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Prisoner of Pain
by kira-nerys
They were consuming me, the feelings I had for him.
I had to tell him to go.
I couldn't take it.
I couldn't fight the way those dark eyes saw the depths of my soul.
His mind called me every time we made love.
Tantalizing, alluring and intoxicating.
It frightened me like nothing else ever did.
I told him I no longer loved him.
It was like tearing my own heart from my chest.
I am such a coward.
Starfleet's finest they say.
What a mockery.
If only they knew what a coward I was.
I had it all, within reach, and I threw it away.
He left.
I could see the pain in his eyes.
And the love.
And I turned away.
Will I ever see him again?
By god, what have I done?
I wanted to remain free,
But now I'm a prisoner of pain.
~kira-nerys '99