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  Thawing 
 by gena  

 

He's always cold. He wraps himself in layers; humor, sarcasm, bitterness,
anything to stave off a chill that isn't so much of the flesh but of the
heart. He chafes his hands with yo-yos, the damn cane, and even his piano
in a effort to distract himself from the gnawing bite of the cold. And it
works - for a while, then it seeps back in, stealing his strength, his
resolve and all he wants is to set himself aflame, to burn. He carries
within him the memory of fire - of a heat so intense it had charred his
heart, blackening it, destroying it from the inside out. He'd survived
somehow, coughing up ashes for years, creating a barren circle around
himself that others can not cross. No one, least of all himself, knew that
a sliver of that great muscle still remained, it hadn't been incinerated
nor had it been removed with the muscles from his thigh. He longs for the
warmth he can remember, so he pulls his garments a bit closer around him,
knowing ultimately that the ones he's chosen will keep out the warmth he
longs for but unable to stop himself. He's always cold. 

He hates the cold. It drives him to seek warmth wherever he can find it.
He wraps his arms around himself, holding tight in a battle he fears he
will lose. He doesn't know why he ends up shivering, he offers everything
he has and still comes away with only frost in his hands. They look at
him, those first shy glances, eyes sparking like embers and he thinks "Oh,
there's fire." And rushes into their arms, burrowing into the heat. But
it's an illusion, one that begins to fade with time until he sees that the
spark was no more than reflected light on ice. Those are the times he
tries to shelter himself, pulling his white coat tight and chafing his
hands over files. He can fan the tiniest hint of appreciation into a roar
of gratitude with one of his smiles and his soft voice, his kind eyes.
Sometimes he feels that the cold has seeped into his heart, and the
flicker their thankfulness ignites is not real, but it warms him just the
same. Never for long, but it thaws him for a time and allows him to seek
out another. He walks slowly, his steps almost painful, as he searches for
the source of everlasting heat. 

They come together. Ice and frost. Two cold figures huddling close,
seeking warmth where coldness rules the world. Instinct alone, draws them
together, others see the ice in one and after a while feel the frost in
the other. But in each other they see sunshine and blue skies. Spring
lurks underneath the snow. Alone, unheeding of pretense, they shed their
coats, laying aside the layers and garments and cloaks they have each
carefully donned. In the dim light of a small apartment, the beautiful
notes of a piano the only sound besides their breathing, the thaw sets in.
Frost and ice, ice and frost, they warm each other, their bodies pressed
tightly together, the vapor of their breath mingling until it resembles
steam. Hearts begin to race, pounding like steel on flint until suddenly
there is flame, loneliness melts until it pours from their skin, slick and
musky. Heat, fire, warmth - love. Basking in the glow of what they share,
neither man feels the cold anymore.  
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