel's neck. "I didn't want to wake you up, you needed to rest. So I drove. The speed and the wind can sometimes help me forget for a while." He slid his legs over the side of the car and stood up, wrapping one arm around his lover's neck and leaving the other around his waist.

Enzeru smiled at his blonde lover. "Happy to help in any way that I can. As for the speed that I do understand. It feels good to stretch your wings and forget everything." A flash from the dream went through his mind and he frowned, then quickly replaced it with another smile as Yohji wrapped his arm around his neck. He jerked his head back a bit, indicating the ocean behind them. "What do you say to a swim? May help to wash away both our troubles."

A smile curved Yohji's lips at the idea. He lifted his head and placed his lips to Enzu's in a slow kiss of thanks then pulled back. "Thank you. And I would love a swim if you promise to warm me back up after." He smiled enticingly at the other man.

Enzeru chuckled. "Of course, don't I always?" He pulled Yohji hard to his chest and took his lips in a deep kiss. He felt like he had been asleep forever and hadn't touched his lover in so long. He knew this was not the case, but it brought up new feelings within him and as curious as he was about them, his need for his lover's lips quickly overwhelmed the curiosity. His body instantly warmed and he ran his hands down Yohji's back, stopping to splay at the back of his hips.

The blonde could feel the heat sweeping through him as his lover plundered his mouth. He groaned as the warm tongue teased him and his hand slipped into the long silver hair holding the angel's head in place as he kissed back. Finally the lack of oxygen forced them apart. "I can... never... stay up... upset," he gasped as his breathing slowed. "I can never stay upset when I'm with you," he repeated now that he could truly speak. "And it's not just the kisses. Just being with you makes everything better," he finished.

Smiling down at his lover, he ran his hands up his back, slipping them under the high shirt to grip his shoulders from behind. He lifted the shirt, coaxing his lover to lift his arms and slipped it off. He threw it casually onto the seat of the roadster and grinned, leaning forward to whisper against his lips. "If we are going swimming, then your clothes will only get in the way..."

He moved his lips to Yohji's neck, leaving a trail of kisses as he gripped and massaged the broad shoulders from behind. He pressed their bare chests together and ground his hips against his lover, groaning at the much-missed contact.

Yohji lifted his arms as his lover removed his shirt, grinning at the words, knowing what would happen as they swam and he was ready. His body already primed for it and the need was growing with each touch, each heated kiss to his skin. He moaned as their hips ground together and he clutched at the slim hips pulling their bodies closer.

"Clothes definitely not needed," he murmured arching his neck as the warm mouth traveled over it.

Enzeru growled his agreement and moved his hands down to the low waist band of Yohji's pants, swiftly undoing them and slipping his hand inside, took his lover's already dripping erection in his palm. He squeezed it firmly and moaned as he took Yohji's lips again. He pulled away after a few moments and led his lover to the beach, his hand still gripping the hardened member.

When his feet hit the damp sand, he stopped, and using his other hand, he slipped the pants down Yohji's thighs, taking his time to touch every inch of exposed flesh as he kissed the blonde again.

Yohji whimpered into Enzu's mouth as his erection was firmly fondled and he sobbed in protest as his lover pulled back. Then even as the warm hand continued to tease and stimulate him, he felt himself being drawn across the road and onto the sand of the beach on the other side.

His hands ran over his lover's shoulders and through the gleaming hair as his low riding jeans were removed. As his lover stood he reached out to return the favor. Slowly lowering to sit on his heels as Enzu stepped out of the tight leather. He looked up letting his eyes travel over the tanned skin as his hands slid slowly up the long legs.

Enzeru shivered at Yohji's touch, letting his head fall back and his eyes close as his lover's talented hands ran up his legs. He ran his hands through Yohji's blonde locks, letting the silk slide through his fingers softly. His hips jerked forward as Yohji's thumbs brushed the base f his erection and he pulled Yohji up into another kiss, this time soft, yet demanding, hi tongue sliding into his lover's willing mouth to gently caress the soft heat inside.

He felt the heat of a new emotion well up inside him as they kissed, pooling into his chest as he wrapped his arms tightly around his lover's waist. He pulled away from Yohji's lips, gasping for air.

"You make me feel so warm...here..." He said as he pulled away and set Yohji's hand against his chest.

Yohji smiled at his lover's reaction to his wandering hands, then gasped as the strong hands pulled him up. His mouth opened, even as his eyes closed. The kiss was so intense and deep, but the touch so soft. He let his own tongue slip forward to caress over and around the one so gently exploring his own mouth. He knew something was different, something in the way his lover was approaching their lovemaking this time.

