Heads or Tails


by Red Skye

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[A.R] M/F/M

NOTES:
        -This is Ray's thoughts-
        =This is Fraser's thoughts=
        {Meg's thoughts}
        *equals emphasis*

        ***????**** denotes the feeling of confusion
        *#@*$#* denotes mental cursing.

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        Ray's mother watched her son unwrap the spontaneous
gift she'd given him with expectation as he wondered what it
was and why the hell she was giving it to him. It didn't
really matter, it was nice to see the smile back on her face
she'd been so depressed since attending her old friends
funeral, he vowed to paste on a smile and say he loved it
whatever it was.
        What it turned out to be was a set of a very expensive
new after shave/Cologne he'd seen advertised on television,
the commercial that always made him laugh because women
dropped like flies around the L.A stud who supposedly wore
it.
        He broke into a genuine smile.
        "Ma, you shouldn't have."
        "You ran out."
        "Is that why you brought this? This is so expensive."        
        She patted his cheek.
        "If I can't spoil my son once in a while what's the
point in being a mama."
        He smiled and hugged her and she watched expectantly as
he opened the bottle and sniffed it. It took everything he
had not to rear back and hurl the offending bottle away.
        -Ohgod no don't take that smile off her face, relax..
Smile-
        "There were so many to chose from but I remembered
hearing you talking to Benton about that."
        -Saved-
        He screwed the lid back on.
        "Ma, we were discussing the commercial Fraser just
didn't get the joke.. I wasn't hinting to any one that I'd
like a bottle of it."
        "I like the way it smells."
        -You would it smells just like the cheap stuff pop
always wore-
        "And the salesman said it was a very popular scent,
that a lot of women are buying it for their men because they
like it."
-And if you believe that I've got a bridge to sell you-
        "Maybe you'll get lucky with it."
        -Ohgod no I am not going to wear this no way no how-
        "I'll save it for my special dates."
        -That should do it-
        She took the bottle from his hand opened it then
splashed a little on her hand and patted it on his cheeks.
        -GAG ARRRGHH NOOOO I DON'T WANT TO SMELL LIKE *HIM*-
        She capped the bottle then sniffed at him and smiled
brilliantly.
        -Did you *have* to light up like a nova *sigh*-
        "It smells even better on you.. It's supposed to change
subtly for every man who wears it."
        -Forget subtle I want drastic *gag*-
        "Smells great."
        -Please God don't make me wear this a second longer
than I absolutely have to-
         DING-DONG
        -Saved by the bell-
        He grabbed the bottle then spun to rush away and answer
the door.
        -A trip, Opps, bye-bye bottle *evil grin*-
        Frannie beat him to the door opening it to the Denim,
and silk clad Mountie in mufti.
        -Perfect witnesses to my *accident*-
        He deliberately hooked his toe under the rug and let
himself fall, the bottle and glass atomiser flying from his
hands and sailing through the air as his arms pinwheeled.
        "Ray!"
        Francesca spun to see the bottles flying through the
air, and she and Fraser both struck out to catch the air
borne bottles. Ray hit the floor catching himself on his
hands at the last minute with an Oomph and a groan that
wasn't feigned as he heard two slaps that told him two glass
bottles had met palms.
        "Got it!" Frannie crowed.
        "Good catch." Fraser praised her.
        -DAMN, DAMN, DAMN, DAMN-
        "Lady Killer cologne - Ray, I can't believe you fell
for that *add* and blew your money on this."
        -Don't look at me, it was ma-
        Then his mother was there clucking and helping him up
to his feet and dusting at his clothes.
        -You're really starting to scare me, ma-
        "I'm O.k, I'm O.K.. I just tripped on the carpet," he
said and then spoilt it all reached out to push her
fluttering hands away.
        As his hand touched hers and applied gentle pressure an
agonising pain shot up his forearm and he couldn't contain
the cry of pain, or his reflex action of nursing the
affected wrist.
        -Oh NO!-
        Frannie and Fraser hurried over as his mother went into
my *baby* is *dying* mode. To Ray's relief Frannie fended
their mother off.
        -I owe you one-
        Fraser moved in reaching out to take his elbow, his
sleeve was slipped back and Fraser's hand was moving over
the injured limb gently but firmly looking for a break.
        -*????* *DOWN* boy-
        He couldn't suppress the shiver that ran down his spine
at the contact and wanted to breath in the fresh clean Earth
Forest scent that clung to everything the Mountie wore.
        -He smells like Canada *giggle*-
        Then he registered what Fraser was wearing, Levi's that
almost moulded themselves to his legs, a blue silk shirt
that enhanced his eyes and a thigh length denim coat cut in
the Mountie dress coat style - the coat he'd borrowed one of
Fraser's dress coats to take to a seamstress to make, the
shirt, that coat, he'd given them to Fraser for his
birthday. The Levi's were Frannie's contribution that day.
And he couldn't remember ever seeing Fraser wear any of it
before. With a smile he opened his mouth to say something
about it.
        His words were never spoken Fraser's hand moved over
his wrist and the agonising stabbing pain up his arm
increased ten fold. His legs buckled and his head went back
in a scream of pain. The hand left his and he felt himself
being enfolded in a supportive hold by an apologetic
Mountie.
        "It's a bad break."
        Then his mother rushed off to the phone to hysterically
summon an ambulance. Fraser transferred him to his shocked
sisters arms in a smooth move and went after his mother and
slapped her once, hard, but not hard enough to harm. The
hysteric's ended and she ended up in his arms sobbing.
        -I'm past scared now ma.-
        The Mountie looked over her shoulder at the wide eyed
sibling's with an equally wide eyed look.

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        Fraser followed the seething Ray down the corridor
moving in every now and then to get between Ray's plastered
hand and wrist and the various things it would have thudded
into as Ray's arms flew around in high agitation.
        "The nerve of that *Quack!* saying all my mother really
needs is to get *laid*."
        =I know how the poor woman feels *sigh*=
        "Over compensating for her lack of a sex life by
turning into super mom to get affection Hah!"
        Fraser's nose tickled.
        =Ohno, not again I must have picked up a cold=
        He fought the urge to sneeze as Ray's ranting picked up
and put himself in front of Ray planted a hand in his chest
and stopped him in his tracks.
        "I have two words for you, Ray, Shut up."
        Ray was so amazed he fell silent.
        "I don't want to hear you calling that man a Quack
again."
        "But.."
        "I said enough. Or have you forgotten that man was the
same one who dealt with your wrist and the shape it was in
after that incompetent intern got through with it."
        Ray shuddered.
        "You went absolutely berserk and if you don't stop
ranting and calm down."
        Ray held up his hands.
        "I know.. I know.. They're going call for the guys with
the white coats with long sleeves and lots of buckles."
        "Exactly. If you want to rant. At least wait till we
leave the hospital."
        Ray nodded and Fraser opened his mouth but that tickle
in his nose became a full blown sneeze and he sneezed so
violently that he skidded a step or two back on the slick
polished floors, his hat flying off his head.
        "Now that's what I call a sneeze," Ray said as he
looked around, to find and scooped up Fraser's hat, then
studied the Mountie.
        "You're not getting sick on me are you Benni?" Ray
asked as he reached into his pocket pulling out a
handkerchief and handed it over to Fraser.
        Fraser raised it to his face and catching a whiff of
Ray's scent on it, inhaled deeply.
        =It smells just like him=
        "It was just one sneeze, Ray."
        "Yeah and what about the way you kept sneezing in the
waiting room.. You just couldn't stop till that nurse came
up and put that mask over your face. You shoulda seen a
doctor about it."
        "It seemed to stop after that. They said it was hay
fever from the flowers in the room."
        "There aren't any flowers here."
        He tucked the handkerchief away up his sleeve.
        "It was just one sneeze. It's stopped now."
        Ray stepped up to him to put his hat back on his head
and patted it down. Fraser took a discrete little sniff of
him and his hands flew back up to his face as once more he
skidded back down the corridor as the most violent sneeze so
far assailed him.
        =That *hurt*=
        "Like hell it has."
        Ray strode up, and hooked his plastered arm around
Fraser's to drag him back up the corridor as Fraser looked
at his hands feeling something warm and fluid on them.
        =*Blood*=
        The handkerchief was whipped out and applied to his
bloody nose.
        "We're here, we may as well take advantage of it and
get a doctor to take a look at you."        
        =Who's arguing?=        
        He and Ray were separated as another violent sneeze
erupted sending him skidding backwards down the corridor.
        =That *really* hurt=
        He looked at the handkerchief his eyes widening in
alarm as he saw how much blood stained the once snowy linen.
He felt a little light headed. He could feel the blood
running through his nose now, so much blood.
        =Why is there so much blood?=
        Then Ray was back at his side and clucking.
        =NO!=
        He sneezed again, the pain was incredible, and his legs
started trembling. Then Ray was there, in front of him,
covered in blood.
        =Oh no. I've ruined another one of his suits.=
        But there was no anger only concern on Ray's part as he
made Fraser reapply the handkerchief to try and stop the
blood that fountained out to splatter on the floor.
        "Watch out, bad enough you splattered me, don't
splatter yourself with it."
        =My shirt!=
        "No keep your head up like that.. It's not hitting your
clothes.. Over this way.. That's right there are chairs back
here."
        "Sit down, here.. Now."
        Fraser sat in the chair Ray lead him too and Ray leaned
over him tipping his head back.
        "Pinch your nose, I'll be right back with a doctor."
        Fraser let out a wail of pain as another sneeze erupted
from him as he was trying to obey Ray's command. Ray reared
back to avoid being splattered with blood again.
        "Breath through your mouth, Benni.. Pinch your nose and
breath through your mouth."
        Fraser followed his instructions, drawing in deep
shuddering breaths.
        =Hurts so much=
        "Under control now? You're not going to sneeze again
are you?"
        He couldn't nod so he gave Ray the thumbs up.
        "Good, I'll be back with a doctor, a nurse with an ice
pack.. You just sit tight. O.K."
        Then he was racing away and met up with disaster on
that slick floor, as he slipped in the puddle blood of that
was Fraser's. The next thing he knew he was flat on his back
his head was ringing, his gut awash with nausea and Fraser
was leaning over him, all concern, holding that blood soaked
handkerchief to his nose.
        Then he registered how white faced Fraser was and felt
blood dripping from that soaked linen onto his chest.
        -Gotta get up. Gotta get a Doctor-
        Before he could act, Fraser's eyes rolled back and he
had a faint Mountie collapsing over him. The breath he'd
just caught exploded out of him, leaving him breathless.
        -Benni! Ohgod!-
        The world spun as the ringing in his ears grew louder,
his eyes rolled back and he saw stars, before darkness
descended.

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        "If you thought she went gaga at home, you should have
seen how she reacted to seeing you lying on the floor out
cold with all that blood over your chest and Fraser out cold
on top of you with all that blood on his face."
        "I bet she got a doctor for us real quick shrieking, My
Baby," Ray said looking into the mirror twisting his head to
view the shaved spot and bandage on the back of his skull.
        "A doctor, she could have roused the dead with that
shrieking and wailing.. They dragged her off and sedated
her. I took her home, put her to bed, Maria is watching
her."
        "You shoulda stayed with her."
        "I didn't know what your condition was when I took her
home."
        "Bet it looked bad.. All that blood."
        She nodded and helped him make his way back to the bed,
he was pretty shaky on his feet.
        "You check on Fraser?"
        "All that sneezing burst a few blood vessels, and every
time he sneezed the damage got worse. That's why there was
so much blood."
        "He's going to be all right, isn't he?"
        "Oh yes, they've got an ice pack on it and gave him a
shot to make his blood clot faster, when the bleeding stops,
they'll cauterise it so it won't happen again."
        "Has he stopped sneezing?"
        "Yes, for now. They put an air tube in his mouth so he
wouldn't breath through his nose again and gave him
something for the pain and he's drowsing."
        "Well that's a mercy."
        "And you can see him for yourself, when they're done
they'll be moving him in here. He's in for the night, or
until they work out why he started sneezing so bad, which
ever comes first."
        "They gotta find out why he's sneezing *first*."
        "They will. The doctor got him to sign some forms,
they're going to preform tests before he's moved here."
        "How'd you get so much information?"
        "It's that Doctor, he thinks you and Fraser are..
Involved."
        "What is it with that man?"
        Rather than explain that he got the idea after Fraser
had dealt with him going berserk she decided to distract
him, if possible.
        "Did you see what he was wearing?"
        "Who?"
        "Benton.. He was wearing the things we gave him for his
birthday. I thought he looked great in it."
        "Ha.. You think he looks great in anything he wears."
        "But he does look good in just about anything."
        Ray chuckled.
        "But he looked great in that."
        "That's the first time I've ever seen him wear
something I gave him. Maybe he had a date to make."
        "Benton. *snerk* The only person he ever dates is you."
        "Hardy har-ha."

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        Ray swung around the door way of the exam room to see
Fraser sitting on the bed pulling on his coat from the back
view. There was a strap around the back of his head.
        "There you are Benni."
        Fraser looked around as Ray entered, and Ray winced.
What could be seen of Fraser's face under the special air
filter mask he was wearing was a mass of ugly bruises.
        "You're up."
        "I thought they were going to transfer you to the same
ward they put me in."
        "I was, you must have been asleep.. I know you were
still sleeping when they woke me up and brought me here for
a few more tests."
        "Did they work it out?"
        "It would seem I've developed an allergy to something
in the air. I have to wear this," he touched the mask, "and
visit an allergist to find out what and undergo
desensitisation treatment..or leave the city."
        "The *City*! It's the air in here that did it to you,"
Ray protested.
        "No, Ray.. My nose was reacting before I entered the
hospital.. Or didn't you notice the way I kept sniffling."
        "Oh, yeah.. You went through all the tissues in the
box."
        Fraser tugged the coat on, then picked up small gadget
with a chain attached and attached the chain to his mask
strap before popping the gadget into the coat's top pocket.
        "What's that?"
        "Pollutant gauge."
        Then he picked up another gadget and popped it into a
pocket along with another and another.
        "What's all that?"
        "Analyser, sampler and alarm."
        "Alarm?"
        "In case I have another sneezing fit like that and
can't stop sneezing."
        He picked up another gadget and after he checked it,
into the pocket it went, and then the final gadget was
collected and held out.
        "This is for you."
        Ray took it.
        "A pager?"
        "For the alarm. The alarm will sound here, then they
will use the pager to find out where I am, and I don't have
a phone, but you have a cel phone and.."
        "This is really serious, isn't it?"
        "Well, yes, sneezing that violently, constantly, could
lead to a broken rib, burst blood vessels.. I could even
choke on my own blood or pass out because I can't stop
sneezing long enough to draw breath - which almost happened
in the waiting room if you'll recall."        
        "Yeah.. I remember you turning blue in the face before
that nurse took charge."
        "That's why they gave me the alarm. I have to keep it
until I go through desensitisation or leave town. Which ever
comes first."
        "You are not leaving town."        
        "I may have to.. there's no guarantee desensitisation
treatment will work if it fails I will have no choice but to
leave. Take a transfer, back home if at all possible."
        "It's gonna work."
        He tucked the pager into his pocket and helped Fraser
down off the bed and held onto his arm as the Mountie
swayed.
        "You o.k there?"
        "It's the medication.. it makes me a little light
headed."
        "Yeah, well just wrap your arm around me."
        =Any time=
        "And I'll help you out to the car."
        "Thank-you."
        "Let's go."
        "The doctor.."
        "I already saw the doctor, I've got the medical
certificate for the Consulate. You're spending the rest of
the day in bed, Doctor's orders, but you don't have to spend
it here.. We've got to stop off and pick up a nebuliser and
then your coming back to my place.. You're not going back to
that flea pit till we get that place cleaned.. And ma can
cluck over you while I take care of everything."
        "Deifenbaker."
        "I'll get someone to take care of him.. You can't be
around him till this condition.."
        "Allergy."
        "Whatever is dealt with. That fur could set you off
again."
        "But I have my mask."
        "You can't wear that around the clock. That means no
fur, which means no contact with Deif. I already called
home. They getting the house as clean as possible. No
flowers. Remind me to stop at the front desk the doctor
arranged for an oxy kit so I can take care of you if you go
into another fit."
        
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        "Promise you're not going to go gaga again on me again,
Ma, you really scared us all when you did that," Ray said as
he let his mother pat that detested after shave on the face
she'd insisted on shaving for him, since he'd broken his
dominant wrist.
        "Did you take the pills the doctor gave you?"
        "Did you take the ones he gave *you*?"
        "Yes"
        "So did I. So are you finished clucking, I have to go
work now."
        "In *your state*, you're.."
        -Here we go again, cluck cluck, my baby, fuss fuss-
        The door opened and Fraser poked his head in.
        "Don't to forget to stop off and pick up some clothes
on your way back."
        Ray took the opportunity Fraser gave him to escape his
mother's clutches and moved in on Fraser.
        "What are you doing out of bed? You're supposed to stay
in bed.."
        "I need clothes."
        "I said I'll take care of everything. And I will."        
        Fraser's nose twitched and his eyes widened, his hands
flying to his face to grab at his nose then he was pulling
away from Ray to bolt away. Ray flew after him and was
almost knocked off his feet as the sneeze Fraser felt coming
on hit and the Mountie came to a screeching halt the force
of the sneeze threw him back, right into Ray.
        Then Ray was hustling him back to the bedroom with his
mother's help as fast as they could. Sneeze after sneeze
racked the Mountie's body until they got him onto the bed.
Ray worked fast to get the oxygen mask over Fraser's face,
hitting the release switch, between one sneeze and the next.
Fraser gulped in pure air while Ray and his mother shared
concerned looks over his back.
        -This is not good, not good at all-
        "Find the filter Ma. He has to put it back on."
        She looked around then saw it on the dresser and
hurried over to collect it. They oxygen treatment seemed to
do the trick, Fraser's sneezing subsided and he just sucked
in oxygen and shuddered while Ray stroked his head.
        "It's over now, Benni, just relax."
        With his mother's help the oxygen mask was replaced
with the filter mask in less than a second and Fraser was
made to lie back.
        "You O.K now?"
        Fraser's hand went to his head and his chest, then flew
to his gut.
        "I think..I'm going to.."
        He rolled fast to the edge of the bed as Ray dived for
the waste paper basket and got it under Fraser's head. Just
in time, Ray ripped the filter mask off as Fraser shuddered
and threw up into the basket.
        "There goes breakfast."

