Liberation
\nBy Patt<\/p>\n
Summary: Blair tries to figure out what Jim is really thinking.
\nPrompt: “What if the first time Jim and Naomi met, Blair realized there was something behind that look Jim gave Naomi when she practiced yoga (when they were in the kitchen, if I remember correctly) and he determined to find out what exactly it was.”
\nEmail: PattRose1@aol.com
\nNotes: Thank Thank you, Banbury for the prompt. A huge hug and thank you to Jen for everything she does with and for us.
\nNotes 2: Thank you to my Bluewolf, Kerensa and Kelly for the beta. <\/p>\n
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Liberation
\nBy Patt<\/p>\n
\nBlair walked into the living room to find his mom meditating in the middle of the room. He glanced over at Jim in the kitchen and wondered what Jim was doing. He had a look on his face that Blair couldn\u2019t quite put his finger on. Was Jim lusting after his mother? Surely not, this was his mom, right? Blair wouldn\u2019t ever believe that Jim would go after his mom, especially after he told him about how he felt about that. <\/p>\n
\nSo what was Jim looking at? Blair knew he needed to figure it out, if it took all night long. Little did he know that he would be working on this problem for some time. <\/p>\n
\nHe walked into the kitchen and saw Jim turning away from his mother and asked, \u201cWhat are you up to?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJust checking out your mom,\u201d Jim answered quietly. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWhat? Jim, I thought we had an agreement that you wouldn\u2019t go after my mom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI\u2019m not going after anyone. I was watching her meditate. Is that a crime?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\nIf Blair didn\u2019t know better, Jim sounded almost defensive. Like maybe his feelings were a little hurt and had to defend himself in the aftermath. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou said you were checking her out. My idea of checking someone out and yours must be different,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI can\u2019t believe that for having such a bright mind, you use it so little, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cHey, there is no need for insults, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYes, there was.\u201d Jim walked out of the kitchen and towards the stairs to his bedroom. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWait a minute, I still don\u2019t know why you were watching my mom,\u201d Blair said, following Jim up the stairs. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI\u2019m allowed to watch anyone I want to, Chief. I didn\u2019t think it was a crime.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cNo man, I didn\u2019t mean it was bad, I just wondered why you\u2019re watching her and you never seemed to take your eyes off her.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI admire her meditation form. I was just being vigilant. I\u2019m sorry it upset you so much, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou know, I think you\u2019re pulling my leg. Are you lying to me?\u201d Blair wondered aloud. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cIf you\u2019ll excuse me, this is my room and I feel like reading and relaxing now. I\u2019ll see you in the morning, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYeah, yeah, yeah. Like I believe anything you said,\u201d Blair mumbled as he walked down the stairs. <\/p>\n
\nHe passed by his meditating mother without even glancing and wondered why Jim couldn\u2019t do the same thing. <\/p>\n
\nFirst of all, his mother was in a flowing dress that you could almost see through. She loved showing off her body. Jim would only be human to notice her nice figure. Naomi would be most pleased if she knew that Jim had been watching her. It was all the more reason to not bring this up in front of her. <\/p>\n
\nBlair brought out the sheets and blanket for the sofa that he was going to sleep on. He hated sleeping on that sofa, but his mother couldn\u2019t be expected to sleep there. He had to play the nice son and sleep there for the next night. Thank God she wasn\u2019t staying longer. <\/p>\n
\nBlair went in to take a shower and thought about what had transpired that evening. He had caught Jim red handed watching his mother. Jim had a thing for his mother. There was no other explanation. This didn\u2019t anger Blair, he was just tired of the same old thing happening. When he was young all of his friends had a thing for Naomi. So why should Jim be any different, right? He was hoping that Jim would not take notice of Naomi. He wasn\u2019t sure why, but maybe Blair was jealous for a change. Naomi always got everyone\u2019s attention. Perhaps Blair wanted some of that attention now and then. Blair shook the soap and water out of his eyes and sighed. What was that look that Jim had on his face while he was watching Naomi? Blair had never seen it before. It wasn\u2019t lust, love, yearning or anything like that. What in the hell was it? Blair finished his shower and dried off and then began to blow-dry his hair. <\/p>\n
\nWhen he came out of the bathroom Naomi had made the bed on the sofa up for him. She was getting something to drink in the kitchen. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cHoney, are you going to bed already?\u201d Naomi asked sweetly. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI have to get up early for classes. So, I thought I would try to get some sleep as soon as I could.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cWell, we\u2019ll see you in the morning, sweetie. I\u2019m going to read in your room. I\u2019m sure I\u2019ll find something to read in there, am I right?\u201d Naomi asked as she walked towards Blair\u2019s room. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI\u2019ll show you a book I\u2019ve been reading. It\u2019s very good and might be just what you\u2019re looking for.\u201d Blair led the way into his room and picked the book up and handed it to her. \u201cIt\u2019s really good, Naomi. You\u2019re going to like it, I promise.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cIs Jim in bed already?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYes, mom, he went to bed to read. We\u2019ll see you in the morning,\u201d Blair said as he walked out the door. <\/p>\n
