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2020-11-04
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Hurt

Summary:

Ruminations on a soul.

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I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real

--"Hurt," by Johnny Cash

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Sometimes, I think I might've died back in that cave, if I weren't already dead.

Don't right remember havin' a soul hurtin' like this. But what's the sayin' again? Love is pain? Blood? Somethin' like that. Oh, God, it hurts.

Does God even listen to our kind anymore?

All th' voices are drivin' me batty; can't even hear m'self screamin' in here, but I know I am. Don't even know who I am anymore; don't know if I'm still Spike or if I'm jus' what's left of him, payin' for all the evil he's done.

Only thing I know is everything's hurtin' again, my conscience is killin' me, an' all I want is the soft soothin' kiss of sunlight on m'body.

But I can't. All I got's the sufferin' now.