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<\/a><\/center><\/p>\nLies
\nBy Patt<\/p>\n
As Jim walked towards the break room he heard Blair tell Connor, \u201cNah, I\u2019m not in love with him. But he\u2019s, you know, good where it counts.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSandy, that\u2019s a horrible thing to say. You know you love him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s not like that with us. We\u2019re guys. We don\u2019t get all emotionally involved like chicks do,\u201d Blair laughed. <\/p>\n
Jim turned around and walked back to his desk. The problem with what Blair said was that he did love Blair. Jim guessed that meant he must be the chick of the relationship. They hadn\u2019t said anything about it, but Jim had hoped to tell Blair soon, because he wanted him to know. Now he was glad he had overheard what was said in the break room so he didn\u2019t make a complete fool of himself. He had done that once before in a relationship and it was not only heartbreaking but embarrassing. Jim didn\u2019t want to experience that terrible ordeal again. <\/p>\n
But at the same time Jim found himself very disappointed, because he\u2019d thought he had a future with Blair. Now it seemed that Blair was just his fuck buddy. <\/p>\n
Blair sauntered into the bullpen carrying coffee for Jim. \u201cHere you go, man, I figured you might need some of this sludge.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, thanks,\u201d Jim answered, coldly. <\/p>\n
Blair sat down at his desk and asked, \u201cWhat\u2019s wrong with you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know. What\u2019s wrong with me?\u201d Jim mimicked. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim? You\u2019re not making any sense. What happened? Is it something with your senses?\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim looked at the concerned man across from him and realized that everything about them was a lie. Blair didn\u2019t love Jim-he only cared about the Sentinel studies. Jim was suddenly very sure of this. <\/p>\n
Jim got up, whispered, \u201cIt\u2019s nothing to do with my senses. Not everything involves my senses.\u201d Jim then walked over to Simon\u2019s door and knocked. <\/p>\n
\u201cCome in, Ellison,\u201d barked Simon. <\/p>\n
\u201cSir, I\u2019m not feeling too well, do you mind if I take off for the day?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cSure, take the kid and go home for the day. It\u2019s slow today anyhow.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ll leave him here to do paper work. We\u2019re a little behind on that. He can catch up while I rest,\u201d Jim suggested. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re mad at him about something, am I right?\u201d Simon asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou could say that,\u201d Jim answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cDo I want to know about this?\u201d Simon wondered. <\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think so, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHoly crap, that\u2019s two sirs in one day. Get lost. I\u2019ll put the kid to work and keep him out of your hair,\u201d Simon said. <\/p>\n
\u201cThank you,\u201d Jim said as he walked out of the room. <\/p>\n
Simon stood in his doorway and said, \u201cSandburg, my office, now.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair started in there but not before he saw Jim get on the elevator carrying his jacket. What the fuck did I miss<\/i>?<\/p>\n
\u201cHey Simon, what\u2019s going on with Jim?\u201d Blair asked as he walked into Simon\u2019s office smiling. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe wants to be alone, kid. Now, I\u2019d like you to try and catch up on some of the paperwork that sitting on Jim\u2019s desk. Are you up for it?\u201d Simon asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cOf course I\u2019m up for it, Simon. Paperwork is a breeze for me. What\u2019s wrong with Jim?\u201d Blair inquired. <\/p>\n
\u201cHell if I know, but I know someone that needs to worry less about Jim and more about paperwork.\u201d<\/p>\n
Simon opened his door and Blair walked out, looking very confused. <\/p>\n
Jim walked down to the garage in the station and dejectedly got into his truck. On one hand he felt bad for leaving Blair without saying a word, but on the other hand he felt that it was best left unsaid. Jim realized that might have been part of the big problem. He knew that a portion of it was his fault, but a lot of it was Blair not being in love with him. Jim wasn\u2019t sure how to handle that. He adored the man, yet Blair didn\u2019t feel anything for Jim? This left Jim depressed and in despair. <\/p>\n
Back in the bullpen, Connor walked up to Blair and said, \u201cWhat\u2019s going on, Sandy? Where is Jimbo?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ve got me. He left without a word to me. He told Simon he didn\u2019t feel well and left me to do the paperwork. That\u2019s about typical, isn\u2019t it?\u201d Blair asked, quite disgusted with Jim at the moment. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat if he heard what you said in the break room, Sandy?\u201d Connor whispered. <\/p>\n
\u201cSo? He\u2019s a guy, Connor. He would be the first to agree with me. We don\u2019t let all of that drama get into our lives. I\u2019ve been with him for two months and I don\u2019t have to worry about telling him where I am or who I\u2019m with. It\u2019s great. It\u2019s like a totally open relationship. Did it ever occur to you that it might be the job? Not everything is about us.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair sat down and started working on some of the paperwork and Connor just glared at him. She sat down next to him and whispered, \u201cYou\u2019re not exclusive?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, we haven\u2019t even discussed that. That\u2019s why it\u2019s great to be with a guy. We don\u2019t worry about that shit,\u201d Blair said quietly. <\/p>\n
\u201cI think one of you is a grommer and the other one is in shock right now. I feel so bad for him. I never thought I would say this, but you\u2019re a drongo,\u201d Connor said, loudly and stormed off. <\/p>\n
Rafe started laughing and said, \u201cWow, she usually reserves that name for me or Henri. What did you do, Hairboy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI was just being one of the guys. She took offense to that, I guess. Women-you can never understand them,\u201d Blair muttered as he continued to work on the pile of papers on Jim\u2019s desk. <\/p>\n
Rafe and Henri talked about how great it was to be a guy for about an hour, while Blair tried to figure out what was wrong with Jim. <\/p>\n
Blair began to wonder if there was something wrong with his senses and he hadn\u2019t wanted to share it with him. But that would make no sense-Blair being the Guide and all. Maybe it was something happening at work. Blair would have to ask him. He no sooner was thinking about calling Jim when the phone rang. <\/p>\n
\u201cSandburg,\u201d he said quickly. <\/p>\n
\u201cSandburg, I\u2019m going to be gone for a few days, so I was wondering if you could please find another place to live while I\u2019m gone,\u201d Jim said as casually as his broken heart allowed. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat the hell are you talking about? Where are you going?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cIt doesn\u2019t matter, just be gone when I get back. I\u2019m going to be back in three days, so please don\u2019t make a scene. I found someone that is special and I want to share my life with her.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim, you know that\u2019s not what\u2019s going on. Why aren\u2019t you sharing your problems with me?\u201d Blair stated loudly. Instead of answering, Jim hung up. Blair looked at the phone for a moment then, realizing that everyone in the bullpen was staring at him, he, too, hung the phone up, walked over to Simon\u2019s office and knocked.<\/p>\n
\u201cCome in, Sandburg,\u201d Simon barked. <\/p>\n
\u201cSimon, did Jim just call you and ask for time off?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cAs a matter of fact, he did. He\u2019s taking three days. He didn\u2019t sound really happy with you, so I\u2019d stay clear of him for the next few days,\u201d Simon suggested. <\/p>\n
\u201cHell, I\u2019m going to be clear. He wants me to move out! It\u2019s been four years and he wants me to leave! Do you believe it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s probably time, then, Sandburg.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair opened up his mouth, ready to say something smart, but decided to shut it instead. \u201cYeah, you\u2019re probably right. I\u2019m going to take off and try and find a place to live.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThere\u2019s an apartment in the building down the street from where I live. Daryl was going to look into it, but it was too much money with him starting college,\u201d Simon stated. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ll come by and look at the place. I can\u2019t afford much either. One nice thing about the loft, it was cheap.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s time, Sandburg. Move on, so Jim can move on too,\u201d Simon said gently as he walked Blair to the door. <\/p>\n
Blair went and cleaned up the mess he had made on Jim\u2019s desk and then got everything put into his backpack and prepared to leave for the day. <\/p>\n
Connor walked by and said, \u201cTrouble in paradise?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh fuck off, Connor,\u201d Blair growled. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou fuck off. You screwed up. Stop blaming everyone else but yourself. You\u2019re an ass, a selfish ass at that,\u201d Connor said before she walked away from him. <\/p>\n
He didn\u2019t bother to argue with her. He was afraid that she might be right, although he was far from sure just what he had done. <\/p>\n
On the way home, he had plenty of time to think about things while stuck in traffic. He thought about that wild night two months before and smiled at the thought of Jim taking him up to his big bed for the first time. He remembered that both of them were nervous, but yet excited as all get out. There really had been no discussion at all about if they would see anyone else or if they were exclusive. Blair hadn\u2019t thought they were that serious, but now he wondered about it and needed to put some deep thought into it. <\/p>\n