\nBlair lay down on the sofa and tried to get comfortable. He tossed and turned for some time before he started getting tired. He wished they had a cot for him to sleep on. It would have been more comfortable. He sure wished he knew what Jim was thinking right then. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nJim tried to read his book, but found himself thinking of meditation instead. Naomi could probably teach him to do it and maybe with any luck, he could actually do it more then three minutes. He would have to ask her the next day. He was off and it would be perfect timing while Blair was teaching his classes. What was Blair thinking when he asked about why he was looking at Naomi? First of all, everyone looked at Naomi. She was a lovely creature. You would have to be dead or blind to not notice the woman. Jim smiled at his little joke and put his book away for the night. Yes, he was going to learn to meditate if it killed him. And somehow Jim knew that might be a scenario. <\/p>\n
\nJim walked down to get ready for bed and noticed Blair tossing and turning. \u201cBlair, why don\u2019t you sleep in your sleeping bag, it might be more comfortable?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, if I wanted to sleep on the floor, I would have done it. Just don\u2019t worry about me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim sighed and walked into the bathroom to get ready. When he walked out, Blair was lying on the floor with the blanket underneath him. He looked up at Jim as Jim walked by and Blair said, \u201cJust shut up.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cNight, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cNight, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim smiled all the way up the stairs. Jim loved when he was right and this time he had been right on the money. <\/p>\n
\nJim got into bed, and tossed and turned a little bit himself before he yawned and finally fell asleep. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nThe next morning, Blair was the only one up as he made coffee and got ready for classes. His mom came out right before he left and said, \u201cAre you leaving already, Blair?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYes, my first class is at 8:00, Naomi. See you this afternoon when I get off.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cHave a wonderful day, sweetie.\u201d Naomi kissed him goodbye and then went back to bed. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nIf Blair had been thinking, he wouldn\u2019t have wanted to leave his sleeping mom and his sleeping roommate in the same area, but he wasn\u2019t thinking about them for a change. He had a test to give and was thinking about that. He had a fantastic class and they all seemed genuinely interested in what he had to say. Blair knew he was a great teacher, but it made him feel super good to know that the kids were learning, not just pretending. <\/p>\n
\nHe was sitting at his desk when he realized that Jim hadn\u2019t been up that morning. Why was Jim still in bed and why didn\u2019t I notice before now?\u201d <\/i> Blair had kids coming into the classroom and knew he had no time to think about his mom and Jim. But he found himself doing it anyway and getting pissed off. His mind needed to be on the classroom and the test, damn it. Blair tried taking deep breaths to get his anger under control and it was finally working. Before long he was able to smile at the kids and mean it. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nJim came downstairs, got in the shower and was still in the shower when Naomi opened up the door and said, \u201cJim would you like pancakes for breakfast?\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim couldn\u2019t believe she opened the door. Shit, can you see through this curtain?<\/i> Jim looked and could see Naomi crystal clear and growled to himself. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cPancakes would be fine,\u201d Jim called out, hoping she would leave the room. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cOkay, I\u2019m making them now,\u201d Naomi answered and shut the door. Jim got out of the shower as fast as he could and locked the door. He dried off, got shaved and brushed his teeth and then dressed in a very quick ten minutes. He opened the door and walked out. <\/p>\n
\nNaomi smiled at him and said, \u201cGood, I was just coming to drag you out. Everything is ready. Pancakes and eggs just like you like them.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThank you, Naomi. It\u2019s really nice of you to make this for me. I wondered if I could ask a big favor.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou can ask me anything you want. What\u2019s up, Jim?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cCould you teach me to meditate today?\u201d Jim asked hurriedly and hoped she wasn\u2019t going to make fun of him. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou? You want to learn how to meditate? Jim, honey, you have to stay focused on nothing for a long time. I\u2019ve never seen you focused except on police work and that\u2019s different. I\u2019m not sure you\u2019re the meditating type.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim looked totally disgusted and said, \u201cI was afraid you would say that. I somehow knew there was no hope.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cWe could try, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou\u2019re willing to teach me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, I think it\u2019s wonderful that you\u2019re willing to give meditation a chance. Do you have a reason?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI do have a reason, but it\u2019s very personal. So I\u2019d rather just keep it to myself.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThat works too. Let\u2019s finish breakfast, clean the kitchen and then get down to business,\u201d Naomi suggested. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cSounds good to me, Naomi. Thanks for giving it a try.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nBlair noticed that the kids were all filling in things on the test. None of them seemed to be looking around for answers. He had a feeling that they were going to get good grades. This made him so proud. Now if he just knew what Jim and Naomi were up to, he\u2019d have it made. What if Jim was making a move on her right this minute? What would Blair do about that? Would he be able to forgive Jim for that? Blair shook his head to clear it and got back to thinking about his students. His head needed to be here. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nJim put on sweat pants and a tee shirt, walked down the stairs and sat down on the floor. Naomi showed him how to fold his legs and keep his posture straight. He was learning quickly but he hadn\u2019t had to actually meditate yet. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, can I ask you if you\u2019re trying to learn this to get closer to me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cNo, Naomi, you couldn\u2019t be more wrong. I am trying to learn something new for someone else, but not you. I\u2019m sorry. Did I give you that impression?\u201d<\/p>\n
