Never a Doubt
By Natalie L
nat1228@comcast.net

Disclaimer: Pet Fly and Paramount own the copyright to The Sentinel
and its characters. This piece of fan fiction was written solely for
the love of the characters and to share freely with other fans. No
profit is being made from the posting of this story.

Acknowledgments: Many thanks to Lyn and Mary. Couldn't do it without
ya! And to the talented artists at MME who do all the gorgeous covers
for me!

Summary:  Blair assures Jim that he never doubted they would find each
other. Song fic -- //Never a Doubt//, Written and Performed by John
Denver.

Warning: For low-carb dieters and diabetics -- high sugar content
ahead! ::g::

Rated: NC-17  Length: 8 KB

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NEVER A DOUBT
By Natalie L


//There was never a doubt,//
//Never a doubt in my mind//
//We weren't meant to be lonely//
//Never a doubt//
//I knew that I'd find you some day//
//There was never a doubt,//
//After all of those nights all alone//
//All those desperate mornings//
//Never a doubt,//
//There was never a doubt in my mind//

"Didn't you ever wonder?"

Blair looked up from his position cuddled against Jim's chest. "Wonder
what?"

"If you'd find a real Sentinel for your project?" Jim carded his
fingers through Blair's tangled curls and looked questioningly into
the deep blue eyes.

Blair shook his head. "Nope. I knew it was just a matter of time. I
knew that I'd find you some day."

"You never doubted that?"

"No, not really." Blair shifted in Jim's embrace so that he was more
comfortable looking at his partner. "Oh, there were days when I
wondered how much longer it would take. After all, I had hundreds of
documented cases of one or two heightened senses, but no one with all
five. My advisors were telling me I might be better off switching
topics. I swear, I stayed up all night some nights, alone in my
office, poring over my research notes, hoping to find that elusive one
person..."

"What was it like, when you first heard about me?"

"Well, I'd been, uh, tutoring this nurse over at the med center..."

"'Tutoring,' huh?" Jim interjected with a knowing smile.

"That *was* before you, Jim," Blair clarified. "Remember, I never
claimed to be a virgin."

Laughter exploded from Jim's chest in a loud guffaw. "*Virgin*? You
were a table-leg humping dog in those days!"

"Was not!" Blair shot back, still somewhat hurt by the comment he had
heard from Jim before. "But I wasn't celibate, either. Anyway," he
continued, "Anna told me about your case and I got really excited. I
mean, it was like she was handing me my Holy Grail, the brass ring of
my career." He paused, studying the pale blue eyes of his lover. "But
when I met you, that very first day, I knew I'd found more than that.
I knew that it was only a matter of time before I'd stop waking up
lonely every morning."

//I suppose there have been times when//
//You felt like a room filled with darkness//
//Not a window around//
//There must have been moments you felt//
//You were truly alone//
//Then again each of us knows,//
//In a night of unbearable sadness//
//Still a light can be found//
//In each morning the promise that someday//
//Your true love will come//

Jim's thumb stroked lovingly down Blair's cheek before he leaned in to
capture a precious, gentle kiss. "You were my light in the darkness,
even though I didn't recognize that at first.

"When we met, I thought you were just some weird, geeky college kid. I
was foundering; lost in a sea of sensations, in over my head, and you
really didn't look like the kind of person who could lead me out of
the darkness."

"I know, love," Blair said softly, returning the gentle touch to Jim's
face. "You felt so alone. I could tell that right away. Your defense
was to put up walls, to try to block me out. Your fear and distrust
put a barrier between us."

"I never was very good with personal interaction," Jim admitted. "My
dad taught me when I was quite young to not trust others, especially
with the secret of my senses."

"So when they went haywire again as an adult, you didn't know where to
turn," Blair concluded. "It was like you were locked in a windowless
room with no light, and no way out."

"Until you found me," Jim quietly replied.

//I suppose there are some people//
//Who never believe in the magic//
//Oh the magic of love//
//They think nothing is precious//
//And life is just pleasure and pain//
//Then again each of us knows,//
//When a heart has been broken it's tragic//
//Oh the magic of love//
//Even that which is broken//
//With love can be mended again//

"You'd been hurt," said Blair. "I didn't know about that until later.
But as my feelings for you grew, I realized that you'd been scarred
and that you didn't believe in the magic of love anymore."

"Breaking up with Carolyn was hard," Jim admitted. "It wasn't that we
had stopped loving each other.... It's just that we had grown apart."

"She thought you were cold," Blair whispered, continuing to stroke
Jim's cheek absentmindedly. "She thought you didn't have it in you to
truly love another person. She was wrong; so wrong."

//All the things that you fear,//
//At the most they mean nothing//
//All the sorrow and sadness//
//Can just disappear//

"Your actions were fear-based --" Blair pressed three fingers against
Jim's lips to silence the inevitable protest. "There's nothing wrong
with that," he continued. "It's just the way you're wired. But they
were groundless fears, at least where they concerned me. I loved you,
Jim. I *love* you. All I've ever wanted is for you to be happy, and to
love me in return."

"You *do* make me happy," Jim replied, rolling Blair onto his back and
blanketing the younger man with his body. "You make me *very* happy."
He pressed a trail of kisses down Blair's neck, latching on to the
firm bud of a nipple when he got low enough.

Blair groaned and arched beneath his lover, happy to give himself over
to the sensations rocketing through his body, engorging his cock, and
bringing him to the very edge of orgasm.

Jim slipped his way down the pliant body, licking a moist path across
the bare skin. As the rigid cock bumped his chin, Jim raised up on his
arms to hover over Blair's groin. A strangled cry escaped his lover's
throat as Jim engulfed the head of the leaking organ with his lips.
His tongue swirled around the ridges and grooves, lapping up the
pre-come that drizzled from the small hole in a steady stream.

Blair's gurgled cries and elevated heart rate alerted Jim to the
nearness of his lover's climax. Releasing the straining cock, he moved
down past the tempting balls to swirl his tongue around the tight
opening to Blair's body.

"Oh, God, Jim... yes!" Blair's fists were bunched in the sheets as he
fought to keep from coming before Jim was ready.

Jim's tongue probed the opening, entering and carefully stretching the
muscle. As he continued his gentle rimming, he noted that his lover
had been reduced to garbled sobs of need, his body trembling on the
edge of release. Since they had made love earlier in the evening,
Blair's body didn't need excessive preparation, so Jim reached for the
lube and coated himself.

Stretching out next to Blair, Jim gently stroked a tense arm. "Roll
over, sweetheart." The younger man immediately obeyed, presenting the
rounded globes of his ass to his partner. The sight nearly stole Jim's
breath away. A single, swift thrust buried him in the heat of his
lover's body. They moved together, setting up a rhythm that quickly
brought Jim to the edge. Stroking Blair's straining shaft as his
thrusts took on a frenzied pounding, Jim's climax washed through him,
mirrored by Blair's cry of completion.

Rolling over to face Jim, Blair smiled sweetly and reached out to
trail his fingers down a sweat-dampened cheek. "I never doubted for a
moment that I'd find you," he whispered as he leaned forward to steal
a kiss. "There was never a doubt in my mind."

//There was never a doubt,//
//Never a doubt in my mind//
//We weren't meant to be lonely//
//Never a doubt//
//I knew that I'd find you some day//
//There was never a doubt,//
//After all of those nights all alone//
//All those desperate mornings//
//Never a doubt,//
//There was never a doubt in my mind//
//There was never a doubt in my mind//
//Never a doubt in my mind//

THE END