Do or Die
\nBy Patt<\/p>\n
Summary: Jim has no choice but to do something he has only dreamed about. Will their relationship now be ruined?<\/p>\n
Jim slowly woke up from what he would guess to be a really bad hangover. Suddenly, he realized he couldn\u2019t move his arms or legs. He was tied down and he had on a blindfold. Jim didn\u2019t want to panic right away, but the last thing he remembered was he and Blair playing 5000 Rummy and Blair was kicking his ass. He listened to see if Blair was here with him. He hoped he wouldn\u2019t hear his heartbeat, but sure enough, next to him was Blair. Blair was also awake and freaking out. <\/p>\n
Jim said, \u201cChief, don\u2019t freak out yet. We don\u2019t know what this is about yet. Maybe they just want some information and then they\u2019ll let us go. They have us blindfolded, so that\u2019s a good sign.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJesus, Jim, I\u2019ve been calling out for you for over an hour. What the fuck did they give us? How did they get us? The last thing I remember was playing cards. How about you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, that\u2019s what I remember too. They must have slid something under the door and pumped some gas into the loft. I know I was drugged, but that\u2019s the only way it could have happened. We didn\u2019t eat or drink anything out of the ordinary. Let me listen for them,\u201d Jim said as calmly as he could. He knew that Blair was freaking out and with good cause. Jim was freaking out too. <\/p>\n
Jim listened closely and could hear four or five men in another room, but then he realized there was someone in the room with them. Jim heard him come closer and he asked, \u201cWhat do you want from us?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh shit, are they in here?\u201d Blair called out quietly. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, Blair, he\u2019s right next to me,\u201d Jim answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cWell, it\u2019s good to see you both awake. We were beginning to wonder if we were ever going to start having fun,\u201d the stranger said. <\/p>\n
\u201cWho are you and what do you want?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ll never know who we are, but our client wants you hurt in the worst way possible, so we figured we\u2019d come up with a plan for Sandburg here,\u201d the man almost laughed when he said it. <\/p>\n
Blair asked, \u201cLike what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cLike, your partner will fuck you, or you\u2019ll die,\u201d the man answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s not going to happen,\u201d Jim shouted as he started to try and get loose from his ties. He then realized they were handcuffs and he was going nowhere. <\/p>\n
\u201cEllison, it will happen or we\u2019ll kill him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re going to kill us anyhow, so just kill us now,\u201d Blair suggested firmly. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou talk big, but would you be able to live with yourself if we killed him and let you live? That\u2019s what we have planned for him. We\u2019ll kill you and then let him go. He\u2019ll have to live with that for the rest of his life. Or we\u2019ll do the opposite and kill him and let you live. Do you think either of you can live with that?\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair was quiet for a moment and asked, \u201cWhy are you doing this?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOur client wants to degrade you both as much as he can and he knows you might live together but you aren\u2019t a couple. So, that\u2019s when he came up with the idea. Not only will you fuck him, Ellison, but we\u2019ll tape it and send copies to your friends. You\u2019ll do it, or live without your partner.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFuck you. I\u2019m not touching him so you can all get your rocks off, you sick perverted son-of-a-bitch,\u201d Jim yelled. <\/p>\n
Blair said, \u201cJim, calm down. It doesn\u2019t help to get upset. That\u2019s what they want. They\u2019re probably taping this already.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cRight you are, Sandburg. We\u2019re not only taping it, but the client is watching the show. He\u2019s enjoying it so far. Are you going to let your partner fuck you?\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair thought a moment and said, \u201cDon\u2019t we have time to discuss it or something?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, it\u2019s make up your mind time. Will you let him fuck you so that you both live, or will you refuse and we\u2019ll kill him or you?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWell, what do you think I\u2019m going to say, you idiot,\u201d Blair growled. <\/p>\n
