Life
\nby Patt <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, do you, like, have a big family?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cNo, Sandburg.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t really feel like talking about them, right?\u201d Blair asked, even more curious then he was before. <\/p>\n
\u201cThey disowned me years ago, so I would rather not talk about them, ever,\u201d Jim answered. <\/p>\n
Blair looked at Jim sadly and said, \u201cYou\u2019ve got to be kidding? You\u2019re one of the best cops I\u2019ve ever seen in action and they disowned you?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cThey had their reasons, Sandburg, so let\u2019s just drop it now.\u201d <\/p>\n
If it were only that easy for me, Blair thought. He got up and started into the kitchen to make them each a sandwich for lunch. <\/p>\n
Jim looked up, saw what Blair was doing and said, \u201cI\u2019m not really hungry, so don\u2019t make one for me.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYou gotta eat, Jim. You\u2019ve been on stakeout for two days. I bet you only lived on coffee and donuts, didn\u2019t you?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cSince when are you my keeper?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cSince you\u2019re not looking out for yourself at all, someone has to. Now I want you to eat this sandwich and then we\u2019ll run some tests today, if that\u2019s all right with you. We haven\u2019t done anything since we came back from the monastery.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s not all right with me. I feel like a lab rat most of the time. Can\u2019t we just watch a movie on the television and ignore the tests for one weekend? That\u2019s all that I\u2019m asking. I liked the break since we\u2019ve been back.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cSure, I didn\u2019t realize you disliked the tests that much,\u201d Blair said, softly. <\/p>\n
\u201cDon\u2019t be getting all butt hurt. I\u2019m just not in the mood. We\u2019ll do some tomorrow, how does that sound?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cThat would be great. Oh wow, you ate that sandwich, fast. Good job.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cSandburg, I\u2019m not a child, you don\u2019t have to praise me for eating my lunch. Although I guess I was hungrier then I realized,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cAre you mad at me, man?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cWhy would I be mad at you?\u201d Jim wondered. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019ve called me Sandburg all day and I just wondered if bringing up your family was a sore spot that I should have let lie.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m sorry, Chief, I didn\u2019t even realize I was calling you Sandburg. I call you that sometimes, don\u2019t I?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cOf course you do, but usually in the bullpen or when you\u2019re mad at me. Are you mad?\u201d Blair asked once again. <\/p>\n
\u201cJust change the subject, Chief.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI can\u2019t stand it-why would any family member sign off on you?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cThey didn\u2019t fucking like me. And I didn\u2019t care, so they wrote me off and I\u2019ve been fucking fine ever since,\u201d Jim swore. <\/p>\n
\u201cJust tell me why they wrote you off. It might be because of the senses. Maybe they misunderstood something that was said or done while you were having troubles,\u201d Blair suggested. <\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s the past, Blair and I don\u2019t live in the past,\u201d Jim said stoically. <\/p>\n
\u201cTell that to someone that believes you, man. You live in the past all the time.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t fucking care if you believe me or not!\u201d Jim said, sounding madder by the moment. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou do too care. You know you do. You like me, and I like you too. We\u2019re good friends and good friends share problems,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cChief, you\u2019re missing the entire point. I don\u2019t have any problems. My family did and I left them behind. Now, let\u2019s drop it.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cHow many family members did you leave behind?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cJesus Christ, are you going to ever give this a rest?\u201d Jim growled, this time. <\/p>\n
\u201cI just want to know why anyone would disown you. You\u2019re one of the best people I\u2019ve ever met in my life. I can\u2019t believe they would do that.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cChief, not everyone\u2019s life is a bed of roses,\u201d Jim answered, sadly. <\/p>\n
\u201cJust tell me why and I\u2019ll leave it at that,\u201d Blair promised. <\/p>\n
\u201cFine, if I tell you, you\u2019re going to shut up and never bring it up again?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI promise.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cThey didn\u2019t like my lifestyle.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cOh, they didn\u2019t approve of you being a cop. Well, some people have a hard time dealing with that. Not everyone thinks you\u2019re a good person because of what you do for a living,\u201d Blair said, helpfully, hoping it would bring Jim out of his funk. <\/p>\n
