The BLTS Archive - Soliloquies
#5: Never Said Goodbye
by Mari (mari1529@my-deja.com)

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Disclaimers:   Paramount is the overlord of Star Trek. This humble
peon is merely borrowing them with no financial renumeration expected
or desired.

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We're home.

We put into Starbase 23 last night.

Enterprise was there. They were leaving early this morning.

Last night, I started to walk over, to see my friends and their
families. Then I stopped.

I knew what to say. how to act. What to do. But I didn't want to. I
didn't want to hurt anymore.

I went home, to my quarters, and I went to bed. Knowing it was over.

In the morning, when I got up, Enterprise was readying for departure.
I beamed over, saw Jean-Luc and Data. Shot the breeze for twenty
minutes. Discovered that she was expecting again. The *normal* way. No
more morning sickness. In fact, nothing at all.

Then I left. Without seeing Deanna.

I know I can't say goodbye to Deanna. She is a part of me that I value
tremendously. I don't want to say goodbye to that.

I still love her. But Deanna Troi-Roshenko is a dear friend. What we
had is a might-have-been. It hurts, but more as a twinge than as an
ever-present ache. I'm still lonely, but one victory at a time.

I'm free, Dad. I'm moving on.

Vaya con Dios, Deanna.

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The End