Go to old abandoned farm house.
You know where it is.
We loved that place.
Alexei
"God damn him!!!" He yelled as he crumpled up the letter and threw it across
the room. Not only did the fucking bastard expect me to meet him at the
place that I associate with our time as partners... with... our time as
lovers... oh god that house... but he also has to sign it Alexei. Alexei,
his full name that he told only me. Alexei, the name I called when my face
contoured in pleasure and I came deep inside him, while watching his
beautiful face, flushed with passion, eyes... full of love for me. More lies!
More fucking lies!
He got up and started pacing around the room while talking aloud. "Why the
hell does he have to do this? Why is he making me remember? He loves this I
bet. He's probably smiling right now at the thought of driving me crazy by
making me remember. The fucking sick bastard! I hate him! I hate him!"
Oh get the fuck off of it, you don't hate him. You want to hate him... you
really do, but it's just the opposite and that's what drives you crazy.
"It was never supposed to be him... why did it have to be him? Why couldn't I
love Scully? I mean... I love her, but not like that. With Alex, shit I was
partners with him for a few months and by the first week he was in my bed.
Scully and I had been partners for two fucking years and I never once had the
desire to sleep with her. With Alex, god I wanted to possess him, to be able
to feel every inch of him. The feel of being inside him was indescribable.
I've never forgotten that feeling. Six years later and I've never forgotten,
nor have I forgotten the way he felt inside me. The way he held me all night.
I felt so safe in his arms. No! No!!! Stop this..stop thinking of this! This
is what he wants! He wants you to remember, so when you show up there, your
guard will be down. Why the fuck is he contacting me now anyway? I haven't
seen him in two years. I loved him once... but I can't... I can't feel that way
anymore..at least I can't let him know that even though I don't want to... I
still do."
He sighed and went to get dressed. His brain told him to forget about the
note and not show up. But his heart, his fucking heart, told him to go.
And let's face it, that part of you has always won.
While driving in the car, he started remembering every little detail between
him and Alex over the past six years..
The violence..
The passion..
Punching him in the face..
Driving his cock in and out of the young agents' ass while kissing his lips..
Waking up alone every morning since then...
Waking up in the warmth of his Alexei's arms, to his warm breath on his neck
murmuring, "Morning G-man." with a smile on his face. He always called Mulder
"G-man" when they were lovers. Mulder thought it was about the sweetest thing
in the world back then, now all it does is cause him heartache. He never
expected to lose Alex. Nothing could have prepared him for his deception. He
had opened his heart completely to the younger man, and trusted him. That's
what stung the most. The trust he gave him, only to have it backfire. He
foolishly thought that they would be together forever.
Stupid. The last night they were together Alex collapsed onto him, shuddering
from his climax. He brushed his fingertips over his cheek and kissed him
gently. His bright green eyes sparkled as he said. "I love you Fox... always."
That image could never be erased from his eidetic memory, though how he
wished it would. That night he was so happy to hear it... they never spoke of
love before that, although he knew they both felt deeply for each other.
Hearing his Alexei say that brought tears to his eyes, and they held each
other all night. Then Mulder said it in return, and truly meant it.
He turned off the highway onto the side road that led to the farm house. He
suddenly chuckled as he thought of the night he and Alex went to Tunguska,
the stupid fucking act they played, as if to deny they were ever lovers.
What he was referring to was when Alex yelled in russian, and he pretended
not to know he spoke the language. Of course he knew it, it was all a fucking
game. To see who would bring it up first, and neither submitting to it.
He knew all about Alexei's parents, them being cold war immigrants. Alex told
him it all during the first week they were lovers. And Mulder loved the name
Alexei, he loved to call him that, to be the only one that called him that.
He felt special.
He had no idea why Alex was contacting him. Nothing exciting was happening
with The X-files. C.B.G Spender has not shown up for a while, he and Scully
were working on the same types of cases as always, nothing great. He didn't
seem to care much about anything anymore; and most of all he wished Alexei
Krycek would stay the hell out of his life.