\nNaomi thought for a moment and said, \u201cActually you\u2019ve been the perfect gentlemen since I arrived. It\u2019s almost an insult, you do know that, right?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair would be very upset if it was anything else. Do you know how much it bothers him that all of his friends had a thing for you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cOh my, that bothered him? He wasn\u2019t meditating enough at the time,\u201d Naomi said smiling. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cNaomi, not everything can be fixed with meditation. I think it\u2019s a great start, but I know if I wanted someone to pay attention to me and they didn\u2019t because of you I would be bothered by that. Do you understand?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cNo, now let\u2019s get down to business.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim sat up straight with his legs crossed just right and began to close his eyes and take deep breaths. Naomi then told him how to empty his mind and breathe properly. Before long he was relaxing. Before too long, he was unaware of anything in the room but his own heartbeat. He didn\u2019t even hear Naomi\u2019s. He was deep into this meditation and he liked it. He was instantly relaxed and happy. He thought about all of the times Blair was doing this and he wished he could join him, but didn\u2019t know how to ask Blair about it. He didn\u2019t want to appear needy. <\/p>\n
\nIt was time for Jim to think about why he wanted to be near Blair when they meditated. Jim thought that it was because he was hoping the closeness of meditating together would bring them closer together. They could almost become as one. He wondered if he and Blair would be able to communicate with each other while this was going on. It was like a trance and Jim thought about the trances he and Blair had been in before and saw each other and could see each other in spirit guide form. Where could they go with all of this? It was mind boggling and Jim was thrilled at being given the chance to try this out. <\/p>\n
\nJim had all of the time in the world to think about this. He would have to tell Blair about his thoughts, but he was sure that Blair would be thrilled about being able to communicate while in a trance. Blair was always up for new things. The thought of Blair made him smile inside himself. He wasn\u2019t quite sure what to do with that feeling yet, but at least he had made it into the meditating stage thus far. <\/p>\n
\nJim felt a slight tingle go through his body. His body wasn\u2019t hot, just warm and happy. He now knew why Blair loved to do this. It was so relaxing and comfortable. Jim\u2019s mind was totally liberated. Jim was happier than he had ever been. He wished Blair was with him so they could talk about some things that Jim worried about. Like why didn\u2019t Jim want to date anyone anymore, but yet was happy and content being at home with Blair watching games and playing 5000 Rummy? Maybe Blair could explain the reasoning to him. Or why he was obsessed with cooking dinner lately. No matter whose night it was to cook, Jim was almost always in the kitchen working. Why was he suddenly doing that? <\/p>\n
\nThe next thing he knew someone was touching his chest, rubbing it gently, then moving to his neck and up to his face. Jim thought about Blair and smiled. But then he realized it wouldn\u2019t be Blair. Blair was in class. Naomi was touching him? Suddenly Jim wasn\u2019t that relaxed any longer. He started breathing differently and came out of the meditation. Blair was sitting on the floor in front of him. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, what are you doing home from class already?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI\u2019ve got a better question. What the hell do you think you\u2019re doing?\u201d Blair barked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYour mother taught me to meditate. I loved it. It worked. I did it. I thought you would be pleased, not angry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, she\u2019s been trying to bring you out of it for two hours. She finally called me and I came home to see if you were all right. You were barely breathing.\u201d <\/p>\n
\nJim looked at Blair\u2019s face and smiled. On this face, he saw love, concern, worry, friendship and many other things. Jim realized at that moment that he loved Blair and maybe Blair loved him. He wasn\u2019t sure about that right then. Blair was upset with him. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cChief, I feel fine. I\u2019m doing better then I\u2019ve ever felt before. I loved meditating. I didn\u2019t mean to scare Naomi, but it was so nice, I didn\u2019t want to leave it yet. I promise next time, we\u2019ll do it together. I had some suggestions about that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, I don\u2019t think you should be meditating at all. You go in too deep and there is always a chance you could be lost. So, there will be no more meditating. Am I understood? \u201c<\/p>\n
\nJim frowned. \u201cChief, you can\u2019t tell me what to do and what not to do. If I want to meditate, I will. I just need to have you close by. We\u2019ll be more careful next time.\u201d <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou\u2019re not listening, Jim. We\u2019re not doing this together or apart. You have to promise me that you won\u2019t do it again by yourself. Do you promise?\u201d Blair pleaded. <\/p>\n
\nJim realized that Blair was just worried about him. \u201cChief, while I was in the trance, I thought about what it would be like for Sentinel and Guide. We might be able to reach each other, see each other, talk to each other and communicate that way too. I think we should give it a try before you give up totally.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair thought for a moment and decided that Jim might have a good point. \u201cYou really think we could communicate?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI don\u2019t know, but I think it\u2019s something we should try. I thought about our spirit animals while I was under and I think they might even play a part in it,\u201d Jim reasoned. <\/p>\n
\nBefore Jim or Blair could say anymore, Naomi said, \u201cBlair honey, the reason you meditate is to be alone, find your center and relax with peace and tranquility. You\u2019re talking about communicating with Jim, which would turn the meditation into something completely different. You would no longer be practicing meditation. I think you need to give that some thought before you do anything as rash as trying to communicate with Jim while he is in a trance.\u201d <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou\u2019re right, mom. I shouldn\u2019t have even considered it,\u201d Blair said quickly. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cGood, now I don\u2019t want anymore talk about this again,\u201d Naomi said as she walked into the bedroom and shut the door. <\/p>\n