Jim had never said anything after they were done messing around, so what was Blair to think? Jim actually didn\u2019t seem that into Blair other than in bed, so why now was Jim suddenly acting as if his virtue had been assaulted? In fact, at first, Blair had thought it might just be a one night thing. He was surprised when Jim asked him to go up to his bed for the next two months. Little by little, Blair had moved a few of his things up to Jim\u2019s room. Jim didn\u2019t seem to mind, but again, didn\u2019t say anything about it, so Blair really didn\u2019t think they were all that permanent. <\/p>\n
The traffic started flowing and Blair listened to the music on the radio instead of thinking. Thinking was troubling sometimes and he wasn\u2019t in the mood for it. The music eased his worried mind and helped distract him from his doubts about Jim. <\/p>\n
That night, as Blair was going through the newspaper trying to find something affordable, Jim walked into the loft. <\/p>\n
\u201cI thought you were staying away for three days?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI am. I needed some more clothes. Any luck with an apartment?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo\u2026It\u2019s impossible to find something on my budget. Jim, can\u2019t we just take things back to the way they were? I\u2019ll stay in the small room and pay you rent that I can afford,\u201d Blair pleaded. <\/p>\n
Jim looked at Blair and had to stop and think for a moment. Would he be doing the right thing in letting Blair stay in the small room or would it be only to have his Guide close by? He didn\u2019t want to appear too needy, but at the same time, he really felt as if he was. Would this win Blair\u2019s love? It was all something Jim needed to think about, but he knew he didn\u2019t have the time to work it out right then. Jim decided that he would settle for having his Guide close to him for the time being. <\/p>\n
\u201cFine, move everything back into your old room and I don\u2019t want anything said about how small it is in there,\u201d Jim agreed. <\/p>\n
\u201cThank you, man.\u201d Blair let out a loud sigh, that he was holding and started carrying everything down from Jim\u2019s room, to his own room. He was reluctant to leave the big bed behind. But he knew better then to say anything. He noticed that Jim was watching television and not leaving. He was heartened. Blair liked hanging out with Jim. What was not to like about Jim Ellison? He looked like a model, he was the best friend in the world and Blair couldn\u2019t help but think about one day getting back into that large bed. <\/p>\n
Once he was done, he joined Jim on the sofa and slid closer, put his arm around Jim\u2019s shoulders and pulled him in for a kiss. Jim jerked back from him and asked, \u201cWhat the fuck are you doing?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI felt like kissing you, is that a problem?\u201d Blair asked huskily. <\/p>\n
Jim frowned and then just looked confused. \u201cChief, I asked you to move out of my room, because I don\u2019t want you in my bed anymore.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re joking, right? We love fucking around. We both do it so well.\u201d Blair winked, as if that would help. <\/p>\n
\u201cWell, I want more of an attachment than you\u2019re willing to give,\u201d Jim said suddenly deciding on honesty. <\/p>\n
This time, Blair pulled away from Jim. \u201cYou did hear me say that about guys today. What\u2019s the deal Jim? You were fine fucking my ass every night for the last two months and now you don\u2019t want to anymore?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBlair,\u201d Jim sighed, \u201cI want more from a relationship than just fucking someone\u2019s ass.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh. My. God. You\u2019ve turned into a woman.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFuck you, Sandburg,\u201d Jim growled, loudly. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, fuck you, Ellison.\u201d Blair stormed off into his little room and slammed the door shut. <\/p>\n
How dare Jim pull this crap after two months of bliss? Everything had been perfect! No one had to say they loved anyone! No one had to say they weren\u2019t going to date anyone else! Perfect! <\/p>\n
Then why did Blair suddenly feel like shit and want to yell at someone?<\/p>\n
Once again, Jim wondered why he was putting up with Blair and his attitude. Could it be that he hoped that Blair would come around to his way of thinking? Of was Jim just lonely enough to allow Blair to walk all over him? <\/p>\n
The following morning, Blair was making toast and coffee and Jim came down the stairs, still wearing his robe. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhy aren\u2019t you ready for work?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI have three days off. See you tonight,\u201d Jim said as he walked into the bathroom and started to strip for a shower. <\/p>\n
Blair stood there with a hard on from just seeing Jim with his hair tousled and needing a shave. Jim was a total turn-on all the time. Why did Jim have to go and ruin everything? He was so tempted to bust into the bathroom and yell at Jim, just so he could see his naked body once again, but he knew it wouldn\u2019t work. Jim was being a hard ass. <\/p>\n
Blair got his things and left for the University. He would stop by the bullpen for a couple of hours that night to finish off some paperwork. <\/p>\n
That afternoon, Blair was sitting at Jim\u2019s desk working on reports when Brown walked up and said, \u201cHey Hairboy, how are you doing?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDandy,\u201d Blair grunted. <\/p>\n
\u201cWe hate paperwork too. How would you like to go out for a drink with me, Rafe and Connor after work? Joel might come too,\u201d Henri asked. <\/p>\n
Blair brightened up at the offer. \u201cYeah, I would like to. Thanks. When are we going?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIn about five minutes. Is it still good for you?\u201d Brown asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ll be ready,\u201d Blair answered and started cleaning up Jim\u2019s desk. Just because Jim was being a butthead didn\u2019t mean that Blair couldn\u2019t go out and have a good time. <\/p>\n
Joel, Henri, Rafe, Connor and Blair all sat at a table at O\u2019Malley\u2019s Pub and ordered their first set of drinks. Connor was the designated driver, so she was having soda. <\/p>\n
Blair ordered a beer with a B52 chaser. <\/p>\n
Henri smiled and said, \u201cThe beer doesn\u2019t work fast enough?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI just feel like getting drunk, Henri. Do you have a problem with that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, but you will tomorrow.\u201d<\/p>\n
They all laughed, but Blair. Maybe this wasn\u2019t such a good idea. Blair wanted to get laid and doing that with work friends wouldn\u2019t work out so well. <\/p>\n
The waitress brought back the drinks and Blair asked for her phone number. She gave it to him and smiled. <\/p>\n
\u201cWow, I must be totally out of it. I thought maybe you and Jim were an item,\u201d Joel teased. Joel had thought they looked like couple material on more than one occasion, but he guessed he was wrong about that. It wouldn\u2019t be the first time. <\/p>\n
\u201cNope, not us,\u201d Blair answered. <\/p>\n
Connor just sat across the table and glared at Blair. Blair glared right back at her. He figured two could play at that game. Nothing was going to ruin his night of getting a number in five minutes. <\/p>\n
\u201cI wonder how Ellison is today,\u201d Connor said. <\/p>\n
\u201cSimon told me he was pretty sick and needed three days off. Blair, why aren\u2019t you home checking on him?\u201d Joel knew that they were good enough friends for at least that much courtesy. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim\u2019s a big boy-he knows how to take care of himself, Joel.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAll right, what\u2019s going on with you and Jim?\u201d Joel asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cNothing, absolutely nothing,\u201d Blair replied. <\/p>\n
Rafe said, \u201cJim didn\u2019t seem that sick when he went home yesterday. I wonder what\u2019s wrong.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh yes, I wonder,\u201d Connor said very sarcastically. <\/p>\n
Everyone looked at her. \u201cOkay, Connor, spill the beans. What\u2019s wrong with Jim?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAll I know is he was dating someone who fucked with his head. I think he\u2019s having a hard time coming around,\u201d Connor said. <\/p>\n
\u201cWho was he dating? I\u2019d like to give her a piece of my mind. Jim is a good dude,\u201d Brown said. <\/p>\n
Blair said, \u201cIt\u2019s none of our business who he was dating, am I right?\u201d<\/p>\n
Joel looked thoughtful for a moment and said, \u201cNormally I would say it\u2019s none of anyone\u2019s business, but we\u2019re talking about a good friend here.\u201d<\/p>\n
Connor said, \u201cHe mentioned something about being in love, but the \u2018object of his affection\u2019 just thought he was good in bed. That must have hurt.\u201d She couldn\u2019t help but give a cold stare in Blair\u2019s direction. <\/p>\n
\u201cWow, I can\u2019t believe anyone would get that impression from Jim. He seems more serious than that,\u201d Joel said. <\/p>\n
\u201cHey, if you want to just fuck around and enjoy it, there is nothing wrong with that,\u201d Rafe said. <\/p>\n
\u201cI agree with Rafe,\u201d Blair said quickly. <\/p>\n
This evening wasn\u2019t turning into the evening he thought it would be. He hoped they moved on and got onto another subject soon. <\/p>\n
\u201cSome day, you both might find someone nice and want to settle down. What if they had that same feeling about you?\u201d Joel asked. <\/p>\n
Before either of them could answer, Connor said, \u201cYeah, I agree with Joel. I hope that Jim finds someone that can love him like a normal person should.\u201d<\/p>\n
Rafe was getting angry. \u201cHey, you don\u2019t have to be in love to fuck.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair smiled. \u201cI couldn\u2019t agree with you more.\u201d<\/p>\n
Joel looked totally disgusted and said, \u201cWell, I imagine that\u2019s true. But right now, Jim is trying to get over loving someone that didn\u2019t love him back. He probably feels like he was used for sex the entire time. That couldn\u2019t be a good feeling.\u201d<\/p>\n
