<AgtK> Hey baby, it's me.
<FMulder> It's about time you came online. Do you have any idea how
worried I've been about you?
<AgtK> I'm sorry. It's been really chaotic here. I'm not sure how
much longer Iím going to be at this
particular location. How are you doing?
<FMulder> I'm better. I just wish I knew what was wrong with me. I
can't understand what's
happening. I wish you were here.
<AgtK> I know, babe. I wish I could be there too. You realize it's
not safe for me to be with you,
don't you? I'm still a wanted man.
<FMulder> Of course you're wanted. I want you. Here. In my bed, next
to me.
<AgtK> *sigh* Please don't make this harder on me than it has to be.
<FMulder> Don't you think this is hard on me too? Why should I be the
only one who suffers?
<AgtK> That's a great attitude, baby. So our relationship is all
about how much we should both
suffer?
<FMulder> Shut up. You know that's not what I'm saying.
<AgtK> Maybe I don't know what you're saying.
<FMulder> I love you. I miss you. I hate the fact that you can't be
with me when I want you here.
<AgtK> How are they treating you?
<FMulder> I think they think I'm crazy or something. Doctors come in
to see me, take a lot of notes
about what I say, then leave. At least they let me have this computer.
<AgtK> Thank god. I don't know what I'd do if we couldn't talk. It
sounds like they trust you not to
do anything with it to harm yourself.
<FMulder> When I came out of my trance or whatever it was, I was able
to explain to them that this
could help me record my thoughts.
<AgtK> They bought that?
<FMulder> I'm talking to you, aren't I? I also do plan on writing
them some things to help convince
them that I don't need to be locked up like this.
<AgtK> They're doing it for your own good, Fox.
<FMulder> It doesn't feel like it. I'm not crazy.
<AgtK> Of course you're not. Are they saying you are?
<FMulder> No, but I can tell that's what they're telling each other.
It's all part of a plan to make me
crazy, you know.
<AgtK> Fox...
<FMulder> I'm really scared, Alex.
<AgtK> I know you are. I'm so sorry.
<AgtK> How did you end up in there, baby?
<FMulder> I don't know. Honestly, I only remember being overcome by
an unspeakable pain in my
head and then I was here.
<AgtK> Babe, that worries me. Have you had anymore episodes since
you've been in there?
<FMulder> No, not one. For some reason, that's not enough for them to
let me out. I guess I was
being pretty violent at one point.
<AgtK> God. I need to see you.
<FMulder> They won't let you in here. I don't want you to take that
chance anyway. I can survive in
here on my own.
<AgtK> Does Scully see you?
<FMulder> I don't know. There are cameras in this room so she might
be watching me from some
kind of security room, but she hasn't been in here to see me.
<AgtK> Some friend she turned out to be, huh? I'm so sorry. I really
want to get in there to see you.
<FMulder> Please don't say that. The more you do, the more I'm going
to want you here and I know
it's not safe for you. And please stop telling me how sorry you are.
<AgtK> Iím so—Fox, you do understand why I didn't help you, don't
you?
<FMulder> No, I don't actually. Why did you just pass over me like
that? How could you leave me
there in pain?
<AgtK> I had things I needed to attend to. I made sure you got help,
baby. You did, right?
<FMulder> Yeah, I did.
<AgtK> Okay then.
<FMulder> But you still left me lying there. You didn't even see if I
was okay.
<AgtK> I couldn't! There wasn't any time. Just trust me on this.
<FMulder> Why should I?
<AgtK> Fox, if you want to fight, I'm leaving.
<FMulder> No! Please don't leave yet. I'm really confused. I love
you.
<AgtK> *sigh* I know you are. I love you too, but please let it rest.
<FMulder> Okay. Alex?
<AgtK> Yeah?
<FMulder> I miss you.
<AgtK> I know. Me too.
<FMulder> I miss holding you.
<AgtK> Me too.
<FMulder> I miss kissing you.
<AgtK> Me too.
<FMulder> Alex, do you think you could help me out here?
<AgtK> How's that, babe?
<FMulder> Could you say something besides "me too"? Don't you know
what I want to do?