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        With a grin Ray extended his cast out for a lovely lady
with a pen at the precinct station house who was the 15th
such person to offer to sign it. The cast was already
covered in saucy comments, a phone number or two and a
rather naughty cartoon one side.
        -Maybe that sales man was right about this cologne
being a babe magnet-
        Huey wandered up with a pen as the woman took her
leave.
        "What's your secret you've had more women flocking
around you today than I've seen in here at one time."        
        "Must be the after shave Ma brought for me."
        Huey signed the cast then took a sniff of Ray.
        "Not bad, it suits you."
        -Thanks muchly, not-
        "What is it?"
        "L.K"
        "Your mother brought Lady Killer Cologne for you?!"
        "Yeah.. She's been a really clucky mood lately, every
time I turn around she's doing something *nice* for me, and
hugging me and I'm telling you Huey - She's scaring me with
all the attention."
        Huey laughed.
        "Seriously.. She went into hysteric's when I fell and
broke my arm. I mean real hysteric's, wailing the works, she
was calling me "My Baby", Fraser had to slap her. And
Frannie say's that when we had that accident in the hospital
corridor."
        "What accident?"
        "Fraser sneezed so hard he burst a blood vessel there
was blood on the floor, I sat him down and rushed off to get
a doctor, only I slipped on the blood."
        He turned to show Huey the bandage on the back of his
head, pointing to it.
        "And took a tumble - 3 stiches."
        "Ouch."
        "And Fraser fainted right on top of me when he was
leaning over me and bleed all over me.. The blood was just
gushing out. And when Ma and Frannie walked in and there's
me lying on the floor out cold with a big blood stain on my
chest and Fraser's out cold with blood all over his face -
Ma really lost it. They had to sedate her and thankfully
Frannie took her home and tucked her into bed.. Or she'd
have been clucking around my bed side all night."
        "Well, considering the scene you described, I'd say
your mother had good reason to lose it in the corridor."
        "And this morning when I got back from dropping Fraser
back home after they released us from the hospital, Ma's
there, cluck, cluck, cluck, fuss, fuss, fuss. She wouldn't
even let me shave myself, or pick out my own clothes. And
the trouble I had getting out the door to get in here. I
swear the shriek she let out where I said I had to go to
work made all the glass in the bathroom vibrate. Fraser
showed up at just the right time."        
        "What was he doing there?"
        "He's staying at my place. He's got this allergy to
something that makes him sneeze so bad that a sneezing fit
could literally kill him. He needs to be watched till we can
deal with the allergy."
        "Sounds bad."
        "It is. He had another fit at the house. It made him
throw up and pass out and they cleaned that place from top
to bottom before I got him home. Which proves what the
Doctor was actually right when he said that Benni's allergic
to the air around here."
        "You mean he's allergic to Chicago?!"
        "Something in the air. And as soon as they work out
what, he's going through treatment."
        He pulled a piece of paper out of his pocket.
        "Look at all the stuff I've gotta do till we can get
him treated."
        Huey looked over the list.
        "This is gonna cost a fortune."
        "Yeah. Tell me about it. Oh, hey, I almost forget, I
gotta find people to look after Deif till the treatments
completed because Fraser can't be around him. The fur could
set him right of."
        He pulled out his note pad.
        "I've already got it covered till Thursday, could you
possibly take care of him on Friday."
        "I guess."
        Ray added Huey's name to the list.
        "The doctor said it could take weeks or months for the
treatment to be completed which means Benni can't be near
Dief till it's done can I.."
        "Ask me again, later."
        Ray added a "possible?" to Huey's name.
         "Vecchio!"
        Ray turned to scuttle off into Welsh's office.

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                                        Part Two
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        "I can't believe she did that to me."
        "Did what?" Fraser asked from his seat as he twiddled
with his gadget's linking one with the other.
        "Made Welsh send me home. She called him to wail in his
ear that I was sick, sick, sick and needed to be home where
I could be watched just in case I had *another* accident and
killed my self the next time. What are you doing?"
        "Did you know the pollutant gauge says the air in here
has more allergens per inch than the air outside?"
        -*sigh* Why is it the only person I can get sympathy
off lately is Ma?-
        Fraser leaned closer tilting his head to read something
that had caught his eye on the plaster.
        "Yours and Mine in 69."
        "What?!"
        Fraser pointed.
        "That's what it says.. Did you break your arm in 69?"
        "Fraser sometimes you are just too innocent for words."
        "So what does it mean?"
        -Should I or shouldn't I - What the hell?-
        "It's referring to a sexual position. Turn the 69 on
its side and work out which one for your self."        
        =I will not blush, I will not blush=
        Fraser blushed.
        "Oh."
        Ray glanced around and chuckled.
        -G-d, sometimes he's too cute for words **???***-
        "I bet that doctor who said Ma needs to get laid thinks
it's our favourite position."
        Fraser turned an even deeper shade of red.
        "Can you believe that man.. Calling us *lovebirds* if
my arm hadn't been in plaster I think I might have decked
him."
        =*Siiiiigh*=
        "What a bloody insult.. Calling us *gay* like that.
Just because I like to look good doesn't make me *gay*. I
resent the inference that because I like nice clothes, I
must be *gay*. I mean For God's sake.. "
        "Ray, you're babbling."
        =And if you don't stop ranting like a raving homophobe
I'm going to hit the park brake and get out.=
        "You were no help standing there blushing like that as
if being referred to as my lover was just too embarrassing
for words, you should have done something."
        "What did you expect me to do?"
        "You could have *corrected* him, for God's sake, I was
half tanked with all the shots they gave me. At least I had
an excuse for not being able come up with a quick retort.
What's yours?"
        "It was partly your fault that he came to that
assumption, and it wasn't because you wear expensive
clothes."
        "Oh so why did he make it and how was it my fault?"
        "I said partly.. When you went berserk and pulled your
gun.. "
        "I did what?!"
        "You pulled your gun on the intern who was examining
you, after he turned your break into a compound fracture.
You pulled your gun on him and threatened to blow his head
off if he didn't get out of your sight and then you
threatened to shoot the nurse who tried to get close enough
to hit you with a sedative. And we heard you screaming and
shouting and the intern was shouting he's got a gun.. and I
went in and tried to get you to put it down, but.. you were
in shock, you saw him as a threat and you wouldn't be calmed
until he departed."
        "And they got another Doctor."
        "Yes. I tried to calm you down. At first you wouldn't
give me the gun, but you wouldn't shoot me either and I just
worked on reducing the level of tension, stroking your back
and arm.. assuring you that no one else was going to hurt
you until you let me take the gun."
        "And he saw that?"
        "Yes. That and how I held you till the shot took affect
and you went under. After you went under he shooed me out
and said, and I quote "Don't worry I'll take good care of
your S.O.."
        "Significant Other. The PC way of saying Defacto
especially when referring to Gay people."
        "I do know what it means."
        "So why didn't you correct him then?"
        "He was shoving me out the door and closed it in my
face before I could. And it was Francesca's suggestion that
I should let it slide."
        "Oh it was, was it?"
        "Yes, she said we could take advantage of it, because
the Doctor would tell me everything, and leave her free to
take care of your mother without having to worry about you
too."
        "Ah."
        -Well, that kind of makes sense. I suppose can let it
slide under the circumstances-
        "And that's why I didn't correct him. I was taking
advantage of it the same way you took advantage of it."
        Ray smiled faintly.
        "It did have its advantages."
        Fraser took his gadgets apart and took a sample of the
air slipping the sample into the case for that purpose and
tucked his bits away into the pockets.
        "By the way, I don't believe that I mentioned how much
I like this coat Ray."
        "If you like it so much then why haven't I seen you
wearing it before?"
        "Because I lost the key."
        "Key to what?"
        "The storage crate I packed the clothes into."
        "You *locked* your clothes away?"
        "Just the expensive ones you gave me."        
        "I thought you didn't lock anything?"
        "I have a lot of expensive and valuable things in the
apartment right now.. The storage company who were storing
all my personal effects closed down and shipped them out in
storage crates. Locked storage crates. I got the keys, via
the consulate, they sent them in a diplomatic pouch."
        "Those guys take security seriously."
        "Very."
        "So why did they close down?"
        "They're relocating. It will take some time to
construct new storage facilities to their high standards."
        "And you'll send all your stuff back when they do."
        "Yes."
        "I guess I'll have to make arrangements to get it
stored away while your.. "
        "Oh, it's already stored away, at the consulate. I did
that the day before yesterday. I've only got one crate now.
With all the things I wanted to keep with me in it."
        "Really valuable stuff?"
        "One of the parcels contains something that would be
worth several thousand dollars to collectors. Another item
would be.. "
        "You've got some sort of collectors item worth a few
thousand *dollars*."
        "Items.. Sheet music. Over 50 pieces of it, all of it
has been autographed. They were part of a reward that was
given to me by a musician for returning a rather unique
instrument that had great sentimental value to him after it
was stolen."
        "A famous musician?"
        "Very, his band was once listed as the highest earning
performers in the world in the Guiness book of records."
        Ray let out a low whistle.
        "And they have a great many fans who would be willing
to part with large sums of money for items autographed by
the whole band, which the sheet music and records were."
        "You got records too."
        "Oh, no, that was.. My Partner.. He's a fan of the
band, and he helped me recover that guitar without realising
it."
        "Oh.."
        "It was the *unique sound* of the instrument. The
musician built it with his own two hands with his father.
And my partner was always playing their music, I was
familiar with that particular guitar's unique sound. I knew
it had been stolen, the band cancelled all their concerts
after it happened and he dragged me all the way into the
capital to attend one with him.. He was in a very foul
temper about the cancellation."
        "And you guys volunteered to work on the case."
        "Er.. He did, but they already had people working on
it. I just happened to be in the right place at the right
time when I heard that guitar being played. I recognised the
tune that was being played - badly - first, and then I
recognised the tones of the instrument. That was the easy
part.. The hard part was getting it back in one piece. I
was injured diving for it when he hurled it away correctly
assuming I'd try and catch it while he made his get away."
        "So he got away with it and made you chase him."
        "He was very fast, very agile, and knew the city like
the back of his hand, and had it strapped over his back as
he leapt fences, ran across roofs and through storm water
drains. I think I pursued him for over 5 kilometres till he
realised he just wasn't going to shake me."
        "Yeah I bet he couldn't believe you kept up."
        "I almost lost him, twice, when he slipped into the
drains, fortunately I found two people who pointed me in the
right direction, and he picked up mud on his boots in the
drains which left enough tracks for me to start catching
up."
        "So did you actually catch him in the end or.. "
        "No.. Saving the guitar put me in hospital."
        "What?!"
        "We were on the roof tops.. There was an alley way
between us.. I could have made the jump and by that stage
he knew it. And I was *right* on his tail at that stage. He
ripped it off and told me he'd drop it and destroy it if I
didn't give up."
        "And you prepared to jump anyway."
        "I thought he was bluffing.. After all he was a fan,
and was aware of its value."
        "And you just had to announce that fact, so he dropped
it.. And you leapt for it."
        "Exactly, I was able to catch it.. But it was a multi-
story building and even though I fell onto a pile of garbage
with it, it was quite a drop. I broke several bones when I
hit it. And it's quite fortunate he didn't stick around to
see if I managed to catch it or not.. I was out cold for
some time.. He could have collected it again and made good
his escape with the instrument."
        Then he frowned.        
        "What?"
        "That wasn't right.. He couldn't have taken it.. I
remember now, they complained.. Because they couldn't get
the guitar out of my arms.. That's right, I knew there was
a high degree of probability the fall would knock me out and
the last thing I did before I passed out was to lock my arms
around it.. They couldn't take the guitar away from me, not
without breaking my arms to do it."
        "Is that what they did?"
        "No.. They put me into the ambulance with it, and one
of the doctor's whispered the magic words in my ear when I
was semi conscious and I let go."
        "The Magic Words?"
        "He essentially made it possible to personally return
the guitar to the musician. Who was notified and came to the
hospital to collect it and the Doctor returned it to me to
present it to him and made sure he was there to get his
autograph too."
        Ray laughed.
        "Another fan."
        "Once he got his autograph he cleared the room out and
gave me a chance to talk to the musician who wanted to hear
all about how I got it back and I told him all about it, and
how it was my partner's birthday soon and how if it wasn't
an imposition.. the bands autographs would make a fine
gift."
        Ray laughed.
        "You could have asked for a hell of a lot more and got
it after what you did."
        "I did get more, we talked about other things. He
showed his gratitude on the day by staying there and talking
with me till my partner arrived."
        "So what did you talk about?"
        "Music.. Being a Mountie.. Canada.. He talked about
the band & music. And I got to meet him again he showed up
on Dante's Birthday with the Vocalist, and they gave Dante a
complete collection of all their records, all autographed,
under glass, for his birthday."
        Ray smiled.
        "He remembered what you said and tracked your partner
down on his birthday, just to thank-you."
        "Oh they stayed for a few days. We were stationed a
rather remote outpost, and our cabin was big enough to hold
six men. And they enjoyed a break without worrying about
fans for a few days before the rescheduled concerts
started."
        "Your partner must have been in seventh heaven."
        "He thought it was wonderful, especially watching me
and the guitarist play together. He always liked it when I
played. His jaw hit the floor when I started singing too.
Then he clipped my ear and said why didn't you tell me you
could hold a tune."
        Ray laughed.
        "I will never forget that time.. It was one of the
happiest weeks of my life."
        "I bet."
        "They said I had real talent. And they sent us tickets
to the last show, and the RCMP PR department set things up
with them.. And just before the Finale.. A ramp set down.
They announced they wanted the audience to thank the man who
saved the tour when he recovered the guitar. And I rode out
on stage in my dress reds."
        "For real."        
        "Yes, there was this incredible wave of sound when the
crowd roared as I rode onto stage.. They were clapping and
cheering and didn't stop as I went through the routine I
practiced with them all morning. I almost blew it when the
vocalist slipped up behind me for a circuit on the horse.
That was prearranged - him whispering naughty suggestions in
my ear while we did it wasn't."
        Ray very carefully pulled over, then gave into the
laughter.
        "And he took advantage of the fact I couldn't stop him
having a little grope or two - I almost fell off the horse."
        Ray almost wet himself with laughter.
        "Oh - stop.. "
        "I got my revenge when I made the horse rear up and
turn in a circle on its back legs. He had to stop groping me
and hold on for dear life or fall off onto that hard stage.
The crowd loved it. So did the PR people. They had pictures
of me doing that in every newspaper the next day, and a clip
on the news, along with the finale. When I played God Save
The Queen with the Guitarist on the Guitar he presented me
with. It was bright red, to go with my uniform."
        He reached into the bag at his feet and pulled out a
bottle of water and offered it to Ray as his laughter ended.
        "That *really* happened.. You're not just making it
up."
        "Why would I make up something like that?"
        "I don't know, to make me laugh, I've been pretty
grumpy lately."
        "Out of concern about your mother. I thought you were
exaggerating the situation till I saw the way she reacted to
your fall and break."
        "That was the worst she's been. By the way what were
doing there?"
        "I.. wanted to talk to you."
        "Oh.. yeah.. I figured there was something bothering
you, you were so quiet all the time, I guessed you didn't
want to bother me with your problems while I had a big
problem of my own to deal with."
        "You're right."
        "So, tell what the problem is."
        Fraser looked away.
        "Benni."
        Fraser took a deep breath.
        "I came to tell you I couldn't be your partner any
more."
        Ray stared at him in shock.
        "What?! They ordered you to .. "
        "No.. "
        "Then why?"
        "I.. don't think.. it's right.. "
        "What's not right?!"
        Fraser took a deep breath.
        "Dante was more than my partner he was my significant
other."
        That shocked Ray even more.
        "You're Gay!"
        "No.. I'm Bi."
        "And you didn't think I deserved to know it?!"
        "I don't proscribe to meaningless relationships, I only
form sexual relationships with people I have.. deep
feelings for."
        "You told me Victoria was..."
        "I didn't think you'd be comfortable if you knew."
        "What you think I'd tell you to go to hell just because
you're Gay?!"
        "Bi."
        "Whatever."
        "Your Catholic, your heterosexual, and you often
express what could be called homophobic sentiments."
        "Yeah, well... If you'd told me you were gay.."
        "Bi."        
        "I wouldna expressed sentiments like that around you. I
don't have anything against gay people personally I just
take offence when someone insinuates I'm gay. And if you
were so worried about how I'd take it, why are you telling
me now? What changed?"
        "You were going to find out. Everyone is. And everyone
is going to wonder about our partnership and that is why I
can't be your partner any more."
        "Who is he?! Who is this guy who told you it was him or
me?!"
        "He didn't make any ultimatums. He doesn't even know
about you. He hasn't arrived yet. I thought it would be
better if our partner ship dissolved before he arrived. That
way you wouldn't be humiliated when the news got out."
        "You're coming out of the closet with this guy."
        Fraser nodded.
        "I love him. I always have. But my father had him
exiled overseas to end our relationship."
        "This isn't some guy you've met recently. You're
talking about that Dante guy."
        Fraser nodded.
        "Now Inspector Thatcher is about to take a long leave
to nurse one of her parents, who's dying. She won't return
for some time. Dante was chosen to hold down the fort while
she's away. Because they want to see if he can handle the
position before he takes over the role permanently at the
consulate he's been stationed at all these years."
        Ray looked away staring out the window for a long time.
Fraser collected his bag from the floor and reached for his
seat belt.
        "If it works out - you're going to leave with him
aren't you.? You're going to go with him. I'm never gonna
see you again.."
        "No," Fraser said cutting in on what might have become
another round of babbling on Ray's part.
        "No?!"
        "I already know that he wouldn't ask me to go with him.
And he'd reject an offer by me to go with him. He did it
when I tried to follow him last time."
        "So what happens if he doesn't want to get involved
with you again? If that happens no one has to know about you
being Bi and we can still be partners."
        "Oh. I'm sure he'll be reluctant at first. He held me
at arms length for a year before he finally gave in and I
know how to get through all his little defenses. I'll do
whatever it takes.. Because it will be the last chance I
ever have to be with him."
        Then he opened the door.
        "Good-bye, Ray, and thank-you, for everything."
        The he slipped out of the car and walked away.
        Ray stared at nothing for a very, very long time before
he finally pulled out and drove to a bar where he got very
very drunk.