His car approached the farm house. He stopped on the dirt driveway and turned
off the engine. All the memories came back to him as he looked at the brown
house, the white picket fence, the grass meadow with tall trees...
He sat there and remembered how they found this house in the first place.
It was after the Cole case. I got a tip from my new informant about how the
house was supposedly haunted. He figured it would be the closest I'd come to
an X-file and that if I kept it quiet, I could investigate. Alex figured
something was up, and I was forced to tell him.
I expected him to go to Skinner, to report me, whatever, but... he didn't. In
fact, he was eager to go with me. He said he was fascinated in ghosts. I
smiled, and at that moment I knew I liked him so much more than I should.
When we had arrived at the old farm house, he was mesmerized. He thought it
was beautiful. He got out of the car and looked around the property. I
remember smiling the whole time, he looked like an excited child.
He walked up to the door and he turned to me and said. "I've always loved
farms. I've dreamt of living in a farm house. It just seems so old fashioned,
and that's what I love about it." I smiled at him again, I didn't need an
explanation, but he gave me one. I figured I owed it to him to apologize.
"Umm, Krycek..."
The younger man cut me off, "You can call me Alex, Agent Mulder." He said
grinning. "Just because you and Scully are on a last name basis, doesn't
necessarily mean we have to be."
I laughed at that. But the younger man continued suddenly in a low, sensuous
voice. "You shouldn't be afraid of a little change."
My heart raced in my chest at that, and almost forgot what I was starting to
say. Then I recovered. "Listen, Alex, I just wanted to say that I'm
sorry... about the way I've been treating you. I just... I was upset..about the
X-files being taken away, and them splitting me and Scully up... but its no
excuse. I shouldn't have taken it out on you. You're really nice, Alex, and
you were great about this ghost thing." I laughed, "easier than getting
Scully to come along. So..thank you, Alex."
Alex looked a little embarrassed but said, "You're welcome."
We proceeded to go inside and searched around the house. We stayed for a
while and nothing seemed out of the ordinary. Alex was standing in front of
spider web that was in between the bannister on the staircase. He seemed
transfixed by it, watching it spin its web.
I walked toward him to tell him we should get going.
"Alex?" the man's eyes didn't leave the spider.
"Alex?" I called again.
He spoke softly, his voice sad, "It's like that quote, "Oh what a tangled web
we weave when first we practice to deceive."
He turned to me, tears glistening in his eyes. "No one practices to
deceive... they just... do... sometimes against their own will. You don't know me,
Mulder, you'll never know me."
I was confused by the young man's sadness. "Alex... what? What are talking
about?"
He stepped closer to me, "Forget it... just forget it..." His arm went around
my neck and pulled me closer, our lips met, gently. Alex's tongue crept out
and licked at my bottom lip. I was shocked at first by the kiss, but
definitely not resisting as I parted my own lips eagerly, and our tongues
soon met. We pulled each other closer, trying to feel every inch of each
other. Alex broke the kiss and started kissing down my neck which arched back
in response.
"Alex..." I moaned.
"Mmm... what?"
"Do... do you think this place has a bedroom?"
He didn't stop kissing and licking my neck. "Mmm probably... wanna check
upstairs?"
In response, I grabbed Alex's hand and led the laughing man up the stairs.
We found the bedroom and tumbled onto the mattress together... there were no
lights, only the brightness from the setting sun radiating through the
windows.
Alex undressed me and I returned the favor. Soon we were naked, and I rolled
the younger man under me. We were both very hard and I kissed him deeply. I
then broke away and looked down at the flushed young agent. "I can't believe
we are doing this... we're on a case!"
"An unoffical case", Alex corrected, "what's the matter G-man, can't take
the pressure?" he laughed.
I pushed my erection firmly against my partners, "I can take it fine, what
about you? Can you handle this pressure?" I pushed against him firmly,
making the man under me gasp in response.
"Jesus, Mulder..."
He rolled on top of me and attacked my neck again, biting hard, "Ahh
fuck... call... call me Fox..."