Rafe said, \u201cJoel, you\u2019re old. Old people think you have to be in love to fuck. Young people like me and Sandburg know that you can fuck anyone without loving them, right Sandburg?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cRight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSandy, you do realize you\u2019re agreeing with the pig, don\u2019t you?\u201d Connor asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cHey, who are you calling a pig?\u201d Rafe asked, laughing. <\/p>\n
\u201cWell, for a change he\u2019s right. You don\u2019t have to be in love to sleep with someone,\u201d Blair added. <\/p>\n
\u201cOkay, then let me ask all of you this. Let\u2019s say you\u2019ve been seeing the same person for two months, wouldn\u2019t you think the other person would think it might be serious?\u201d Connor asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cTwo months? I would think that was very serious,\u201d Joel agreed. <\/p>\n
Brown said, \u201cI think that he had every right to think it was serious. I can\u2019t believe he was dating someone for two months and she just dumped him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWho said anyone dumped him?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cWell, if he\u2019s sick and depressed, he must have gotten dumped,\u201d Joel said. <\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe he did the dumping, did you ever think about that?\u201d Blair snapped. <\/p>\n
Connor almost laughed at how pissed off Sandy was getting and said, \u201cMaybe when Jim found out how the other person felt he dumped him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHim?\u201d Joel asked, astonished. <\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, what Joel said,\u201d Brown said, with a twinkle in his eyes. <\/p>\n
Rafe looked stunned and said, \u201cI can\u2019t believe Jim Ellison would date a dude. No wonder the guy he was dating was cold. Gay dudes don\u2019t feel anything. Why would Jim think it would be any different?\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair just sat there with his mouth open. He was shocked at Rafe\u2019s remark. Yet, isn\u2019t that how he had made Jim feel? Maybe he felt the same way Rafe did, God forbid. <\/p>\n
Joel said, \u201cI know many gay men and they love just like we do. So that was a horrible thing to say.\u201d<\/p>\n
Rafe huffed, \u201cThe ones I know, are only in it for the sex. They might date a guy for two months but only because it was easier then finding another hole.\u201d<\/p>\n
Connor was shocked. \u201cA hole? You are an insensitive asshole is what you are. I know quite a few gay men and they don\u2019t feel this way at all.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair was very quiet for a change and Connor noticed. <\/p>\n
Brown said, \u201cRafe, I think you\u2019re an idiot.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHey, I\u2019m just calling things like they really are. I\u2019m being truthful here.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSandy, do you still agree with Rafe on his opinion?\u201d Connor needed to know why he had shut up.<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know how I feel about this. I thought we were going to have fun tonight,\u201d Blair said, \u201cI didn\u2019t know we were going to have a discourse on the sexual ethics of the gay community.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe were concerned about a friend. I thought he was your friend too,\u201d Joel said, wisely. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou know what I think?\u201d Connor interjected. <\/p>\n
Blair just glared at her and said, \u201cI\u2019m sure you\u2019ll tell us.\u201d<\/p>\n
Connor laughed. \u201cI think that anyone that stays with someone for two months is going to feel something for the other person and if someone asked him about it, maybe he felt like he had to lie. Maybe he thought that\u2019s how life worked. Maybe he didn\u2019t know that he might love Jim too. Maybe he still doesn\u2019t know how he feels.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair said, \u201cMaybe you\u2019re right.\u201d<\/p>\n
Rafe laughed really loudly and said, \u201cShe\u2019s not right. The guy just didn\u2019t love him. I don\u2019t know why Jim thought he would. Jim is a sucker if he fell in love with a gay dude, because I\u2019m telling you, they don\u2019t love anyone but who they are going to fuck next.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHow do you know this?\u201d Joel asked, angry once more. <\/p>\n
\u201cI have a brother who is gay and he\u2019s an idiot. He keeps falling for someone and they keep dumping him because they don\u2019t want love. They just want a hole to fill.\u201d<\/p>\n
Everyone moaned at Rafe\u2019s comment. <\/p>\n
Brown said, \u201cIs anyone else as surprised as me that Jim likes guys?\u201d<\/p>\n
Connor answered, \u201cHe just liked one guy. Not guys. It wasn\u2019t his fault that it was the wrong one to fall in love with. He\u2019ll probably never try it again. Ellison doesn\u2019t remind me of a person that can take too much rejection. He\u2019ll probably go back to dating women, although there is still rejection with them too.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair had enough, \u201cYou know what? I\u2019m going to go home. I\u2019m more tired than I realized.\u201d He stood up and so did Connor. \u201cWhat are you doing, Connor?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m the designated driver. I\u2019m driving,\u201d she answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cI only had one drink, Connor, I think I\u2019m fine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cShut up and get in my car,\u201d Connor ordered. <\/p>\n
Joel laughed. \u201cBetter do what she says, son. She\u2019s got a temper.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair said his goodbyes and walked out to the parking lot and got into Connor\u2019s car. <\/p>\n
They were driving and Blair asked, \u201cIs that what you think I did to Jim?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d Connor asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cTreated him like he was just some hole?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes and he thinks that too. But it doesn\u2019t matter. It\u2019s over and done with. Jim will come around. You\u2019ll both get over everything and things will be back to normal.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHe won\u2019t let me kiss him anymore,\u201d Blair said, sadly. <\/p>\n
\u201cWould you kiss someone that broke up with you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI just didn\u2019t think that he meant we could never do the deed again,\u201d Blair said, softly. <\/p>\n
\u201cI guess he felt differently,\u201d Connor answered gently. <\/p>\n
\u201cDo you think he was in love with me?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cDuh. Do you really think I need to answer you on that one, Sandy?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you think we\u2019ll be able to be best friends anymore?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cProbably not. Every time he looks at you, he\u2019s going to remember that you don\u2019t love him. He might even find it embarrassing.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThis sucks, Connor. I fucked up the best friendship in the world, just so I could have great sex for two months. Rafe is right.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou didn\u2019t feel anything for him at all, then, I would take it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHappiness. I loved being with him. We had an open relationship, but he kept me so satisfied that I never thought about going elsewhere,\u201d Blair admitted. <\/p>\n
\u201cDid you ever discuss the open relationship? Did he know you weren\u2019t exclusive?\u201d Connor asked, simply. <\/p>\n
\u201cWe didn\u2019t discuss it, I just took it for granted that we were in an open relationship since it was new to us both and I would guess he assumed the opposite. Now, I wish we had discussed it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSandy, he\u2019s in love with you, he never would have brought it up because he believed you loved him too. I\u2019m glad that you didn\u2019t lie to him and just tell him you loved him so that you could get what you wanted. I have to give you credit for being truthful at least.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThanks, I guess. But now, I not only have no sex partner, but no best friend\u2026.. He did tell me that I could stay in my old room.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSandy, that\u2019s probably not a good idea. He\u2019s going to be in pain every time he sees you. He loves you and now he knows you don\u2019t love him. I\u2019m talking big time pain.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI not only lost the sex, I lost my best friend and now you tell me I need to move?\u201d Blair asked, sadly. <\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s time, Sandy. Jim needs to heal and he can\u2019t do it looking at you every day.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut I\u2019m his Guide. He has to look at me every day,\u201d Blair explained. <\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe you could show me the ropes and I could Guide him. What do you think?\u201d Connor asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cBasically, I lose everything?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLife sucks,\u201d Blair stated. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, real life does suck.\u201d<\/p>\n
Connor pulled into the loft parking lot and stopped the car. Blair got out and said, \u201cThanks for the ride. I\u2019ll talk to you tomorrow or something.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNight, Sandy. Try and get some sleep.\u201d She waited for him to get inside the building and then drove off. As she drove she wondered if they would talk things out and discuss things like mature people do. She wished them the best and hoped that their future wasn\u2019t etched in stone already. <\/p>\n
Jim was sitting on the sofa watching M.A.S.H. He looked up when Blair walked in. \u201cI didn\u2019t hear your car.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI had a drink at the bar and \u2018designated driver\u2019, Connor, wouldn\u2019t let me drive. I was fine, but she wouldn\u2019t listen.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDid you have a good time?\u201d Jim asked, politely. <\/p>\n
\u201cNot really. Listen, I wonder if I could talk to you for a few minutes,\u201d Blair said quickly. <\/p>\n
\u201cSure, what\u2019s up?\u201d Jim said trying to sound like the friend he used to be. <\/p>\n
