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Greg wonders why he waits for Nick to call every night, sitting next to a phone
that never rings. He also wonders why he stares at the picture he took of Nick at the
last team barbeque, especially since it hurts so bad to know that Nick doesn't seem
to know he exists outside of work. Sure, he flirts with Greg sometimes, but that's so
he can get his results from the lab quicker. And, yes, Greg does try to put Nick at the
top of the list as much as he can.
Sometimes, Greg will go for a walk at the park pretending Nick is walking
with him. Afterward, he goes to some little out-of-the-way restaurant, picks out a nice table for two, and pours out his heart to an empty chair. Of course, this is all done in his mind because he doesn't want anybody to think he's crazy. Sometimes
he even goes to the video store and when picking out movies, will pick one Nick
might like so he can pretend Nick is there on the sofa watching with him.
But the saddest part, for Greg, is when it's time to go to bed. He longs to
have Nick take him in his arms and love him to sleep so much until his heart litteraly aches. He can't even begin to count the tears he's cried wishing Nick was holding
him. Greg often wonders why he goes on fooling himself because tomorrow will
just be one more day of being lonely.
He's tried more than once to get up the nerve to tell Nick what's really on
his mind, but self-preservation and a strong fear of rejection have stopped him dead in his tracks. So he goes on day after day doing the things it is he does because that's just how it is when lonely people do foolish things.
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