\nBlair turned to Jim and said, \u201cAs soon as she leaves, we\u2019ll try it and find out.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThank you for giving it a second thought,\u201d Jim answered. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWhile we\u2019re talking and being so truthful, I need you to tell me why you were watching my mother last night. I want the truth.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim sighed and said, \u201cIt all had to do with meditation. I wondered if she could teach me to do it, first of all. Secondly, I needed to know if I would like it. And lastly, I wanted to see if it would bring you and me closer together.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair looked at Jim oddly and said, \u201cJim, there is nothing wrong with us. Why would you think we needed to be closer together?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI found something out while I was in that trance. I found out I really like being liberated and that I might be in love,\u201d Jim said quietly. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWith my mom?\u201d Blair asked, horrified. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cNo, Einstein, with you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cHey, no need to call me names. You decided that after one meditation you were in love with me? I\u2019m afraid that it doesn\u2019t work like that. You might have misread something that you thought or saw.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cAgain, Einstein, you\u2019re not always the brightest bulb in the box,\u201d Jim teased. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, you don\u2019t wake up one day and decide that you love someone.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, who stopped dating about six months ago?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou did, but I figured you were just going through a dry spell.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cNow, answer me this, Chief. Who has been doing almost all of the cooking even on his nights off?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cWhy were you cooking that much? I wondered about that, but didn\u2019t want to raise a fuss because I didn\u2019t have to do it, so it worked perfectly for me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI was cooking that much because I was trying to woo you. I guess I didn\u2019t do a very good job, because you don\u2019t look wooed to me. You look confused,\u201d Jim joked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou were trying to woo me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYes, I was jealous of the fact that your mom and you were able to meditate together and I wasn\u2019t part of it. So that\u2019s why I decided to try and see if I could do it. Actually I really didn\u2019t see myself being able to relax enough to meditate. But it went really well and I liked it a lot.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cSo what was the look you had on your face last night, while watching my mom?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cIt might have been one of wonder. I\u2019m amazed that she gave birth to someone so incredible and still remains a fantastic person herself. I\u2019m in awe of her. She\u2019s one of the luckiest people I know. She\u2019s your mom and she\u2019s your friend. I hope she knows how lucky she is,\u201d Jim explained. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, I\u2019m in shock. I can\u2019t believe you feel this way and I never noticed. What sort of a Guide am I? At least you figured it out. But where was I? Why didn\u2019t I notice what you were doing? This doesn\u2019t say much about me, does it? I\u2019ve fallen down on the job, big time. I\u2019m sorry, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, I don\u2019t want you to be sorry, I just want you to think about dating me. That was going to be my next suggestion to you. I thought it would be nice if we went to a nice restaurant and acted like a real couple and see how we like it. Are you at all interested?\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair looked at the totally stupid man and said, \u201cDuh.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cDuh, what? You\u2019re going to have to do better then duh,\u201d Jim said almost laughing. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYes, I would like to go on a date with you. And yes, I\u2019m way interested.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cAll right then, how about dinner tomorrow night at The Eye of The Dragon?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cOh my God, we\u2019ve never been there, but I\u2019ve heard it\u2019s really good. I would love to go there, Jim. Thank you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou\u2019re welcome. Dress for dinner, okay? I like you in a suit,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\nBlair smiled. \u201cA suit it will be. I just got a new one. You haven\u2019t even seen it yet.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI already know I\u2019m going to love it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, has anyone ever told you, you\u2019re sort of easy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim threw his head back and laughed, feeling good about both of them. \u201cWhy yes, people have always said I was easy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI never would have guessed that. I can\u2019t wait for tomorrow night. I wish it was tonight,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYour mom leaves in the morning, Chief. That\u2019s why tomorrow night.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nNaomi came walking out of the room and said, \u201cDid you boys figure everything out?\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair burst out laughing making Naomi stop and look strangely at her son\u2019s face. \u201cWhy are you laughing, Blair?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cWe realized that we\u2019re in love with each other. Who knew?\u201d Blair asked no one in particular. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cOh honey, I knew that the moment I saw you together.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou did not. Did she, Jim?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI don\u2019t know. I don\u2019t have a clue, making me clueless. I don\u2019t care if she knew. I only care if you know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cSee how romantic he is?\u201d Blair was thrilled with his new love. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, honey, I think you need to get out more.