\u201cConnor pointed out that I\u2019ve been taking advantage of you. She thinks I should<\/i> look for a new place to live. Do you agree?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIf you don\u2019t want to live here, that\u2019s fine with me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim, would you<\/i> feel better if I didn\u2019t live here anymore?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHonestly, I think so.\u201d Jim spoke quickly as to not lose control of himself or the situation. His stony face giving nothing away. \u201cI\u2019m having a hard time, Blair.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cConnor was right. She thought you were too. She also said that she would consider being your Guide from here on in,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think that\u2019s necessary, do you?\u201d Jim asked fearfully, hoping he wasn\u2019t going to lose everything. <\/p>\n
\u201cI could still be your Guide?\u201d Blair asked hopefully. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhy don\u2019t we wait a month and see how we\u2019re both doing? Then we can discuss whatever comes up,\u201d Jim suggested. <\/p>\n
\u201cDo you still want me to move out?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI think moving out might be a good idea, but we don\u2019t need to talk about getting a new Guide at all,\u201d Jim stated as calmly as he could. <\/p>\n
\u201cUnderstood,\u201d Blair answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cIs there anything else you want to discuss with me?\u201d Jim wondered. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo. I\u2019m going to bed. See you in the morning.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNight, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair got ready for bed in the bathroom and then climbed into his cold bed and, not for the first time, wondered when things had gone to hell.<\/p>\n
Jim woke up at 3:00 a.m and listened to the noises in the loft. There it was-a sniffle and a shaky breath following close behind. Blair was upset about something. Jim didn\u2019t know if he should go down or not. He felt that he should, as his friend, but what if it had to do with breaking up? Then he shouldn\u2019t be down there. Jim was still trying to figure out what to do, when Blair began to weep. As he listened further, the weeping intensified. <\/p>\n
Jim jumped out of bed, pulled his sweats on and walked down the stairs as quickly as he could. He opened Blair\u2019s door and went to his side immediately. Jim sat on the edge of the futon. \u201cBlair? What\u2019s wrong?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t want Connor to be your new Guide.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI told you that I don\u2019t need a new Guide,\u201d Jim assured him. <\/p>\n
\u201cI want you to still like me. You\u2019re not my friend anymore and I can\u2019t stand the thought of losing you as a friend,\u201d Blair whispered. <\/p>\n
\u201cBlair. We\u2019re still friends. I still like you. Okay? Don\u2019t worry about it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cC\u2019mon, Jim, you don\u2019t need to lie. You don\u2019t like me anymore. I can feel it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen you\u2019re not feeling correctly, because I like you as a person very much.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you promise you\u2019re not just humoring me, Jim?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI promise.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh God, I fucked up so bad. I don\u2019t want to move. I know I should, but I don\u2019t want to leave the place I call home.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThen stay here. This is<\/b> your home, Blair. It always will<\/b> be.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGod, Jim, you\u2019re such a good man and I was so thoughtless when it came to you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair had finally stopped crying and Jim felt like he could leave the room soon. \u201cChief, do you feel like you\u2019re okay now?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes. I\u2019m better now. Thanks, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m going to go back to bed and try and get some sleep. See you in the morning.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair held Jim\u2019s hand for a moment and Blair felt Jim shaking. \u201cWhy are you shaking, Jim?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI have no idea,\u201d the somber man answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cOh God, you\u2019re upset. I\u2019m only thinking of me again. I\u2019m so sorry, Jim. I have fucked up in so many ways it isn\u2019t even funny.\u201d Blair continued to hold Jim\u2019s hand and Jim tried to pull away a couple of times, but Blair didn\u2019t let him. <\/p>\n
\u201cBlair, I think it\u2019s a good idea if we both get some rest now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m here for you too, Jim. Talk to me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTalk to you about what?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat\u2019s bothering you? Right this moment?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t believe you\u2019re hurting and I can\u2019t hold you in my arms anymore,\u201d Jim confessed. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou can hold me. Friends hold on to each other sometimes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt wouldn\u2019t be as a friend, Chief. I\u2019m sorry. Now I need to go to bed.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair still had a hold of Jim\u2019s hand. \u201cTell me what you liked most about being with me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhy? It\u2019s not like it\u2019ll make anything better. In fact, it might make things worse. I say we both get some sleep and be done with it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTell me what you liked most about being with me,\u201d Blair insisted. <\/p>\n
Jim thought about it for a moment and wondered how much he could say to Blair. How much was enough and how did he know if he was pushing it too far? Do I really want to be hurt again? Do I have the strength to pull through this on my own? I might as well tell him what I thought about him, what more could happen?<\/i> <\/p>\n
\u201cI liked when you held me close afterwards and would kiss my cheek and neck. I felt loved and needed from that simple thing. It gave me hope that we would be able to tackle just about anything. You gave me strength when I needed it and took over when I felt weak.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair held Jim\u2019s hand just a little tighter. \u201cJim, why didn\u2019t you tell me that you felt this way with me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWould it have made a difference?\u201d Jim wondered softly. <\/p>\n
\u201cIt might have, I\u2019m not sure. Maybe if we had talked about things more, we wouldn\u2019t be in the place we are now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBlair, I wanted to tell you how much I loved you from the start. I\u2019ve been in love with you since we met. I held back because I\u2019ve done this before and was dumped immediately. A lot of guys don\u2019t get into the love factor. I was afraid and didn\u2019t want to lose you. So I stayed quiet about it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI didn\u2019t think two guys ever got into what you call the love factor, so I would have been confused if you\u2019d told me you loved me. No one has ever said they really loved me. I\u2019m not sure I would have known what to do with it. How much did you love me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI still love you. I love you so much that I was willing to give you up to make things better for us. I don\u2019t want to lose you as a friend, you\u2019re my best friend. I didn\u2019t want you to move, because this is your<\/b> home, too. I do not and will not take a new Guide. You\u2019ll be my Guide until the day one of us dies.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair pulled Jim onto the futon with him and Jim said, \u201cNo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cHush, I want to talk to you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat?\u201d Jim asked, hopefully. <\/p>\n
\u201cI think I might be in love with you. I\u2019ve never had such pain with a break-up in my life. I miss you all the time. I long for your touch and your voice. At first, I thought it made me weak, but now I see I\u2019m just in love. Jim, I don\u2019t think I have ever truly been in love before. Hell, I didn\u2019t know what to do with it. I didn\u2019t even know we were exclusive, but yet, I slept with no one else. I tried to tell myself the reason for that was the fact that you just kept me too satisfied. But now I realize it was because I didn\u2019t want to be with anyone else. I didn\u2019t want to talk to just anyone. I didn\u2019t want to be held by just anyone and I certainly didn\u2019t want to be made love to by just anyone. As I said before, I think I\u2019m in love. What do you think?\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim smiled at Blair for the first time in days. He pulled Blair into a tight hug and said, \u201cI\u2019m glad to hear this. I love you, too.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know you do. But this time, we\u2019re having a talk. I want to be exclusive. Do you mind?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cExclusive works better for me than anything.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019d sort of like to be out, what do you think of that?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI think that our friends and relatives should know about us. That might have been part of the problem. We acted like it was some dirty secret or something. I\u2019m fine with being out, Blair.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWill you let me go every time I make you angry?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, I\u2019m going to hold on to you forever, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPromise?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI promise to never leave you and to stay with you even when you make me insane. How does that sound?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
Blair kissed Jim and hugged him close. \u201cI adore you and I never want to be without you again.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBut if something did happen, Blair, we have to know that we\u2019ll still be friends.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPlease don\u2019t let anything ever happen,\u201d Blair pleaded. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ll try,\u201d Jim agreed. <\/p>\n
