The BLTS Archive- Mine by Amiroq. aka Gypzy (fitchett@netaccess.co.nz) --- Disclaimer: Yaya, Paramount owns Trek and we have to rub it in every time we write a story. 'Mine' is on the album 'Savage Garden', by Savage Garden. Mine, Amiroq. 1999 --- I wait in the darkness Frozen winds surround my face In the cover of darkness I can make believe it's you I feel you like the rain I feel you like a storm cloud Building in my heart I wonder if you know the pain To want the one thing that you haven't got --- Have you ever lain in bed at night, cold despite the Starfleet issue blankets? When it's so dark you can imagine anything. So dark you can even imagine someone with you, with you in bed. That's what I'm doing now, though you'll never know it. I can easily remember the feel of your hands, your body, though it's never happened. I can easily pretend you're here now. Now. Not four years in the future. Now. I've wanted you so long, since I got back, since before that; since I met you, since I realised that I love you. It all builds up, inside me, and I have to hide it every time I leave my quarters. Because I'm Harry Kim. I have no problems. I have everything I could ever want. Except the one thing I do. --- Just a twist in time ...and you could be mine Just a sip of wine ...and you could be mine Just a kiss divine --- Oh, it was amazing, in the future. The way you looked at me... It was the same way I look at you now. But you never notice. I think you would have, once, but now we've split down the middle. In four years, that's when it will happen. That's when you'll begin to feel for me how I feel for you. Except by then, I'll have moved on. It was just a twist in time that gave you to me, just for a while. A spatial anomaly, not unlike the kind we run across every so often. I was only there for a night and a morning, but oh, what a night. I can still taste the wine on my lips, good stuff, not replicated, and then you. I can still feel your kiss, full of longing and desire, all the things I feel when I think of you. It's ironic, really. We're meant to be. I know it. And all that keeps us apart is the timing. Maybe I'll manage to hold on for four years. And then we can be together. In the future. It's no use though. It's already happened. I've seen it. I've already forgotten. I wish I could have stayed. Perhaps I would have. But you, and you alone, found a way to get me back. I can still remember the look on your face as I disappeared from the future. I'll miss it. I'll miss you..her. --- A hand brushes by my love A smile fuels a steel inferno You don't have to die to leave my world Stand still and you've departed It seems I'm not on your mind And I'm just wasting my time I'm just a fool to believe In the death of the night Can you feel me inside I wish that you could conceive --- I wander through the corridors aimlessly. Deck 6, the computer tells me. It must be, as Holodeck 2's in front of me. I never could work out why Holodeck 2 is above Holodeck 1. I guess I'll never know, not out here. The programmers and designers are on the other side of the galaxy. By the time I get to ask them, they'll all be dead. Sandrine's is running. You're inside. I can see you sitting by the bar. Smiling. Laughing. Joking. With Tom. His hand moves over yours. He smiles. You smile. My heart dies. I'm not stupid. I know how you feel about him. It's him you think about, and it will be for another three years. Or at least, in one possible future it will be. Like Kes said when she went out of phase, I only saw snatches of a possible future. I think, that if anyone mentioned to you the idea of us together, you'd laugh. Like you're laughing now. You'd think it wouldn't work. And I'd be left to walk away as if nothing was wrong, like I've been doing so long, and go back to my quarters, and cry. --- Just a twist in time ...and you could be mine Just a sip of wine ...and you could be mine Just a kiss divine ...and you could be mine --- Four years is a long time. --- The End