A Few Good Men, by Scifinerdgrl (2/3) CHAPTER 7 He came to on a cot. His head hurt but he was able to take in sights and sounds again. He saw people lying on cots and others rushing back and forth tending to them. A woman with jet-black hair and green eyes, wearing an olive green jumpsuit, was holding his hand. She squeezed his hand when she saw his eyes open. "Hi, soldier. Feeling better?" He didn't answer for a few seconds, then said "Yes, I am." He tried to get up but the woman said "Not so fast. You need to save your strength." "For what?" he asked. "You're going back to your unit. We've done all we can for you here. And we need your bed for the next wave." She had a wistful look in her eyes. "What unit?" he asked. She laughed a gentle and sympathetic laugh. "You have a concussion. I'm not surprised you're confused. You managed to give us all the details a few minutes ago, but I guess you don't remember that, either?" He shook his head. She said, "I gave you some morphine, too. Maybe that has something to do with it." He groaned. "So I'm going to feel worse again in an hour?" She whispered "I'll give you another shot right before you go." The corners of his lips turned up and he closed his eyes. Yes, he thought. Morphine... He awoke on a stretcher, being carried toward a chopper. The woman with the green eyes came running up behind them and stopped the medics. She leaned over Skinner and said "Look me up after the war." She put a piece of paper in his hand and folded his fingers over it. He said "Wha---?" and she jabbed him in the arm with a needle. The medics began running again and put Skinner in the chopper. He could see his green-eyed nurse looking into the chopper and as the chopper lifted she wiped away a tear. They took a short trip, and Skinner looked at the piece of paper "Nurse Betty Stowe Fort Wayne, Indiana." The chopper pilot put him into a basket and soon he was being lowered to the ground. On the ground he was met by a single marine, who untied his harness and helped him to his feet. "Welcome back, Walt" he said. Skinner squinted to look in the man's face. "Hank?" he asked in surprise. "What are you doing h-- -" Skinner said. He stopped mid-sentence when he realized where he was -- Arlington Cemetery. Then he said, "Am I dead?" Hank laughed. "Old soldiers never die..." and Skinner finished, "They just fade away? That's just a metaphor. I SAW you die -- in Nam!" "You saw something, I'll grant you that." Hank started walking and Skinner struggled to keep up. Hank continued "Haven't you ever wondered why some soldiers become heroes? or why some become the great leaders of history?" Skinner said impatiently "What are you talking about?" Hank seemed not to hear the interruption. "Why one man rises to the top? or commits that one remarkable act of heroism? Why THAT man? What makes him different? All soldiers have what it takes -- patriotism, training, courage..." Skinner thought for a moment then offered an answer. "I guess it's partly being in the right place at the right time, or being the right person for the particular challenge." Hank interrupted, "Yes, but why was THIS man the one? How did he get to the right place, or become the right person?" Skinner stopped walking, and Hank had to turn around to face him. Skinner said, "Is this a riddle? Because I'm not in the mood for games." Hank chuckled and shook his head slightly. "It is a mystery, isn't it? Look around you, and you'll find the answer." Skinner turned 360 degrees, and all around him all he saw were rows and rows of white grave markers, dimly glowing in the starlight, their edges blurred by a light mist. He turned to look at Hank, exasperation and confusion on Skinner's face, compassion and serenity on Hank's. Hank said, "There ARE no great men, no heroes who single-handedly change the world. Behind every great soldier there are the thousands of great soldiers who came before him. No man is an island, and no soldier fights alone." Annoyance crept into Skinner's voice as he said "Why are you telling me this?" Hank put his hand on Skinner's shoulder and fixed his eyes on Skinner's. "Remember those times in Nam when you should have died, yet you survived?" Skinner looked at him skeptically and said "But..." Hank interrupted. "And remember those times when you found courage you never knew you had, strength you never had before, reserves inside of you that you never knew were there?" Walter nodded, remembering the last time he saw Hank. Hank continued, "Your country needs you, Walter. Now more than ever. You have a difficult fight ahead of you, but you will never be alone. Accept help when it is offered. Your fellow marines will never let you down." "But I'm not a marine anymore," Skinner objected. "Walt, you may have left the marines, but the marines have never left you." With that he turned and walked quickly into the mist. Skinner tried to follow him, but he seemed to have vanished. Out of the