                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                        Part Three
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        To his dismay Ray discovered that not only had Fraser
cut him off, but all his friends outside the consulate were
cut off too. What's more it seemed that even his friends and
associates at the consulate had been cut off too. To all
intents and purposes Fraser had vanished, utterly. No one
seemed to know where he was.
        It took some work, but Ray finally tracked Fraser down,
to a medical center. He dropped in to see him dressed in
raw unbleached cotton draw string pants, as he resided
within a sterile bubble room. He wasn't allowed near him,
all he could do was look through the observation window to
watch the miserable looking Mountie sit on a pile of bedding
on the floor with his guitar and some sheet music. His eyes
were ringed with bruises that stood out against his pale
face.
        Ray couldn't help but notice that there was no bed or
furniture in the room. The bedding consisted of what looked
like two or three thick quilts, covered with the same raw
unbleached cotton as his pants, so were the sheets, though
the blankets on the bed were quite colourful wool blankets.
Not the usual sort of thing you see in a hospital. Even more
interesting was how the sheet music came in laminated
sheets.
        "He's quite good, isn't he?" Fraser's allergist said.
        Ray glanced around for a moment.
        "I'm Doctor Zacheria. The allergist in charge of his
case and you're .."
        "Raymond Vecchio."
        "Ah... His S.O, Doctor Weinstien told me to expect you,
I was starting to think you had an allergy to hospitals."
        Ray gave a weak smile.
        "How is he?"
        "We're still trying to work out what he's alergic to
and having a hell of a time doing it. Every time he took the
mask off he started sniffling, within a few minutes, he's
sneezing. Sometimes, he started sneezing almost as soon as
the mask came off."
        "I guess that makes it difficult."
        "It happens no matter where we do the tests. That's why
we put him in the bubble. It's reserved for people who have
20th century disease."
        "20th century disease?"
        "Around the globe there are people who've developed
allergies to synthetics and pollutants in the air. Some
react violently to allergens. With one exception, everything
in the room is 100 percent natural. The bedding is 4 layers
of extra thick duck down quilts sewn together, raw cotton
sheets, the blankets are pure wool, dyed with natural dyes,
like beetroot. Everything was boiled too within an inch of
its life in purified water, dried in a sterile environment,
and vacuumed before it was transferred here. We even make
sure his food is all natural, cooked according to the
guidelines for people with 20th century disease."
         "The sheet music and the guitar?"
         "The guitar is brand new, it was sterilised before we
let him have it. The music was laminated to stop stray
strands of the paper setting him off again. We thought he
could use a break.. He'll stay there till the bruising goes
down."
        "What if I wanted to go in?"
        "You can't. No one enters the chamber and no one will
till I'm ready to start testing him again."
        "How does he communicate with people?"
        The doctor pointed.
        "Via the intercom. Just hit the red button to
transmit."
        Ray looked at it, then through the glass at Fraser.
        "I'll leave you alone, to have a little privacy, do you
have any more questions?"
        "What if you can't work out what's causing the
allergy?"
        "The experts will rebuild his home and turn it into a
bubble house, making it absolutely sterile and he'll spend
the rest of his days in it."
        Ray barely suppressed a shudder at the very thought of
Fraser spending the rest of his days a prisoner in a sterile
bubble house. When he didn't ask any more questions, the
doctor left, giving him the promised privacy. Ray just
watched Fraser, listening to his music until Fraser happened
to glance up and see him.
        It would have been difficult to mistake Fraser's
reaction for anything but shock. Ray moved to switch the
intercom over to two way conversation mode.
        "Hi."
        "What are you doing here? I thought I made it clear.."        
        "People talk... And people were wondering why you up
and vanished. I get at least half a dozen people asking me
about you every day. Deif is pining for you and I don't know
what I'm supposed to do with him or tell people when they
ask about you."
        Fraser looked away.
        "And the Doc insinuated that you have 20th century
disease that you might have to spend the rest of your life
in a place like this.. What am I supposed to do about Deif?
Take care of him myself? Return him to the wild? though I
don't think it's a good idea. I never heard of junk food
growing on trees or roaming around in the wild and the only
thing that beast knows how to hunt is junk food. I swear he
could track a man with a snickers bar down from 20 blocks
away."
        His attempt to inject a little humour into things fell
flat, all it seemed to do was add to Fraser's misery. He
heard the heavy sigh Fraser let out clearly over the
intercom, and saw his shoulders slump.
        "I'm sorry.. Excuse me while I extract both legs from
my mouth, I think I put both feet in up to the hip. You
don't have to worry about Deif. I'll take good care of him.
Whatever happens."
        "Did he really say I'd have to spend the rest of my
life in a place like this?" Fraser asked looking up at Ray,
his whole body pleading with the Italian to tell him it
wasn't so.
        "Only if they can't work out what's setting you off,
but you don't have to worry about it.. That's just the worst
case scenario, and I did a little checking before I came.
You couldn't have checked yourself into a better place.
They'll work out what your allergic to and desensitise you.
Just you wait and see."
        "I've been here two weeks already, the only time I
don't sneeze when the filter mask comes off is when I'm shut
up in this room."
        "I'm sure he'll find a way around that problem and then
you'll get treatment, and get out of here, and come after my
head for letting Deif get fat on junk food and pasta."
        "You know it's bad for him."
        "Ma's already getting the hint. She's spoiling him, in
a way you'd approve of. She's read everything on wolves she
can lay hands on, talked to zoo keepers about them. Put him
on a diet you can't complain about, takes him for walks all
the time. And it's off to the park at least 3 times a day.
Her taking over his care has been a real godsend in some
ways. Instead of smothering me with attention, she's
smothering Deif in it and he's loving every minute of it.
You should see him, his coat practically glistens, she's
always brushing him down, and he loves it."
        "As long as she doesn't start knitting little coats,
bonnets and mittens for him. He finds it an affront to his
dignity."
        Ray chuckled.
        "Well she did get him a new collar, and a big dog
basket, that sits at the end of the bed. I went around to
your place and got your blanket from the bed and put it in
the basket and he settled down in it pretty fast. But I keep
waking up with him snuggled up at my back or over my feet.
It seems that he worked out how to get out of her room and
does it when everyone's settled down for the night. You
shoulda heard the shriek Frannie let out when she went down
to get a glass of water in the middle of the night and
discovered he prowls the house in the wee small hours."
        Fraser smiled faintly.
        "And last night, he dragged your blanket into my room
and onto the bed. Beyond that, he's been on his best
behaviour, he doesn't even pull that, Lip reading, what's
that trick of his any more. I kinda got the feeling he
thinks he's being punished."
        Fraser heaved a deep sigh.
        "He would. I put him on a very strict diet because he
was getting pudgy, and he mugged someone for their hamburger
just before I visited you. I gave him a very stern lecture
and threatened to send him back to the wild."
        "Oh."
        "But there's nothing I can do about it now. I can't go
near him and you'd never be permitted to bring him here."
        "I know you don't want me to come back.. And there's
really not much else to say. Promise me, the moment you get
out you'll come around and get him. And.. If you don't show
your face after that Dante guy goes back home.. I'm gonna
hunt you down and .."
        "When I said Good-bye - I meant it. I don't intend to
resume associating with you when Dante leaves."
        "Benni.."
        "I'll return home to Canada."
        "You think I care what people think, Fraser? I don't."
        Fraser couldn't look at him.
        "Since I put Victoria behind me.. I've found myself
thinking about my future.. She can never be apart of it.
Until I found out Dante was going to temporarily replace the
inspector, I didn't think about him being part of it.. There
were two other people.. though, who I hoped would be. The
inspector was one.. but she keeps giving me mixed signals
and I don't think it would be wise to pursue a relationship
with her. Or that she'd consider it while I remain her
subordinate. As for the other person I would never.. act on
my feelings because I know they wouldn't appreciate it.. So
it never came up..."
        "You're talking about me - I'm the other person. Aren't
I?"
        "I know how the church views same sex relationships,
and you made your opinion of them very clear."
        Ray felt like bashing his head against something hard.
        "But even though I know your views it doesn't stop me
from.. Finding my self wishing for your company, and it has
been getting harder to ignore.. I can't change you, it's not
your fault.. that some of the things you do turn me on."
        Ray turned bright red and Fraser rose moving toward the
partition.
        "And that is why I'll be going home when Dante leaves.
Why I don't want to associate with you any more. Good-bye,
Ray.."
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        A month passed, during which time Ray returned to work
with a wolf on his heels. It felt good to be working again,
and gave him something to keep his mind off Fraser. He
buried himself in his work, clearing cases in record time,
getting himself into trouble. But having Deif shadowing him
proved to be a godsend on more than one occasion when the
wolf had come to his rescue.
        Then came the morning when he'd walked out of the house
with Deif on his heels and lost the Wolf. He'd opened the
Riv's door and pushed the seat back for the wolf before he
realised Deif hadn't followed him. He looked around to see
the wolf standing on the grass giving him a rather strange
look, then as he watched, the wolf suddenly bounded away,
racing down the street.
        He raced after the wolf, but Deif was faster than he
was, rounding the corner, bounding out of sight. By the time
Ray reached the corner, the wolf was out of sight. Ray raced
on regardless and searched high and low for the wolf till he
ended up sliding down a wall into a panting heap, holding
his side grimacing at the pain of the stich that had finally
ended his search for the wolf.
        When he finally caught his breath, he staggered back up
to his feet and trudged home, holding his side to be meet by
Maria who gave him what for, for scaring them by running off
leaving his car wide open that way and wanting to know where
Deif was.
        He didn't learn what inspired Deif's bolt until late
afternoon when his mother called him at the precinct to tell
him she'd found two envelopes someone had slipped under the
door when no one was home.
        "There was a thank-you card, with money."
        "Fraser."
        "Yes.. The other envelope was addressed to you."
        "Just put it on my dresser, I'll look at it when I get
home."
        "Why didn't he come to the door and collect Deifenbaker
in person? Why did he have to do it and thank us in stealth?
Did you have a fight?.. Raimondo, I asked you a question."
        Ray was tempted to confirm her guess, it would be
easier than telling her the truth. Instead he sighed.
        "No ma.. I'll talk to you when I get home."
        He hung up wondering how he'd explain why Fraser wasn't
going to be around any longer and resorted to such stealthy
measures to get Deif back.
        A less than subtle cough had him looking up to find a
curious Elaine and Huey standing by his desk.
        "What?"
        "Did I hear you say Fraser?"
        "Is he out of the hospital?"
        "He must be, if he got worse, Ray'd be out of here so
fast that he'd break the sound barrier on his way out."
        "Very funny."
        "And he's missing his furry side kick."
        "He took off this morning."
        "That's why you were late."
        "Yeah. That was my mother telling me Fraser dropped off
a thank-you card. So I guess Dief smelt him coming and ran
off to meet him."
        "He didn't say hello?"
        "Benni stopped talking to me before he went into
hospital."
        "Did you two have another fight?"
        Ray sighed. Once word got out about Fraser being out of
hospital, he was sure to be hearing that question a lot.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        3 months passed before Ray saw Fraser again, and it was
a sighting that left him standing stock still in the middle
of a park, in shock.
        His Fraser, laughing as he writhed in the playful
embrace of a living Adonis in a expensive designer clothing.
Turning in the man's embrace to kiss him, arms wrapped
around his neck, their passion for each other blatant and on
show for all to see. Deif bounded around the passionate pair
in excited circles until they broke it up and gave their
attention to him and then they moved off teasing Deif with
some form of junk food.
        A gentle hand on his arm snapped Ray out of it and he
turned to see his mother's concerned face.
        "You miss him, don't you Raimondo?"
        Ray nodded with a sigh.
        "Why don't you go after him?"
        "Ma - he's with his *lover*."
        "I noticed. Is that what you had a fight over? His
orientation? Is that why you don't talk to him any more? You
disappoint me Ray."
        "You don't care? I mean that he's.. you know.. "
        "Bisexual."
        "Yeah. The church.. "
        "Say's many things are a sin, many things that you do
are considered a sin, divorcing your Angie, having non
marital sex with various partners.. I never stopped you
doing it. And it's not as if you're going to have that sort
of relationship with him - it's very very obvious that he's
very much in love with that Adonis he's with."
        "Yeah.. He is.."
        "And for that you cut him off."
        "What do you think people are going to be thinking once
they find out about his relationship with Mr Muscles. I'll
tell you what they're going to be thinking, they're gonna be
wondering just how close we really were. They're wonder if
I'm Gay, if I was sleeping with him. That's what they're
going to be thinking."
        "What's worse, what people *might* think, or loosing
your best friend because you're too afraid to accept what he
is because of what others might think?"
        "If it was up to me, I'd say to hell with what people
think."
        "Then go after him, say Hi, who's your friend - show
him it doesn't matter to you."
        "Why don't you? It wasn't my idea. It was his and half
the reason Benni ended our relationship was out of worry how
the people around me would react to this.. If he sees you
can handle what he is.. He might .. change his mind."
        She looked around, as did Ray.
        "Damn too late.. They're gone."
        "Another time.. They'll come back.. Then I'll do it."