The man walked up to Blair\u2019s side of the bed and slapped him hard on the face. It took Blair by surprise and he made a noise when the man did it. <\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t fucking touch him. Get away from him. Kill me and let him go. That\u2019s what the deal was, right?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, I said he had to decide. It\u2019s not your decision. He is willing to let you fuck him, so that\u2019s what\u2019s going to happen or else.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim swallowed hard and said, \u201cOr else what?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIf you don\u2019t give him what he wants, we\u2019re going to kill you both.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re going to kill us anyway. Even if you say you won\u2019t, you are. I know little pieces of shit like you and they never keep their word,\u201d Jim shouted. <\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s not up to us. It\u2019s up to the client and he said you have to live, so that he can torment you with the recording. He has it all planned. Now, do you have anything useful to say, Ellison?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m not fucking my friend,\u201d Jim answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cWell, that\u2019s your loss. Because I have many men that would love to while you watch. So is that what you want?\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair said, \u201cJim, tell them you\u2019ll do it. Please don\u2019t let anyone else do it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim turned his head towards Blair\u2019s bed and softly said, \u201cBlair, I couldn\u2019t if I wanted to.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh don\u2019t worry, we think you\u2019ll get into the program quite easily once it\u2019s started.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat is wrong with you? Don\u2019t you understand how wrong this is? Can\u2019t you see that someone is sick in the head to do this?\u201d Jim tried logic. <\/p>\n
Too bad logic wasn\u2019t in the cards. \u201cWe\u2019re getting paid very well for this, Ellison. So either way we\u2019re going to have fun. We either watch you do your partner or you\u2019ll watch while my men do him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim, please?\u201d Blair pleaded. <\/p>\n
\u201cChief, I can\u2019t do that to you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim, you said you were my best friend. Best friends fuck. It\u2019s as simple as that. Now tell them you want to do me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim started trying once again to get out of the handcuffs to no avail. \u201cWe won\u2019t say anything if you let us go now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cEllison, you\u2019re not getting this. You\u2019re going nowhere if you don\u2019t go along with this. He won\u2019t let you live.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe neither of us want to. Did you ever think of that?\u201d Jim wondered. <\/p>\n
Blair said as calmly as he could. \u201cJim, you told me last week that I was your best friend and that you loved me. Were you lying?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, I wasn\u2019t lying. But I won\u2019t take advantage of you just so they can get their jollies,\u201d Jim explained. <\/p>\n
\u201cPlease Jim? Think about it,\u201d Blair pleaded once again. <\/p>\n
Suddenly Jim heard the man go stand next to Blair again. He started thrashing on the bed and said, \u201cGet away from him.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are you doing? Please don\u2019t do this,\u201d Blair begged. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m just cutting your clothing off, Sandburg. That\u2019s all. I\u2019m no pervert. They want to watch, not me,\u201d the man continued to cut all of Blair\u2019s clothing off. Then he started on Jim\u2019s. <\/p>\n
When he was done getting all of the clothing off of them and leaving them naked and exposed the man said, \u201cI\u2019ll give you ten minutes to decide. Ten is it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim heard the door close and said, \u201cChief, please don\u2019t ask me to do this.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim, we have no choice. I don\u2019t mind that much, really.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWell, I do. So they\u2019re going to have to kill us first,\u201d Jim answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, they might kill you but they\u2019re going to use me up first before they kill me. You heard the man.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJesus Christ, Blair. I can\u2019t fuck you. That\u2019s rape. I don\u2019t do rape,\u201d Jim commented as calmly as he could. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, please? I don\u2019t want those other guys to have me.\u201d <\/p>\n
Jim could hear the tears in Blair\u2019s voice and he hated that they were doing this to him. <\/p>\n
\u201cI won\u2019t let them do anything to you. I\u2019ll kill them first,\u201d Jim promised. <\/p>\n
\u201cSo, you\u2019re going to do it?\u201d Blair asked softly. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, I\u2019m going to do it. I don\u2019t want to do it, but I can\u2019t leave you in their hands either. That would be totally irresponsible of me. I\u2019m sorry you\u2019re in this, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThank you, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou won\u2019t thank me when it\u2019s over,\u201d Jim said sadly. <\/p>\n