corner of his eye, Skinner saw a thin beam of light sweeping across the graveyard. The light approached, then shone on Skinner's face. Instinctively, he put up his hand to shield his eyes. "A.D. Skinner?" John Doggett said. "What the hell are you doing here?" Skinner put his hand down and nearly smiled. "Doggett! Am I glad to see you!" Doggett took a step backwards, as if afraid that Skinner might hug him. "I'm glad to see you too, sir. Were you looking for me?" "No, I assumed you were looking for me," Skinner replied. They looked at each other for a second, as the light from Doggett's flashlight fell on the nearest grave marker. It read "PFC Hank Shelby. November 2, 1950 - August 27, 1969." CHAPTER 8 Scully buckled her seatbelt and absent-mindedly ran her hand up and down the portion above her shoulder. Her mother started the car and pulled out into traffic. They drove in silence for a few minutes, then Scully's spine suddenly straightened. "Mom! Where are we?! This isn't the way to your house!!" she cried out. "It's okay, Dana. I know what I"m doing," Mrs. Scully said soothingly. Dana's response was to stare at her, wide-eyed. Mrs. Scully looked at her casually. "You worry so much Dana." Dana Scully, new mother and loving daughter, disappeared, and Dana Scully, FBI agent, took her place. In one smooth movement she pulled her gun and put it to the driver's temple. She cocked the gun and said coldly, "Stop the car..." She paused but the car did not slow down. "NOW" she commanded. The driver pulled in to a vacant parking lot and said "Dana, put the gun away." Dana's hand started shaking slightly. "Who are you?" she said in the same stern tone. "And where are you taking us?" The driver smiled a phony smile and said in a saccharine voice "I'm your mother, silly." Scully's mouth hung slightly open as she thought what her next move should be. Suddenly the baby started crying, and Dana looked at him. The driver took this opportunity to grab the gun. With her other hand she popped the latch on Scully's seatbelt. The passenger door opened and a hand reached in. The hand grabbed Scully's arm. She felt herself being jerked from the car and thrown onto the ground. She landed hard on her backside, and before she could get up, the man who had opened the door jumped in the car. Scully thought she could hear the baby crying as the car sped away... Mulder followed the flashlights of the soldiers posted along the road. There were no other cars, and Mulder was beginning to wonder where he was going. Even though he knew Arlington well, he had become disoriented. Finally, he rounded a corner and saw the glow of the Pentagon in the distance. Soldiers continued waving him forward. He pulled out his cellphone and dialed home. The machine picked up, and Mulder immediately became concerned. He left a message, saying "Scully, I'm in Arlington. I'm going to the Pentagon, and..." suddenly his cellphone cut out. He shook his head. Of course -- jammed this close to the Pentagon. An officer waved him to an entrance. He parked the car and got out. He looked around and saw no one else, and no flashlights. He couldn't help feeling flattered and a bit giddy. He was sure he would get some answers to what had happened in Crystal City, and maybe the answers to some of his old questions, too. The officer led him into the central courtyard and told him to sit at a table. CSM appeared and sat across from him. Mulder said sarcastically "How nice to see an old friend here." CSM took a drag on his Morely but said nothing. "I thought you were dead" Mulder said. CSM replied, "Who says I'm not?" CHAPTER 9 PFC Walter Skinner couldn't sleep. Every time he closed his eyes he saw a series of images from his friend Hank's last day on Earth. Opening his eyes wasn't much better. Everything he saw reminded him of Hank. Pulling his blanket over his legs, he thought of the body bag now warming the legless corpse of a great friend and soldier. Even good memories were no comfort. The rifle next to his cot reminded him of their infamous shooting contests. He should have let Hank win one. Every time Hank challenged Skinner's renowned eagle eye, the company set up a contest, even though everybody knew Skinner was the best shot. Afterwards, Hank vowed to get Skinner "next time," and everyone whooped as if there was a chance he actually could. Now there would be no next time. Skinner got out of bed, grabbed his rifle, and left his tent. He walked around camp for a few minutes, until his eyes had become so accustomed to the dark that it seemed like daylight to him. He had taken this walk many times after the death of a comrade, but this time he needed it more than ever. He stood "at ease," a pose that was by now actually comfortable, and looked up at the stars. Whenever times got difficult in Nam, he looked up at the stars and named as many as he could. "Orion's belt" was just over the Southwest horizon, shining more brightly than