\u201cCan I sleep in your bed tonight?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cOur<\/b> bed, Chief. Everything is ours<\/b> now.\u201d<\/p>\n
They got off of the futon and walked upstairs, holding hands. Blair lay down on the bed and asked, \u201cHow do you think Simon will take it?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019re going to tell everyone on Poker night. So if they don\u2019t like it, they can leave, how does that sound?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI know that Connor will take it well, because she already knows and hated my guts for hurting you. She might call you Jimbo to irritate you, but you\u2019re one of her best mates.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI love Connor as a good, good friend. I think she, Simon, Joel and Henri will all take it well and say good things. But I think that Rafe will have a problem. He\u2019s got a brother who is gay and he thinks he\u2019s weak. So chances are, he\u2019s going to see that in us too,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cAre we being totally truthful here?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
Jim turned on his side and put his arm under his head to watch his lover. \u201cWhat do you think?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI better tell you that I said some horrible things tonight at the pub. I was an insecure asshole and agreed with things that Rafe said.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh for crying out loud, Chief, you should have known better then to agree with anything he said. Now he\u2019s going to think he has something on both of us. Rafe\u2019s a dick. There is no better word for him. He might even give us trouble,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, I would like to tell all of our friends, myself. In private, of course.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhatever works for you, works for me, now I have a question for you,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cShoot, big guy,\u201d Blair said smiling back at his lover. <\/p>\n
\u201cIn the two months we\u2019ve been together, you have never asked to fuck me. I just wondered if there was something bothering you about it, or what. Does the idea not appeal to you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou<\/b> would let me<\/b> fuck you<\/b>?\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim smiled and said, \u201cDid you think I thought I was special or something?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI just thought you were a top and I didn\u2019t want to bring it up.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim moved closer to Blair and whispered, \u201cSo would you like to try it tonight?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim, normally I would say, hell yes, but I\u2019m still upset and I\u2019d rather just lie in your arms until we fall asleep. What do you think of that?\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim put his arm around Blair and said, \u201cThat sounds like heaven. Let me get us covered up and then we\u2019ll get a couple of hours sleep before it\u2019s time to get up.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim kissed Blair and said, \u201cGoodnight, Blair, I love you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair kissed Jim back and said, \u201cAnd I love you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Before long Jim could tell Blair was falling asleep and he was so grateful to have Blair in his arms for another night. If things worked out, he\u2019d be there forever. If they didn\u2019t, then Jim would have to take it one day at a time. At least he knew there would be no more lies. <\/p>\n
A sleepy Blair kissed Jim\u2019s neck and said, \u201cYou can sleep restfully, Jim. I\u2019m not going anywhere.\u201d<\/p>\n
Within moments Jim was asleep and Blair was smiling into his neck this time. He snuggled a little closer and then he followed Jim into sleep. <\/p>\n
Chapter 2<\/b> <\/p>\n
When Blair woke up the next morning, he was instantly hard knowing what Jim was going to let him do. He rushed down the stairs to take care of some business before he woke Jim up. <\/p>\n
As Blair got back into bed, Jim stirred and opened his eyes and looked into the bright blue eyes of a wide-awake Blair. \u201cAnxious, much, Chief?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t believe you\u2019re going to let me have my wicked, wicked way with you this morning,\u201d Blair said softly as he began to kiss Jim. <\/p>\n
Jim pulled away from him and said, \u201cI need to run to the bathroom. I\u2019ll be right back.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair could only smile. He couldn\u2019t help it. He had never been this excited. Blair was lying there on the bed, stroking his own cock waiting on Jim when the phone rang. Blair never wanted to cut a phone cord so much in his life. But instead, he did the only thing he could do. He picked it up and said, \u201cSandburg.\u201d<\/p>\n
Simon breathed a sigh of relief at catching them at the loft and said, \u201cSandburg, I need you and Jim to be in the office in ten minutes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat happened?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cThe Commissioner\u2019s grand-daughter was abducted this morning and the entire force is looking for her. But he asked for you and Jim, personally,\u201d Simon stated. <\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019ll be in as soon as we both shower. I\u2019m really sorry to hear this news,\u201d Blair said honestly. He\u2019d had his differences with the Commissioner, but he wouldn\u2019t wish a child abduction to happen to any family.<\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019ll see you as soon as you can get here,\u201d Simon said before he closed the line. <\/p>\n
Blair sighed and got up for the morning. He walked down the stairs and went into his old room to get his clothes for the day. He needed to get them moved back upstairs, pronto. He walked out, stopped in front of the bathroom door and knocked. <\/p>\n
Jim opened up the door, completely naked, wearing only a smile and a hard on and said, \u201cCan I help you, Chief?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, tell that big boy to calm down. We have to hurry and get to the station. The Commissioner’s grand-daughter was abducted this morning and we\u2019ve been assigned the case,\u201d Blair explained, giving Jim a once over before Jim started for the stairs. <\/p>\n
\u201cChief, it\u2019s only 7:40 in the morning, where was she abducted from?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGot me. We have to wait until we get to the station and be filled in on what\u2019s going on. Sorry, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt couldn\u2019t be helped, buddy. My ass will still belong to you later,\u201d Jim teased. <\/p>\n
Blair hurriedly took a shower and dressed since Jim was already upstairs getting ready to go. They then drove to the station house.<\/p>\n
Blair couldn\u2019t believe all of the activity going on in the bullpen. It was a madhouse. Connor walked up to him and said, \u201cEveryone is in the conference room. Get the coal out.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s get the lead out, Connor. Crazy damn Aussie,\u201d Jim grumbled. Blair couldn\u2019t help but smile at both of them but lost his smile by the time he got to the conference room. <\/p>\n
Jim and Blair followed her into the room and saw how packed it was. Simon waved to them to come over to the table by him and he had two chairs saved for them. <\/p>\n
\u201cThe Commissioner\u2019s grand-daughter was abducted this morning at the grocery store at 7:00. The Commissioner\u2019s daughter, Sally Sanford, said that her daughter, Melanie, was there talking to her one minute and while she picked out the fruit to put into the muffins, someone took her. The store had a lock down and they looked everywhere inside before the officers got there. Once it was searched and she wasn\u2019t found, they called it right in and we\u2019ve all been on the case ever since.\u201d Simon then handed paperwork to the two men and gave them a picture of four year old Melanie. <\/p>\n
\u201cAre we going to be able to get to the daughter to speak to her?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cEllison, this is high priority, you need to treat it as any other child abduction. She\u2019ll talk to you, even if she is upset,\u201d Simon barked. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhere is she right now?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cShe\u2019s at her own home, hoping that someone will call with a ransom demand. Her father is there with her. Treat him just like any other member of the family. They will need to be questioned as if they were you or me,\u201d Simon added. <\/p>\n
Everyone left the room and Jim looked at Simon and said, \u201cDoes anyone believe it was a kidnapping?\u201d<\/p>\n
Simon chewed on his unlit cigar and growled, \u201cI haven\u2019t a fucking clue.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019ll get started right away, sir,\u201d Blair said as they walked away from their boss. <\/p>\n
They walked into the bullpen and started to get things ready to go. Connor walked over to them and said, \u201cWould you like a third on this?\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim thought for a moment and said, \u201cYes, a third person might catch something we both missed. You\u2019ll ride with us.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t wait to meet the mother and see what we think of her,\u201d Connor said as she grabbed her purse and followed the two men to the elevator. <\/p>\n
\u201cI would think she\u2019s just an upset mother right now, nothing more or nothing less,\u201d Blair guessed. <\/p>\n
The three of them got off the elevator and walked to the truck. \u201cDibs on the middle,\u201d Connor said with a laugh at the look on Jim\u2019s face. \u201cI was joking, Jimbo.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood, because I want Blair next to me,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cConnor needs to be in the middle, Jim. I haven\u2019t talked to anyone yet and I would like them to find out about us differently,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cI knew you guys would make up. I just knew it,\u201d Connor said happily. <\/p>\n