\u201cI might. I love you, too,\u201d Blair said hoping it would help Jim. <\/p>\n
\u201cJesus, they\u2019re drugging us again. I\u2019ll try to stay alert as long as I can,\u201d Jim said quietly as the gas filled the room. He knew that Blair was already asleep. He could hear the heavy breathing. Jim followed him soon after. <\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
When Jim woke up again, he was untied and so was Blair. Jim looked at Blair\u2019s naked form and wondered if he could actually do this to him. Jim had always wondered about it, but had never said anything to Blair about it. Now, that choice was taken out of their hands. <\/p>\n
Blair started to wake up and Jim rushed to his side. \u201cIt\u2019s okay, Chief. I\u2019m awake too. Don\u2019t be afraid, all right?\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair got off of the bed and went into Jim\u2019s arms. Jim just held him close and wondered what was going to happen. Jim then saw the lube on the dresser across from them. <\/p>\n
\u201cBlair, are you sure about this?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYes, Jim, I\u2019m sure about this.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim leaned into Blair\u2019s hair and kissed his head. Blair held him even tighter if that was possible. <\/p>\n
\u201cI hate to break this up, but get busy or we drug you again and you\u2019ll have no choice in getting it up. Either fuck him now or we\u2019ll make sure you do after this.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim pulled Blair\u2019s face up and kissed him. The kiss was soft and filled with longing. Blair realized that Jim wasn\u2019t faking this. He might mean it. This made Blair feel somewhat better. <\/p>\n
Jim said, \u201cThe lube is over there, I\u2019m going to get it and get you ready. Unless you\u2019d rather do me.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo changing roles. You\u2019re going to fuck Sandburg and that\u2019s all there is to it,\u201d the voice said louder and angrier this time. <\/p>\n
Jim couldn\u2019t tell who he was angry at and he didn\u2019t really care at that moment anyway. <\/p>\n
Jim began to kiss Blair once more and they moved over to the bed. Blair found out the strangest thing, he liked the way Jim kissed. It didn\u2019t bother him at all. He had been with men before, so this wasn\u2019t new to him, but he\u2019d never been with a friend. That he worried about a little. <\/p>\n
Once on the bed, they began to kiss and fondle each other until they were both hard. <\/p>\n
Blair finally said, \u201cFuck me, Jim. Get me ready and fuck me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim got the lube out and started to stretch Blair easily and slowly. He didn\u2019t want to hurt Blair in any way. Jim went down on Blair and sucked his cock until Blair said, \u201cI\u2019m right there. Fuck me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim slid extra lube on his dick and slid into Blair\u2019s tight hole. Blair was so warm and inviting that Jim knew he was going to come quickly. Jim pulled Blair\u2019s legs up around his waist to get even closer so that he could get in deeper. With every thrust, Blair was breathing harder and harder. <\/p>\n
Jim began to fist Blair\u2019s cock until he whispered Jim\u2019s name, threw his head back and came all over the two of them. <\/p>\n
Jim knew it wasn\u2019t going to be long for him either, so he gave three hard thrusts and came moaning Blair\u2019s name. <\/p>\n
Jim kissed Blair again and said, \u201cI do love you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI know you do. No one else would have done what you did,\u201d Blair said with pride. <\/p>\n
Jim started slipping out and saw there were wipes by the bed. He cleaned himself up and then Blair. Then he slid into the bed with Blair and they both took a little nap. <\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
Jim woke up but didn\u2019t open his eyes. They had drugged them again. This time Jim was cuffed to the wall again. He didn\u2019t even try and fight it. He had just done something that he had always dreamed of and now it was ruined because of this. Blair would never be able to look at him the same again. <\/p>\n
Jim knew the man was in the room and finally asked, \u201cWhat do you want now?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019re going to drug you once more, un-cuff you and you\u2019ll be free to go. The client got exactly what he wanted, so we\u2019re keeping our end of the bargain.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cCan you tell me why he did this?\u201d Jim asked.<\/p>\n