usual in the moonless night. His father had taught him many of those names, and it was a comfort to him to know that at least one thing in his life was the same. This night, he couldn't help remembering all the other lives he'd privately grieved under the stars, and the accumulated grief of all his losses started to weigh on him. After a few minutes he realized his cheeks were wet from a salty stream that had sneaked there without his permission. "Geez, Walter" he thought to himself. "You're a marine, for Pete's sake. Get a grip." He took a deep breath, wiped away the tears, and grasped his rifle a bit tighter. With a long sigh, he started back to his tent. From the corner of his eye he saw a tall lanky figure approaching. "Hank?" he whispered. The figure didn't answer, but put a finger to its lips and beckoned him to follow. Wanting desperately to believe it was Hank, Walter followed. The figure turned a corner and disappeared behind a tent. Walter walked silently toward the tent, and as he turned the corner he saw a much smaller figure. It was a child, about twelve years old, pulling the pin on a hand grenade. As the child's arm reached back for the wind-up, Skinner raised his gun to his shoulder and fired. Through the sight, he saw the blood and brains of the child splatter, glistening in the starlight. A second later, the grenade exploded, still in the child's hand. Skinner stood mute and motionless as men rushed around him. His c.o. walked up to him and asked, "Did you see what happened, private?" although he knew from Skinner's expression that he had. "Yessir," Skinner answered mechanically. The c.o. waited for a moment then said, "Well...?" "I shot a child," he answered. "Was it a boy or a girl?" the c.o. asked. "Does it matter?" Skinner replied. He turned and walked back to his tent, laid down and slept dreamlessly for twelve hours. "A.D. Skinner, sir..." John Doggett's voice penetrated his consciousness and he opened his eyes. He was in a hospital emergency room. From the other side of the privacy curtain, John Doggett said, "A.D. Skinner?" "Yeah," Skinner said gruffly. "Agent Doggett here, sir. Do you mind if I come in?" Skinner appreciated Doggett's courtesy. On the way to the hospital Doggett had respected Skinner's reluctance to talk about what had happened. He still wasn't ready to talk about it, but he knew Doggett would not pressure him. Doggett glanced at Skinner, and his cop's eye needed only a second to take in all the bruises, contusions, and freshly stitched cuts on Skinner's body. He quickly looked away, and found a chair. He sat down and said, "Sir, I tried calling Agent Scully like you asked, but she ain't home. I tried Mulder, too, but he ain't home either." Skinner said "Did you try their cellphones?" Doggett nodded. Skinner grew agitated. "Scully was home when I called her to warn her about what I believe to be a threat to her and her baby." Doggett's eyes widened at the mention of the baby he'd dedicated months of his life to protect. Skinner grabbed his shirt and said "I think I'm done here. Let's go." He dressed as quickly as he could, considering his condition, and the two men left the E.R. They pounded on Scully's door, and when there was no answer Skinner nodded to the super to unlock it. Inside they found her not to Mulder, but nothing seemed out of place. They called Maggie Scully's house, but a mechanical voice said the line was out of order. They immediately left for Maggie Scully's house, and called Agent Reyes en route. When they arrived they found the house dark, but the door unlocked. They went in, and with their flashlights were able to see signs of trouble -- overturned furniture, broken glass, papers all over the floor... At the back of the house they found a bound, gagged, and unconscious Maggie Scully in a heap on the floor. CHAPTER 10 Scully groaned and rolled onto her side. She could feel the blood oozing from the stitches that had opened when she fell. She put her hands on the ground and started to push herself up. She got herself halfway there when she started feeling dizzy and her arms started to collapse. As she started falling she suddenly felt hands under her armpits lifting her up. She got to her feet and looked to see who had helped her. "Missy?! Daddy?!" Scully couldn't believe what she was seeing. She was horrified yet also strangely comforted. Her father said, "It's okay, Starbuck. We're here to help you." "But how?" Scully asked. Her father answered, "I've been watching out for you for years, and now Missy has too. Couldn't you feel our presence?" "Well, maybe... there were a few times... but that was just wishful thinking," Scully said. "So you got your wish" her father said cheerfully. "Who do you think guided Mulder the night William was born?" Missy added "And who showed the rescue planes where to find you and Mulder in Antarctica?" Scully nodded a grudging acceptance, and as she continued to lose blood