He studied the angel's face as they pulled apart and he could see the bewildered, uncertain look in the black eyes with their unusual green pupils. His own eyes widened momentarily hearing the other man's words as his hand was laid over the rapidly beating heart. He drew his lover down into the sand lying on his back so that his lover lay on top of him. He slowly traced a heart over the firm chest.

"That feeling can mean a lot of things," he murmured looking his lover in the eye. "Sometimes it is the warm feeling that you feel for family or friends, people you care about and enjoy being with just for things like talking. Then sometimes the feeling is deeper, when you love them so much that you will do what ever you have to, to protect them, even die."

He stopped and drew the angel down so his head lay on his chest. "Then sometimes the feeling is so strong that you feel it just thinking about a person and you would die just to stay with them. The first one, that's friendship, the second and the third are called love and it is very hard sometimes to tell one from the other until it just hits you. And nothing is ever quite the same after that."

Enzeru listened carefully to everything that Yohji said, taking it all in slowly, letting the words churn through his bewildered mind. Was this love? Was this the one emotion he had given up his immortality for? This hot, burning, almost painful feeling was what bonded lovers, body and soul? He stared into the waves, his hands digging into the sand as his eyes began to burn.

More confused than ever, he sat up and turned glittering eyes on his lover. He gave a small smile, looking over his human lover's face and ran a sandy finger along his cheek. "This is what I gave my mortality up for..." He choked, and then looked up into Yohji's eyes in confusion as he wiped a tear from his own cheek. He looked at it in bewilderment and then turned back to Yohji, not knowing what else to say, so instead he used his lips to convey the new emotions and the confusion running through his mind in a kiss.

He gently coaxed his lover's lips open, taking his time to explore the depths of his mouth, trying to put the feelings coursing through him into the kiss. He closed his eyes and felt the wet trails course down his cheeks as he wrapped his fingers tightly in Yohji's hair, sobbing against his lips.

Yohji wrapped his arms around his lover's shoulders as he felt his own tears spilling as his dark angel's emotions swept over him. Whether this was love or it was Love only time would tell. But it was strong and it was deep whichever it was, and it was shared. Their kiss wasn't passion fed this time and he realized what had been missing from the other and what had been added instead. It had been their first kiss truly driven by their unrealized love, while this one was love acknowledged and shared.

He heard the sobs, felt them against his mouth and turned his head slowly keeping their mouths locked until the angel's head rested on his shoulder. He rubbed soft circles on his lover's back in comfort as he gently broke the kiss holding the silver head in place as he kissed his forehead, his eyes, smearing his own tears to mix with Enzu's.

"I love you Enzeru."

Enzeru opened his eyes and cupped Yohji's cheek, smiling. "I still do not fully understand what that means, but I want you to show me." He said, running his hand over his lover's face. He leaned up and took Yohji's lips in a kiss, lifting himself up to straddle his lover's waist and rolled them over so Yohji was on top of him and between his thighs. "Show me love, Yohji, my nushi, my love. Show me..." He took his lips in another kiss, pulling his lover's body tight against his as the surf crashed into their bodies, spraying water all around them.

Yohji smiled and nodded, gasping as the cold water washed over his heated skin. Then grinned as he thought about the benefits of the icy waves to what he wanted to show his lover.

"This is called worshipping the one you love," he murmured and lowered his head. His fingers were threaded through his lover's to keep them busy as went to work.

He pressed his lips to Enzu's neck kissing the spot softly before moving on to nip the next, then lave it with his tongue to ease the slight sting. He listened to the soft moans and growls from his lover learning which sensation elicited each which brought the most pleasure. Slowly like honey almost gone to sugar he moved down his lover's body, only stopping when he reached the first dusky nipple.

Enzeru held his breath at Yohji's words, not exactly sure what he meant, but holding his breath none the less in anticipation. When the first brush of his lover's lips caressed his neck, he arched and moaned, letting out the pent up breath with a growl. The light nips sending jolts of pleasure through his body and lighting his skin on fire. He cried out as the cold water hit him again, but the contrast only heightened the pleasure, making it more intense.

He growled in protest as Yohji stopped and opened his eyes just as his lover took his nipple between his talented lips and began to lick and nip lightly at it.