Jim glared at her for even thinking about anything else at that moment. \u201cWhatever. Let\u2019s just get this show on the road. We need to find this sick bastard before he does something to Melanie,\u201d Jim said angrily. <\/p>\n
Both Connor and Sandburg knew he wasn\u2019t mad at them. He was just angry at life in general.<\/p>\n
\u201cDad, I can\u2019t think with all of these police officers in my home. Could we at least get half of them out?\u201d Sally Sanford asked. <\/p>\n
Commissioner Smith tried to be patient with his daughter. He knew she was crazed over her little girl being taken but he was going to have to explain to her how important it was to stay on top of things. <\/p>\n
\u201cSally, we need to have everyone working the case. It\u2019s important that we try and find Melanie in the first 48 hours. So please, just try and keep your head on straight and do what you have to do to help everyone.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDad, I\u2019m so scared,\u201d Sally said. <\/p>\n
Commissioner Smith started to say something to calm his daughter when the maid walked in and said, \u201cCommissioner, we have three new officers at the door and they are asking to see you. They said that you asked for them to be on the detail. I left them at the door.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThank you, Martha.\u201d <\/p>\n
The Commissioner walked to the door and said, \u201cPlease come in, Detective Ellison, Sandburg and Connor.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim held out his hand and shook hands with the man, so did Blair and Connor. <\/p>\n
Jim had a very serious look on his face. \u201cSir, we\u2019re very sorry that your family has to go through this. We have questions to ask.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLet\u2019s go into my office and ask all you want,\u201d Smith said. <\/p>\n
\u201cSir, we need to talk with your daughter. She will be asked questions too,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
The Commissioner didn\u2019t say anything-he knew the routine-just turned and walked towards the living room. Jim, Blair and Connor all followed him into the room. <\/p>\n
\u201cHave you found something?\u201d Sally asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, Ma\u2019am. I\u2019m Detective Ellison; this is my partner Blair Sandburg and Inspector Connor. We need to ask some questions.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019ve already answered all the questions we need to,\u201d Sally said. Jim noticed the difference in her heartbeat when they walked into the room. It was almost like she was nervous, more then scared or upset. <\/p>\n
Connor moved closer to the distraught woman and said, \u201cAnything you can tell us might help us find your little girl. Now, where is her father?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMy ex-husband lives about two blocks from here. He\u2019s out of town and I can\u2019t reach him right now,\u201d Sally said. <\/p>\n
Jim asked, \u201cAre you on good terms with your ex-husband?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWith Jeremy? Of course, we\u2019re on good terms. He sees Melanie every weekend, so we have to keep things nice.\u201d Once again, she had gotten way too upset to Jim\u2019s liking. She had something she wasn\u2019t telling them. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe would have no reason to take her without your agreement?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe can have Mel as often as he would like, there would be no reason to take her,\u201d Sally said, sounding somewhat exhausted to everyone, except Jim. He really felt like she was holding back on something. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat about custody? Do you have joint custody?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cDetective, why are we focusing on Jeremy? He wouldn\u2019t hurt Melanie for anything and would have told me if he needed to take her for any reason.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo you have full custody?\u201d Jim asked once more. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, and he has weekend and holiday visitation rights. He didn\u2019t fight it, so I knew he was all right with that,\u201d Sally said, sounding angry. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe didn\u2019t try to get any other type of custody?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cJeremy is a good man and a good father. He would never hurt our child,\u201d Sally said, adamantly. <\/p>\n
Connor said, \u201cWell, we\u2019re going to see the footage of the grocery store, so it would help if we had a picture of Jeremy to rule him out.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI think you\u2019re all nuts. Why would Jeremy be a suspect? He\u2019s out of town and he\u2019s never fought me on anything.\u201d Sally sounded annoyed now. <\/p>\n
Jim was now focusing on her even more, drawing attention to himself by Connor and Blair. <\/p>\n
\u201cMa\u2019am, right now you are all suspects. Until we get proof of where everyone was and what they were doing at the time. So it\u2019s time for questions and answers from you and your father,\u201d Jim stated. <\/p>\n
The commissioner had been quiet until then and said, \u201cYou want to question me?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSir, this is just like any other case. We have to question everyone. First of all, where were you this morning at 7:00?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
Commissioner Smith sat down and said, \u201cI suppose you\u2019re right. I was already in my office at 7:00. My secretary was there also. You can confirm with her. Here is her card with her numbers on it.\u201d He handed the secretary\u2019s business card he pulled out of his wallet to Jim and Jim took it and put it in his pocket. Jim had listened to the man and didn\u2019t pick up any trace of nervousness, like he did in the daughter. He knew the Commissioner was exactly where he said he was. <\/p>\n
\u201cDid you ever see any problems with Jeremy and your daughter when it came to Melanie?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDad, what are you talking about?\u201d Sally sounded quite indignant, almost annoyed, that her father wasn\u2019t agreeing with her. <\/p>\n
\u201cSally, he wanted to see Melanie more, but you had all of those rules. He felt that you were being selfish. He asked me to talk to you, but that was only last week. I didn\u2019t have the time, so I let it slide. Where is Jeremy supposed to be right now?\u201d the Commissioner asked Sally. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe said he was in Seattle, working on a case,\u201d Sally answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat does he do for a living?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe\u2019s a police detective at the five-one,\u201d Sally answered. <\/p>\n
Connor said, \u201cI\u2019ll get right on it and see where he is.\u201d She walked out of the room punching numbers into her cell phone as she left. <\/p>\n
\u201cDad, do you think Jeremy had something to do with this?\u201d Sally asked. <\/p>\n
Again, Jim just stared at her, because he had the feeling she knew exactly where her little girl was. Jim could also tell that Blair and Connor knew too. <\/p>\n
\u201cI didn\u2019t at first, but now I wonder if he was upset about the terms. He did talk to me last week and I forgot about it. He might have felt like he had no other way to get some time with her.\u201d<\/p>\n
Rafe walked in with the video feed from the store and said, \u201cHere you go, Jim. Simon said to bring it right over.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim asked, \u201cCould we please put this in your VCR and play it?\u201d<\/p>\n
Sally said, \u201cYou\u2019ll see it wasn\u2019t Jeremy. Go ahead, play it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim popped it into the machine and turned the television on. It started to play and they watched as she turned her back on her daughter for a long period of time and while she was doing that, a man took Melanie and Melanie went willingly. <\/p>\n
\u201cOh my God, it is Jeremy. I can\u2019t believe he would kidnap his own daughter,\u201d Sally said but there was an oddly cold note in her voice. <\/p>\n
Jim knew that something else was going on, but he wasn\u2019t sure of what it was, yet. <\/p>\n
\u201cIf she\u2019s with Jeremy, she is fine. Let\u2019s call this manhunt off. I believe that I can reason with Jeremy and get him to bring her home without any problems. He had asked to take her this week to see his mother in Seattle. She has cancer. Maybe she got worse. Sally, did he ask if he could take Melanie?\u201d Commissioner Smith asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, but I told him it would have to wait until Saturday, when he had her for his visitation time. He tried to tell me it was important, but I told him he had to follow the rules or he wouldn\u2019t see her at all. We have to enforce the rules\u201d<\/p>\n
They all sat there quietly, thinking about what she had done and Jim finally said, \u201cCommissioner, do you think you could call him and ask him to bring her home?\u201d<\/p>\n
The Commissioner dialed his cell phone number and heard, \u201cHello?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJeremy, this is dad. I\u2019m sorry I forgot to talk to Sally about this week, I have no other excuses. Did you take Melanie up to see your mother?\u201d The Commissioner then put the phone on speaker phone and they waited for Jeremy\u2019s reply. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, dad, I did. She\u2019s not going to last the week and she asked to see Melanie. I talked to Sally, I explained to her what was going on and she refused to let me take her. There was no other way, sir. She left me no choice. My mother is spending her last days with her granddaughter and I wish I was sorry about taking her, but Sally made it impossible.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s all right, son. You keep Melanie up there all week with your mother and bring her home this weekend. I will talk to the police and get everything taken care of. When you come back, you will file for joint custody and Sally isn\u2019t going to fight you on it. I\u2019m sorry she made you do this, Jeremy.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThank you, dad. Somehow I knew you would understand. I should have gone to you instead of her. I\u2019m sorry. I\u2019m sorry I probably caused a lot of people to worry and I never should have done that. Will I be arrested when I get back?\u201d Jeremy wondered. <\/p>\n