<AgtK> I know exactly what you're doing and I can't do it, Fox.
<FMulder> Why not? I thought you loved me.
<AgtK> I do, but if they're watching you, I don't think you should be
having cyber sex.
<FMulder> I don't care what they think about me, Alex. They're
already convinced I'm crazy. How
much more damage could it do for me to have some fun with my lover, hmm?
<AgtK> You make a good point. Doesn't sound to me like you're crazy.
<FMulder> That's the first time I've smiled since they locked me up.
<AgtK> I'm glad. I want to make you happy.
<FMulder> Tell me what youíd do if you were here.
<AgtK> I'd put my arms around you and make you feel safe.
<FMulder> You're really warm. I bury my face in your neck and inhale
deeply. You smell so good.
<AgtK> I feel your breath against my skin and it's making me hard.
You always have this effect on
me. Look at me, Fox. I want to kiss you.
<FMulder> I raise my head and look into your eyes. I trust you, Alex.
I love you.
<AgtK> I lower my head and kiss you, softly at first, then harder.
You taste like desperation and fear
and I want to change all that.
<FMulder> I reach my hand down and grab your cock through your jeans.
Youíre already so hard.
<AgtK> I want you to suck it, Fox. Suck it just like your father
liked to.
<FMulder> What? Alex?
<AgtK> You know thatís what he used to do. He couldn't get enough of
it.
<FMulder> Why are you saying this?
<AgtK> Like father, like son, right, baby? I want you to suck my cock
then I'm going to put a bullet in
your head.
<FMulder> Don't do this Alex.
<AgtK> Don't do what? He loved to take it up the ass too. Bet you
didn't know that about dear old
Dad.
<FMulder> Stop it! I don't know why you're doing
<AgtK> I can't stop it, Fox. It's the truth. You want the truth,
right?
<FMulder> this! STOP IT!!
<AgtK> Fuck you, Fox! You're a fucking lunatic!! Thank god they
finally locked you up.
<FMulder> Shut the fuck up!!
<AgtK> You're insane! And damn stupid too. Ask anyone.
<FMulder> SHUT UP!! FUCK YOU!!
<AgtK> Too late, baby. Everyone's beaten you to it. *g* Have fun in
there. Hope you rot.
<FMulder> I don't know who you are.
<AgtK> Sure you do. While you're in there I'll be getting fucked by
Skinner. We laugh about you
behind your back, you know.
<FMulder> No, he wouldn't do that.
<AgtK> He does. So does Scully. She loves my dick too, Fox.
<FMulder> No, not Scully. Not Scully. She's my friend.
<AgtK> Then why is she with me right now? She's laughing at you. We
all are. Fucking psychotic
Mulder, finally went over the edge. It was just a matter of time, wasn't it?
<FMulder> I don't believe you.
<AgtK> I don't care. I'm not the one in the nuthouse. Look around
you, sweetheart. That's your
future. That's it for you.
<FMulder> NO!
<FMulder> NO!
<FMulder> NO!
<FMulder> NO!
<FMulder> NO!
<FMulder> NO!
<FMulder> NO!
Scully watched sadly as her partner erupted from his almost catatonic state
into another outburst of
profanities and unintelligible shouting. Moments before, he had been sitting in
the corner of his cell,
both hands in front of him. The way his fingers had been moving, it looked as
if he'd been miming
playing the piano or using a typewriter and she was reminded of all the times
she'd seen him in that
exact position when he worked at his computer. As she'd watched the blurry
images of him on the
small screen, his face had remained expressionless except for the occasional
smile. Now, his
features were distorted in a mad grimace as he started pulling at his hair and
stumbling around the
room.
"Agent Scully, perhaps you should go home. There's not really anything you
can do for him at this
time." The doctor placed a gentle hand on her arm.
Scully shook her head and continued to watch her partner succumb to whatever
madness had him
in its grip.
"I can't leave him like this. Not until we know whatís going to happen to
him."
The doctor nodded and left Scully alone in the observation room. Placing a
hand on the screen and
partially covering the image of the partner she no longer recognized, she began
to cry.
The End
PARA/noia
by Frankie
