The BLTS Archive- On The Shore
by august (appelsini@hotmail.com)

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cMar 2000

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Have me in the darkness as my ships leaves your space; as you say "not
Inspector anymore"; as you strangle my wrists against the sheets. Have
me in the darkness as you come to my room silently, as you walk 
towards me, as you say "I don't think I should have left."

Have me in the mornings as you wonder how you spent another night in
my bed; as you watch me dress and think that you have no uniform to 
climb into; as you stare into the beginning of an empty day. Have me 
in the mornings as you try to coax me back to bed; as you smile; as 
you realise you can't spend another day alone.

Have me after the meetings, the dinners, the crew gatherings where you
do not leave my side, where I do not leave your gaze. Have me after 
the crew gatherings as you crowd me in the turbolift; as you kiss me 
in the turbolift; as you call me Captain, in the turbolift.

Have me after the sick-bay, when you walk to our quarters in silence;
where you examine your bruises alone; where you will not tell me who
started the attack. Have me after the sick-bay, when you move in me
but neither of us comes; where you flinch when I touch you; where you
flinch when I assign you a security detail.

Have me in the seconds we decide we are alone; in the moments we
realise we are unknown. Have me in the cold, in the distraction, as 
you wonder whether you've ever really had me. Have me in the lull 
between anger and desire, as you climb my body, as you break my body 
(as I break you).

Have me on the shore as our bodies burn under the three suns; as we
take our first shoreleave; as you brush the sand from my back; as you 
tell me that you are leaving.

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The End