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray was driving down the street, when out of nowhere
the Mountie steeped directly into the path of his car and
planted himself in middle of the road. Ray came to a
screeching halt less than an inch away, then Fraser strode
around the car, ripped the door open and climbed in.
        "Are you mad! I could have hit you!"
        "Drive.. Before you start a traffic jam." Fraser said,
doing up his seat belt.
        "What did you do that for?"
        "I saw your car.. I chased you for three blocks till I
got ahead of you. I couldn't keep chasing you till you
reached lights. So I made you stop."
        "Why do it in the first place?"
        "You sent your mother after me, that was a very low
thing to do."
        "Oh, she caught you in the park."
        "That cost me a black eye."
        "What?!"
        "Dante's a very.. Jealous man, your mother babbled on
about how much you miss having me around.. And he took it
all the wrong Ray.. We had a fight about it later."
        "And he hit you."
        "Yes."
        "Leave him."
        "No."
        "G-d Benni, you ought to know better."
        "I know better - that's why I told you our partnership
was over. I knew he'd get jealous and that it'd lead to a
fight. And he's got a perfect right to act that way whenever
he feels our relationship is threatened."
        "He doesn't have the right to hit you."        
        "I hit him back and then we kissed and made up.. "
Fraser said, a cheeky smile appearing, "Very passionately
that was the end of it. I know how to handle his jealous
snits."
        "So he's done it before."
        "I gave him good cause not to trust me once."
        "Translation."
        Fraser rubbed at his nose, then pulled the filter mask
off his belt, bringing it to Ray's attention as he pulled it
on.
        "Are you still using that? I thought they cured your
allergy."
        "They never found out what triggered the sneezing fits,
I just stopped having them. They decided it was an allergic
reaction to some form of pollen that was in the air at the
time... I don't believe that, not any more. I've had over a
dozen sneezing fits since I got out and I still don't know
what triggers them, but I do know the signs and I keep this
on hand to deal with them."
        "And it works?"
        "As long as I get it on before it goes from a sniffle
to a sneeze. The one time I misplaced it, I had a sneezing
fit, right in front of Dante.. That's when he stopped
pretending I was just another subordinate and started
clucking."
        "Until my mother came along and then he turned into the
green eyed monster."
        "He doesn't trust me very much."
        "Why? You said you gave him a good reason not to trust
you. What was it?"
        "We weren't official partners at first.. He was a
superior officer and I had a very attractive woman for my
partner - in the same way you and I were. She provided an
excellent cover for our relationship everyone thought she
and I were partners of a different kind."
        "And he got in a snit about it."
        "He came home and caught me in bed with her."
        "Fraser!"
        "It was the only time I ever slept with her."
        "You know I never figured you for the cheating type."
        "I wasn't cheating on him.. It just..happened, well,
I'm sure she planned for things to end that way, but I
certainly didn't expect her to pounce.. and er... Dante and
I never made the fact our relationship was less than
platonic known to others.. and it's a very long story."
        "Oh I'm sure it is."
        "She was like Irene."
        "What?!"
        "Her brother was a crime lord. I didn't know it till
that night. I was always trying to recruit her.. I thought
she'd make a brilliant mountie. She always rejected the
suggestion.. That was the night I found out why.. She was
caught between two worlds. The world she wanted, and his
world.. "
        "Was she part of his syndicate?"
        He sighed and nodded.
        "But not.. actively.. When she refused to stop seeing
and working with me, he *used* it to his own advantage..
Together we wiped out most of his competition - she lead me
to them, to catch them in the act, and I'd arrest them. He
gave her the information.. As long as I was useful to him
in some way he didn't try to stop her being with me. But
then, she over heard.. something she was not meant too. It
seems.. we did the unforgivable, we inadvertently busted
one of his operations up. He didn't discuss his operations
with her and she didn't know about that one or she would
have kept me well clear of it.. As she had others she was
aware of."
        "So.. she did know what he was up to?"
        Fraser nodded.
        "She told me things.. . So many things.. We talked..
all day.. Well, actually. She talked, I just listened..
Shocked to the core."
        "And then you went to bed with her."
        "Yes."
        "Sometimes I question your sanity."
        "The information she gave me that day could have put
her brother and his syndicate away for the rest of their
sorry lives.. .She warned me about his revenge.. How he was
setting the both of us up - along with his last enemy.. To
take care of us all in one fell swoop.. How she was going
back to get enough evidence to turn the tables on him.. The
evidence to pin all the things she'd told me about on him.
And I asked why she was doing it.. She could have just
disappeared and saved herself.. And she hit me we something
and said I was so thick.. The next thing.. well.. She
uh..*showed* me why she did it."
        "Uh-hu.. She's right, sometimes you can be quite
thick."
        Fraser smiled faintly.
        "I might have been a fool not to see it earlier.. But
I was smart enough to realise that.. what she knew would be
worth to the Justice Department. She was going to get the
evidence and I was going to use it make a deal with them in
return for her evidence and testimony to put the worst of
her brothers syndicate away."
        "And you blew it."
        "I.. couldn't tell Dante.. The mood he was in he would
have arrested her on the spot.. And I realised that if we
were ever to.. get past that.. unintentional betrayal.. . I
couldn't be involved.. I tracked my father down and dumped
it in his lap. And by the time I got back.. The trap had
snapped shut around me.. I was home five minutes.. Just
enough time to find Dante's note.. Telling me he'd gone..
and why.. When the door was kicked in and I was dragged out
in cuffs under arrest.. I found out she.. vanished ..
That no one had seen her.. since the day she came to me.
Which made no sense, because it took me over a month to
catch up with my father and almost another to return.. "
        "She got caught.. "
        "They killed her.. I apparently learned that fact in
prison."
        "Prison?! They sent you to prison?!"
        "I was framed and set up by a master and sent to prison
and it took three months for my Father and Dante working
together to get me out."
        Ray pulled over due to the fact that the turn the
conversation had taken was making it dangerous to stay on
the road..
        "You spent three months in prison?!"
        "Most of it in solitary confinement and the infirmary."
        "I don't think I want to know why."
        "I was.. pack raped by a group of men who were sent
there as a result of both my father and I arresting them."
        "G-d Benni."
        "It happened the day I arrived.. I should have been
segregated.. I wasn't until after it happened.. I was sent
from the infirmary to solitary.. and back to the infirmary
after I became catatonic.. I don't.. remember any of it..
Though.. I did.. discuss it.. under hypnosis once. Dante
wanted to get the names of the men.. who raped me to follow
it up."
        "So you don't remember a single thing about it?"
        "It was.. the only way I could deal with an extremely
traumatic situation. Block it out entirely. Even then.. I
was a nervous wreck for months. Dante took me to his new
post and helped me to recover.. To regain my shattered
confidence.. That was when he became my official partner.
It took.. a year for our relationship to.. begin again..
but it was never the same.. and even now.. there are
certain things he just won't do.. out of fear of how I'll
react. That's why he rejected me after my father got him
exiled."
        "He thinks it'd remind you of what happened in the
prison?"
        Fraser nodded.
        "He didn't *know* though he suspected it at first. I
think I said or did something in my sleep.. That's when
Dante arranged for me to be hypnotised and it all came out,
during the hypnosis session. Including the fact she was
dead. Her body has never been found and I never knew..
exactly who killed her, or who took great delight in
informing me of the fact. It was .. then.. that I lost all
hope.. And became catatonic.. Gaining my freedom hinged on
my father making contact with her and getting the evidence
from her.. Protecting her till they were brought to trial."
        "Or so you thought. He and Dante seemed to have done it
without her."
        "I don't know how they did it. I asked, they always
said, don't ask. I gather..it involved some less than legal
actions on Dante's part. That's how my father eventually got
Dante exiled, by reporting exactly how Dante got some of
that evidence.."
        "Lovely, the man got you out, helps you rebuild your
life and career and your father shows his gratitude for the
help by messing up your relationship."
        Fraser's father popped up, leaning on the back of the
seats.
        "I already admitted that it might have been a mistake
to act without getting the story from you first."
        "It wasn't because of our relationship, though he was
less than pleased about it. It was all due to a
misunderstanding."
        "The sort that involved bruises Dante gave you, I bet."
        "Well yes.. Dante was teaching me self defence. I
didn't take it seriously, till he changed his strategy,
sometimes he didn't pull his blows, or I'd forget how to
take a fall safely and I'd end up covered with bruises.
Someone, I don't know who started spreading rumours that I
got my bruises another way, my father didn't bother talking
to me to find out the whole story, he just reacted."
        "But you worked things out with him, didn't you?"
        "It took three years. I wanted nothing to do with him
after I found out who had Dante exiled. Then one night we
ended up in the same bar when a fight broke out, and he saw
me defend myself in a way he'd never seen me do it before -
but he was familiar with that particular style of fighting.
He worked out that Dante had been teaching me self defence,
made a few enquires, realised he made a mistake and
apologised for it. In his own way."
        "Uh-hu."
        "He needed Buck's help to do it.. Because I refused to
have any dealings with him.."
        "I'm not surprised."
        "Why don't you tell him how we did it? That'd give him
a real laugh."
        "And it's.. quite a funny story."
        "Yeah.. Well, I really don't have the time for it. I
should'na stopped for you in the first place, I'm working on
an important murder case, and I gotta explain all the
expenses I've racked up trying to get somewhere on it. Welsh
is gonna kill me for being late as it is. If I'm lucky the
leads I got today will get me off the hook.. But if I don't
get there soon, he isn't going to give me the chance to
justify things. He's just gonna tear strips offa me."
        Fraser unbuckled.
        "I just wanted to tell you - to stay away and keep your
emissaries away. I don't need the aggravation sending them
causes."
        "Beating, the word is beating, not aggravation," Fraser
Snr said.
        "It won't happen again.. Just give me your word you'll
let me know when he leaves. I miss having you around,
irritating the hell out of me and I really don't give a damn
what anyone thinks. Or what *you* might be thinking at any
given time. You are what you are and I won't hold it against
you."
        "I still think that.."
        Ray's hand flew to his belt buckle, unclipping it and
Fraser suddenly found his filter mask tugged down, and Ray's
lips on his. His eyes almost bugged out of his head, and he
stiffened for a time before his body betrayed him and he
found himself wrapping a hand around the back of Ray's
skull, kissing Ray back, a little hesitantly at first then
with increasing passion.
        It was Ray who broke it up, pulling away gasping for
breath to look at Fraser wide eyed. Fraser snapped the mask
back into place as he felt the overwhelming urge to sneeze.
        "Well, well, that was a real surprise," Fraser Snr
drawled.
        "When he leaves, you call me," Ray said when he caught
his breath.
        "I.. I.. D.. Does that mean..???"
        "I dunno what it means, I just.. Felt like doing that,
O.K. It doesn't mean I wanna go to bed with you.. I just..
Want you to know.. I don't.. find the idea of you wishing
that I would, go to bed with you, totally repugnant."
        The look Fraser gave him was hot enough to set off a
heat sensitive fire alarm.
        "Get out of the car before you make a fool out of
yourself, Benton." His father ordered.
        "I don't want to loose the best friend I ever had, O.K.
I ain't gonna sleep with you.. Just so long as you can
accept that, then I can accept that you're attracted to me."
        Fraser nodded and climbed out.
        "I'll call you."
        Then he closed the door and walked away.
        =Perhaps sooner than you think= Fraser thought.

                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                        Part Four
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        Fraser sat in the park watching birds pecking at the
grass and strutting their stuff in mating dances. Well he
wasn't really watching them, he just appeared to be
extremely interested in their avian activities, his thoughts
though were elsewhere. To be accurate his thoughts were on
Ray and what happened in the car, and he contradiction
between Ray's action and his words and also on Dante.
        To be perfectly honest he had once thought he was in
love with Dante, now he wasn't sure. He'd been young,
inexperienced with a bad case of Hero worship and rampaging
hormones. Now he was older and wiser, he knew what love was,
Victoria taught him that. Love was more than the desire to
share your body with someone, it was caring, it was a
desperate yearning to be with the one you loved, in more
than the physical sense.
        He was happy with Dante, their relationship was better
than it had been, Dante no longer tried to hide the fact
they had a relationship. He wasn't afraid to show the world
they had a relationship, he treated him like an equal,
instead of someone who had to be nurtured and clucked over.
Oh, he still clucked occasionally. But there was also a side
to him that disturbed Fraser, while he'd learned to handle
Dante's occasional jealous snit, and enjoyed the making up
part of the process, Dante's anger scared him.
        He remembered how some of his self defence lessons had
come during times when Dante had been seething over some
woman flirting with him. Not that he ever responded to their
advances. At those times, Dante didn't pull his blows,
they'd come hard and fast, delivering pain, leaving livid
bruises. On the other hand, he hadn't really taken Dante's
lessons seriously until Dante stopped pulling his blows.
        He'd learned his lessons well, learning how to block,
avoid and defend himself against such blows. But now Dante
didn't have a way of venting his anger over perceived
betrayals. At least when they were working out together,
even if he'd blocked and avoided every blow, Dante had still
been able to vent in the attempt to land a blow or two, and
lessons that started out with a scowl often ended with a
smile, and praise for his improvements.
        Now, Dante just exploded. He wondered how Dante would
react if he knew about his meeting with Ray. Well, he didn't
have to wonder, he knew Dante would explode, but how would
he react if he knew Ray had kissed him, that he'd returned
that kiss and wished it would never end.
        The answer was that he would probably resort to
physical violence and that was something Fraser didn't want
to think about it and so his thoughts turned to what
happened with Ray again instead.
        Ray's actions said one thing, while he said something
completely different. And it wasn't just happened in the
hear and *now*, the same thing had happened in the past.
There were times he could have sworn Ray was attracted to
him. Like the day he'd broken his wrist.
        For a brief moment while he'd been holding Ray he could
have sworn he'd felt the tell tale evidence that his touch
had turned Ray on. But the pain, and worry for his mother no
doubt had dealt with that. But there were other times, Ray
was a natural touchie feelie kind of guy, but before he'd
ended his association with him, Ray had seemed to be
touching him all the time. An arm draped over his shoulder
here, a hand on his arm, standing close enough that Fraser
could feel the heat of his body, feel his breath against his
skin and smell the scents of the various toiletries Ray
wore.
        Those were the times Fraser found himself thinking of
home, particularly the long cold winters, the ice, snow and
winds with high chill factors. Because Ray made his pulse
race and his temperature rise when he invaded his personal
space in that special way of his. And all those times Ray
had ended up grubby and stripped in front of him, to shower,
without a second thought. He always ended up turning down
the offer to go in after him because he knew that Ray
wouldn't think twice about staying around, tending to all
those other things one did in bathrooms. If he'd stripped in
front of Ray, the Italiao-American wouldn't have remained
ignorant about where his tastes lay for long.
        But Ray had said he wasn't interested in the sort of
relationship he was. Oh, on an unconscious level, Ray might
find him attractive, but he obviously had no conscious
desire to purse anything but friendship. And after that
kiss, well.. Perhaps leaving was the right thing to do.
        But leaving lead to the possibility of spending the
rest of his life alone. He knew that, and once he could
possibly have accepted it. He'd gotten used to being alone.
Then Ray had come along. Worse, Dante had reminded him how
good it felt to be in a steady intimate sexual relationship.
        Fraser sighed, his thoughts going around in circles. He
wanted Ray, but he couldn't have Ray. He had Dante, but the
only thing that relationship had going for it was passion.
The sex was great, but there was nothing else to it. But
then again, he'd been so sure that it would end when Dante
left that he never really tried to make anything else out of
it. Which meant he had no one but himself to blame for it.
        Perhaps what he needed to do was stop pining over a man
he couldn't have, and work to improve the relationship with
the man he had.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Welsh was about to bite into the sandwich Vecchio's
late arrival had given him time to prepare, but interrupted
the eating of, when he clearly heard a loud wail from
outside the building. A wail that sounded like it came from
Vecchio. He set the sandwich down and moved to his window
opening it to look down at the street below.
        There he saw Vecchio by his car, being rapidly
surrounded by people. The Italiao-American looked like he
was about to hyperventilate. Someone asked him a question
and he started pointing and gesturing at his car in a highly
agitated state.
        Welsh left the office and hurried down to the street
level moving around the crowd onto the road intending to
circle around the car. He stopped dead on the road staring
at the side of Ray's car. Both tires that he could see had
been slashed and someone had taken a sharp implement to the
paint work and most likely a boot to the body. It was full
of dents and scored clear through to the metal with deep
grooves.
        That was more than enough to catch attention but what
really grabbed and held Welsh's attention was the fact that
there was more than dents and deep grooves in the paint
work, there was also a message carved into the side of the
car's fender. He shuffled along and squatted down, pulling
out his note book and wrote it down.
        Once he had it down, word for word, he moved around the
car and shouldered his way to Ray's side. The damage to the
other side of the car was no where near as extensive as the
other, there was just one big deep groove. He dispatched
everyone hovering around and then showed Ray the message
he'd found.
        "Mean anything to you?"
        Ray took the note pad and looked at it. It was a
message in Italian.
        "Where did you..?"
        "What does it say?"
        "Next time it'll be your face, faggot."
        Welsh wrote that down.
        "Take a deep breath, Vecchio, good, now take another
one.. That's it now count to a hundred."
        "A hundred?"
        "A hundred, and take a deep breath every ten seconds.
        "I'm calm already where did you get that?" He asked
then turned and peered at and through the windows.
        It wasn't written on any of the car's windows. He
looked at the trunk and hood. Nothing there. Ray raced
around the car and stopped dead in the middle of the road.
He turned white, then red and looked ready to explode. Then
he surprised Welsh by taking a deep breath, moving back
around the car, muttering, "99.. 98.. 97.. 96.. 95.." and so
on under his breath and walked to the stairs where he sat
down and continued counting and deep breathing with his
hands clenched into fists. His hands clenched and
unclenched, those long fingers unfurling and curling back up
into a fist.
        When he reached one, he started counting back the other
way. Welsh climbed the steps and called for another officer
and pulled out his note pad writing a note. Ripping it away
he handed it to the officer and dispatched it before he
moved to sit near Ray and watch him.
        Ray reached a hundred and kept going. He was nearing
590 when one of the forensic teams descend on the car with
their kit and started snapping photos and dusting it down
for prints. Somewhere around 1005 Ray jumped up to his feet
and stomped into and through the building, Welsh hot on his
tail.
        Ray's first stop was the first available phone he could
find. He called the consulate to ask if Fraser had returned
that afternoon. Welsh could tell that Ray didn't like the
answer. His response to it was to start ringing hospitals
and medical centers.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Dante returned to his apartment, to find the lights
down low and the table set with candles. In fact there were
candles just about everywhere. He stomped through the lounge
and dinning area blowing out candles. When Fraser stepped
into the room, the smile of welcome on his face vanished,
and the Mountie felt the urge to duck back out of the room
and try to leave the apartment. By the looks of things Dante
was in a foul mood.
        But the masochist in Fraser (what you haven't seen
Victoria's Secret) made him stay where he was, to watch the
seething man approach. He prepared to block or avoid a blow,
but Dante surprised him.
        "Where were you this afternoon?"
        "I..uh.."
        "Do you think that because we have a personal
relationship that it gives a licence to do as you will?"
        "No.. I.. "
        "Can spend the next week on Sentry duty."
        =All I'll do is get Turnbull into trouble if I mention
that I did call the consulate and leave a message that I
wasn't returning=
        Dante stomped off and Fraser relaxed.
        "And get rid of the candles, don't you know they're a
fire hazard."
        Fraser started collecting the candles, thinking so much
for trying to inject a little romance into their
relationship.
        "And get your damned wolf off the bed, he's shedding."
        Fraser sighed and his breath caught as he heard
something crash, and dropped the collected candles on the
table and rushed out into the hall. Deifenbaker bounded out
of the bedroom and down the hall to the lounge. Fraser
watched him disappear, then moved onto the bedroom, peering
around the door way. Dante sat on the edge of the bed by the
bedside table. The cut glass lamp that usually sat on that
bedside table lay on the floor in a hundred one pieces.
Dante on his part was holding his head, his finger's
massaging his temples and staring at the debris. Fraser
noticed a vein pounding away in a base relief on his temples
and quietly backed off. Perhaps taking Deifenbaker for a
walk, a long walk, would be a good idea.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray drove through the streets at high speed ignoring
half the road rules and narrowly avoided two collisions
speeding through intersections as he headed for the
hospital. He brought the car to a rubber burning stop, his
foot jamming down on the brake. When the car came to a
complete stop, he spun in the seat, looking back down the
street.
        When his brain registered the fact his eyes hadn't
deceived him, he parked the car, jumping out to call out to
the man walking with the white wolf a block away. When the
man stopped, turning to look back. Ray slammed the car door
closed and marched off down the street.
        Fraser stood under the street light with Deif sitting
at his heels tail thumping the pavement as they watched Ray
stalk up the street. The moment the cop reached them his
hands slammed into Fraser's chest, sending him staggering
back two or three steps.
        "Where have you been all afternoon?!" Ray yelled at
him.        
        Deif growled moving between him and the Mountie.
        "Why?"
        Ray spun with an angry follow me gesture stalking back
up the street. Fraser followed him, rubbing at his chest as
he went. He was sure he was going to have two bruises in the
form of Ray's hands on his chest the next day such was the
force of Ray's angry move.
        He watched the angry man move around the side of the
car and rip away a sheet of plastic that was taped down over
the side rear fender. As he moved around the side of the
car, he saw the length of the car was covered with plastic
sheets and tape. When he looked at the uncovered section he
saw why. The deep grooves in the paint work were clearly
evident even in the dwindling light, and so were the words
carved into the side of the car.
        He looked to Ray.
        "What does it say?"
        "Next time it's your face, Faggot."
        Fraser's eyes widened.
        "Someone did that to my car after I saw you.. I was in
the station house for maybe.. half an hour, forty five
minutes. They slashed up the tyres on this side, along with
the paint work and.."
        He ripped off another sheet of plastic on the door to
show the deep dents there.
        "Put the boot in. And after I saw that message, I was
worried about your safety. I tried tracking you down, but
you didn't go back to the consulate.. They told me the
Inspector went looking for you when you didn't turn up and
came back in a foul mood.."
        "He put me on Sentry duty for a week for it."
        "That's all?"
        "I was expected quite a different reaction.. He *is* in
a foul mood. That's why I decided to take Deif for a walk.
To give him a chance to cool down."
        Ray taped the sheets back in place.
        "Get in."
        "I.."
        "You got something better to do?"
        After a few moments Fraser moved around the car and Ray
climbed in, leaning across the car to open the door for
Fraser. He sat back watching Fraser push the seat forward
for Deifenbaker and watched the Wolf leap in to settle down
on the back seat with a happy look on his furry face. Fraser
pushed the seat back up and climbed in, belting up as Ray
started the Riv.
        "I was heading for the hospital when I saw you, they've
got a John Doe in who fits your general description. Someone
beat him up bad and took a knife to him."
        "You thought it was me."
        Ray nodded as he turned to look over the street before
he pulled away from the curb.
        "What was I supposed to think after finding that
message gouged into the side of the car when everyone I
calls says they haven't seen you?"
        "I went to the park.. To think.. Until it started
raining, I didn't realise how much time had passed. And I
was soaked through before I got to shelter so I went home to
change into dry clothes."
        "Home being his place now?"
        Fraser nodded.
        "I didn't see the point in returning to the consulate
at that time.. I rang in and asked Turnbull to pass a
message on.."
        "Well it wasn't Turnbull I spoke too. He probably
forgot to pass the message on."
        "Oh, no.. He's become incredibly efficient since Dante
took over."
        "He has?"
        "Ever since he made a mistake that infuriated Dante. He
called Turnbull in. I could hear him, yelling at him, and
when it was over Turnbull scuttled out as white as a sheet
and Dante needed a new desk because he broke the one he had
in two."
        "Now that would be intimidating."
        "I saw him break a pool table in two once."
        "Now that's impressive."
        "I'm sure the fact it was infested with termites
helped."
        Ray chuckled at that.
        "But I was talking about Turnbull.. He tries to avoid
Dante whenever possible, that means double and triple
checking everything he does to make sure he hasn't made any
mistakes.. And he passes messages on to me to pass on to
Dante, or if I'm not around, he drops notes on Dante's desk
when he's out of the room rather than personally delivering
the messages."
        "I bet that irritates Dante."
        "Sometimes. I'll have to remember to leave early and
remove the note from his desk before he sees it."
        "Do you mind if I ask.. a personal question? I've seen
Dante.."
        "You have?"
        "In the park with you.. Ma called Him Adonis, the name
fits.. He must make women drool where ever he goes."
        "They tend to walk into things because they're so busy
watching him that they're not watching where they're going."
        "I can understand you finding him attractive.. If I
shared your tastes, I'd find him attractive."
        "What is the question?"
        "Why me? I mean that *God* puts me in the shade."
        Fraser opened his mouth to answer, and felt the tickle
in his nose that was the precursor to a sneeze and
automatically reached for his filter mask. He only
remembered that he'd left it behind in the bedroom when he
didn't find it attached to his belt.
        "Stop the car!"
        "What?"
        Fraser grabbed at his nose, pinching it as that tickle
became the full blown urge to sneeze.
        "Stop the car, now!"
        Ray stopped the car and Fraser fumbled with the belt
while fighting the urge to sneeze. Ray reached across to
unclip his belt. Fraser threw the door open and jumped out
loosing the battle and sneezed.
        Ray sighed.
        Fraser wound the window down and closed the door before
he moved to the foot path. Ray parked the car while Fraser
let out another sneeze or two. Climbing out he leaned on the
roof and looked at Fraser as Fraser pinched his nose and
drew in deep breaths through his mouth. There were no more
sneezes.
        "Where's your mask?"
        "I left it behind.. In the bedroom after I got
changed.. That's where Dante was.."
        "Are you through sneezing now?"
        Fraser nodded.
        "I think so."
        Ray looked around.
        "It's a valid question that you asked.. It's one of
things I was thinking about today."
        "Oh.. Well, do you think you can get back into the car
before you answer it."
        "I don't think so."
        Rays hand slipped under his coat, snaking around to
pull out his gun as he kept an eye on the group of toughs
who were heading their way. He kept the gun out of sight,
preferring to avoid a confrontation.
        "This isn't the best place to have a conversation,
Fraser."
        "Something in your car keeps setting me off, I don't
have my filter, if I get back into your car I could have a
violent sneezing fit."
        "Yeah, well.."
        He watched one of those toughs, flicking a knife open
there was no doubt in his mind they saw them as easy prey.
        "You're gonna have a lot more than that to worry about
if you don't get in the car now, Benni," he said with a jerk
of his head.
        Fraser looked around, and saw the group moving in. This
time he didn't argue the point. He and Ray both climbed into
the car. Ray didn't wait for him to belt up, he swung the
car into a tight u-turn and sped away. Fraser looked back
and winced when he saw one of the group hurl a bottle that
hit the center of the back window with an unerring accuracy
that was frightening. He winced as the window fractured.
        "Great, just great.. What else can happen to my car
today?" Ray asked looking around.
        Fraser looked around in time to see the car enter an
intersection at the same time as a car coming from the
right. One hand flew to the dash while the other ripped the
seat belt over his body.
        "Look out!"
        His warning came too late. No sooner had he clipped the
belt into place than Ray's desperate attempt to avoid the
imminent crash failed. He spun the wheel hard to the left
and the screech of brakes was followed by the impact of the
car that had been crossing colliding with them. Fraser's cry
rang through the car as pain swept over him coming from
three different places at once. The view of the world
outside blurred and swung crazily as the car tilted onto two
tyres and wavered there for a few sickening moments then the
car which collided with them was reversing and jamming on
the park break. Door's opened and slammed and as the car
rocked, and started to tip, then the occupants of the other
car, were there jumping up and grabbing at the back of the
car and the handle of the door. The extra weight tipped the
balance and the Riv slammed back down on all four tyres and
shuddered. Totally white faced with shock Fraser looked
around and almost cried out in pain again as he turned his
head sending pain lancing through him.
        His view of the world swam in and out of focus. He
heard whimpering from Deif in the back of the car, saw Ray
slumped against the door, at an awkward angle as if he'd
flopped there, and he probably had. He was out cold, his
clothes covered in sliver's of glass and blood ran down his
face, his breathing harsh and laboured. As he focused on Ray
the trickle of blood down his face ended as Ray lost his
battle to breathe. Fraser's arm rose and he tried to reach
out toward him but the move caused him so much pain he
aborted it. And watched a stranger lean on the side of the
car to look through the now non existent window.
        "Help him," he said weakly, wrapping his arms around
his own ribs at the pain it brought him.
        He watched the stranger reach out to touch Ray's face
then his throat.
        Fraser became aware of a hand on his shoulder and a
voice asking him questions, and cried out as pain lanced
through his shoulder and neck. The world spun and then the
pain and consciousness faded away.