she was having trouble thinking of a rational explanation for what was happening. They continued walking on the deserted street until they found their way to a pay phone. "You'll be fine now, hon" her father said. Melissa picked up the phone and dialed 911 as their father helped Scully to steady herself on the phone's stand. Their father said "C'mon, Missy. Let's see how my grandson in doing..." and they walked off into the night. Later, Scully lay in her recovery room, an I.V. in her arm and oxygen tubes in each nostril. As she struggled to consciousness, she could feel a hand over hers. She looked up, expecting to see Mulder, but instead saw his mother. She closed her eyes, hoping she was dreaming. "Dana," Teena Mulder said softly. "Don't go away." Scully squeezed her eyes closed, as if doing this would block out sounds as well. Mrs. Mulder continued, "We need to talk." Scully reluctantly opened her eyes. "Dana, I know you're worried about William..." Tears came to Scully's eyes but she said nothing. "I worried about Samantha, too. But this is important -- more important than any individual, even a baby." "The aliens," Scully said with resignation. "We can't let them win," Mrs. Mulder said firmly. "We have to beat them, at any cost." Tears flowed freely down Scully's cheeks, and Teena Mulder wiped them away. "A few of us must make a great sacrifice, or else we will all be sacrificed. When you understand what's at stake you can't be selfish." "I know," Scully whispered. "William's life has a purpose, and he's fulfilling that purpose now." She paused and drew her chair closer. "No child lives only to give their parents' lives meaning. Each life has its own meaning and its own purpose." Scully bit her lip then said, "And your purpose? Why are you here?" Mrs. Mulder answered, "ALL of humanity has a stake in this. At one time I stopped caring about my own life. But life itself? I never stopped caring about that. You need help and I am here to help you. For everybody's sake." CHAPTER 11 Mulder looked at CSM with suspicion. "So, you ARE dead?" CSM flicked an ash onto the ground and said, "Why would that be difficult for you to accept? You've witnessed so many paranormal events, why doubt this one?" Mulder seemed flustered. "Well, I... " He paused and mustered his defiance. "I have no reason to trust you, for one." "On the contrary. You have every reason to trust me. What have I got to gain from lying to you?" "What have you ever had to gain with your lies?" Mulder answered. "You protected inhumane experiments on unwilling subjects. You would sacrifice anyone or anything to further your goals." "As would you," CSM said smugly. He put out his cigarette and lit another. Mulder said, "And another thing, ghosts don't smoke." CSM exhaled, sending a stream of smoke into Mulder's face. "No? Then perhaps I'm not a ghost." "So what are you? A shadow? a spook? a ghoul? a specter? a phantom? an incorporeal entity? a wandering spirit? a dybbuk?..." "So many questions. tsk tsk "CSM flicked his ash, then held his cigarette vertically in front of him, studying it carefully. "What happens when the light goes out of a life? Does it become an ash or an ember? Does it disappear completely?" He took another drag, and spoke through the smoke he exhaled, "Or does it get sucked up into a larger life form?" Mulder looked at him, wide-eyed. "But I can see you -- why?" "Why?" CSM took another drag and let the smoke come out slowly as he spoke. "Because I want you too..." He smiled, "As it has always been with us." CSM said, "You and I share a special bond, Fox. I watched you grow up; I've watched your career, and I've guided you to the answers you sought." Mulder said contemptuously, "What answers? All you ever guided me to were lies." CSM put out his cigarette, absently twisting it in the ashtray long after it was out. His eyes bored into Mulder's. "And how do you know they are lies?" Mulder clenched his teeth and stared back in defiance. CSM continued, "If they have been lies, it is because you asked the wrong questions." "What questions would you have preferred?" Mulder asked. CSM put the palms of his hands on the table, then turned his hands over. "Like opening a book, a question defines its own answer. Only when it is too late do you realize you were reading the wrong book." "Okay, so what is the *right* book?" Mulder asked sarcastically. CSM stood up. "Come, let me take you to the library," and his arm swept around in a grand arc, leading Mulder's eyes to all five walls of the Pentagon courtyard. All the windows were lit, and in each one a silhouetted figure was visible in the center. Mulder stood up and the two entered the Pentagon. CHAPTER 12 Skinner and Doggett untied Maggie Scully and rolled her onto her back. As Skinner took her pulse, Doggett called for help on his cellphone. Skinner knelt next to Maggie Scully and looked up at Doggett. "Check the rest of the house," he ordered. As Doggett