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They'll Never Know

Summary:

Summary: Emma thinks about what every one will never know about her.

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(See the end of the work for notes.)

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They'll Never Know
by Pirate Turner

 

 

I rise, just like I do every morning,
Walk over and look at myself in the mirror,
Look at the face that I've learned to loathe.
Women would kill to look like me.
Men would kill to have a woman like me.
But what they don't see, what they don't know,
Is what lays beneath these empty eyes of blue.

I feel so old today, just like I do every day,
Only slightly older just as it is with every new day.
There are no lines showing on this body,
But I know I am old, old with nothing to show for it.
They wouldn't believe that, either,
For all they can see is the outside, what I let them see,
And they would never dream what truly lies behind
These empty eyes of blue and icy fortress.

I'm so old yet I have nothing to show for it.
They'd laugh at me for thinking that
For I've done so much.
I've built an enterprise known around the world.
I've accumulated more money than most people
Will ever see in their entire life.
I've taught the younger generation.
I've traveled in the best and worst of the socialite circles.
I've seen the world, the good and the bad,
The beautiful and the ugly, the amazing and the frightening.

But what I haven't done, what I haven't seen or even felt,
Those are the things that are truly important,
Those are the things that the spirit and the heart really need,
Those are the only things that really matter.
I've never felt true love.
I ruined the only chance I ever had at it,
And even then, it was with a man who never loved me.
I've never really accomplished anything good in my life.
I've never done anything but fail those who were
Foolish enough to trust me -- My students,
My Generation X, my Hellions.

I've never done the things whose memories
Women cling to in old age.
I've never felt true love.
I've never heard the words "I love you".
I've never felt a man's lips on mine because
He loved me and I he.
I've never lived for the sake of living or for love,
Always only to survive one day after the next.

And so it has been and so it shall be
Forever until the day I die.
Even then, they'll never know.
They'll never know that I'm a failure
At my own life, in my own world.
They'll never know -- or care --
That true love passed me by.
They'll never know that
Beneath all this ice
There was always a woman
Who just wanted to be loved, wanted,
Cared for and about.
They'll never know,
Because I'll never let them.

The End

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