He looked into my eyes and smiled softly, then stroked my face. "Ok, Fox." We
kissed more, and again Alex was on his back with me on top..but this time I
kissed my way down the beautiful mans body, relishing in the perfection of
it. I made my way to the hard cock that was dripping with pre-cum. I lapped
at the head, making Alex writhe and moan..as he arched off the bed seeking
more.
I graciously gave him what he wanted, sucking him in completely then
withdrawing and descending again, sucking hard and fast.
"Ohhh god Fox... yes... I'm... I'm gonna come..." He warned and tried to pull me
off, but to no avail..I continued to suck hard, while massaging his balls
with my other hand. Alex fucked my mouth and yelled my name as he came down
the warm passage of my throat.
I moved up beside the man who was breathing heavily and put my arms around
him as I nuzzled his throat.
"Oh god, that was great..."
I laughed that, "Well, you're welcome."
Alex laughed as well, then he gripped my stiff cock. "I don't really think we
are done." He spread his legs wide, giving me a clear an invitation. I looked
at him, to see if he was sure. He just nodded and said "Come on baby... fuck
me."
My heart jumped in my chest..and then I suddenly realized I didn't have any
condoms or lube. "Shit... Alex I... I don't have anything..."
"It's ok Fox... I'm clean... are you?"
I nodded, "Yeah, I am... had a check up recently... and it's been... a while since
I've been with anyone... but um, lube."
"Ahh shit... I... I need lube Fox... I've
never gone this far before..."
I was shocked. "You haven't?"
Alex looked embarrassed, "No... I'm sorry... if you don't want me, I'll..."
I silenced the other man with a kiss, "Don't be silly, I'm just surprised,
even more so that you want your first time to be with me."
Alex smiled, "Why wouldn't I, you're a sexy G-man, baby, I want you badly."
"I want you too, Alex..Ok, we'll just wait till we get to my apartment."
With that Alex flipped me over and took my cock in his mouth, vanishing away
any more thoughts. That night I made love to Alex, gently at first, this
being his first time; until he wanted it harder, begged for it. We fell
asleep wrapped around each other.
He shook out of his thoughts of the past and focused on the present and where
he was. He thought one last thing before he got out of the house... and it made
him very uneasy... he was surprised he didn't think of it sooner. After Alex
had finished giving him an amazing blow job, he recalled snuggling with the
younger man as he said "I really love this house..one of this days... I want to
live here... and... if circumstances don't allow that... then, I want to die
here... I want to die here, Fox."
Mulder didn't think too much of it then... but now..now that he knew all the
things that Alex had done... that statement chilled him. He got out of the car
and hurried into the house.
"Krycek?" He said as he stepped in the front door. He checked the main room,
the the kitchen, and he noticed a knife on the table along side a salad. A
sad smile formed on his remember how much Alex had loved to cook. He used to
make him breakfast in bed...
He shook his head, and concentrated on finding the man that kept invading his
thoughts. He had a sudden idea. The bedroom
He ran up the staircase and opened the bedroom door. Sure enough, there was
Alex... with a gun...
Mulder panicked, "A-Alex?"
He looked up at him as he held the gun tightly to his temple. "Fox... I'm glad
you came."
The sound of his own name felt foreign to him. Alex hadn't said it since they
were partners. He also noticed that he wasn't wearing the prosthetic arm. His
white T-shirt hung empty on the left side. He realized he must be staring and
stopped.
"Hey, It's ok, man. You can look, I don't give a fuck about anything any
more." He laughing bitterly and shook the gun a little. "Obviously." His
voice was cold, and Mulder had never heard him like this.
"What..what the hell are you doing, Krycek?"
"Ha! Back to Krycek already, huh? Dammit Mulder... Ok, well, I'm gonna kill
myself Mulder. And well... I loved this place, so much. I told you once I
wanted to die here. Well, I do, I have no life Mulder... they took my life
when they asked me to work for them. I didn't know what I was getting into. I
can't tell you I didn't do the things you think I did, because I don't want
to lie anymore. I'm sick of this tangled web of deceit that everyone and
everything is weaving around you. I did kill your father Fox, you know that.