                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                        Part Five
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        Fraser sat propped up in his bed, his neck encased in a
brace his arm in a sling, a plaster cast that ran from
shoulder to wrist, and down to his waist and covered in
signatures, lip stick marks and commentary. He smiled weakly
when he saw Dante's head poke around the door frame to his
private room. Seeing that Fraser was awake Dante smiled and
slipped into the room to cross to Fraser's bedside.
        "How are you feeling?"
        Fraser tried to speak but his mouth was so dry that all
that came out was a croak. Dante looked around then poured
him a glass of water, popped a bendy straw from the
collection on the tray and held it up to Fraser's mouth.
Fraser drank giving him a grateful look.
        "Better?" He asked as he lowered the half empty glass.
        "Much."
        "Do you know how long you've been here?"
        "Several days."
        "Four. Every time I came in you were either sedated or
sleeping. It gave me a lot of time to think."
        "About what?"
        "You - *us*."
        "Oh."
        =Here it comes.. The I love you but I don't think we
should see each other any more speech=
        "And I kept thinking *why*.. It's insane.. You know all
my bad habits, about my temper and jealousy.. But you still
wanted to pursue the relationship."
        Fraser watched Dante pull a walkman out of one of his
jackets deep pockets.
        "I heard this.. On the radio.. And it.. Summed up how I
felt."
        He hit play and watched Fraser.
        
Baby I've been watching you        
(Baby I've been watching you)
watching everything you do
And I just can't help but feeling
someone else is stealing you away from me

        Fraser's eyes widened.

I see it written in your eyes
and you confirm it with your lies
though the web you weave can hold me
I would rather that you told me
where you want to be

        He hit stop.
        "So tell me.. Am I just being a paranoid and possessive
jerk again, or is there someone else you'd rather be with."
        =Ray=
        "Because I don't know what to think any more.. I
thought you just decided to take Deif for a walk to give me
a chance to cool down.. But you didn't come back.. And then,
I get a call from the consulate.. Telling me you were
involved in a car accident. And when I get hold of the
accident report.. I find out it's the car of one Raymond
Vecchio.. And that was the name of the guy who's mother
pounced in the park.. And you told me there was nothing
going on there, that you hadn't even seen him in months."
        "You've seen the accident report?! You know what
happened to him!"
        Dante bit his lip and looked away.
        "Dante.. If you know something tell me. I keep asking
and no body is giving me answers.."
        "I'm sorry...."
        =Nooo Don't say you're sorry.. Don't tell me he's
dead.=
        "He suffered massive chest injuries..and went into
cardiac arrest on the scene."
        Fraser stared into nothingness.
        "The crash report says he wasn't wearing a seat beat..
If he had been, it might have been a different story."
        =If only I'd gotten back into the car sooner he would
have had time to belt up.. He'd still be alive.=
        Fraser felt Dante's hand stroking his arm heard him
speaking but all he could think about was Ray until part of
what Dante had to say sank in.
        =He's leaving *now*!=
        He looked at Dante.
        =And I really don't have a choice now that Thatcher is
back.. For some reason that woman doesn't like me.. Within 5
minutes she had all my things packed and literally tossed
out into the street, by Turnbull. Who I'm sure enjoyed being
given that little task."
        Dante stopped talking and started clucking, pulling a
handkerchief out from a pocket to wipe at Fraser's face as
tears ran down it with no conscious violation on Fraser's
part. His hand flew up to catch Dante's.
        "Don't go."
        "I'm not going anywhere.. I'll stay as long as you want
me to."
        "Forever."
        Dante just stared at him for what seemed the time
period in question.
        "I can't stay *here* in the states.. I have to go back
home."        
        "Australia."
        Dante looked around and stuck out his leg to drag the
chair close enough to sit on it.
        "It's not as bad as some people might lead you to
believe.. It's true that the heat in summer can be
incredible, but that's why God invented air-conditioners."
        Fraser gave a weak tremulous smile.
        "It's a glorious country and I've managed to visit
every state over the years.. I'd love to show it to you. I
used to hold the same post you have here at my consulate..
Now I've been promoted.. My old post is still up for grabs..
You could come with me.. As more than just my S.O. And you
wouldn't be stuck behind a desk shuffling papers all day,
s'cept in summer, when you'll be happy to do just that."
        "You..want me.. to.. go back with you?"
        "You could make me the second happiest man on Earth if
you'll say you will."
        "Only the second happiest? Who's the happiest man on
Earth?"
        "The one who won the 157,000,000 dollar jackpot in the
lottery yesterday."
        Fraser gave another tremulous smile, then broke down
again.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Have you ever seen one of those cartoons, where the
character turns red, their eyes bug out and steam starts to
spout from their ears? Well, at that particular time,
Turnbull thought Inspector Meg Thatcher was doing a rather
good impression of one of those characters as she faced
Inspector Mc Intire - Otherwise known as Dante. And the
reason that Inspector Thatcher was almost literally steaming
had something to do with the piece of official paper work Mc
Intire was holding up for her to see. Dante for his part was
looking smugly satisfied. Turnbull started quietly backing
up.
        He didn't get far, Meg spun and stormed down the
corridor, grabbing his arm and dragged him along, along the
way.
        "Where is Benton?" She hissed.
        "In the hospital."
        "Literally?"
        He nodded. She hauled him into a side room.
        "What is he doing there?"
        "He was involved in a car accident."
        Meg looked at a speck of fluff on his shoulder, then
flicked it off.
        "Find Vecchio."
        "Er.. he was apparently involved too."
        She closed her eyes pinching the bridge of her nose.
        "Do you know what either of their conditions are?"
        "Fraser has 3 fractured ribs, a broken arm, and severe
whiplash."
        "Vecchio?"
        "I'm not aware of his condition, but Inspector Mc
Intire did get his hands on the accident report, Ma'am."
        "You cleared his desk off.. Did you.."
        "I placed all the official papers in a file to sort
through and file appropriately later, Ma'am."
        "Find me that report."
        "Yes, Ma'am. If I can ask, what was that paper about?"
        "He's stealing Fraser away, he went right over my head
to get him transferred to his consulate in Australia."
        "What?! You can't let him get away with that, Ma'am."
        "I don't intend to. Now find that accident report.. I
want to know what Vecchio's condition is before that man
gets through packing up Fraser's things and heads out, I
want to know what Vecchio's condition is, which hospital
he's at, and if you still have that picture you pulled from
the security camera's and faxed me."
        "Er.. No."
        "No???"
        "Er.. he walked in.. I had to get rid of it before he
saw it.. and.. I fed it into the shedder."
        She pinched the bridge of her nose again.
        "The tapes?"
        "Have been erased already, Ma'am."
        "You realise that when you shredded that picture and
didn't make sure the tape it came from was saved, you
destroyed the evidence I could have used to prove he
assaulted Fraser."
        "Actually Ma'am, all it proved is that someone did it,
it didn't show the actual assault."
        "Everyone here knows that he did it.. And you would
back me up if I filed a complaint on his behalf, wouldn't
you Turnbull."        
        "Yes Ma'am. But couldn't you use the Fax I sent you.."
        "Some idiot spilled coffee over it then tried to mop
the mess up, end result, the ink was smeared everywhere and
you couldn't tell what the Fax relayed."
        "Oh dear.."
        "Get the accident report, *now*."
        Turnbull nodded, spun and raced away. By the time she
reached her office and sat down in her chair to reach for
the phone he was slipping into her office.
        "That was fast."
        He brought the report to the desk and set it before
her.
        "Find out whether he came in a cab or a rented vehicle,
if it was the later, give it a flat tire or three."
        Turnbull nodded spun on his heel and hurried away. She
opened the report and began reading.
        When Turnbull returned a few minutes later, he found
her staring white faced at the report.
        "Ma'am."
        "He's dead."
        "Ma'am?"
        "Vecchio. He's dead."
        She looked up.
        "Has anyone visited Fraser yet?"
        "We tried.. He was always sedated during visiting
hours."
        "Mc Intire?"
        "Was visiting the hospital morning, noon and night
Ma'am. I'm sure he's been able to talk with him."
        "And Mc Intire saw this report.. Does he know about
their relationship?"
        "What relationship?"
        She stared at him.
        "Their partnership ended, Ma'am."
        "Before or.."
        "Before he arrived Ma'am. They had a fight about
something. Fraser told us that if Detective Vecchio rang we
were not to give him any information whatsoever unless it
was directly related to his official duties."
        "And they didn't sort it out."
        "Fraser went into hospital due to his.."
        "Allergy, yes.. it happened before I left.."
        "He returned the day after you left, and reiterated his
statement about the Detective. Then McIntire arrived.."
        "And Vecchio never once showed his face around here in
all that time?"
        "Not even once."
        She looked down at the report again.
        "So what the hell was Fraser doing in his car if they
were no longer associated?"
        "I have no idea Ma'am.. But Fraser did go missing
during the day.. After he left to attend to some errand and
Inspector Mc Intire went looking for him and came back in
one of his moods..."
        "At what time?"
        "Four O'clock."
        "The accident was at 8."
        "Vecchio rang in at a quarter to five asking if Fraser
was in and Fraser rang in ten minutes later to say he was
caught in the rain and had to go home, to change and
wouldn't be back because his allergy was making him
sensitive again."
         "Did you take the call?"
         "Yes Ma'am."
         "Did he *sound* like he did before he had that
sneezing fit here?"
        Turnbull thought about it, then shook his head.
        "No Ma'am."
        "So he lied..He could have been with Vecchio and didn't
want that big ape to find out.."
        "That would make sense Ma'am.. Inspector Mc Intire
always looked like he'd like to hit something whenever
someone paid Fraser too much attention. And he threw two
women out of the consulate *literally* after he caught them
trying to flirt with him. Then he dragged Fraser into his
office and yelled at him."
        "What did he yell?"
        Turnbull gave her a helpless shrug.
        "I don't know he wasn't using any language I'm familiar
with."
        "Is that when Fraser got the bruises?"
        "Er.. No Ma'am. He got those on his day off."
        "So you don't know for a *fact* that Mc Intire gave
them to him, do you? You're just making a guess."
        "Er.. Yes Ma'am.. but.."
        "Get out."
        "But.."
        "Now."
        Turnbull began backing up and Meg reached for the phone
and her Roladex. Flipping through to V for Vecchio she ran
her finger down the card until she found the number listed
as the household phone number and dialled it.
        Turnbull exited the room and closed the door as she
listened to the phone ring. Just when she was sure it was
going to ring out, the phone was answered.
        "Hello.. This is Inspector Thatcher, from the Canadian
Consulate.. I just returned to Chicago and heard the news
about Raymond. I was just ringing to extend my condolences
and learn the funereal arrangements so that.."
        Her eyes widened as the member of the Vecchio clan who
answered cut in.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg stepped into the ICU observation unit, to find
Francesca standing before the observation window, her eyes
glued on the deathly pale figure that lay corpse like on the
bed in the intensive care room beyond. He was surrounded by
an array of life support equipment, tubes and wire's
sprouting from his still form. One look was all Meg needed
to see that it would be impossible to enlist Raymond
Vecchio's assistance to keep Fraser from leaving with that
wretch Mc Intire.
        He might have been revived, but by the looks of it, the
only thing keeping him alive was the life support equipment
that surrounded him.
        Francesca looked around, her face pale, dark smudges
under her eyes on her make up free face.
        "Inspector Thatcher.. I thought you left town."
        Meg looked at Ray's still form again.
        "I left to be with my father before.. he died."
        "I'm sorry."
        "He's at peace now."
        "How..?"
        "Cancer."
        "Oh."
        "How is he?"
        Frannie drew in a deep shuddering breath shaking her
head.
        Meg reached out to lay a hand on her shoulder. Frannie
wrapped her arms around herself.
        "I keep expecting Fraser to walk in and then I remember
that they stopped talking to each other, months ago.. over
some stupid argument."
        "What did they have a fight about?"
        "There was this doctor.. Who.. er.. thought they were a
couple..and even though they both took advantage of it
later.. Ray ranted and raved about it.. he wasn't very happy
about it.. And Benton was staying with us.. And he was
taking Fraser to some appointment.. and came home, late at
night without Benton.. He was stinking drunk.. And he said
something about Benton being Gay. Benton never came back..
Not even to get Deif.. Or thank us for looking after him..
And I didn't believe it.. About him being Gay.."
        "But now.."
        "After Fraser took Dief, I heard Ray and my mother
talking and they were talking about Benton.. He really is
Gay.. My mother wanted to try and talk to Benton.. But Ray
kept telling her to forget it and said it was a stupid idea
in the first place because Benton had already made up his
mind.. And that there was no point because he was going
home."
        "Home? You mean to Canada?"
        Frannie nodded.
        "I heard him say it twice. Benton told him he was going
back to Canada."
        =:So either Fraser lied to him, and Vecchio found out
about it the night of the accident and Fraser being Fraser
would have gotten into the car and tried to explain it..
Which would explain what he was doing in the car if they
weren't talking to each other. The wolf was involved, he was
probably out walking it when Vecchio drove past and saw
them...:=
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        After she left the Intensive care ward, Meg went down
to the reception to find out where Fraser was, and
discovered that he had checked out early that morning. Meg
spun and found a public phone with a pile of phone books and
let her fingers do the walking. Five minutes later she was
in a car speeding toward the airport where Fraser and Dante
were waiting to board a flight for Australia.
        As she jumped out of the car the last and final
boarding call for their flight went out. As she raced into
the airport and found out where the plane was boarding, it
pulled away. When she reached the gate, all she could do was
stand at the windows with the friends and family of
passengers and watch as the plane lifted off the tarmac and
rose into the sky that was as dark and gloomy as she felt.         
        He day was complete when she walked back to her car to
find a parking ticket under the wiper.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Fraser stepped out of the air-conditioned house with
views of Terrigal Beach to die for. He was hit by a wave of
heat and looked at the thermometer that lay under the door
bell. 36 it said. It felt more like 100. He stepped back
inside, grateful for the air-conditioning and returned to
the bedroom to open Dante's wardrobe. There had to be
something in it more suited to the weather he could wear.
        He regretted doing it as he saw all the shirts with
colourful patterns it contained and thought of Ray, who had
a collection of just as colourful shirts. He closed the
wardrobe sliding down the door pulling his legs up, wrapping
his arms around them. His head fell to his knees and the
tears he'd managed to hold back, till that moment, began to
fall.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Meg stood before the main window of her apartment
nursing a hot cup of coffee staring out the window. The sky
was as dark and overcast as the day Fraser left the country.
She couldn't believe that he'd left without once contacting
Ray's family, or visiting his bedside - the only explanation
for it had to be because he didn't know that Vecchio was
still alive, even if he was hanging on by a slender thread,
kept alive by machines that preformed the tasks his damaged
organs were no longer able to preform.
        She mentally chided herself for letting that man enter
her thoughts again. Fraser had fallen for that Earthbound
god and left everything he knew behind of his own free will.
He'd apparently cut all his ties with Vecchio, including his
ties with the Detective's family and associates. It didn't
seem likely that she'd ever learn why Fraser was in the car
the night of the accident. It nagged at her though. There
were so many things about the whole situation that just
didn't make sense to her.
        Sighing she finished her coffee and placed a phone call
to the hospital where Ray's family kept a vigil over him.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Ray opened his eyes, slowly focusing on the things
around him. His eyes widened when he saw Meg sitting at his
bedside in surgical scrubs, a mask and cap, she was reading
a bodice ripper that was familiar to Ray. Frannie had been
reading the same book whenever he woke up to find her at his
bedside.
        Ray made a gurgle around the tube down his throat. Meg
looked up and put the book aside.
        "Your family had found a house to rent close to the
hospital, they're moving into it as we speak.. I happened to
ring to ask how you were at the right time to be roped into
sitting with you while they were busy moving in."
        =Ah, that explains it.. G-d I wish I could talk.=
        Meg bent over and pulled out a bag.
        "Your sister gave me this. It's your mail.. From both
home and the precinct."
        She opened the bag and pulled out a pile of envelopes
with an elastic band around them.
        "I'll read out the return addresses and you can give me
the thumbs up if there are any there you want me to open so
you can read them."
        Then she began working her way through the collection.
Ray gave her the thumbs up twice and she opened the letters
and held them up where he could read them. The first one
made the heart rate monitor beep faster. She was curious but
when he made a wave she took it and folded it up to slip it
back in the envelope and resumed going through the pile
while he lay there seething.
        The second one he gave the thumbs up to made him raise
his arm to rip the letter away from her and scrunch it up.
He tried to toss it away but it landed on the bed, in his
lap as their wasn't much strength behind it. Meg collected
it and smoothed the letter out before tucking it back into
the envelope.
        "Bad news I take it."
        The scowl on his face was answer enough.
        She went through the rest of the pile and set it aside.
Out came five brown paper wrapped parcels. He looked
interested in those. She read the return address on the
first and he gave it the thumbs down. She set it aside and
looked at the next. It was covered in not at this address,
try this one stickers.
        "This is covered in alternate addresses."
        She found the return address and read it out he frowned
not recalling it.
        "The cancellation mark on this is several years old.
This parcel must have been travelling around for years."
        Curious he gave her the thumbs up and she opened the
parcel. She found several bound documents and a letter. She
held the letter up for him to read. He read the letter and
made a gurgle and grimaced his arm moving over his ribs.
        "May I?"
        He gave a faint nod and she looked at the letter.
        It was from someone within the FBI addressed to Raymond
Vecchio thanking him for his letter expressing an interest
in learning more about the art of building a profile of a
suspect. And the date at the top showed it had been sent out
almost a decade ago.
        "It took a long time for this to reach you. Did you
ever study profiling?"
        Ray gave a faint shake of his head.
        She looked at the text books that accompanied the
letter and flipped through them her eyes widening when she
realised what she had.
        "Did you write to the man who *invented* profiling?
These are case files from his records and guide to profiling
that he wrote. It's covered in hand written notes."
        Ray looked interested. She studied some of the notes
and looked at the case files.
        "The notes refer to the case files he included. Do you
know how hard it is to get the FBI to share the secrets of
profiling? They don't give that information out freely. Most
likely to stop the sort of people they use it to catch from
learning how to avoid being caught by a profiler."
        He signalled at her and it took her a few moments to
realise what he was trying to communicate.
        "You want me to read it for you?"
        He nodded.
        She turned to the first page and started reading. Six
pages in she stopped when she looked up to see him fighting
to stay awake. Marking the page with the letter she slipped
the books back into the wrapping with the note and set it
aside. He looked disappointed as he watched her slide the
rest of the parcels and letters back into the bag. The bag
went under the chair again minus the parcel she'd opened.
        "Stop fighting it, Detective."
        His hand made a few gestures and his frustration was
clear.
        "I'll be right back."
        She left the room and if he could have sighed he would
have. After listen to his sisters prattle on about things he
had very little interest in for the last few days, Meg had
been a breath of fresh air. And it was moments like this
that he just wanted to rip out the tubes that kept him from
being able to talk and was tempted to rip them out. But then
he remembered how he'd tried to do just that the first time
he'd come to his senses. They'd strapped him down and
sedated him heavily.
        He watched Meg return and when he saw what she had in
her hands his eyes lit up. She gave him a little smile then
stood by his bedside, helping him to hold the pen that she'd
collected from her briefcase. Then she held the note pad
she'd brought along up and with an effort he started
writing.
        He lost the pen, but she retrieved it, every single
time he dropped it. Finally he let his hand fall to the bed,
and closed his eyes letting sleep over take him.
        Meg looked at the pad, covered in the big shaky letters
that looked like they were made by a pre-school child.
        -Thank-you. X 1000
        XXXXXXXXOOXX-
        She chuckled as she sat and flipped to the next page
and made a note to visit a stationary store and get some
supplies the next day. Then she set the pad and pen aside
and picked up Frannie's bodice ripper to start reading
again.