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim glared at her and said, \u201cHe\u2019s perfect the way he is.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cOh my God, you\u2019re both goners. I just hope that you both know what you\u2019re doing,\u201d Naomi stated. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWhy wouldn\u2019t we know what we were doing?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, he\u2019s your research subject,\u201d Naomi reminded him. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cMy research is now going to be closed societies of the police department. I have enough for a paper already,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou\u2019re changing topics?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI can\u2019t study you and sleep with you at the same time, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThat makes sense, I guess. I just know how important the Sentinel Project was to you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou and I know the truth and that\u2019s all that matters,\u201d Blair replied. <\/p>\n
\nSomehow Jim wondered if Blair was being truthful to himself, but he didn\u2019t want to raise too much trouble, since he was taking this wonderful man on a date tomorrow night. <\/p>\n
\nThey all talked about anything and everything until it was bedtime. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nJim tossed and turned all night long. He had very vivid dreams of a warm, sexy and naked Guide. This Guide was showing him things that he had never done before, but had heard about. He hoped that his Guide would show him the ropes so to speak. It had been a long, long while since James Joseph Ellison had fucked a man. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nBlair was having the same trouble sleeping that night. He kept getting hard and having to sleep on the hard floor wasn\u2019t helping anything. All he could dream about was how great Jim was going to look naked. Oh, he had seen Jim naked before, but never for him. There are two kinds of naked. One where someone doesn\u2019t give a damn who sees them and the other is for just one other person to see. That\u2019s what Blair was looking forward to. He couldn\u2019t wait until he found out if Jim would let him top. Blair loved topping and sometimes men didn\u2019t like that. It was something they would have to discuss. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nWhen Blair got up the next day, Jim had already left for work. Blair made a nice breakfast for himself and Naomi and brewed some tea especially for her. She walked out of her room and smiled at her son. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cOh you knew I needed some tea, didn\u2019t you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI figured you would, yes. How did you sleep, mom?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI slept just fine, how did you sleep, honey?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cLike shit. I had too much on my mind. I can\u2019t wait for my date tonight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, honey, are you sure you want to date Jim? You\u2019ve lived this entire time without dating him and suddenly you think it\u2019s a good idea?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cMom, are you against this?\u201d Blair asked, looking somewhat hurt. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI really wanted grandchildren some day.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cMaybe we\u2019ll adopt,\u201d Blair answered. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cDo you really think Jim is the type that would adopt a child at his age?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI think he would if he knew I wanted to. I\u2019m not even sure I<\/b> want to?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI knew it meant no grandchildren. I\u2019m disappointed,\u201d Naomi admitted. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWell, you\u2019ll have to be happy with just the two of us for right now. We\u2019ll talk about family later. I think it\u2019s too early in the relationship to discuss children anyhow,\u201d Blair explained. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou do promise to never meditate with him, right?\u201d Naomi asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cMom, stop worrying. We\u2019re adults. We know what we\u2019re doing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cOh my God that means you\u2019re going to do it aren\u2019t you?\u201d Naomi was up and pacing like her son usually did. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI have no idea what we\u2019re doing as of yet. So, we\u2019re safe, okay? We discussed that it might be dangerous and we\u2019ll play it by ear.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cDo you really love him, Blair?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI really love him, Naomi.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cEnough to give up your Sentinel studies for?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYes, enough for anything, mom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThen I wish you both the best of luck. Now, I need to pack because I told Roger that I would be there this afternoon. You have to call me and tell me how you are tomorrow, okay?\u201d Naomi pleaded. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cNaomi, I promise to call. Jim will even say hi. I\u2019ll make him,\u201d Blair teased. <\/p>\n
\nNaomi walked into Blair\u2019s room to pack and Blair just smiled at the thought of his mother worrying so much. It would do her good. She didn\u2019t worry about anything when he was young and she should have. <\/p>\n
\nOnce she was done packing, Blair walked her downstairs to her car and hugged her like he was never going to see her again. Naomi hugged him back just as hard. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI love you, Blair.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cAnd I love you, mom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nShe got in the car before she made a scene that she didn\u2019t want to be part of and drove off waving at her son, tearfully. She could hardly wait to get to Roger\u2019s house so she could meditate. She really needed it. <\/p>\n
\nBlair walked back into the loft and had a bounce to his step all the way. He couldn\u2019t wait for his date. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nJim had an excellent day at work. He didn\u2019t get any calls out and got caught up on all of his paperwork. Blair would be so proud when he came in the next day. Jim couldn\u2019t wait to get home and get ready to go to dinner. He had made the reservations for two at 7:00. That way Jim had time to clean up before he dressed for dinner. He was going to have them go in a cab so they could both have wine with dinner and then a cab home afterwards. Jim had all day to think about what he was going to do to Blair, but he tried not to. He really didn\u2019t want to have a hard-on while in the bullpen. <\/p>\n