\u201cAll I can say is you sent him away and life wasn\u2019t good for him in prison. He said you\u2019ll never find him again, so don\u2019t even bother looking. He\u2019s been out awhile, so you have no idea when he got out. How many people have you sent away that carried a grudge? He\u2019s just one of the many, I would say,\u201d the man answered truthfully. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re just doing your job, right?\u201d Jim asked very sarcastically. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, I was. You didn\u2019t look like you were having such a bad time either. The client was very happy with the tape of it all. Do you want a copy?\u201d the man asked hatefully. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhy do you hate me so much?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou did what he wanted. You should have been willing to die for your friend, not fuck him.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim didn\u2019t say anything more because he knew it was true. He waited for the man to leave the room and listened for the sound of the gas again. <\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
\u201cSir, we got a DVD of Ellison and Sandburg and you wouldn\u2019t believe what\u2019s on it,\u201d Rafe said to Simon. <\/p>\n
\u201cBring it here and let me see,\u201d Simon ordered. <\/p>\n
Rafe, Brown, Conner and Joel walked into the office. <\/p>\n
\u201cIt must be bad if you\u2019re all in here,\u201d Simon stated as he slipped the disc into his player. <\/p>\n
\u201cOh my god, do you see the blood all over Jim\u2019s arms?\u201d Conner asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cThey must have cuffed him and someone is forcing him to do this. Why else would he do this?\u201d Simon asked. <\/p>\n
Joel said, \u201cThey probably gave them a choice in death or fucking. I\u2019m glad that we got the recording because that means they\u2019ll probably let them go now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo where did the blood come from?\u201d Henri asked, never taking his eyes off the hollow look on Jim\u2019s face. <\/p>\n
Simon guessed, \u201cIt looks like he fought them and they keep him locked up until he did what they asked. Were they working on anything unusual?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo, we\u2019ve all been working on the Benson case. It\u2019s boring. That wouldn\u2019t have caused this. This is something old and someone had time to plan it properly. Maybe a year or more. So I say we look back at someone he sent away and got out in the last year or so,\u201d Conner suggested. <\/p>\n
Once the recording stopped, Joel said, \u201cDid you all notice how they kept their eyes closed the entire time? This must have been devastating for both of them. I don\u2019t know where to start looking for them.\u201d<\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
Jim woke once again and sighed to himself. How was he ever going to live with this? And were these people going to actually let them go? <\/p>\n
Blair woke up and looked over at Jim. \u201cDo they want a repeat performance?\u201d Blair wondered. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, we\u2019re free to go. There are some of our clothes from the loft on the dresser over here. We need to call Simon and report this,\u201d Jim said coldly. <\/p>\n
Blair was afraid of this. He knew Jim was never going to forgive himself for this entire thing. \u201cJim, we did what we had to do. Let\u2019s leave it at that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhatever. I say we get dressed and call Simon,\u201d Jim suggested again. <\/p>\n
They both put their clothes on and walked through the open door. There was no one in the building but Jim and Blair. Jim made sure and listened for heartbeats. All he could hear was Blair\u2019s doing triple time. <\/p>\n
They got upstairs and Jim saw a cell phone. It was Jim\u2019s. He called the station and asked for Simon. <\/p>\n
\u201cBanks?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSimon, it\u2019s me. I need to report a rape.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair shouted, \u201cIt wasn\u2019t rape!\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI need to report a crime,\u201d Jim corrected himself. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim we got the recording of what happened. Where are you?\u201d Simon asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI have no idea. Let me see if there is an address out front. Talk to Blair for a minute,\u201d Jim handed him the phone and walked out front to see if he could find an address. <\/p>\n
\u201cSandburg, are you all right?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cPeachy\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m serious, do we need medics when we come?\u201d Simon inquired. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m fine. Jim\u2019s fine except he\u2019ll need some mental help through all of this,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
Jim walked back into the room and grabbed the phone. \u201cWe\u2019re at 2305 Hamilton Blvd. It\u2019s a white building. We\u2019ll be outside waiting for you.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim do we need medics?\u201d Simon asked once again. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo\u2026We\u2019re fine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019ll be there in five minutes. Hold on,\u201d Simon stated. <\/p>\n