\u201cI will see to it that there are no charges brought. We\u2019ll be closing this right now. You take care of Melanie and your mother. Tell her I wish her well. I\u2019m very sorry you have to go through this, Jeremy. Now take care and we\u2019ll talk to you later, goodbye.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGoodbye, sir.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim stood up and said, \u201cCommissioner, he still kidnapped her.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo he didn\u2019t. He asked for permission and my daughter forgot about it. Didn\u2019t you, Sally?\u201d<\/p>\n
Sally looked somewhat confused but knew that tone her father was using was not a happy tone. \u201cYes, he had told me he was taking her, but I forgot. I\u2019m sorry for the inconvenience. I never should have called because of my bad memory.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe have to write a report up, Commissioner. We can\u2019t get around that,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cMy daughter was being cruel and for that you\u2019re willing to make a man suffer because he wanted his little girl to see his mother for one last time? No, we\u2019re dropping the charges, because there is no case. File whatever you want, but we\u2019re not going to change our minds.\u201d<\/p>\n
The Commissioner asked everyone to leave and he looked sad and tired. Jim, Blair and Connor got into the truck and Connor said, \u201cWhat the hell are we supposed to do with that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think we need to write up anything. We\u2019ll just say she forgot that they had made arrangements ahead of time and go from there,\u201d Blair suggested. <\/p>\n
\u201cI know one person I feel sorry for right now and it\u2019s not Jeremy,\u201d Connor joked. <\/p>\n
\u201cThe Commissioner acted like his daughter was always a bitch to him, so I was glad to see him take the son-in-law\u2019s side for a change. It was a nice end to what could have been an awful outcome. Jim, did you know that something was going on with her right away?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, I had a feeling it was something like this. Her heartbeat was beating super hard every time we mentioned Jeremy. I knew she had a little to do with it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m just glad it worked out in the end,\u201d Connor said. <\/p>\n
\u201cAll right, no paperwork. Now this is the kind of case I wish we had all the time,\u201d Jim said happily. <\/p>\n
Connor looked at Jim and Blair and said, \u201cAre you guys back to fooling around?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cConnor, that is no one\u2019s business but our own,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
Ignoring Jim completely, Blair said, \u201cYes, we made up, Connor. I was an asshole and he accepted my apology. But we haven\u2019t had the make-up sex yet. Simon interrupted that this morning.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cChief, is there anything that is sacred to you?\u201d Jim asked, blushing bright red. <\/p>\n
Connor and Blair both started laughing at the private man. This made the blushing worse. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m glad you worked things out, because you make a great couple. Are you going to tell anyone else?\u201d Connor wondered. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, I\u2019m going to tell Simon, Joel and Henri, but I don\u2019t know about Rafe yet. I know how he feels about gay dudes now and that makes things harder. He would probably only make fun of us,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe would only make fun of us once, Chief, and then I would kick his ass out of the loft. He doesn\u2019t have to like us, but I refuse to have someone over to the loft for poker that hates gay people.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you think he\u2019ll notice that my bedroom is clean and now the office?\u201d Blair asked, wearing a big smile on his face. <\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t care,\u201d Jim replied. <\/p>\n
\u201cCongratulations on becoming a couple. It took Sandy a while, but I knew he would come around, Jimbo.\u201d<\/p>\n
Both men groaned at hearing the nicknames. This made Connor smile even more. <\/p>\n
Once they were back in the bullpen, Jim and Blair filled Simon in on what was happening. They felt that Simon needed to be updated on what happened at the Commissioner\u2019s house. When they finished talking to Simon they walked out of the office and completed the work on the report. <\/p>\n
Joel walked by, smiled at both men and said, \u201cGood morning.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair looked up at Joel and knew he had to talk to him, but could he pull this off? \u201cJoel, could I see you in interrogation room two?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cSure, lead the way.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim sat down at his desk and knew he would be listening to see if it would go well or not. <\/p>\n
As the two men walked in, Blair said, \u201cCould you have a seat? I have something to tell you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Joel sat down, watched the young man pace and said, \u201cBlair, I already know about you and Jim. I knew ages ago. Is that what you were going to tell me?\u201d Joel wanted to put poor Blair out of his misery as soon as he could. He could see the young man relax immediately. <\/p>\n
\u201cWow, that was way easier then I thought it would be,\u201d Blair said relieved. <\/p>\n
Both men laughed. <\/p>\n
\u201cSo you were just a little confused the other night?\u201d Joel prompted. <\/p>\n
\u201cA lot confused, Joel. But I slept on it and talked to Jim at 3:00 this morning and we worked things out.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIs that a new way of saying you fooled around?\u201d Joel teased. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, there was no fooling around. No make-up sex. We both have to wait for that. We had to work this morning.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThanks for telling me, Blair. I think you make a wonderful couple. Now don\u2019t worry about things so much. And don\u2019t let Rafe taunt you, either.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI haven\u2019t decided if I\u2019m telling Rafe or not. I know I\u2019m going to tell Henri as soon as possible and Simon. But not sure about Rafe,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou want me to send Simon in for the talk?\u201d Joel kidded. <\/p>\n
Blair took a deep breath and nodded his head slowly.<\/p>\n
\u201cSure, why not? This is as good a time as any, don\u2019t you think?\u201d Blair inquired. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ll go get him and send him your way. Remember to keep calling him sir. That makes him feel better.\u201d Joel walked out of the room and headed right for Simon\u2019s office. He stuck his head in and told him that Blair was waiting to see him in the interrogation room. Simon grabbed his gross, wet, chewed cigar and stuck it in his mouth and headed down the hall. <\/p>\n
When he walked in, Blair said, \u201cCould you please sit down, sir, I have something to tell you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMy God, this must be horrible, you called me sir.\u201d Simon sat down as requested and waited for the bomb to hit.<\/p>\n
\u201cI wanted to let you know that Jim and I are a couple.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd?\u201d Simon asked, looking somewhat confused. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, that\u2019s it, Simon.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWell, hell, everyone knows that. Just be sure and keep it out of the workplace so I don\u2019t have complaints about you two working together. Understood?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cUnderstood, sir. Thank you for accepting us,\u201d Blair answered. Blair didn\u2019t realize that everyone already knew and accepted them. This confused him a little bit. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat is there to accept? Ever since you came on board, it was one thing building to another until this is all that was left. Take good care of him, Sandburg and don\u2019t fuck with his mind again.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, sir,\u201d Blair answered, happily. <\/p>\n
Simon walked out of the room with Blair bouncing behind him. Blair couldn\u2019t believe how easily this was going down. <\/p>\n
Simon walked by Jim\u2019s desk and patted Jim on the back and smiled at him. No words were said. None were needed. Jim knew the smile. It was one of acceptance and understanding. <\/p>\n
Blair sat down across from Jim and smiled. \u201cOnly have Henri left.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou decided against telling Rafe?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe\u2019ll probably just get ugly,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe\u2019s always ugly,\u201d Jim joked. <\/p>\n
Rafe and Brown walked into the bullpen and Brown said, \u201cWasn\u2019t this a kick ass morning?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCould I talk to you guys in interrogation room two?\u201d Blair asked, deciding at the last moment that he could handle Rafe. <\/p>\n
Jim just smiled at the notion of Blair taking them both on at the same time. <\/p>\n
\u201cSure, Hairboy, we\u2019ll follow you in,\u201d Henri said as he started for the room. Rafe looked a little worried, with good reason. <\/p>\n
Once they were all in the room, Blair shut the door and said, \u201cSit down, dudes. I have some news that\u2019s going to knock your socks off.\u201d<\/p>\n
Both men sat down and waited for the news. Blair started pacing and opened his mouth twice and nothing came out. <\/p>\n
\u201cSandburg, we have things to do if you don\u2019t have anything to tell us,\u201d Rafe snapped. <\/p>\n
\u201cOkay, Rafe. You know how I said I agreed with you about two guys not loving each other?\u201d Blair started. <\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, so?\u201d Rafe answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cI lied. I lied big time. I\u2019m in love with Jim and he\u2019s in love with me. We\u2019re a couple and don\u2019t even say a couple of what.\u201d<\/p>\n
Henri jumped up and gave Blair a hug. \u201cCongratulations, Hairboy. I knew you two would end up together. I just knew it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Rafe sat there thinking. He hadn\u2019t said a word. <\/p>\n