\nSimon called out, \u201cEllison, my office.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim walked in carrying all of the paperwork that Simon no doubt was going to ask about and Simon said, \u201cI need you for stakeout tonight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cSir, can\u2019t Rafe or Brown do it? I\u2019ve got a date that I had all planned and everything,\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, I wouldn\u2019t ask if it wasn\u2019t important. I need you there to listen. There is no where to put a microphone to hear what they are saying. We need to find out where the next load of guns is coming in. They\u2019re cop killers Jim. We need to get them. You can listen from the street, can\u2019t you?\u201d Simon inquired. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI guess so, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, I\u2019m really sorry about your date, but we\u2019re talking life and death here. Not fucking some woman\u2019s brains out.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cSir, I\u2019ll go home and have dinner first. Where am I going for this stakeout?\u201d Jim asked very sarcastically. <\/p>\n
\nSimon gave him a paper with the address on it and Jim left for the day. He didn\u2019t even tell Simon he was leaving for sure or not. He was one pissed off puppy. <\/p>\n
\nIn his truck, he called the restaurant and cancelled his reservations. Then he dialed Blair. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cSandburg.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, I wanted to tell you before I got home that something came up and I have to work tonight. It\u2019s up to you if you want to work with me or not. I\u2019m not happy about it, but Simon said it\u2019s important, so I had to do it. I\u2019m sorry about tonight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cHey, there is always tomorrow night, Jim. I\u2019ll go with you tonight and we\u2019ll get the bad guys, okay?\u201d <\/p>\n
\n\u201cThanks, Chief. I\u2019ll see you in a few minutes. Want to have Thai food tonight?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cSure, I\u2019ll order it and it\u2019ll be here by the time you get home. See you in a few,\u201d Blair said sweetly. <\/p>\n
\nWhen Jim got home, he could smell that the food had already arrived. He found himself really hungry and realized that he forgot to have lunch that afternoon. <\/p>\n
\nJim walked in and Blair greeted him with a big smile on his face and dinner on the table. Jim smiled back and said, \u201cYou\u2019re a sight for sore eyes, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair smiled even more if that was possible. They sat down and had dinner and Jim told him about the arms dealers and that they needed to hear something soon. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cMan, your senses will come in handy. We\u2019ll act like a couple. We don\u2019t have to really act, do we? We\u2019ll walk up and down the street outside the building and you\u2019ll see if you can hear anything. Simon can\u2019t expect miracles, so he\u2019s got to take what you can give him. He does know that right?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\nJim leaned across the table and kissed Blair. \u201cNo, we don\u2019t have to pretend we\u2019re a couple, we are a couple.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThis will be fine, Jim. We\u2019ll hopefully get some information for Simon and then we can go on our date tomorrow night. I can\u2019t wait.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cNeither can I. I already changed our reservations from tonight to tomorrow night, if Simon tells me I can\u2019t, I might kill him,\u201d Jim said truthfully. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI can\u2019t have you going to prison. So, we\u2019ll be good. We\u2019ll get something good tonight, you just wait and see.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nThey finished dinner and then both rested for about two hours in preparation for the stakeout. Both men actually slept pretty well because they were exhausted from no sleep the night before. <\/p>\n
\nWhen Jim got up, he put on a pair of jeans and a tee shirt. He came walking down the stairs and found Blair dressed exactly the same way. <\/p>\n
\nThey got ready to go and Jim drove to the building that he needed to listen at. <\/p>\n
\nBlair was sitting in the truck trying to be quiet and not bother Jim, but that didn\u2019t come easily. <\/p>\n
\nBlair finally couldn\u2019t stand it anymore and asked, \u201cDo you hear anyone or anything, yet?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThere are two people in there so far, but they aren\u2019t discussing anything that Simon could use. I hope Simon got the right place,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\nBlair said, \u201cCan I talk to you or are you too focused on them right now?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cTalk, I\u2019m not even listening to them. I\u2019m waiting for some bigger guns and then we\u2019ll get out of the truck and start our walk,\u201d Jim stated. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI know this is a funky time and place, but how do you feel about me, exactly?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou want me to tell you right now?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWe\u2019re not doing anything else.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, I\u2019m totally in love with you. I fell for you about six months ago when I realized it wasn\u2019t just a friendly feeling anymore. I didn\u2019t know what to do with it, so I just stopped dating and waited hoping you would figure it out. But neither of us said anything. I\u2019m sorry, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cDon\u2019t be sorry for loving me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI\u2019d never be sorry for loving you. Ever. I meant I was sorry for not saying anything sooner.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, I\u2019m in love with you too. Not quite as long as you. About two months ago, I started feeling different towards you. But we were such good friends and we were happy, so I didn\u2019t want to make waves. So, for that, I\u2019m sorry too.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim cocked his head and asked, \u201cWhat about a walk?\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair knew that meant someone was there that Jim was interested in. Jim made sure his gun didn\u2019t show at all. <\/p>\n