\u201cChief, I mean they didn\u2019t like it that I was bisexual.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cOh holy shit-color me stupid.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cNow, you promised you would drop it.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t have much family myself. Just my mom and you wouldn\u2019t like her, I can tell you that.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cHow do you know?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cShe wouldn\u2019t like your first lifestyle,\u201d Blair said, wearing a big smile on his face. <\/p>\n
\u201cShe\u2019s not fond of cops?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYou could say that,\u201d Blair answered. <\/p>\n
\u201cWell, I guess we\u2019ll spend holidays together, since neither of us seems to have any family to speak of,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou know, Thanksgiving is coming up. We could spend it together if you\u2019d like,\u201d Blair offered. <\/p>\n
\u201cThat would be nice, Chief. I would like that a lot.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI need to know how much family you\u2019re leaving behind. Just for my notes,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cI have grandparents, a father, a mother and a brother. My mother remarried and has a daughter and she doesn\u2019t like me either. My mom does keep in touch with me when she can, but she doesn\u2019t want anyone else to find out. She\u2019s not too crazy about me either. The rest of them said they never wanted to see me again.\u201d Jim looked somewhat sad as he talked. <\/p>\n
\u201cIt\u2019s their loss, man. And someday, you just never know. They may need you for something and they might come to you and you\u2019ll have to decide if you can forgive them or not,\u201d Blair commented. <\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think I need them, Chief.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cEveryone needs some family, Jim.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cThen you\u2019ll be my new family, just you and Simon. It would be nice to have the two of you to fall back on, in a pinch.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cBack to the bisexual remark-I need to know a few things,\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI knew you weren\u2019t going to let it drop. I just knew it. It was too good to be true.\u201d <\/p>\n
Blair smiled. \u201cSo since I\u2019ve moved in, I\u2019ve never seen you date a guy. Is it because of me?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cPartly, Chief, now let\u2019s drop it, and I mean it this time.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cMan, I can\u2019t believe you think I would think less of you because you date men,\u201d Blair said, unhappily. <\/p>\n
\u201cI never said I thought you would. I just don\u2019t feel comfortable flaunting my sexuality in anyone\u2019s face. My family found out purely by accident. Now you know, so if I want to date a guy, I will.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cGood, I don\u2019t want to cramp your style,\u201d Blair said, smiling once more. <\/p>\n
\u201cI have to tell you, I\u2019m a little shocked that you\u2019re taking it so well,\u201d Jim said, casually. <\/p>\n
Blair sighed and said, \u201cI\u2019m bisexual too. So it\u2019s not a big deal to me.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYou are not.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI am so. If anyone should know, it should be you.\u201d Blair pointed out. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019ve never smelled a man on you.\u201d Jim crossed his arms over his chest and waited for Blair\u2019s answer. <\/p>\n
\u201cOf course you didn\u2019t. I didn\u2019t know you would accept my life style, so I just stayed with women. I like women,\u201d Blair admitted. <\/p>\n
\u201cI do too, sometimes. But I like men more.\u201d Jim walked in and grabbed a beer for both of them. He walked back into the living room and handed one to Blair. <\/p>\n
\u201cThanks man, it\u2019s five o\u2019clock somewhere in the world, right?\u201d Blair teased. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou don\u2019t drink at all during the day?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cThere usually isn\u2019t a need to. I relax with meditation. I could teach you, Jim. How would you like that?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI think that would be acceptable.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cGood, we\u2019ll start this evening. I\u2019m glad we had this talk. I\u2019m going to feel a lot more at ease with you now. To tell you the truth, it was making me a little nervous not telling you about me,\u201d Blair said. <\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m glad we had the talk too. I think I might ask someone out this weekend since we\u2019re out in the open. I really like him and I would like to see if we click,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cOh man, who is it? Anyone I know?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI don\u2019t think you know him. He\u2019s a cop from the one-five and his name is Bradley Smith,\u201d Jim divulged. <\/p>\n
\u201cBradley Smith? You\u2019re joking, right?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cWhat\u2019s wrong with Bradley Smith?\u201d Jim questioned. <\/p>\n
\u201cNothing that I know of, but man, he\u2019s so short. Just doesn\u2019t seem your type at all. He has that long hair that I figured would bother you and he just doesn\u2019t seem your type,\u201d Blair said, as calmly as he could. <\/p>\n
