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Pancakes 2: Left Wondering
by Ragna
So, he's human after all.
There isn't much of a trace of Spike in him, just that the hair is darker and his eyes are shaped more like Spike's. But the rest...he looks like me. My little baby boy.
Still, I wonder how human he'll be. I mean, his father is a vampire...no, his *father* is Xander. His sperm donor is a vampire. Spike's left town. Never even knew I was pregnant, I don't think. It's better off, I guess, but know I realize I don't know anything about Spike at all. Nothing to tell my son when he gets older and starts asking questions.
I don't know Spike's real name, other than his first name is William. I know he's from England, but I don't know where. London I think. Or maybe I'm just guessing at that. And I know...I know I don't want him involved in my child's life.
And then I wonder if he'll be violent, or if he'll be passive. Is he going to be a smiley, bubbly kid or will he sulk all the time? Will he be weird because Spike's a vampire? Or because I'm a Slayer? Oh, God, I hadn't even thought of that! I don't think any other Slayer's ever had a kid before.
Troy Jesse Summers is *my* son, damn it, and he'll be Xander's son, too, when we get married next month.
In no way will I allow Spike to influence Troy's life. Ever. I just can't let my son's life get ruined, I just can't. He deserves better.
Maybe we'll get lucky and Spike will die. Maybe.
Or maybe I'll just be left wondering...