\nThey walked with Jim\u2019s arm around Blair\u2019s shoulder as they came up towards the building. Jim leaned Blair into the building and started kissing him. Blair was really getting into it and didn\u2019t even care if this was for show or not. Jim was a fabulous kisser and Blair found himself humping up against Jim\u2019s body. Jim stopped him and whispered, \u201cCalm down, Chief. I have to listen and I can\u2019t when you do that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair smiled and went back to just kissing. He even slowed down a little bit and he felt Jim tense up as Jim got closer to him and Blair wondered what was going on. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWhat are you freaks doing out here?\u201d Some idiot called out. <\/p>\n
\nBlair looked at him and said, \u201cWho are you calling a freak?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou two. What are you doing here?\u201d the man asked stupidly. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWhat do you think we\u2019re doing?\u201d Blair answered. <\/p>\n
\nJim smiled down at Blair and kissed his lips right in front of the guy. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI hate fags. Move it along or I\u2019ll come out and move you myself,\u201d the man shouted and Jim and Blair started walking down the street towards the truck. <\/p>\n
\nThey got in and Jim called Simon. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cBanks.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cSimon, the shipment is coming in tomorrow afternoon on the docks. The loading crate is number 6L. They said at 1:00, so be ready for them,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cThank you, Jim. Are you going to listen some more?\u201d Simon asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cNo, we were made, we\u2019re leaving now,\u201d Jim said as he drove down the street in the opposite direction of the building. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cThanks, again, Jim. Take tomorrow off and show that girl a nice time.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cOkay, I will. Thanks, Simon.\u201d Jim closed his cell phone and smiled at Blair. \u201cHe thinks I\u2019m going to take some nice woman out tomorrow night. I didn\u2019t know what to say.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cDo you want him to know?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cNot really. I\u2019m not sure who I want to know at this stage in our relationship. It\u2019s all too new yet, don\u2019t you think?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cDo you ever plan on anyone knowing about us?\u201d <\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, they\u2019re going to know soon enough. They come for poker and your room will now be our office, so they\u2019re going to know. I just don\u2019t know when.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cOkay, I just didn\u2019t want you to be ashamed of us.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cChief, I would never be ashamed of you. Just like that man tonight, I wanted to kiss you in front of him. It was like I was showing off.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI could tell. You\u2019re a bad boy, Detective Ellison.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nThey both snickered at that and then held hands all the way home. After that fantastic kissing, they had to do something with their hands. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nWhen they arrived home, Jim said, \u201cWell, I guess I\u2019ll see you in the morning.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThat\u2019s it?\u201d Blair wondered. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI don\u2019t want to sleep with you until we\u2019ve had a fucking date,\u201d Jim stated. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cOkay, I guess I understand that. Man, this is going to be a tough night. See you in the morning.\u201d Blair walked into his room and shut the door loudly. Jim knew that Blair wasn\u2019t happy with him, but Jim wanted everything to be right. <\/p>\n
\nJim got ready for bed and walked up the stairs, wishing he could take it all back already. He wanted Blair in the worst way. But this gave him one more night of dreaming of how it could be. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nWhen Jim finally got up the next day, Blair was already gone for the day. He had a class to teach and Jim had plans to make. He walked down to the bakery and ordered a cake, specially made. It was going to be a giant \u00e9clair filled with whipped cream, hot-melted chocolate, vanilla ice cream and Bavarian Cream. Someone had told him about it once, so he told the baker what he needed and he agreed to it. Jim said he would pick it up at 3:00. The baker told Jim that he needed to freeze it until he wanted to eat it, and then leave out for about an hour before eating. Jim could hardly wait for dessert. <\/p>\n
\nJim showered and dressed at about 4:30, because he was bored and didn\u2019t have anything else to do. It was either that, or think up dirty things to do to Blair all night long. Actually he thought that idea was a good one more then once. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nOn the drive home from the University, Blair was thinking about Jim. Who else would he be thinking about? He wondered if Jim had told him the truth about how he looked at Naomi. How would he know if Jim was telling the truth? Maybe if they meditated and he asked him in the trance state how he really felt, he might tell the truth and nothing but the truth. <\/p>\n
\nBlair felt so alive and hoped that Jim was telling him exactly how he felt. If that was the case, then he didn\u2019t have to worry about the look on Jim\u2019s face, anymore. It had been one he didn\u2019t recognize, ever. So, it explained why he was so uptight about it. He would talk to Jim once more before they started the entire night. He wanted everything to be clear and out in the open. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nWhen Blair walked into the loft, Jim was already dressed in his suit. He looked good enough to eat. Blair had to smile at the pun. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cHey, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cHey, Blair.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair went over to Jim and pulled him down for a much needed kiss. Jim gladly went to him. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, I have something to ask you really fast. Are you sure you didn\u2019t have any feelings for my mother while you were looking at her the other night?\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim sighed and said, \u201cNo, I told you it was a look of wonder, nothing more, nothing less. There was nothing there, Blair. I love you, not her. Now, I would like to know if we can move this date along.