Blair said, \u201cSo I take it you\u2019re totally disgusted with us, Rafe?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou could say that. I\u2019ll get over it. But things will change around here and they won\u2019t be for the better,\u201d Rafe said. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you talking about?\u201d Brown asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cOnce it gets out, they won\u2019t have back-up when they need it and someone might hurt them,\u201d Rafe explained. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhy would anyone find out?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cGossip isn\u2019t a good thing, Sandburg,\u201d Rafe said. <\/p>\n
\u201cBut why would anyone be talking about us?\u201d Blair had to know. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sure you\u2019ll be kissing and all of that here and it won\u2019t take long,\u201d Rafe said. <\/p>\n
Both Brown and Blair burst out laughing. <\/p>\n
\u201cRafe, I\u2019ve been with Jim for two months and we still don\u2019t make out at the station. What we do in our own home is another story. But here at the station will be a public place that we would never try and ruin. Don\u2019t worry about us, man, we\u2019ll be fine. Are you still planning on coming over every Saturday for poker games?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
Brown said, \u201cYou bet. I can\u2019t wait for Saturday.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ll be there. I really am happy for you and Jim, if you\u2019re really serious. I just hope you do keep it out of the station. You two don\u2019t need any trouble from any of the other cops if they found out. I would feel horrible if something happened to either of you. I wish that my brother could find someone like you guys instead of the jerks he finds. He\u2019s going to be alone forever.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019ll help him find someone, Rafe. I know some gay dudes that are really nice guys. Smart and good looking too. We\u2019ll get him aimed in the right direction,\u201d Blair promised. <\/p>\n
\u201cThanks, Sandburg, he could use some help,\u201d Rafe admitted. <\/p>\n
\u201cCan we go back to work now?\u201d Henri asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, fun and games are over,\u201d Blair said as the three of them walked back to the bullpen. <\/p>\n
Henri and Rafe both clapped Jim on the back as they walked by and Jim knew things were going to be fine. He didn\u2019t know how Blair did it, but he always seemed to know what to say or do to make people understand things. It was one of Blair\u2019s greatest gifts and Jim was thankful. <\/p>\n
They all finished their paperwork for the day and said their goodbyes and went down to the parking garage. Jim opened the door up for Blair, which made Blair smile, and then Jim blushed. Blair loved when he took this man off guard and made him blush. In fact, it was a major turn on. He got into the truck and leaned over and opened up the door for Jim. Blair was thrilled because it made Jim blush again. Blair just knew this was going to be fun, being in love with someone that embarrassed easily. <\/p>\n
They talked about the cases they would have to work on the next day and before long they were in the parking lot at the loft. Both men were anxious and both of them knew the other one was, too. <\/p>\n
As they walked into the loft, Blair asked, \u201cWhat would you like me to make for dinner? It\u2019s my turn to cook.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim grabbed Blair and pushed him up against the door and started to kiss him. \u201cI want you for dinner,\u201d Jim growled. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ll be hungry an hour later,\u201d Blair teased. <\/p>\n
\u201cThen we\u2019ll eat again,\u201d Jim said as he pulled Blair towards the stairs. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou seem sort of eager to get this show on the road, is someone horny?\u201d Blair joked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI want you and now,\u201d Jim answered. <\/p>\n
They got upstairs and clothing was flung all over the room. Before long, they were both naked and already hard as rocks. Blair shoved Jim onto the bed and went between his legs and headed for his cock. As he took Jim\u2019s member into his mouth, Jim said, \u201cChief, I\u2019m not going to last long.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair thought, how cute<\/i> and sucked twice and Jim howled and came down Blair\u2019s inviting throat. Blair came up for air, swallowing like crazy and said, \u201cYou weren\u2019t kidding were you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s why I warned you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Smiling, Blair got the lube out and started to stretch his big man, with Jim moaning happily the entire time. When Blair felt he was stretched enough, he pulled Jim\u2019s legs around his waist, put a condom on, slicked it up with lube and started pushing his way into Jim. Blair couldn\u2019t believe how good Jim felt. <\/p>\n
\u201cGod, I love you, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI love fucking your ass.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re so tight-it\u2019s making me come closer and closer.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh God, I\u2019m going to come.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cGood.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair laughed at another \u2018good\u2019 answer and came into Jim\u2019s tight channel, throwing back his head and growling, \u2018Jim\u2019. <\/p>\n
As Blair said Jim, Jim came all over both of them. Blair was amazed at a person being able to come without being touched. But then again, he was talking about Jim. Super Sentinel Man. <\/p>\n
Blair finally slid out of Jim\u2019s ass and he got up and cleaned them both up. Jim turned on his side and started to fall asleep. <\/p>\n
\u201cOh no you don\u2019t. I want to discuss this with you,\u201d Blair ordered. <\/p>\n
\u201cDiscuss what, Chief?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo, how was it?\u201d Blair asked, practically bouncing on the bed. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou rocked my world, Blair. It was perfect. I haven\u2019t ever felt that good. I mean that. You made me feel better then anyone ever has.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSeriously?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m always serious when it comes to my ass,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cI had a really good time,\u201d Blair confessed. <\/p>\n
\u201cI could tell,\u201d Jim teased. <\/p>\n
Blair snuggled up close to Jim and said, \u201cWas it truly the best you\u2019ve ever had?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, Chief, it was the best I\u2019ve ever had. Now it\u2019s time for a power nap. Then dinner.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t talk much during or after sex do you?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, I sure don\u2019t. Believe me, I had a great time, I thought you could tell. Now I need a power nap, I\u2019m old.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOld my ass,\u201d Blair said as he took Jim into his arms and held him close. <\/p>\n
\u201cI love you, Blair.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd I love you, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m so damn grateful about that,\u201d Jim said quietly. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry it took me so long to realize how much I love you. I\u2019m sometimes a little slow on the uptake. It won\u2019t happen again.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd by the way, thank you for taking on everyone at work and telling them about us. I really appreciate that. I get embarrassed easily. I\u2019m not embarrassed about us, I just get embarrassed talking about us to other people. So again, I thank you for being you. I knew you\u2019d have everyone in our corner by the end of the day.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair rubbed Jim\u2019s temple until Jim fell asleep in his arms and then Blair followed close behind. <\/p>\n
Both men had showered together, fooled around some more and were lounging in the living room, wearing their sweats, when there was a knock at the door. Blair looked over at Jim and Jim said, \u201cIt\u2019s Rafe.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair got up and answered the door. \u201cHello, Rafe, what\u2019s up?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry for not calling ahead of time but I was in the neighborhood and thought I would stop in to talk to you guys,\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim laughed and asked, \u201cHow many times did you have to drive around before you got the nerve up?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cVery funny, Ellison. Okay, it took me about two hours to get up the nerve. I told my brother about you guys and he was thrilled of course and wants to meet some of these people that you spoke of. I told him I would tell you tomorrow, but he wanted to ask tonight,\u201d Rafe said, all in one breath. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe\u2019s with you?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, he\u2019s downstairs. Would you mind talking to him? He\u2019s been really depressed lately and he was thrilled to hear that there are couples that make it in the gay world.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo go and get him, Rafe. We\u2019ll chat with him tonight and have some of my friends over from Rainier this weekend to meet him. What\u2019s his name?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cTom. Thank you both for doing this. You\u2019re the best,\u201d Rafe said as he rushed out the door to fetch his brother. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhy don\u2019t we put a sign outside the door that says, \u201cMatchmakers Inc?\u201d Jim kidded. <\/p>\n
\u201cJust remember how much fun we\u2019ll have tonight after they leave. Just keep telling yourself how you get to fuck me tonight and it\u2019ll make things better,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cEverything is peachy, Chief. No complaints, here.\u201d<\/p>\n
They smiled at each other as they waited for their friend to bring his brother up and get the night over with. <\/p>\n
The end<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Summary: Jim thinks that he and Blair are in love. Blair doesn\u2019t agree. Or at least he doesn\u2019t think he does. Artist: Flitterflutterandfly or better known to me as Flitter. Lies By Patt As Jim walked towards the break room … Continue reading <\/a><\/p>\n