TITLE: Trust, Hope and The Truth
AUTHOR: Samiam (Sampiper@aol.com)
RATING: G
ARCHIVE: Just tell me where to send the child support payments
FEEDBACK:  Cherished and adored.
SPOILERS: can we even call them that any more?
KEYWORDS: Post ep - The Truth, Mulder POV
DISCLAIMERS: Um yeah, you know what this is and you know the 
drill.
THANKS: Dallas, as always 

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Us.

Amazing isn't it?  How two little letters can join together to create a
word that can have such a profound impact on life. 

Us versus them.    You hear it all the time, us versus them.  Even
then, the odds are against "us"; two to one.  But then, the odds 
have always been against us, Scully and I.  The two of us against 
the world.  That is the way it's always been and that's the way I 
thought it would always be.

I was wrong.

The truth is out there.

I found it, and what I found is that there is no one truth.  Truth is 
subjective and based on many different things.  One of the truths I 
discovered is that it never really has been just the two of us.  We've 
had plenty of help along the way.  I don't think we could have found 
a better support team in Skinner and the Gunmen, even if Skinner 
was hard to read in the beginning, he always proved himself when 
it really mattered.  I'm glad Scully had Doggett and Reyes to fall 
back on and grateful that they were able to be there for her when I 
wasn't.  Even Kersh, I don't think we can call him a friend but at 
least now, we might be able to call him an ally.  Deep Throat, X, 
Albert Hosteen, Danny, Gibson, in the end, even Krycek and 
Marita; we never would have made it without them.

I want to believe.

I wanted to anyway, in so many things.  

I wanted to believe my sister was still alive.  I wanted to believe 
that, one day, I would find her and that when I did my parents would 
be proud of me.  I wanted to believe that I would be able to find the 
truth and expose those that would hide it from the world until they 
could find a way to profit from it and make it their seat of power.

I believed I could stare down the guns of hell and change the world. 
I wanted to believe that I could make a difference and for the 
longest time I believed I was the only one that could.  Then I met 
Scully and I began to believe in her.  I wanted to believe that she 
just might be what I needed to find the truth and that together we 
could fight the future that I was suddenly so sure was on the 
horizon. 

Trust no one.

I didn't, not in the beginning, not even Scully.  I thought it best not 
to.  I didn't think there was anyone I could trust but then I learned 
another important truth; this fight can't be done alone.

Maybe there's hope.

I want to believe there is.

The truth is, when you trust no one, there is a tremendous amount 
of hope that you can trust someone.

I do, now.  I trust Scully and I know that she is my hope.  I trust 
Skinner, Doggett and Reyes and I hope that they can handle their 
end of the coming fight.

It may be us against them, but I want to believe Us just got a little 
bigger.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE:

"The truth is, when you trust no one, there is a tremendous amount 
of hope that you can trust someone." - Chris Carter, 2000.

I found that quote not to long ago.  I can't even find the context in 
which he said it, I saw someone had used it in their sig line and it 
stuck with me.  Especially in light of how he ended the series two 
years later.  The man had a plan folks, curse him if you will but he 
did follow through and I for one am glad for the ride.

If anyone knows where I can find that quote in it's proper context, 
I would love to read it.