Jim closed his cell phone and said, \u201cThe Calvary is on the way. A little late, but still on the way. They saw the show, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh shit\u2026I was hoping that the guy got his rocks off and just stopped at that. Where else do you think he\u2019s going to send it to?\u201d Blair questioned. <\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe the press. Maybe our parents, I don\u2019t know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe did what we had to do, Jim.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThere is no way we can justify what we did. I\u2019ll never get over it,\u201d Jim said as he walked out of the building. <\/p>\n
Blair sighed and knew he was going to have to work on this with Jim if it killed him. <\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
Jim didn\u2019t look at Blair once while they waited for Simon and the gang to show up. Blair was freaking out about that. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, this wasn\u2019t our fault. We need to blame the right person,\u201d Blair stated. <\/p>\n
\u201cI know, but that\u2019s hard to do when I did what I did,\u201d Jim admitted. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, I came, so does that make it wrong for me too?\u201d Blair asked softly. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, not wrong, just weird. This is going to be hard, Chief. I think you should stay with Conner for awhile until I work some things out in my head,\u201d Jim suggested. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo man, I\u2019m not staying at Conner\u2019s. We\u2019re sticking together, Jim. It\u2019s as simple as that.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNothing is simple about any of this, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMaybe not, but we\u2019re not separating. So stop talking about it. Got it?\u201d Blair asked angrily. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m so fucking sorry,\u201d Jim confessed. <\/p>\n
\u201cStop being sorry. You didn\u2019t hurt me. It felt good and we made the best of it. Just stop telling me you\u2019re sorry. Okay? While you\u2019re at it, could you at least look at me when you talk to me?\u201d Blair pleaded with Jim and it worked. Jim looked over at him sadly, but looked nonetheless. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry that it had to happen like this.\u201d<\/p>\n
At that moment Simon and the gang all came driving up and slammed on the brakes. Simon was the first one to get to them and said, \u201cAre you sure you don\u2019t need a medic?\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair smiled at his worried boss and said, \u201cNo, we\u2019re fine. We\u2019ll be just fine, don\u2019t worry so much.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, what\u2019s fucking between friends?\u201d Jim growled as he walked to Simon\u2019s car and got in the front seat. <\/p>\n
\u201cKid, I don\u2019t know what you\u2019re going to do about this, but he isn\u2019t fine,\u201d Simon said. <\/p>\n
\u201cHe\u2019s embarrassed. Wouldn\u2019t you be?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
Conner came over and hugged Sandburg and said, \u201cSandy we\u2019re so glad you and Jimbo are all right.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair hugged her back and said, \u201cThank you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Henri and Rafe walked up and Henri said, \u201cWe\u2019ll get the fuckers, don\u2019t worry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019d rather just forget the entire thing,\u201d Blair said as he walked over and got in the back seat of Simon\u2019s car. <\/p>\n
\u201cI guess they\u2019re ready to go file a report,\u201d Simon said as he headed to his car. He knew this was going to be the quietest trip they would ever make. Sighing he got into the car and left his officers to gather up all of the evidence at the site. <\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
When they got to the office, Simon barked, \u201cGet into the meeting room and I\u2019ll meet you there. I\u2019ve got to get some paperwork to fill out.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim and Blair both walked to the first meeting room and sat down at the table. Jim sat quite far away from Blair, which pissed Blair off. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat? Do I have bugs or something? Why are you sitting so far away? You hate me now don\u2019t you,\u201d Blair said sadly. <\/p>\n
Jim got out of his chair and sat in the chair next to Blair. \u201cIs that better?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou do hate me, don\u2019t you?\u201d Blair asked quietly. <\/p>\n
\u201cBlair we\u2019ll discuss this when we get home. Simon is almost here. Don\u2019t talk about any of this in front of him. Promise me?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cOkay, I\u2019ll wait until we get home. Then we\u2019re going to talk about some things.\u201d<\/p>\n
Simon walked through the doorway and said, \u201cDo either of you want to see the tape?\u201d<\/p>\n
Both men said, \u201cNo!\u201d at the very same moment. <\/p>\n
\u201cGood. I didn\u2019t bring it with me. Now, here are the forms, we\u2019re going to get them filled out as best as we can. You were kidnapped and then sexually abused. Wouldn\u2019t you call it that?\u201d Simon inquired. <\/p>\n
