The BLTS Archive - A Letter: from Jean Luc
by DocBevCulver (docbevculver@gmail.com)

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Disclaimer: 'Star Trek' and the characters are owned by Paramount, I
just claim the plot to this story. NO infringement intended.

Author's Notes: This story came about after I was asked nicely by
Sandi to do a sequel to my POV story called 'A Letter' which was
Beverly's POV. She wanted this one to be in JLP's POV. So here it is.

Archive: ASC and BLTS. All other's, please, ask first.

Feedback of all kinds is welcome, but flames will be used to light my
cigarette.

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My dearest Beverly,


I wished you'd have spoken sooner about your feelings. Instead, you
waited until I was gone and couldn't say these things face to face.
You are as stubborn as ever.

I too noticed the difference in our relationship. I felt that I had to
keep up appearances in front of the crew, to keep our working
relationship going, but I suppose we both failed to keep our private
relationship growing.

I wanted to let the barriers down and I wanted to learn all your
hidden secrets, but you pushed me away. Yet, I let you. I should have
fought and made you see, you need me, as much as I need you. You are
my best friend and I wanted you to be my lover as well.

Now, I understand why my feelings have changed for Anij.  You see,
what I have for her is *hormonal* rather then *emotional*, unlike the
feelings I have for you.

I knew that I should have spoken to you about my feelings when we
returned from KesPrytt, instead of assuming that you felt the same for
me. I thought you understood that I was lying on the planet when I
spoke of not having those feelings anymore.

Yet, when you decided to walk out that night, after our return, I was
hurt. I wanted our relationship to be more then friends, but I didn't
have the courage to go after you, to stop us both from making a
horrible mistake.

Then, as the years progressed and you seemed happy just being friends,
I decided to push those feelings back down and continue on as well. As
if nothing had happened on that planet.

When we landed on Ba'ku, those feelings surfaced again and I had to
control them somehow. That's when the hormones kicked in and picked
out Anij. I didn't realize this until I returned here for my vacation
and you were no-where to be seen or heard. The feelings I had for Anij
were no longer there, but an empty space resided in my heart.

I want to start over, Beverly. I want to make a change in our lives
and correct the mistakes that we have both made. I want to stop the
dance that we started so long ago and just settle down with each
other.

Please! We need to stop this, before it's too late.

I will be leaving Ba'ku tonight and arriving in five days at Starbase
212. Please, Beverly, meet me there. I need to see you and we really
need to talk face to face.

I love you, Beverly Crusher, and I want to spend the rest of my life
with you!


Sincerely and with love,

Jean-Luc
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The End