left the room, he used his left hand to open Mrs. Scully's eyes, and his right to shine his flashlight into them. Her pupils were equal and reactive, a good sign, and about as much as he knew about first aid in this situation. Trying to fight off his feelings of helplessness, he shone the flashlight around the kitchen, until he found a towel. He ran cold water over it, then placed it on Maggie's forehead, remembering the time years ago someone special had done that for him. Maggie's eyes fluttered, then opened. She could see Skinner only as a silhouette, and said "Daddy?" "Hardly!" he snorted, then caught himself and lowered his voice. "It's A.D. Skinner, Mrs. Scully. How are you feeling?" he asked tenderly. "Do you know where you are?" "Mmmmmmm... I'm not sure. I was having the strangest dream -- my parents were here. They were telling me to hang on... that I had something important to do." Goose bumps went up Skinner's spine. "I understand," he said, trying to produce a smile and failing miserably. Maggie sighed and reached for his hand, finding comfort in his touch and in his voice. "Thank you," she said simply, looking into his eyes. He squeezed her hand gently and answered, "You're welcome." They shared an awkward moment of silence until Agent Doggett came back and announced, "The rest of the house checks out. No additional victims. No perps. No nothin. Phone line's been cut, power was cut off." He reached out and flipped a light switch. Bright flourescent lights flickered on, making Skinner and Maggie Scully groan, shielding their eyes. Doggett continued "But I switched it back on." When their eyes had adjusted to the light they saw that the floor was smeared with a greenish fluid. CHAPTER 13 PFC Walter Skinner changed overnight from an able, sometimes enthusiastic soldier, to a zombie-like drug user. His buddies understood. They missed Hank, too. This night he patrolled the area on foot, sometimes shuffling, sometimes stumbling. But despite his declining mental state, he clung to his routine duties. They gave him a sense of order in a senseless world. He listened carefully for sounds of danger, and hearing nothing, he took his opportunity to gaze up at the stars, searching for the serenity they had once given him. Suddenly he felt as if he'd been punched in the back. He lost his balance and stumbled forward. As his body fell forward, his spirit seemed to float upward. He looked down on his unconscious body, and found the peace he had sought in the stars. Two weeks later he woke up in a Saigon hospital. He felt hot and dry, and didn't want to move. Muffled moans emanated from a distant part of the hospital, and Walter was powerless to block out the sounds. From another direction he could hear a radio playing Led Zeppelin's "Dazed and Confused." It was Walter's favorite song. He couldn't relate to most of the lyrics -- "Wanted a woman, never bargained for you" sounded downright ungrateful to a lonely marine -- but the haunting, repetitive descent of the bassline and the languid strain of the Robert Plant's voice cried out as he never could. He pressed the back of his head against his pillow and closed his eyes. "Dazed and Confused." That was Walter Skinner. He could hear efficient footsteps approaching, and he tried desperately to feign sleeping. But she was onto him. "Walter," she said in a no-nonsense, yet compassionate tone. He felt the gentle press of her fingers on his wrist. "I know you're awake." He opened his eyes. She had long, jet-black hair and bright green eyes. She smiled down at him and placed a cold, wet cloth on his forehead. "It's about time, you goldbricker." He tried to smile, but his cracked lips had other ideas. "You're very lucky, Walter. They left you for dead, but they underestimated your will to live." Walter grimaced. He hadn't felt the will to live in weeks. He looked up at her, and it seemed to him that there was a glow surrounding her. A light shone from behind her, creating a golden border at the edges of her hair. He felt he'd never seen such a beautiful creature. He became instantly alert, and took in the name on her badge. "Nurse Stowe" he started. She recognized the signs -- they all did this -- and straightened her spine. "Private," she said in a businesslike voice. "I need to talk to you." Skinner nodded. He suddenly realized he hadn't checked for all of his limbs, and he forgot all about her beauty. "Soldier, I've seen dozens come in here just like you. Do you know why you've been here two weeks?" She took in the look of surprise on his face. "Yes, you've been here for two weeks. It took that long to get the drugs out of your system." Skinner closed his eyes, preparing himself for a lecture. "I know they're dangerous..." he said. She cut him off. "Soldier, you have a job to do. It isn't here. You are needed at home. You MUST take care of yourself until your moment arrives." Skinner looked confused. "They're sending you home. Your