Blair spoke up and said, \u201cNo, just kidnapped and made to do things that we didn\u2019t want to do. We weren\u2019t sexually abused at all.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim sighed loudly and Simon said, \u201cDo you disagree, Jim?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI fucked him, Simon. That\u2019s sexual misconduct no matter how you look at it.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh, stop being so dramatic, Jim. It wasn\u2019t like we didn\u2019t enjoy it. We both did. So just shut up,\u201d Blair shouted. <\/p>\n
Simon almost smiled for a second. Then he saw Jim\u2019s face and stopped immediately. \u201cSo, we\u2019re just looking for kidnappers, am I right?\u201d <\/p>\n
Blair answered, \u201cYes.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim just clammed up and didn\u2019t say a word.<\/p>\n
Blair filled out the entire report and nothing about the sex was written in it. When he was done he handed it to Jim to read and sign. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re kidding, right? I fucked you. You can bring me up on charges for that, Blair.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSimon, this paper is ready. There is no reason to bring in the tape at all. Why would anyone care? They kidnapped us and that\u2019s all you need to know.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI agree with Blair, Jim. So, get over it,\u201d Simon snapped. <\/p>\n
Jim got up and stormed out of the room. Simon looked at Blair and said, \u201cDo we need to make appointments at the shrink?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDuh\u2026What do you think, Simon?\u201d Blair asked sarcastically. <\/p>\n
\u201cLet me give you both a ride home,\u201d Simon said. <\/p>\n
\u201cThat would be great, but chances are, Jim\u2019s walking if I know him at all. Can you help me find him?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cSure, let\u2019s go and find him,\u201d Simon bellowed. <\/p>\n
\u201cMartin, do you happen to know which way Ellison went?\u201d Blair asked his fellow worker. <\/p>\n
\u201cYeah he went down to the garage. I saw him there. He was pacing there. Is everything all right?\u201d Martin asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, everything will be just fine. Stop worrying, man. We\u2019ll see you later,\u201d Blair said as he and Simon walked down the stairs to the parking garage. Sure enough there was Jim doing laps in the underground parking garage. Simon would have smiled if the circumstances were different. <\/p>\n
Blair caught up to Jim and said, \u201cCome on, you promised you would talk to me at the loft. Simon is going to take us home now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cFine\u2026\u201d Jim walked over to Simon\u2019s car and got in the back seat this time. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, why are you sitting in the back seat?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhy not? What difference does it make?\u201d Jim asked angrily. <\/p>\n
Simon barked, \u201cStop it right now, Ellison. It\u2019s not Sandburg\u2019s fault about what happened and I want you to stop blaming him right now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t blame him, believe me. There is only one person I blame and that\u2019s me.\u201d<\/p>\n
Simon rolled his eyes and Blair wanted to. No one said a word for the entire drive home. <\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
When Jim and Blair walked into the loft, Jim said, \u201cI need to take a shower.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd like I don\u2019t?\u201d Blair asked bitterly. <\/p>\n
\u201cFine, take yours first.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim, take yours and I\u2019ll take mine last. I\u2019m sorry, I shouldn\u2019t have sounded so angry,\u201d Blair admitted. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou have every right to be angry, Chief. I\u2019ll hurry with my shower.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim went upstairs and got his clean clothing and walked into the bathroom and shut the door quietly. He really wanted to slam it, but he held his temper at bay. <\/p>\n
He stripped and stepped into the steaming hot water. He didn\u2019t put any cold on at all. The door opened and Blair\u2019s hand touched the water and he said, \u201cTurn some cold on, right now.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI need to get clean,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ll get plenty clean with warm water, not scalding hot water. Please, do it for me,\u201d Blair pleaded. <\/p>\n
\u201cFine,\u201d Jim answered and turned the hot water down. <\/p>\n
Blair said, \u201cThank you.\u201d Then he left Jim in peace to take his shower. <\/p>\n
It was almost a half of an hour later when Jim came walking out all cleaned up. \u201cYour turn, Chief.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThanks, man.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim stared at the door and wanted to say something to his friend, but he didn\u2019t know what to say. What do you say to a friend that you just fucked? Jim had no idea. <\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