Only now you are hearing it from me."
"I didn't want to, but they... they fucking told me that if I didn't... he'd
kill you..they knew you were my one weakness, that's why they tortured me by
making me come in and out of your life for all those years... knowing that I
could never stay. I'm sorry about your father, and I hate myself for it. I
wanted to confess everything to you... for you to be the last one I see before
I die, because you were the only real thing in my life. Don't doubt that
please. I was not faking what I felt for you... I... I did truly love you.
I... still do."
The last words were barely audible.
"What was that?" Mulder said, still standing a few feet away from the prone
figure on the bed.
Alex looked up, tears building in his eyes. "I said I still do dammit! God,
you are just loving this aren't you? Here I am, right where you've always
wanted me. Come on, Mulder, why don't you do? Pull the fucking trigger! I
have nothing to live for anyway." He shoved the gun at him. "Take it dammit!
Do it!!"
Mulder took the gun fiercely and pointed it at Krycek... he stared into the
man's deep green eyes and could read every emotion he felt. Relief, mixed
with a little fear... and love... for the first time since they were lovers... he
saw the love in his eyes, that he was sure he'd never see again. No more
lies, he said... no more lies.
Looking at him..looking at his Alexei... one bullet away from death, he
dropped the gun out of his shaking hand. He buried his head in his hands
shaking like crazy. "I... I can't dammit... I can't... I never could kill you." He
heard movement and looked up.
Alex had the gun again. "I can Fox... I can do it."
He felt the room spin, and he forced his mouth to work. "Alexei! No!!"
Alex opened his eyes and looked at Fox. "You... oh god I thought I'd never
here that again."
Fox stepped forward carefully. "Put the gun down, come on..." he gently
grasped the gun out of his hand. "That's it." He dropped it on the bed and
looked up at Alex.
"Alexei, I haven't seen you for two years... two fucking lonely years where I
never thought I'd see you again. Try as I may, I can't get you out of my
head. I know you feel you have nothing to live for, I feel the same way these
days, but I'm going to listen to what you said earlier Alexei... no more
lies... I love you... I've loved you throughout everything... and if it's wrong to
love you then so be it, 'cause I don't give a shit. I love the man you truly
are, Alexei, not the man they made you become. They created you, Alex. I
know that's not you. You're my Alexei. The man that held me all night long
and woke me up to sweet gentle kisses. The man that make me breakfast in bed
because I can't cook for shit. The man that put up with me watching "those
horrible Sci-fi movies" as you would say. You said you were not faking what
you felt for me and I believe that, because I fell in love with you, the real
Alexei Krycek, the man I still see as I look at you now. The only thing I
know is that I won't let you die. Let's go back to the one time we were truly
happy in our lives Alexei. The time when we were together."
Alex touched his face, trying to control his emotions. "I love you, Fox, I
never thought you'd still feel like this for me. If I can have you... I don't
want to die... you're all I've ever wanted." He leaned in and kissed the older
agent on the lips, tentatively at first, but Fox took over, slipping his
tongue past Alexei's lips, deepening the kiss. Both were lost in each other.
They kissed for a while, the Alex pulled away and smiled, "I missed you
G-man." They hugged tightly and stood that way, not wanting to let go.
They walked out of the house a little while later, and got in the car to go
back to Mulder's apartment. One the way there he told Alex that he would buy
that house for them, and Alex was thrilled. Then he added.
"And when we die, it'll be there... together."
Alex smiled and laced his fingers with Fox's. He looked out the window and
breathed in the fresh spring air as if he was taking his first breath.
In a way... he was.
Tangled Web
by Sarah
Fox Mulder awoke from a dreamless sleep and sat up on his couch. Something
felt different. He got up and looked around his apartment, no sign of
intrusion, nothing was out of place. He shrugged it off and went back into
the living room. There he saw a folded piece of paper lying on the coffee
table. He picked it up and sat down. He unfolded it and immediately
recognized the hand writing.