injury is serious, but it won't stop you from serving your country. Only you can do that. You are your own worst enemy..." Skinner sighed. Yes, this was what he expected. She continued, "You will have a much more dangerous enemy to face later. You need to prepare yourself to battle this enemy." Skinner looked confused. "Walter," she said firmly, "We're sending you home. Stay clean. Prepare for the war to end all wars." "World War III?" he asked. She shook her head. "Bigger than that. Don't let us down." She turned and walked away, leaving Walter to ponder what she'd said. In a few minutes another nurse approached his bed and took his pulse. "How are you feeling, soldier?" She asked. "A... a little better," he answered. "If you don't mind, could I see Nurse Stowe for a minute." The new nurse blanched. "Betty Stowe?" she asked. Skinner nodded. The nurse dropped his wrist and said with forced compassion, "She died. About three months ago." CHAPTER 14 CSM held the door for Mulder as they entered the Pentagon's interior corridors. He led him through a maze of hallways crowded with military men and women in every type of uniform. They were walking quickly and purposefully, as if to some important assignment. CSM and Mulder were walking very slowly by comparison. "You were never in the military, were you Fox?" CSM said calmly. "No, I wasn't," Mulder answered. "But you became a soldier in your own way, didn't you?" Mulder couldn't help wondering what CSM's agenda was. "I guess you could say that," he answered reluctantly. I did say that," CSM said matter-of-factly as he lit a cigarette. With the fresh cigarette in his lips, he said "You rather enjoy fighting. It's in your nature." Mulder felt boxed in. If he agreed, he'd be saying he was a fighter. If he denied it, he'd be arguing with CSM, and CSM would use that against him to prove his point. He pursed his lips and stopped walking. "Get to the point" he said sharply. CSM said, "That's my boy. Giving orders is much easier for you than following them." He took a drag and continued walking. He turned around and started walking backwards. "I was never much for following orders myself." And he turned around and continued walking. Mulder waited a few seconds then ran to catch up to CSM. "Okay, what do you want?" Mulder asked. CSM said "It's not what I want. It's what you want. You want to defeat your enemy. I'm showing you how you can do just that." Mulder said sarcastically, "You lying SOB. You promised me information, and now you're just leading me by the nose." CSM took the cigarette out of his mouth. "Tsk tsk tsk. Such impatience." They continued walking in silence for a few minutes, until they came to an unmarked door. CSM nodded toward the door and said, "The truth is in there." Mulder put his hand on the knob and tried to turn it, but it was locked. He looked at CSM in annoyance, but CSM ignored his look and turned the doorknob. The door swung open noiselessly. CSM turned the light on in the room then held the door open for Mulder. Mulder took a few tentative steps into the room. He looked around and saw only cardboard boxes on metal storage shelves. He walked up to one and pulled it off its shelf. It was unmarked on all sides, and the top was sealed. "Go ahead, open it," CSM said with the pride of a father giving a beloved child a birthday gift. He handed Mulder a letter opener, and Mulder slit the top seal. He set the box on the floor and peered into it. Inside the box was a random pile of guns, strewn as if packed quickly. They were different sizes, styles and colors. Mulder looked back at CSM. "What th---?" "I've offered you the Truth you have sought, but there's one thing you must do first." CSM said as he stamped out his cigarette. Mulder picked up one of the guns and looked it over. CSM continued "It's untraceable. No serial number. No ballistics record. No record of it entering this building, and there will be no record of it leaving." Mulder was irate. "Whatever it is you want me to do, you can forget it. I'll not do your dirty work for you." He threw the gun back into its box. "You won't be doing it for me," CSM said as he took a fresh cigarette out of its pack. "You'll be doing it for your son." Mulder said "But I don't have a..." then suddenly realized what CSM was saying. "You mean Scully's baby?" CSM raised his eyebrows as he lit his cigarette. The pitch of Mulder's voice raised as he said "What have you done with William?" "Nothing" CSM said as he exhaled his smoke. "Why, should I?" Mulder dove for CSM, but CSM stepped aside casually, letting Mulder hit his head on a wall. Mulder got up quickly and started to grab for CSM, but CSM grabbed his wrist and stared into his eyes. Mulder's body went limp, but he couldn't resist staring back into CSM's eyes. "I understand," he said serenely. CSM held out a gun for him and Mulder took it. Then Mulder put the barrel of the gun into his mouth and pulled the trigger.