When Blair came walking out of the bathroom, he found Jim out on the balcony. He wasn\u2019t moving and Blair was afraid Jim had zoned. He started for the doorway and Jim said, \u201cI\u2019m fine.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay, I was just checking.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cBlair, did I hurt you today?\u201d Jim asked, out of the blue. <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, I thought you\u2019d be able to tell that much,\u201d Blair replied. <\/p>\n
Jim turned around and asked, \u201cWhat happens to us now?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat do you mean?\u201d Blair inquired. <\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t just go back to being your friend,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhy not?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cI fucked you. I enjoyed fucking you. It would never be the same again,\u201d Jim confessed. <\/p>\n
\u201cI enjoyed it too, so where do we go from there?\u201d Blair asked this time. <\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t know,\u201d Jim answered. <\/p>\n
Blair walked over into Jim\u2019s space and went into his arms. Jim held on to Blair for dear life. \u201cI do love you.\u201d<\/p>\n
Blair smiled into Jim\u2019s large chest and answered, \u201cI love you, too.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSo what do we do?\u201d Jim questioned once more. <\/p>\n
\u201cHow about dates?\u201d Blair replied. <\/p>\n
\u201cDates?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYeah, I\u2019d sort of like to date you. I mean like a movie and dinner some night. We could work our way up to sex,\u201d Blair suggested. <\/p>\n
\u201cI could do dating. Would you like to go for dinner and a movie tomorrow?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, are you going to be able to put this behind us? I don\u2019t want it getting in our way of a relationship.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cChief, I think I\u2019ll be fine. I thought you wouldn\u2019t want me around you any more and that killed me,\u201d Jim declared. <\/p>\n
\u201cI want you around all the time. I say we go to dinner and a movie tonight, so that we can sleep in each other\u2019s arms tonight.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re on. What movie would you like to see?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cFirst of all, I want you to call Simon and tell him that we\u2019re not going to file any charges. I don\u2019t want to look for them. They\u2019ll only remind us of bad times. I want good times. So call, okay?\u201d Blair pleaded. <\/p>\n
Jim couldn\u2019t say no to Blair. He picked up the phone and dialed the station. <\/p>\n
\u201cBanks.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cSimon, we don\u2019t want to file any charges. Let\u2019s pretend like this didn\u2019t happen. Blair and I are fine with that. We\u2019re doing all right. We\u2019re going out to eat tonight and seeing a movie. So, don\u2019t worry if you call and we\u2019re out.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cJim, those vids might show up anywhere at anytime. What about that?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019ll cross that bridge when we come to it, Simon. See you later.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cTake the next two days off and be well, both of you,\u201d Simon ordered. <\/p>\n
\u201cWe are well, Simon. Stop worrying. I\u2019m over it and Blair is Guiding me the entire way. Tell everyone not to worry.\u201d<\/p>\n
Jim hung up the phone and smiled at Blair. \u201cHow about dinner and dancing at home?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cYou got it. You\u2019re really okay with these guys doing this to us?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cNo. I love you and I want to be with you, so it\u2019s best that we leave the bad stuff behind. Hopefully we\u2019ll never hear from them again.\u201d<\/p>\n
~~~~~<\/p>\n
They both decided where they were going to have dinner that night and Jim was extra cautious of people watching them or listening to them. He was afraid that they were still being watched. <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, are you worried that they\u2019re watching us?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cA little. They had to have had more of an agenda, don\u2019t you think?\u201d Jim asked, wanting to hold Blair\u2019s hand in the worst way. <\/p>\n
\u201cLet\u2019s not worry about them. Let\u2019s only think about us. It\u2019s time for us now,\u201d Blair commanded. <\/p>\n
Jim smiled and put his hand over Blair\u2019s. Blair smiled back and knew everything would work out all right. <\/p>\n
From across the room, a nice looking young man was watching them, unknown to Jim and Blair. He took his camera out and snapped a shot of Jim holding Blair\u2019s hand at the table. He smiled and walked out of the bar. No one noticed him and that\u2019s how he wanted it. <\/p>\n
The end <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Do or Die By Patt Summary: Jim has no choice but to do something he has only dreamed about. Will their relationship now be ruined? Jim slowly woke up from what he would guess to be a really bad hangover. … Continue reading