Giving Up

by Graham
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Paramount owns these characters.

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Flashback:
Tom Paris had just got off of duty and was walking down to Harry's quarters. When he got there, the door would not open and Harry wouldn't answer. "Harry! It's Tom, open up." When he received no response, he decided to hell with it. "Computer, open Harry Kim's door, authorization Paris-4112-theta."

"Security code cleared." The door opened.

Tom ran in but stopped dead in his tracks. . . Harry was laying in a pool of blood, a knife in one hand, and what looked like a wound mark on the other. . . no, it couldn't be. . . could Harry have killed himself? That was impossible.

"Computer, did Harry leave a message of some sort? Maybe for a practical joke?" Tom hoped it was.

"One file intended for Lt. Paris. Lt. Paris authorization needed."

"Paris-4112-theta!" Tom shouted at the computer.

All of a sudden Harry's voice came on, "Hey Tom, it's me. . . If you're getting this message, then I'm dead. I want you to know how much I loved you. You were the shine of my life, nobody could EVER compare to you."Harry took in a shaky breath, cleared his throat and went on. "Tom, I must leave you for a while. But we will see each other again, someday. Promise me you'll live long and stay strong for me, ok sweetie?" Harry's voice was beginning to break with tears. "Tell Chakotay, I told him too take good care of you. Tell him I'm leaving him in charge of keeping you safe. All my stuff is your's, you may keep it. One last thing. . . go on. . . live. . . be happy. . . don't mourn over me the rest of your life, we'll see each other again someday. I promise you that, Tom. I love you so much. Harry Kim."

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARRY NO!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME?! WHY HARRY WHY!!! WEREN'T WE HAPPY TOGETHER?!" Tom sobbed. . . then he heard B'Elanna gasp.

"TOM!!!" B'Elanna's voice was breaking with un-shed tears. "Tom, what happened? What. . . OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!" She screamed when she saw Harry's body. "Tom..." That was the last thing either of them said for a long time. Eventually security came and escorted Tom and B'Elanna to the sickbay with Harry's body. Doctor asked them a few questions, as well as Tuvok.

"B'Elanna. . ." Tom said in a small voice "Why do you think he left?"

B'Elanna couldn't think of an answer, could only hold onto Tom.

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Back to regular time, about two weeks after Harry's death:
Tom sat up in his quarters, knife in hand, pressed against his wrist. The cool blade cut through his flesh like it was butter. He had recorded his personal log, to B'Elanna, the Captain, and Chakotay. In it he told them what had happened and why he did it. The last thoughts in his head were "I'm going to see Harry again."

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After life:
Harry was waiting at the threshold for Tom. The person in charge - Whoever that was nobody was telling him - had sent someone to tell him his lover was going to be there.

Tom arrived to see Harry waiting for him. He ran at him and jumped into his arms. They were together again. They would be happy, together forever. They headed off into a direction they thought would be fun and walked peacefully towards the horizon, hand in hand.

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End


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