Yohji held the tight bud between his teeth gently as he teased it with tongue until his lover was trembling and the sounds falling from his lips were a mixture of moaning, growls. Then with a final kiss he brushed his lips across the salty skin to the center of his lover's chest and stopped for a moment to rub his cheek over the heartbeat lovingly.

Finally he moved on extending the same torment and pleasure to the second nipple. He released his lover's hands so that his fingertips could join in on the worship that he was doing with his lips. Stroking his lover's arms and sides, lightly scraping the skin with his nails. He made his way slowly down his lovers belly to his navel flicking his tongue in and out of it fast and gentle as his hands continued to tease and sensitize the skin of his lover's sides.

Enzeru could only gasp and groan in pleasure as Yohji's lips caressed and his teeth scraped across his skin. His lover had done these things to him many times before, but this time was different, the sensations more intense, the sensitivity of his skin to his lover's caress more electrifying.

As Yohji kissed down his stomach, his hands caressed his lover's cheek softly as his mind began to grow fuzzy with the sensations. His wings spread out under him, leaving light tracings in the wet sand, fluttering with the jolts of pleasure that coursed through him. His cock ached from need and he cried out as Yohji's smooth chest rubbed slightly against it as he went lower to Enzeru's navel. With each stroke of his lover's tongue, a shiver ran through his body, causing more moans and growls to erupt from his lips as he arched his stomach into the pleasure.

Brushing his lips softly back and forth over his lover's pelvis, Yohji enjoyed the feel of the muscles trembling and shuddering with reaction. With a wicked grin he bypassed his lover's cock with his mouth only letting the nails of one hand graze it lightly as he moved on to the inside of one thigh. He placed his arm underneath to hold it up out of the waves as he nipped at the sensitive skin. He spent many minutes teasing the flesh behind the knee before moving lower.

Enzeru whimpered in protest as Yohji completely ignored his cock. His fingers stretched and splayed against his hip bones as Yohji went out of his reach and he lost his hold on the silky golden locks. He dug his fingernails into the soft flesh of his stomach as Yohji nipped and bit at his inner thigh.

"Kami! Yohji, onegai, onegai!"

He couldn't help the pleading that rolled from his lips as his lover's lips tongue and teeth began to move lower. He wanted to touch him, to feel his body on top of his own, the feel the wonderful weight of his lover. He ran his hands up his chest, moaning as his fingertips grazed his hardened nipples. As he pinched and played with one, his other hand crept slowly, sensuously down his body, teasing himself as Yohji was, until it reached his cock. He ran a light finger over it, spasming at the combined pleasure of Yohji's lips and his own hands on his body.

Hearing his lovers pleading voice as he reached the first foot, he sucked gently on the toes as his hands caressed the ankle. Then he placed the foot down and crawled up his lover's body until they were face to face. He slowly rocked his hips against his dark angel's rubbing their rigid cocks together a moan of his own escaping his lips. He kissed the whimpering mouth and gazed into the passion glazed eyes.

"Do you want me to stop and move on to the next lesson in love for now?" he asked quietly, running firm soothing hands over his lover's chest.

Enzeru moaned and wrapped his hands in his lover's hair; grinding his hips back and growling at the wonderful friction it created. He arched his back, trying to get every inch of their flesh to touch. Yohji's words finally made it to his clouded brain, but all he could think of was having his lover inside him, to become one with him. He tugged Yohji's head down and took his lips in a deep and passionate kiss, whimpering in need against them.

Breaking the kiss Yohji smiled down at his lover as his own body shuddered with need. "Alright Lover, no more teasing. We'll try again another day."

He sucked on his own fingers as he slid back down his lover's body. Kneeling between his legs he slipped one finger inside and began to stretch the angel quickly but gently. Soon he was easily working three fingers inside the beautiful ass and he used his own precum to slick his cock.

Pulling his fingers free he wrapped Enzu's legs around his waist and positioned himself. He pressed inward listening to the sounds from his lover the soft cries and heavy growls of pleasure. A moan escaped his own lips as his lover's internal muscles tightened around him.

Enzeru arched his hips off the ground as Yohji pressed the fingers within his body. He cried out in pleasure, writhing beneath his lover as each finger was added. He pleaded to be taken, to have his lover inside him, then whimpered as the fingers were removed and his legs were wrapped around the blonde's waist. He arched his body into Yohji's, trying to take him in all at once, but was held back by his lover's hands on his hips. He growled and squeezed his internal muscles, delighting in the moan that the action elicited from Yohji's beautiful lips.