\u201cWell, he is my type and I\u2019m going to ask him out,\u201d Jim stated. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou like short guys with long hair that are sort of nerdy?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou have a problem with that?\u201d Jim asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cNot really a problem, but if you date guys like that, why aren\u2019t I your first choice?\u201d Blair said sounding somewhat pissed off. <\/p>\n
\u201cChief, we can\u2019t date. We work together,\u201d Jim said. <\/p>\n
\u201cBig deal. I know a lot of people that work together and have a dating life too. You just don\u2019t like me, right?\u201d Blair wondered. <\/p>\n
\u201cChief, I like you a lot, and that\u2019s one reason I don\u2019t want to date you. I\u2019m a lousy fucking date.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cSo you\u2019re going to push yourself on Bradley, knowing you\u2019re a lousy date?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cFine, you know what, Sandburg, I won\u2019t ask him out and I\u2019ll be alone for the rest of my life. Would that make you happier?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cOh Ellison, you are such a drama llama.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cDrama llama?\u201d Jim barked. <\/p>\n
\u201cYes, my friend at Rainier calls me that when I get too overly dramatic from time to time. This was one of those times for you. If you don\u2019t want to date me, just say I\u2019m not your type, but don\u2019t blame it on working together.\u201d <\/p>\n
Jim ran his large hand across his weary face and said, \u201cYou might be my type, but I\u2019m afraid.\u201d <\/p>\n
Blair stopped being a drama llama himself so he could actually listen to Jim for a change. \u201cWhat are you afraid of?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYou\u2019re my only family now, Chief. If it doesn\u2019t work out I would have no one.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYou would always have Simon, man,\u201d Blair said, in a teasing tone. <\/p>\n
\u201cI know, but it\u2019s not the same as having you around,\u201d Jim said softly. <\/p>\n
\u201cYou like me, right?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI like you a lot, Chief.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cThen I say we try dating first and go from there,\u201d Blair suggested. <\/p>\n
\u201cGo where?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYou know, having sex and all that stuff,\u201d Blair said, blushing. <\/p>\n
\u201cWould you like to go out to dinner tonight?\u201d Jim asked, smiling. <\/p>\n
\u201cI would love to go out with you, Jim. Where did you want to go?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cDo you like Claim Jumper?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cJim, who doesn\u2019t like Claim Jumper?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cOkay, we\u2019ll leave in thirty minutes. This is going to be fun, Chief. I can tell already.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cI think so too.\u201d Blair walked off into his bedroom to get ready for Claim Jumper and Jim. He wanted to look nice, so he got a pair of \u2018Dockers\u2019 out and put them on his bed. Then he found a really nice polo shirt and looked at it long and hard. Do I really want him to think I\u2019m that big a nerd? He calmed himself down and started to get dressed. He realized that Jim wouldn\u2019t care what he wore. Jim just wanted him to be interested in him, not what he wore. Although Blair hoped Jim wore \u2018Dockers\u2019 and a polo shirt because it made Jim look hot as hell. <\/p>\n
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Jim was upstairs doing much the same thing as Blair. He didn\u2019t want to look like a nerd, but he also wanted to look nice for their first date. Finally Jim called down over the railing by his bed, \u201cChief, do you care if I wear a polo shirt?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cWe\u2019ll both wear one, how does that sound?\u201d Blair called back. <\/p>\n
\u201cPerfect.\u201d Jim went back to getting ready. He really liked the idea of a first date with Blair. Blair was everything a person would need. He was smart, good looking, sweet, hopefully sexy and an all around nice guy. Everyone liked Blair, so that was also great. <\/p>\n
Jim\u2019s family might have disowned him, but for once Jim was actually glad. He wouldn\u2019t have come to this point in his life if it hadn\u2019t have been for that. Sometimes family problems work out in the strangest ways. Jim no longer cared if his relatives liked him or not. He really didn\u2019t need them at all. Blair had given him a new lease on life. And in this new life, he was going to have not only a best friend, but a new lover as well. Jim found himself whistling while he tied his shoes and walked down the stairs. <\/p>\n
Blair walked out of his room and saw Jim smile at him and asked, \u201cToo nerdy?\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cYou look very hot. I wouldn\u2019t have you change a thing.\u201d <\/p>\n
\u201cAre you ready for the first day of the rest of our life?\u201d Blair asked. <\/p>\n
\u201cI am,\u201d Jim answered and took hold of Blair\u2019s hand in his and walked out the front door. <\/p>\n
And so the journey began. <\/p>\n
The end <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Life by Patt \u201cJim, do you, like, have a big family?\u201d \u201cNo, Sandburg.\u201d \u201cYou don\u2019t really feel like talking about them, right?\u201d Blair asked, even more curious then he was before. \u201cThey disowned me years ago, so I would rather … Continue reading