Actions

Work Header

Rating:
Archive Warning:
Category:
Fandom:
Character:
Additional Tags:
Language:
English
Collections:
Peja's Wonderful World of Makebelieve Import
Stats:
Published:
2020-11-04
Words:
247
Chapters:
1/1
Kudos:
7
Hits:
1,139

Wanting Death

Summary:

Anakin wants Death

Work Text:

I can’t feel him. It hurts. I know why he’s cut me off but it hurts. I’ve relied on that bond for so long that now that it’s gone… it hurts. Badly. Why does it have to hurt so badly? I didn’t forsake him. I couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t do it. No matter what bad things I’ve done, no matter what’s happened I can’t forsake him. He’s my Master. A part of me. And now… now that part of me is lost. And it’s my fault. My doing that I’ve lost him. Just like I’ve lost everything else. Lost her, lost him… lost the people I care most about. Seems to happen throughout my life. Perhaps they should’ve left me on Tatooine. If they had then none of this would’ve happened. I never would’ve caused so much pain.

I miss it. Miss them. But most of all I miss who I used to be. Who I was. Now all I want is death. That way there can be no more pain. And there would be no Darth Vader, there would be no Anakin Skywalker. There would just be…. Nothing. Dead air. If there’s no me then there’s no dragon, if there’s no dragon there’s no insipid voice in my head and if there’s not that… then there’s no me running off to some Chancellor who makes broken promises.

There’d be no pain… no hurt. She’d be safe. He’d be safe. The world would be safe.