Yohji's cock continued to push into him slowly, drawing out the pleasure of entry, making the angel whimper and bite on his hand to keep from screaming. He had never had this done to him, though he had done it to others. The differences in the pleasure of being the receiver were incredible. If this is what making love was, then he wanted it every time, he wanted to do the same for Yohji, to make him feel so incredible that it felt like his whole body was on fire and light as a feather, nothing but a being made of pure pleasure. As Yohji buried himself to the hilt within him and began to move, Enzu realized that this was only the beginning of the sensations he would experience.

Yohji reveled in every small whimper from his lover's lips, watching the beautiful face as it contorted with pleasure. Once he was completely seated inside his angel he paused, barely undulating his hips. Then he leaned over his lover resting his hands on sand on either side of pleasure infused face. The blonde leaned down and took his lover's lips in a long easy kiss as he began to pump his hips slowly, drawing all the way out to the tip and pressing back in to the hilt.

He felt his lover begin to press back with his own hips and slowed even further not allowing the harder loving yet. But it was getting hard to hold back himself. His breathing was labored and the fire in his body was almost out of control. Breaking the kiss he groaned as his lover tightened around him again. A heavier wave splashed over their legs and Yohji gasped remembering the ocean rolling in around them for the first.

He leaned down and kissed the other man one last time then knelt up. Taking his lover's erection in one hand and gripping his hip tightly with the other Yohji began to move hard and fast. His own groans mingling with those of his lover as they pounded together, flesh on flesh.

Enzeru cried out as his erection was gripped and pumped to the rhythm of his lover's thrusts. He reached up and caressed his blonde lover's arms, that being all that he could reach in their current position. He cried out in tenshi, the sweet music of the language being lifted by the wind and carried off to swirl around them. He threw his head back in the sand and opened his mind to Yohji, linking them, letting him experience everything he was, the pleasure, the swirling emotions, the almost painful ache in his chest that swelled and almost overcame him as the pleasure increased.

The pleasure built and pooled in his abdomen, a great swirling and coiling fire within his body that slowly snaked out to every fiber of his being, licking at his skin as Yohji had earlier. The tight coil within him suddenly snapped and he arched his body off the sand, screaming Yohji's name in his pleasure as his hot seed spilled over his lover's hand to coat his tanned stomach.

Yohji hear his lover cry out and then that strange but beautiful language that his lover spoke when he was healing someone filled the air around them and the blonde shivered hearing it. Then suddenly his eyes widened as feelings, thoughts and emotions began to swirl inside of him joining to his own. He sobbed as he realized he was feeling his dark angel's love the strength and power of it overwhelming and humbling. And the confusion of not understanding that it was love that he was feeling.

He cried out as the pleasure crashed through him. He felt his lover come the hot fluid pouring over his hand splashing against his chest. And he was coming as well, his seed spilling inside the spasming channel. Yohji threw back his head and sobbed overcome by the intensity of all the feelings. He collapsed onto the smooth chest, his tears bathing it as he panted over and over.

"I love you. I love you."

Enzeru cried out again as his lover's seed splashed within his body. He fell heavily into the wet sand, his body still shuddering from the pleasure of their combined orgasms and linked minds. As Yohji collapsed atop of him, he let out his breath in a heavy sigh, the feelings he felt flooding through his mind and body were mirrored by Yohji, the same feelings, the same thoughts, the same pleasures. He ran his hands soothingly over his lover's back, not speaking, letting his coursing emotions do it for him. He wasn't sure that he could say the words until he fully understood them, but he would show Yohji in everything he did how he felt for him.

A feeling of warmth and protectiveness swept over him as he felt Yohji's tears bathe his chest, he lifted his lover's chin so he was looking at him and smiled, bringing their lips together in a deep heartfelt kiss. /Your love is the most wonderful gift anyone could give me, Yohji. Thank you./

Yohji opened to the kiss still feeling the love that flowed from his lover and the happiness that caused in him seemed to over shadow everything. It seemed to wrap around him like warm blanket. And he knew it would be there for him when he needed it. He let his happiness and the feeling of peace and security that his lover's emotions filled him with echo back trying to make the other man understand the gift that he was giving Yohji in return and how special it was to him.

/You've given me the same gift, Koi. I won't ever take it for granted./ he replied silently laying his head on his lover's shoulder as the tears slowed and sobs stopped. He sighed as the connection that made them one in body finally slipped from the warm sheath and he curled on the warm chest, sated and in love.

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End Chapter Forty-nine