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cThat\u2019s all I needed to know. I was worried. All of my friends always had a thing for her. So, I fretted over her making a move on you. She never meant to do things like that, but always did them anyhow. I\u2019m glad you chose me and not her. Well, I\u2019d better go and get ready, since you\u2019re all set to go. I can\u2019t wait to try out this new restaurant. Connor is so jealous,\u201d Blair mentioned. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou told Connor about our first date?\u201d <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYeah, she called me at the U today and asked me if I would go to eat with her tonight. So, I told her about our date. Are you angry?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI\u2019m not angry, just wondering why you didn\u2019t just say no,\u201d Jim remarked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou know Jim, you\u2019re starting to piss me off. So, I suggest we stop talking about Connor and move on.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI\u2019m sorry, I\u2019m a little nervous.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou\u2019re nervous? Do you hear my heart going pitter pat?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cActually your heart is pounding, pat, pat, pat, pat, pat. There is no pitter. I can tell you\u2019re nervous, too,\u201d Jim teased. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI can\u2019t wait until we finish dinner and make love. That\u2019s what I\u2019m excited about,\u201d Blair said happily. <\/p>\n
\nJim waited patiently while Blair changed his clothing and came walking out in his new suit. Blair looked wonderful in charcoal gray. \u201cBlair you look very handsome tonight.\u201d Jim leaned down and gave him a quick kiss. <\/p>\n
\nBlair couldn\u2019t believe Jim was telling him how handsome he looked. He felt like chopped liver next to studly Jim. \u201cJim, you look gorgeous. I wish we could take pictures of our first date.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cHang on a minute.\u201d Jim flew up the stairs, got his camera and came down again. \u201cNow, let me set it up and we\u2019ll pose for it.\u201d <\/p>\n
\nJim set the camera up exactly as they needed it to be and then it took the picture of the boys. It turned out very nicely, but Jim took a second one just in case. Then he set it up one more time and they kissed during that one. Jim wanted keepsakes of all of these things. <\/p>\n
\n~~~~~~~~~~<\/p>\n
\nDinner was just as excellent as they had heard it was. They ordered different items, so they could eat off each other\u2019s plates. When dessert menus came, Jim told Blair he had dessert at home. Blair wiggled his eyebrows and laughed. <\/p>\n
\nJim smiled. \u201cNo, I bought dessert and it\u2019s waiting for us. I took it out and left it in the fridge for when we get home.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nOnce they were driving home, Blair found himself getting nervous again. He didn\u2019t know why. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, we don\u2019t have to do anything tonight. We can date a while before we hop into bed if that would make you more comfortable. How does that sound?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cYou really wouldn\u2019t mind?\u201d Blair asked softly. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cNot at all. That gives us more time to get used to each other as lovers rather than friends.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cGood, because I have some questions,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cAsk away,\u201d Jim replied. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cHow do you feel about bottoming sometimes?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI don\u2019t mind as long as it\u2019s you. I\u2019ve never done it, so I\u2019ll be your virgin bottom.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cHot damn. Well, Jim I had a wonderful time tonight and hope that we have many, many more coming up. I love you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nJim kissed Blair after he parked and said, \u201cLet\u2019s start our new life together. I think we\u2019re both ready. What do you think?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cDo you have any questions or anything like that?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI wondered if you would Guide me in rimming. I\u2019ve never done it, or had it done to me, but I\u2019ve read about it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cI\u2019ll Guide you like you\u2019ve never been Guided before. This is going to be fun,\u201d Blair answered. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cHow would you like to meditate tonight and see if we can communicate?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cOh, that\u2019s a good idea. We\u2019ll try and see what happens.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nOnce they were changed and settled in the living room, they both began to do deep breathing exercises and closed their eyes. Before long Jim was in that special place that he loved and waited to see or hear anything that would bring Blair closer to him. <\/p>\n
\nBefore long, he saw the wolf and then he saw the panther. They were running around chasing each other\u2019s tails. This made Jim smile big time. Then he glanced over across the room and saw Blair standing there. Blair started taking off his clothing and Jim couldn\u2019t breathe right at that time. Jim came out of the trance and found a smiling Blair waiting for him. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cWhat\u2019s up with taking your clothes off?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\n\u201cI wanted you to come back on your own. I tried reaching you, but didn\u2019t get anywhere. I think it\u2019s fantastic that we saw each other in our dream state, but I think we\u2019re pushing it for talking.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cBlair, how would you like to sleep with me tonight?\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u201cJim, I would love to sleep with you tonight. And if the spirit moves us, we could do something else too. Let\u2019s let nature take its course.\u201d<\/p>\n
\nBlair and Jim walked up the stairs together to start living in an entirely different way. They were ready. <\/p>\n
\nThe end<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Liberation By Patt Summary: Blair tries to figure out what Jim is really thinking. Prompt: “What if the first time Jim and Naomi met, Blair realized there was something behind that look Jim gave Naomi when she practiced yoga (when … Continue reading