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Part 2 of Pancakes
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Pancakes 2: Left Wondering

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RATING: PG
CLASSIFICATION: Former Buffy/Spike, Buffy/Xander.
SUMMARY: Buffy & Spike's baby has been born, but Buffy has some doubts for his future...
SPOILERS: An AU set after "Grave."
DISTRIBUTION: Any sites with my fic up; you all have unspoken permission. I write it, you can post it. Everyone else just keep my name on it and let me know.
DISCLAIMER: If you don't recognize it, chances are it's my own creation. If you do, Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, Kazui Sandollar, FOX and the WB own it or them. Various friends of mine are holding characters hostage. You may see them by appointment only.
FEEDBACK: Sorry I'm not home right now I'm walking in the spiderwebs so leave a message and I'll call you back...in other words, I want it. Don't care if it's onlist or not, but I prefer offlist since I have quite a few lists on No Mail.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: I never really expected to find myself writing a sequel to "Pancakes," but after my son was born it turned out he had developmental delays, and it made me wonder how much of it was genetic and how much was parenting and various other things a parent wonders when a child is unwell. Even though the baby in this story's fine, I figured I'd put some of my own fears to light in my usual way: writing them out through someone else.
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Pancakes 2: Left Wondering
by Ragna

So, he's human after all.

There isn't much of a trace of Spike in him, just that the hair is darker and his eyes are shaped more like Spike's. But the rest...he looks like me. My little baby boy.

Still, I wonder how human he'll be. I mean, his father is a vampire...no, his *father* is Xander. His sperm donor is a vampire. Spike's left town. Never even knew I was pregnant, I don't think. It's better off, I guess, but know I realize I don't know anything about Spike at all. Nothing to tell my son when he gets older and starts asking questions.

I don't know Spike's real name, other than his first name is William. I know he's from England, but I don't know where. London I think. Or maybe I'm just guessing at that. And I know...I know I don't want him involved in my child's life.

And then I wonder if he'll be violent, or if he'll be passive. Is he going to be a smiley, bubbly kid or will he sulk all the time? Will he be weird because Spike's a vampire? Or because I'm a Slayer? Oh, God, I hadn't even thought of that! I don't think any other Slayer's ever had a kid before.

Troy Jesse Summers is *my* son, damn it, and he'll be Xander's son, too, when we get married next month.

In no way will I allow Spike to influence Troy's life. Ever. I just can't let my son's life get ruined, I just can't. He deserves better.

Maybe we'll get lucky and Spike will die. Maybe.

Or maybe I'll just be left wondering...

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