                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                        Part Six
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        Dante watched Fraser mope around the beach house, and
sighed. All he seemed to do was lie in bed, or on the couch.
He didn't need to be a mind reader to know that he was
grieving for his friend. And the old spark of jealously that
would have set him off in the past just smouldered away. He
was certain there was more to it than just friendship the
way Fraser was mourning the passing of this Vecchio was a
clear sign of it. But he'd made certain promises, to trust
Fraser more, to not let his jealousy get the better of him
again and refused to let Fraser's mourning for a dead man
get to him.
        But the way Fraser moped around was getting to him on
another level. He needed to visit a doctor for follow up
treatment on his injuries but apart from keeping the
appointment Dante had set up the day they arrived so that he
could meet the Doctor and go over his medical records,
Fraser hadn't bothered to return to the doctor and three
messages from his surgery had been ignored.
        He wondered how to snap Fraser out of it, but couldn't
think of anything off hand.
        "Benton."
        Fraser slowly turned his whole body to look at him. His
neck still gave him a lot of pain whenever he moved his
head.
        "I rang the Quarantine people and they said it's O.K to
visit Deifenbaker while he's in quarantine."
        For the first time since he'd sunk into his highly
depressed state Fraser showed signs of animation.
        "Deifenbaker's alive!"
        "Well yes, didn't I mention that?"
        "No!"
        "Oh.. I'm sorry it must have slipped my mind."
        "How badly was he hurt in the crash?"
        "He got off lucky with bruises and shock. I arranged
for him to be sent here as soon as the vent thought he was
fit to travel. But the quarantine laws for animals like Deif
are very strict. He's going to be in quarantine for some
time."
        "Can we go tomorrow?"
        Dante nodded with a smile.
        "Sure.. I can get a copter from the heliport and have
someone meet us with a car at the other end."
        "There's a heliport near here? I haven't heard any
copters."
        "There's a heliport in west Gosford, you can hire a
copter there. That's how I got you here from the airport,
one of the people met us there, and we bundled you into the
copter. I'm sure you'll enjoy your flight out a lot more
than the flight in."        
        "I don't remember it."
        "The Pain killers knocked you out on the flight in you
were out cold... That's why I asked the doctor to prescribe
something else."
                
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg put the last of her days work aside and reached for
her phone dialling her mother's number.
        "It's me Meg.. How are you doing?" She asked when her
mother answered.
        She listened to her mother talk and assured her she was
fine and an idea that came to her in the hospital returned.
        "I was wondering.. Do you still have that hand & wrist
brace the nurse brought in for Dad?"

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Dante worked in the kitchen to prepare dinner after
their return from the quarantine center where Deif was being
tended. He jumped half out of his skin when he felt Fraser
wrap his good arm around his waist and give him a light hug.
        "Did I say thank-you?"
        "4 times already."
        "What are you preparing?"
        "Tossed Chicken Salad. We've got lettuce, cucumber,
tomato, capsicum and onion here," he said pointing to a
transparent green container with layers sliced and diced
vegetables.
        Its lid was set aside and there was a collection of
spice bottles near it along with a bottle of vinegar and
oil.
        "I've just got do the chicken and make some dressing
for it."
        "You make your own."
        "I had to play body guard to some Canadian VIP's
daughter who's ex lives here with his daughter she taught me
how to do it. She said there's nothing worse than a man who
doesn't know his way around a kitchen."
        He pointed to a shelf filled with cookbooks before he
slipped out of the embrace to move to the refrigerator and
fetched the barbecue chicken he'd collected on their way
home along with the milk and bread.
        "The exercise book is the recipe book she made for me."
        Curious Fraser moved to the shelf and pulled it down.
The book was dived into six sections, Easy Meals, Fancy
Meals, Soup, Salads, Stews and Deserts. Flipping through it
he found the recipe for chicken salad. Take one small onion,
dump in a bowl of boiling water. Take five large lettuce
leaves, slice them, take one large tomato dice it up, peel
quarter and slice a cucumber. Take one capsicum get rid of
the seeds slice and dice it. Take onion, peel, slice and
dice. Take one barbecue chicken or roast left overs. Dice
into bite sized chunks. Toss it all into a shaker sprinkle
with a little garlic salt and chicken seasoning, splash with
dressing base put lid on shake well and enjoy (serves two).
        =Simple and easy to understand=
        He flipped through and found a recipe for spaghetti
bolognaise sauce.
        Take One can of Campbell's spaghetti sauce, one small
tin Capsicums, one small tin Champignons, one tin of peeled
tomatoes (chop them to suit), one small tin corn and dump it
all in a *Big* pot. Sprinkle with Italian herbs, a little
parsley and garlic salt, bring to boil, then simmer,
stirring occasionally till it smells so good you can't wait
to eat it. (serves 4 - Tastes even better the next day)
        "This is a very simple recipe book."
        "She hates recipes books, she never measures anything,
when I brought her one, she sat there going through it,
saying, get real, get real, get real.. Then she tossed it on
the fire."
        "She wasn't very polite was she."
        "She ran a farm & only went shopping once a month.
Where ingredients were concerned if she couldn't keep it in
a cupboard, or freeze it she didn't use it. The only
vegetables she actually grew were salad vegetables for the
summer. Everything else came in tins."
        "Did you enjoy time there?"
        "It was good to get out from behind a desk and back
outside. Her ex was a horse breeder, she got his Australian
property. There were over a hundred horses on the farm.
Along with a dozen cows and chickens by the score. In summer
I lived on milk-shakes and salads. And I had my pick of the
horses to ride.. And yes I enjoyed it. Until I had to ask to
be reassigned."
        "Why?"
        "The girl's mother kept making advances. I put with it
until I'd trained the girl to defend herself. And wrote to
her father complaining about her lack of self defence
skills. She was sixteen and knew next to nothing about
defending herself. But she was an extremely fit young lady,
she had a lot of strength, and one hell of a kick.
Especially after I started teaching her kick boxing," he
said giving Fraser a grin.
        "Kick boxing? I didn't know you studied kick boxing
too."
        "Didn't I mention I took that up too? One of the
instructors at the martial arts center near the consulate
where I work out said I'd make a hell of a kick boxer," then
he chuckled, "when I introduced her to him and said, kick
that bag Didi, and she put a hole through it. He started
raving about her."
        "She put a hole through a sand bag."
        "Like I said, she had one hell of a kick and I'd
already taught her the basics. She took to kick boxing like
a duck to water, even though she studied other forms of
martial arts that was always her favourite. She went on to
take the title of Female kickbox champion a few years later
and there were a team of Hollywood producers who chased her
around waving contracts who wanted to turn her into a
martial arts movie goddess."
        Fraser chuckled.
        "Not that I blame them.. I remember one time she joined
me for a diplomatic function I had to attend. She dressed in
a figure hugging mini evening dress. I don't think there was
an eye in the room that wasn't on us. And all I heard for
the next week who was the goddess with the legs you took to
the function."
        He fetched plates out and served up the salad and
handed a plate to Fraser and headed for the dining room with
Fraser on his heels.
        "You'll get to meet her some time. She always drops
into the consulate or my chalet when she comes back to visit
her mother. I had to give her the key to the chalet, because
she just kicked the door in if I wasn't there when she
dropped in and I got sick of replacing the locks."
        Fraser laughed and Dante smiled to himself, happy to
hear him laughing again and searched his memory for stories
to keep him laughing.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg visited Ray again that night after she left the
consulate. His mother was sitting by his bedside when she
arrived and Ray was sleeping. Almost as if she'd sensed her
presence outside, Mrs Vecchio looked around and saw her
through the window. She turned and patted Ray's arm before
she rose and walked out.
        "How is he?"
        "He keeps drifting in and out of consciousness but the
Doctor says he is improving."
        "Do you mind if I sit with your son again?"
        Mr's Vecchio patted her arm.
        "Of course I don't mind, he seemed much more animated
after your visit."
        The two women left, with Mrs Vecchio making
arrangements for Meg to sit with her son with the Doctor.
When Meg returned in the sterile gown, cap and mask the
Doctors insisted all visitors wear, Ray's head moved and his
nose twitched as she sat by the bed. She heard him inhale
deeply a little frown appearing on his forehead.
        -O.K, there is someone there, but it's not Ma, or
Frannie or Maria. It's not a man, it doesn't smell like one,
that means it's a woman. (sniff) Hmm.. Not Elaine. Who could
it be. Well there's only one way to find out-
        Meg watched as his eyes opened, and his eyes lit up
when he saw her. His hand rose and he mimed writing. She
looked around saw the coast was clear and reached under the
gown to pull out her note book and pen.
        He had trouble holding the pen and kept dropping it,
but she kept retrieving it with infinite patience. He
thanked her again, and covered the rest of the page with X &
O's, and tried to flip the page. She flipped it for him and
he wrote look in the drawer. She set the pad aside and
opened the bedside drawer to find the parcel she'd opened.
        "Ah, you want me to read for you again."
        When she glanced at him he gave a tiny nod and a
hopeful look. She smiled faintly and ripped away the paper
to pull out the book and sat, looking for the page she'd
marked and started reading.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        The day the plaster came off, Dante celebrated by
taking Fraser shopping for clothes more suited to the
environment. The first stop was a clothing shop on the
beach. Dante's idea of suitable clothing was to chose six
suits consisting of cotton draw string pants, matching
singlets, long sleeved shirts and coats in bright colours.
Fraser left the shop wearing a pale blue suit, minus its
coat, with the shirt open to show the singlet underneath,
much to the appreciation of several beach bunnies who's itsy
bitsy, teeny weeny bright print bikinis left little to the
imagination.
        Fraser wasn't sure who their big smiles were for, in
his opinion Dante looked fabulous in his Levi's and singlet
which clung lovingly to every well sculpted inch of his
lightly tanned body. Dante ignored them, wrapping an arm
around his waist and pointed.        
        "We can get you some new shoes to go with your suits
there."
        The women got that "all the cute ones are gay" look on
their face and sauntered off looking for more appreciative
company. Fraser gave Dante a smile that made his heart beat
a little faster and ideas that involved a bed and lots of
physical contact.
         He gave a little shake of the head scratching those
ideas. Just because Fraser's plaster had come off didn't
mean he could pounce and get passionate. The doctor had
warned him to take it easy and work out a little before he
got into anything strenuous. But then again, there was
something to say about a slow and sensuous seduction, Dante
thought with a little smile and started planning just that.
        Three pairs of slip on shoes that would mix and match
with the suits and a pair of running shoes later, Dante had
to leave Fraser alone in the shoe shop to make a quick dash
to the closest EFTPOS machine to get a little more money.
        Fraser looked at a pair of boots set on a display shelf
with a matching belt, Akubra, and a bull whip and expressed
an interest in them. The sales person pulled them down and
showed them to him explaining how they were display only,
the boots were hand made leather and snake skin boots, of
exceptional quality. Fraser admired the work of both the
boots and the belt and got the details intending to inquire
about having a pair of boots (with matching belt) made up
for Dante's birthday once he returned to work.
        A shadow falling over him made him look up thinking the
salesman was returning with the promised business card,
instead what he found was a woman smiling down at him. She
wore a sarong wrapped around her slim waist and an itsy
bitsy bikini top providing little or no support for her
Dolly Parton bust line. One of her long legs rose, her
dainty foot setting on the chair between his legs.
        "I need shoes."
        Fraser gulped and tried to slide back as her foot began
inching closer and he saw Dante moving up behind her.
        =Here comes trouble= Fraser thought.
        Dante tapped her on the shoulder.
        "He's not a salesman," Dante said.        
        The woman glanced around did a double take then turned
to face Dante looking him up and down and set her shoulders
back virtually thrusting her impressive breasts at him.
        "Are those silicon or saline?" Dante asked.
        Fraser choked a laugh back at that.
        "100% natural," the woman claimed.
        "100% Gay," Dante responded.
        With a pout she departed and Fraser gave Dante another
one of the wicked idea inducing smiles.
        "Oh do stop doing that," Dante grouched pulling his
wallet out of his back pocket as the salesman approached.
        "Doing what?" Fraser asked innocently.
        "You know what," Dante retorted and pulled out some
polymer notes and handed them to Fraser as he rose.
        Fraser paid for the shoes and followed after Dante
juggling boxes. Dante packed them into the back of his Jeep
Cheroke and surprised Fraser by heading out of town.
        "Where are we going now?"
        "Now we've taken care of your casual wear, it's time to
shop for more formal clothes suitable for your new
environment."
        Fraser settled back and watched the picturesque
landscape they passed through. He sat up a little straighter
as they moved along a familiar route.
        "Are we going to the heliport?"
        "No, though it's on their route."
        "Where are we going?"
        "Sydney, city. It's only an hour away by the freeway at
this time of day. By the way, since I'm the one paying for
this wardrobe of yours I hope you don't mind if we stop over
at Oxford street along the way to find a little something..
special."
        "Evening wear?"
        Dante grinned.
        "You could say that."
        
        ==============
        Writers note: Oxford street is the hub of Kings Cross
Gay scene and there a number of shops that cater to the
leather fetishist and bondage lovers.
        =============

        Fraser smiled as Dante lead him into the R.M William's
shop near Central railway station, and was soon the proud
owner of 3 new pairs of jeans, riding pants, cotton shirts,
two new belts and an Akubra hat. The bags were packed in the
back of the jeep, and Dante took him for a walk across the
street. Fraser thought he was being lead to an adult book
shop as Dante lead him to a pair of stair cases between a
milk bar and a bar. The hoardings proclaimed it to be an
adult book shop with XXXX rated books. There were two stair
cases, one leading up and one leading down. Dante lead him
down stairs and Fraser was surprised to find an eclectic
collection of books that didn't fit his idea of adult books.
        Dante laughed at his obvious confusion.
        "The Adult book shop's upstairs, this is the Book
Exchange, a great place to look for out of print books, just
wait here, I have to pick up a book," he said before he
walked to the back of the shop to speak to the man seated in
the open office there who was working on the computer.
        He was handed a book and when he returned to the front
of the shop it was to find Fraser had made like a Dodo and
vanished. He peered around the shop and found him perusing a
shelf of non fiction books. Instead of one book, they left
with over a dozen, Fraser had selected an Australian classic
or two, along with books on the country itself and two
dictionaries, one for Italian speakers produced by Cassel's
when he was just a boy.
        He flipped through it while Dante drove through the
city's streets. Fraser was oblivious to the mix of modern
and classic architecture that lined the streets as he
flipped through the dictionary.
        "This is an excellent dictionary for someone who
doesn't speak the language," Fraser said, "It includes lists
of commonly used phrases with common words."
        "Why on Earth did you want to buy an Italian
Dictionary?"
        "You never know when learning another language will
come in useful Dante. For instance .."
        Fraser found a list of commonly used phrases to convey
a message of love and affection and used one on Dante.
        "Don't flirt while I'm driving," Dante said.
        "You know what I said."
        Dante translated it perfectly.
        "I didn't know you speak Italian."
        "I speak French, Italian & German, fluently, and that
includes slang, which it never hurts to learn, and that
dictionary won't teach you. I also started learning Japanese
a year or two ago, and I'm thinking of studying Vietnamese
or Chinese next. But then again.. I only started learning
all those languages for something to do at night."
        "Perhaps you could help me study Italian."
        "If that's what you want to do. Though I'd recommend
Japanese. There are a lot of Japanese businessmen and
tourists around and you will occasionally end up dealing
with them. It's so much easier to do when you can speak
their language."
        "I'm familiar with Italian, I will pick that up
faster."
        "Whatever your little heart desires."
        Fraser continued to peruse the dictionary until Dante
pulled up on Oxford street. When he looked around his eyes
widened. Dante clambered out and opened his door for him.
        "Welcome to Oxford street."
        A pair of men walked past holding hands, another couple
one with his arms around his partner's waist, the other with
his hand tucked into the back pocket of his partner's tight
jeans sauntered past and gave them the eye.
        Dante locked the Cheroke and wrapped an arm around
Fraser's shoulder's and lead him down the street, while
Fraser took note of all the openly gay couples, both male
and female who strolled the streets. He was so busy taking
that in that he didn't notice what kind of shop Dante was
leading him too until he was inside and a leather clad
shopkeeper with a campy attitude greeted them.
        With wide eyes Fraser looked around.
        "And what can I do for you?" The shopkeeper asked.
        "I wants pants and a collar n' cuffs set for my Friend
here," Dante said patting Fraser on the chest.
        "Tight fight or loose."
        "As tight as they come."
        Half an hour later, Fraser followed Dante out the
bemused owner of a pair of skin tight black leather pants,
that Dante made him wear, and a black leather studded "dog"
collar, with a hoop on the front, and a lock with a tiny
gold padlock on the back around his neck hidden under the
collar of his shirt which he'd pulled up and used to cover
it. The cuffs matched the collar and were hidden by the
sleeves of his shirt.
        Dante packed the bag that contained the cotton pants
Fraser had been wearing, in the back of the Cheroke, made
Fraser undo his collar and open it to show off the leather
collar and roll back his sleeves then led him to a bar
filled with blue collar & stylishly dressed men, where they
had lunch.
        No one tried to flirt with them, though a few men at
the bar seemed interested, till they saw the cuffs with
pointy studs around Fraser's wrists when he reached for his
drink.
        "I made a booking at a hotel for the night while you
were trying on those pants, so we can spend the day sight
seeing. I think I'll leave the Cherokee at the Mitchell,
take a walk through the Botanical gardens through to the
Quay, and show you the harbour & the Rocks and we can finish
off with a trip over to Taronga zoo, and the aquarium at
Manly."
        "What is the Mitchell?"
        Dante smiled at him impishly.
        "You'll find out soon enough."
        Half an hour later Fraser stood outside the imposing
structure across the way from the Botanical gardens that was
the Mitchell Library. And while he thought it was impressive
from the outside, he thought it was considerably more
impressive after passing through its doors to be lead to the
main reading room.
        "Well, what do you think?" Dante asked as he waved to
the rooms high vaulted multi level room, with row after row,
level after level of books shelves, loaded down with books
new and old.
        "They say if it's been published in Australia, you can
find it here."
        "I think my grandparents would have been in heaven
here," Fraser said.
        "Would you like to look around?"
        Fraser looked around, then wound his arms around one of
Dante's.
        "If I start looking through the books you won't get me
out of here in a hurry and you promised to show me the
gardens."
        Dante smiled.
        "We can always come back here later, can't we?"
        "Of course. The consulate is here in Sydney, on
Harrington Street."
        "And you booked a suite at a hotel??" Fraser was
confused.
        "I don't live in Sydney, I only work here, I commute
from Terrigal."
        "Why did you buy a home so far from the consulate?"
Fraser asked as Dante lead him out of that magnificent
structure.        
        "I didn't.. I used to rent an apartment in the Cross,
but I did have a property in Canada. I made a friend from
the French Consulate who was transferring to Canada who
owned the house at Terrigal and traded properties with him."
        "Ah."
        "Though the position of Liaison officer comes with a
apartment here in the city near the consulate. When he
retires next week, it becomes mine along with his position."
        "You should have returned to duty at the consulate when
you returned here.."
        "He knows I've been looking after you. He's been
nagging me for years to find a partner and settle down.. if
you have no objections, we'll have lunch with him tomorrow."
        "I have no objections."
        "Good.. He's worried about his daughter's decision to
stay in Australia. Once she sees I have a S.O she should get
it through her thick skull that I'm not interested."
        "Oh... that's why he's been nagging you to settle down
with someone, because of his daughter."
        "Exactly. Lovely woman, when she's not being a
barracuda and speaking of big fish.. You just have to see
the Gold fish here.."
                
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        When Meg finished reading the profiling guide and case
history's included with it Ray dropped off as she closed the
bound file. She wondered if he really had fallen asleep or
just pretended to do it when he looked extremely surprised
to see her the next day. He was also curious, as she came
baring a sports bag. She leaned over him, touching his arm.
        "I can't stay long, you have another visitor, but I
brought you some things to make your life a little easier."
        Then she pulled out a hand brace with an attachment. He
frowned and raised his hand as instructed. She put the brace
on his hand and then pulled out a pen and slipped it into
the attachment.
        "There, now you won't keep dropping the pen."
        He gave her the thumbs up and if he could have smiled
he would have given her a big one when she pulled out a
computer note stand of the type that has clamps and a swing
bar. She attached it to the side bars.
        "Lift your hand and pretend to write.. Tell me when I
get the angle right."
        He obeyed and she worked to adjust it till she got it
just right for him to be able to write comfortably and be
able to see what he was doing then she locked it into place
twisting screw joints tight. A nice thick pad of blank paper
was placed on the stand and she pulled out a thick pile of
the same kind of pads and put them on the bedside table.
        Ray covered the first sheet in shaky X's and a big
smiley face at the bottom while she closed up the bag. He
held the page out to her and she gave him a smile.
        "You're welcome."
        He raised his hand to study the brace and gave her a
curious look.
        "My father couldn't talk near the end, and could only
communicate through writing notes. But he kept loosing his
grip on the pen and got very frustrated and started sulking
till one day the nurse who tended to his needs brought that
brace in. I was looking for some kind of lap table for you
to put paper on so you could write when I walked past a
computer shop and saw that stand in their window display. I
realised it would be better than a lapstand and went back
and brought it."
        -How much do IOU?- He wrote.
        She waved it off.
        "Don't worry about it. I have to go now, your other
visitor must be getting impatient."
        For the first time his arm rose and moved over the bed
rail, his hand wrapping around her arm stopping her as she
turned away. She looked down at his hand, then turned back
and he let her go to start writing.
        -Come back again please-
        She patted his arm.
        "Relax, I'll be back. Tomorrow. Now I really have to go
before your visitor gets too impatient and decides to
leave."
        This time he let her leave and watched her cross the
room to walk out. He wondered who his visitor could be.
Since Meg had started visiting him on a regular basis none
of his family members had visited at that time of the day.
Sometimes other officer's from the precinct visited, but
that was usually during the day, and they kept their visits
short. Except Elaine she visited at least once a week and
proved to be a fountain of information about who was doing
what with whom around the station. What cases were solved or
still open. Huey it seemed had been given half his cases,
the other half had been divided amongst the other detectives
at the precinct.
        His thoughts turned to a case Elaine told him Huey had
taken on and was having trouble with. He remembered it, he'd
been doing work on that particular case on the day he'd had
his accident and hadn't been able to make up his notes. He
looked at the stand and raised a hand to start doing that.
        Ray looked around as the door opened and a man in
scrubs and mask entered the room. He frowned, not
recognising him. The frown vanished and a startled look took
it's place when the man crossed the room and sat down
introducing himself as the man who'd invented profiling.
        "Your friend, Meg told me you've had an interest in
learning profiling for a long time."
        
                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                        Part Seven
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        Fraser lay curled up in bed, a chain looped through the
loop on his locked collar chaining him to the bed. He
shuddered as he felt Dante's hand sliding over his back, but
Dante mistook it for something else. The caress was followed
by the bed dipping and Dante's lips on the sensitive flesh
on his throat above the collar that had become a sign of his
dominated state.
        He stared out the window not seeing the view of the
harbour, as he endured Dante's affections and regretted not
for the first time the day he'd come to this country with
the man who now controlled his life. Every aspect of his
life. From his work at the consulate to his life outside its
walls. Every item of clothing he owned was selected by
Dante, all the clothes he'd brought with him, barring his
uniform, Dante had taken and given away to some charitable
organisation. Including the clothes Ray and Francesca had
given him for his birthday which Fraser had refused to part
with until Dante's visage had taken on that furious cast
Fraser was becoming all too familiar with.
        He couldn't remember the last time Dante had smiled, no
that was a lie, he could remember it well. It had been the
day Fraser had fallen back in love with him. When he'd been
pampered, shown around the city, and presented with a ring
for his finger during a harbour cruise. Dante had pledged
his love, and made promises of undying love and affection,
and followed the cruise with a limo ride to a 5 star hotel
where he spent the rest of the evening showering him TLC,
making slow sweet love to him, first in the spa bath, then
in the big bed that was the main feature of the large suite
Dante had booked.
        As he lay curled in Dante's arms late in the night, he
woke to the feel of those arms tightening around him in a

cruelly tight embrace that made it hard to breath. He heard
Dante whimper in his sleep and fought to break that hold,
and woke Dante in the process. Looking into his eyes Fraser
had gone from confused to concerned, touching Dante's face
he found it cold and clammy to touch.
        He'd scrambled out of bed and called reception who'd
sent a doctor up. By the time he arrived Dante was sitting
up holding his head and after questioning, the Doctor
diagnosed a severe migraine and left, returning to give
Dante an injection. Dante had settled back into a restless
sleep, but after that night he'd never been the same.
        He never smiled, settling into a permanent dour mood,
he seemed to consume headache capsules at the rate of a pack
a day, snarling and growling his way through the day. Fraser
had thought it would pass but as the weeks passed he only
grew worse. All Fraser's attempts to get him to see a doctor
failed and only seemed to make him angry. When his mood
shifted from growling grump to terrifying fury Fraser called
a Doctor who diagnosed another migraine and gave him a shot
but Fraser knew there had to be more to it.
        So far Dante had managed to restrain himself, though
his jealousy and possessive behaviour had escalated to the
point where the other staff at the consulate were afraid to
spend any time in Fraser's company. But there were times
Fraser feared for his safety, times when Dante raised a hand
to him, and roared at him, hurling abusive language at him,
but never laying a hand on him. He wondered how long that
would last, he'd thought Dante would cross the line that
evening, instead he'd trashed the apartment around Fraser
and chained him to the bed before leaving to take a long
walk.
        The chain was strong, and just long enough for Fraser
to be able to lie down, but any attempt to leave the bed was
cut short. He couldn't even reach the bedside drawer to find
something to break the tiny golden padlock.
        The feel of Dante's hands moving over him, his finger's
sliding inside preparing him for an intimate invasion him
made Fraser want to cringe, but he forced himself to relax.
Any time he tensed up or rejected Dante's love making it
turned rough while Dante accused him of all manner of
betrayals.
        Fraser bit into the pillow and fought to hold back the
cry of pain as Dante entered him and began seek his pleasure
with strong deep thrusts, while biting at Fraser's throat
and shoulders. Fraser tried to lose himself in a fantasy
imagining not Dante but Ray, but he couldn't do it, he
couldn't imagine Ray using him like this, keeping him in
chains, and he was dead, suspicions and dreams would be for
naught, there would be no nights of love in his arms. The
fantasy shattered and he found himself crying
uncontrollably, his chest heaving with sobs.
        For a moment he thought his tears had reached Dante as
he stilled, then he felt Dante climax and shudder over him
growling, "You're mine, now and forever," before withdrawing
and rolling away. Burying his face in the pillow Fraser's
sobs increased. There used to be a time, Dante would hold
him in his arms and whisper words of love instead. Now,
Dante didn't even want to hold him any more. The only time
he ever touched him was when he wanted sex and that had
ceased to bring any pleasure to Fraser though he was sure if
Dante made the effort it could.
        But it was no longer about love, it was about
possession, and he was no longer Dante's partner, he was
Dante's possession. Without being aware of what he was
really doing, Fraser began planning his escape. He no longer
cared about getting help for Dante, self preservation
dictated that he get as far away from Dante as fast as
possible, if at all possible.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray's release from the hospital was celebrated with a
big party thrown jointly by his family and colleagues from
the precinct at one of his favourite restaurants.
        Ray enjoyed himself at first. It was good to get out of
the hospital and to see his friends, but he couldn't keep
the mood up for long feeling a pang of loneliness as he
watched Huey and his new partner Dewey laughing at some joke
and his sister Maria and Tony making eyes at each other over
the table.
        No one seemed to notice when he left the table, or they
all assumed he was going to the bathroom. He wasn't. He
walked out of the restaurant and stopped dead on the side
walk when he saw his car, its paintwork gleaming and free of
dents, gouges and all evidence of the crash. He moved closer
and peered through the window to see that it was the same
car and not a replacement. It seemed to gleam inside and
out.
        The rattle of keys preceded the dangling of his keys
before his eyes and he took them as he turned to see his
mother.
        "She's working late at the consulate. I'm sure she'd be
happy to see you, especially if you come bearing this," his
mother said holding up a bag of take away food containers.
        He kissed her cheek taking the bag, and she resisted
the urge to give him a hug, everyone had, and it was
starting to grate on his nerves being treated like fragile
glass. He turned away opening the car and yanked the door
open, sliding in to put the food on the passenger seat.
        "What the insurance didn't cover all your friends
chipped in to cover."
        "Thank them for me."
        "I will."
        She remained on the corner watching him drive and for
the first time in a long time he obeyed every road rule and
drove safely through the night until he pulled up at the
consulate. He saw a lone light in a window in her office as
he climbed out with the take away food. A soda can retrieved
from the street and crushed under foot was hurled at her
window and she threw it up ready to berate the thrower and
did a double take when she saw Ray waving and holding up the
bag.
        "Hungry??" He called out.
        "I'll be down in a minute," she called back.
        She was, letting him in and leading him up to her
office. He settled himself down in a seat while she fetched
cutlery, plates and coffee on a tray.
        "I ate already," he said when she started opening
containers.
        "I heard they were arranging a party.."
        "They did. I went and everyone was having a good time."
        "Except you, obviously."
        "It reminded me of Fraser."
        {So you came here}
        "Do you know how he's going?"
        "No."
        "Oh. Well.. How are things going here? I know you've
been pretty busy lately.. I wondered why you stopped
coming."
        "Fraser's replacement makes Turnbull look like a master
of efficiency," She said, then smiled faintly, "Actually,
Turnbull has become rather efficient."
        "Fraser said Dante scared him into it."
        He watched her face take on a disagreeable cast.
        "But enough about them.. I want to talk about you."
        "Oh."
        "I don't think I ever thanked you for arranging that
meeting with the Master Profiler."
        "Did you enjoy it?"
        "It was interesting.. We discussed a case of mine, he
told me what I'd have to do to get into profiling now.. Not
that I want to be a profiler.. I just think that it would be
a hell of a skill to have, being a detective. Did I mention,
I discussed a case that was transferred to Huey with him and
he helped me to put a profile of the guy together from the
information I already had. He took it home, tidied it up and
put in all the right psycho babble, then brought it back so
I could give it to Huey and they nailed a suspect the very
next day using it."
        "All the more reason to study profiling. And become an
accredited Profiler."
        "I couldn't get into the FBI's profiler programme, you
need qualifications that I ain't got and it would take me
years to get them. I correspond with him now.. Not that I've
got much to write about.. but that'll change when I get back
on the job. He's been sending me information on old cases,
no profiles.. I had to look them over and construct a basic
profile from the information he sent using that guide he
sent me. And I've got a long list of books he recommended on
psychology and criminology. I'll start hunting them down and
build up a collection. I've actually got a few of the crime
books he recommended already. I got them years ago.. they're
gathering dust in a box in the attic somewhere. I'll have to
find them."
                        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        At some point during the evening Ray discovered Fraser
had gone to Australia to work as the Deputy Liaison officer
under Dante at the Sydney consulate. He wondered why he
couldn't feel happy for his friend, then Meg told him she
didn't think Fraser knew he'd survived the accident. That
stuck in his mind, as he left the consulate and tailed her
home. She came over to his car, and invited him up for
coffee, for a moment he was tempted to take up the offer,
his body singing go for it.
        But he knew his family would start to worry about him
if he didn't return home soon and declined. She looked
faintly disappointed as she stepped back and he drove away
with her on his mind instead of Fraser.
        His mind returned to Fraser the next morning when he
visited the precinct. An immediate return to work was not on
the cards. He had to be medically certified fit to return to
work first and that was still some time away, and then he
could look forward to being confined to a desk job for the
first few weeks until he passed the police services fitness
tests which were far more strenuous than what his doctor had
put him through.         
        Once that was settled, he began making nebulous plans
for how to spend that time. Those plans became concrete when
Welsh handed him papers concerning his entitlements
surprising him.
        "You were on your way to the hospital on police
business when the accident occurred," Welsh reminded him.
        Between his own private health cover & insurance and
the Chicago PD arranged kind all his medical bills were
covered and he had quite a tidy sum left over. More than
enough to make those nebulous plans a reality.
        His first stop on leaving the precinct was the bank to
cash the cheque Welsh had given him, then it was off to the
Australian Embassy.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Fraser sat on the floor looking at the wreckage left in
the wake of another of Dante's fits of temper and his own
attempts to find his papers, his passport among them. It had
been a fruitless search. They papers just weren't there, and
he had no idea where they could be. Without them, he
couldn't leave the country, and unless he could do so,
escaping his increasingly volatile lover would be next to
impossible. Dante had friends within both state and Federal
police networks of the country. They'd find him, and lead
Dante to him.
        He needed to get out of the country to escape Dante,
but he needed his passport to do that and Dante had
effectively trapped him by making sure he couldn't get it.
Any attempt to get a new one would reach Dante's ears before
he was successful and he could imagine the results. No, he
had to find out where Dante had put his papers and do it
soon, but first he had to make sure Dante wasn't aware he
was searching for them, which mean restoring the apartment
to order even if it was the last thing he felt like doing.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg Thatcher was in the middle of reaming out the
incompetent woman who had replaced Fraser when her phone
rang. With no hurry she answered it.
        "Inspector Thatcher?"
        Annoyance twisted her face.
        {After all this time you think he'd drop the Inspector
at least. It's not as if he's one of my staff}
        "Vecchio what.. "
        "Sorry to intrude."
        "I hope you've got a good reason for it."
        She turned from the curious eyes of her incompetent
subordinate, walking away.
        "What the matter?"
        "I'm in Australia.. What you said about Fraser got me
thinking.. You were right, about Benni not knowing I made
it. I tracked him down..and.. That guy who was holding the
fort down for you."
        "Inspector McIntire."
        "He's psycho, he's turned Fraser into a virtual
prisoner here.. He's terrified of what will happen if Dante
- Mc Intire finds out I'm here.. He wants to leave but he
can't.. Dante has all his papers and Benni can't find them
or get new ones to leave this country behind. You know what
he'd need to return to America.. Do you think you can
arrange it and get them out to me so I can bring him back
with me?"
        "How serious is the situation?"
        "Very.. Fraser can't leave the apartment without Dante
at his side any more. He can't go anywhere without Dante
there.. Fraser says he sick.. Literally, there's something
wrong with him, but he refuses to see a doctor and gets
worse everyday, he's been mentally deteriorating in front of
Benni's eyes. He's always in a foul mood, paranoid,
occasionally violent and .."
        She heard him hesitate, the rustling of cloth then
Vecchio was back.
        "I'm sure there's a lot more going on that Benni won't
tell me about.. And I ain't about to repeat some of the
things he told me over the phone."
        She sighed it was worse than she imagined it could get.
        "How did you get to speak to him?"
        "Benni likes libraries, he warned me about Dante in the
past.. So I knew being seen with him, by Dante would just
cause trouble. So I found out where every library around the
consulate was and started checking each one.. Wouldn't you
know it, he's a regular visitor to the biggest library in
the state.. It's the only place Dante lets him go to alone.
I found out when he usually drops in and had to wait for
three days before he did.. He almost fainted when he saw me.
And he promised to met me here again, but he's been a no
show and I don't wanna waste another minute.. He's terrified
of what Dante will do if he finds out about me.. And he
swore if I could help him get the papers he'd come back with
me."
        "Alright, I get the picture, where should I send the
paperwork?"

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray hovered in his usual place, hidden but well placed
to watch every person who entered through the main entry of
the Mitchell library. Three days had passed since the
courier Meg had dispatched with the papers he'd needed
including the all important replacement passport. Those
papers were tucked away in the deep pocket of Ray's bright
cotton coat.
        He'd arrived at the end of the summer season, and taken
the opportunity to purchase a few new suits, shirts, pants
and coats more suited to the Australian summer at knock down
prices. He'd been thinking how they'd come into their own
back home during the next heat wave and been quite gleeful
once he'd done his sums and worked out what he'd have paid
for them back home. But the meeting with Fraser had taken
any delight he felt away.
        Now all he felt was increasing anxiety and concern for
his absent friend. Checking his watch, his anxiety rose, he
gave up on Fraser arriving and stepped out of his hiding
place to stride across the wide marble floored entry hall a
tenuous plan of action taking shape in his head. A hand on
his arm drew him from his thoughts and to a stop.
        He looked around to see a well dressed aboriginal man
in a suit and recalled that he'd seen the man enter the
library half an hour ago. The man was comparing his face to
a piece of paper in his hand.
        "Raymond Vecchio?"
        "Yes."
        The man pulled an I.D case from his suit and flashed
his I.D and Badge before Ray's face and identified himself
as a Federal police officer by the name of Mandaway before
asking Ray to accompany him - To the Hospital.

                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                        Part Eight
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        Ray stood slumped against the lounge room wall, arms
crossed, watching Fraser who was curled up in a chair, arms
wrapped around his drawn up legs staring at nothing as he
rocked back and forth, swaying now and then. Deif lay at
Fraser's feet looking up at him now and again with a little
whine of sympathy.
        Hearing someone approaching Ray looked to see his
mother leading Meg into the room. Ray bolted upright and
hurried to their side. His mother departed, to make tea, or
so she said. Meg studied Fraser, a look of sadness on her
face.
        "He's been like that since he was released from the
hospital. The only time he does anything else is when he's
sleeping," Ray said with a sigh, running a hand through hair
that needed a cut. "That's when he starts screaming till I
hit him with a sedative to put him into deep sleep - no
dreams."
        "They gave you the sedatives?"
        "Yeah.. He did the same thing at the hospital. The
Doctor said he should be transferred to a psychiatric
facility. I had to do some fast talking to get them to agree
to release him into my care. I had to sign a stack of
papers. And I'm starting to wonder if maybe it was the wrong
thing to do. He just doesn't react to anything."        
        She reached out and rubbed his arm.
        "You did the right thing. Being placed in psychiatric
care in a strange land, surrounded by strangers would have
been the worst thing that could have happened."
        "Oh, no, the worst thing that could have happened is
what left him in this state. Mc Intire lost it entirely with
him.. And he didn't just beat the living daylights out of
him, he raped him," Ray growled in a low voice that wouldn't
carry far.
        Meg's eyes closed and he saw her shudder.
        "I don't know what to do any more. He doesn't react to
anything."
        "He needs a friend to help him get through this.. But
your family shouldn't have to deal with it."
        "I'm not taking him back to that flea pit of his."
        "I wasn't going to suggest it. My place is.. "
        "It's not in the same place Mc Intire stayed at while
he was here is it?"
        "No."        
        "How many rooms?"
        "Two.. One's my office.. But I can convert it to a
bedroom. If you handle him at night, I'll handle him during
the day. We can take it in shifts. Oh.. And.. I've already
talked to the CPD.. I know you converted your leave to
indefinite leave without pay to tend to him for as long as
it takes. You'll be covered by the RCMP from here on in."
        "What?!"
        "We take care of our own. This whole mess should never
have taken place, McIntire should never have been permitted
to come near Fraser again.. Not after what happened the
last time."
        "What happened?"
        "He beat Fraser... Fraser has Battered Spouse Syndrome,
no matter how many times that man hurt him, he always found
excuses or lied for him.. Would never lay charges. It took
his father acting to get him out of his clutches."
        "As much as I despise that man for what he did to
Fraser, I'm telling you there is no way Benni woulda gone
back to the guy if he was a serial abuser."
        "You can say that after what he did this time?"
        "Benni told me he was sick.. The Mandaway guy from the
Fed's there, said they interviewed staff at the consulate
and they all said, his personality had changed drastically.
Everyone who knows him said the same thing. And once they
catch him, they'll be dragging him to a hospital for a
physical before they run a psychological exam on him. If it
turns out he's perfectly fit and sane, he'll be charged for
what he did to Benni and we'll have to take him back for the
trial. If not, they'll lock him up in a psych ward and make
arrangements to ship him home, quietly."
        "I've been doing what I can on my end.. The RCMP is
moving on this, his personal effects are being seized, his
accounts frozen. His passport was revoked. His former
superior has returned to work with the Federal police on
this matter. Mc Intire won't get far before he's caught."
        "What about.. His mental state?" Ray asked, indicating
Fraser rocking away seemingly oblivious to their
conversation.
        "It's not the first time something like this has
happened.. He apparently reacted to a .. vicious assault in
much the same way in the past and eventually came out of
it.. They're moving now.. To liaise with the American mental
health services.. to arrange for a temporary guardianship
order to be made out in your name.. If you'll accept that
responsibility?"
        Ray nodded.
        "Good. The papers will be delivered soon.. Once you
sign them, I'll lodge them and you'll become his temporary
official guardian.."
        Deif squeaked and they looked around to see Fraser
uncurling, the wolf moving away, since he'd been trodden on.
Deif sat and his tail thumped madly on the floor as they
gaped at Fraser rising from the chair. Meg looked at Ray and
realised this wasn't something Fraser had done before.
        Then he was approaching and Ray was enfolded in a bone
cracking hug by a sobbing Fraser. He awkwardly patted and
stroked Fraser's back.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg watched Ray as he slept in her big bed, twisting
and turning, tangling himself up in the blankets. His
restless movements causing his pyjama top to gape open and
his pants to snake down his hips.
        So different from Fraser who spent most of his day
curled up in a tight ball in bed. His nights were spent in a
chair, watching Ray as he'd poured over Psychology and Rape
Counselling text books by the score, most if not all which
he'd hurled into the trash can in frustration, when
attempting to follow their advice lead to no change in
Fraser's condition. Whenever Ray through a book away, Meg
always waited till he stomped off to fetch them out, clean
them up and added them to the collection which was rapidly
filling a bookcase that used to hold all her nicknacks.
        Sometimes he'd go to the collection, pull out a book
and look through it again, if it went into the bin twice, it
stayed there. But lately Ray had taken to sitting opposite
Fraser and just talked, all night.
        He'd talked about his life, himself, his family, his
father, his failed marriage, his career. Meg totally re-
evaluated him. Sometimes during the hours when Fraser slept
and they had nothing better to do they'd sit and discuss old
cases.
        Those pants slipped lower. One of his hands slid over
his body and she watched as he began touching himself in his
sleep. Something he did quite often she'd discovered after
investigating every time she heard him crying out in his
restless sleep.
        Not that every cry he made was one of self induced
solumbulistic pleasure. Many's the time she'd entered to
find him curled up around a pillow sobbing into it. Until
she'd inadvertently eavesdropped on one of his talks with
Fraser one sleepless night, to learn about the abusive
relationship between Ray and his late father, she had no
clues to the reasons for it.
        He'd caught her, in the room watching, flushing when he
realised she *knew* but nothing had been said. As she
watched him and listened to his murmurings she promised
herself, they'd talk about it.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg returned from taking Deif for one of his daily
walks to be handed a large parcel by the doorman. More books
for Ray no doubt. When she returned to the apartment she
found Fraser standing in the door of the bedroom watching
Ray sleeping. Instead of leading him away, she left him
there, curious to see what he'd do.
        She packed away the supplies while Deif bounded up to
Fraser. Fraser looked down at the Wolf, and when Deif went
to the kitchen Fraser followed to watch him nudge his food
bowl. Meg waited to see what he'd do. Then when he did
nothing, she opened up a cupboard making sure Fraser saw
where she stored Deif's food, before she fed the wolf.
        Deif appreciated it. Fraser moved away to collect a
piece of fruit then wandered back to his seat and sank down
into it to stare into space as he chomped away on his apple.
Meg sighed and for lack of anything better to do, pulled out
a recipe book and began going through it, planning the menu
for the next week.
        She marked four recipes and hunted down a note pad and
wrote down a list of ingredients to purchase the next time
she went shopping. She was looking for another recipe to add
to the menu when Ray wandered out of the bedroom, rumpled
and sleepy.
        She got a glass of water while he checked up on Fraser.
When he moved into the kitchen, she held out the glass, and
he collected it on his way to the kitchen nook. She dumped
the parcel before him and he woke right up. Ripping the
paper away, he revealed her guess to be right. It was full
of books. There was also a letter and thick file and a
number of envelopes. He read the letter through twice.
        "You've been waiting for this?"
        "Yes.. I tried ringing one of the sexual assault
support lines one night and they gave me a number for this
counsellor to talk too."
        "And she sent all these books."
        She picked one up and her brows defected.
        "He sent them. I've been in touch with him a few
times."
        "These are text books, for a psychology course, are you
intending to become a professional counsellor Vecchio?"
        "He said that since I've become Benni's Primary carer
it wouldn't hurt to get some sort of professional
qualifications. It certainly won't do any damage if I have
to make an application to extend my guardianship of Benni."
        "You don't think he's going to come out of it in a
hurry either, do you?"
        Ray sighed.
        "The problem is that we're dealing with an extremely
violent betrayal by someone he loved and trusted implicitly.
It takes time to heal wounds like that. When he's ready to
face it and accept help - I'll need to be ready to give him
the help he needs."
        He sipped his water and opened the file to study the
top sheet. Meg rose and moved to the counter to start
preparing coffee and breakfast for Ray.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg returned from a shopping trip to replenish the
supplies running desperately low, and was startled to find
Fraser up on his feet, standing in the bedroom doorway
again. He didn't react to her as she made several trips from
the apartment to the garage to collect all the shopping and
transferred it to the kitchen. On her last trip, she
collected the last bag of food and another large parcel and
envelope addressed to Ray.
        She left the parcel and envelope on the counter where
Ray would see them and set the bags down on the table before
she approached Fraser wrapping an arm around him and looked
into the room. Ray was sprawled on her bed, the blankets
tangled around his legs while his pyjama top had come open
exposing his chest, an arm was over his face, the other lay
dangling laxly over the edge of the bed.
        When she looked away it was to find Fraser looking at
her, his face unreadable. She gave herself a little mental
shake and lead him away, closing the door behind her, then
lead Fraser to the kitchen setting him at the table while
she unpacked the groceries.
        He reached out and pulled out a bag of dog kibble
rattling the packet. There was a panting, tail wagging Wolf
at his chair in next to no time. She watched as he moved
away to fill Deif's bowl, then hugged and petted the wolf as
the animal chowed down. Deif's tail beat a loud, thumping,
excited rhythm against the floor the whole time.
        She completed the unpacking, then left the man to
commune with his wolf and returned to the bedroom, slipping
quietly inside, silently closing the door behind her.
Creeping to the bedside she leant over Ray to carefully tug
his pyjama's back into order. He started stirring as she
buttoned them up, and lazily opened one eye, then jumped
half out of his skin when it sunk into his sleepy mind that
the Dragon lady was playing with his pyjama's.
        "I caught Fraser watching you sleeping.. Your shirt
was gaping open."
        He half sat up, looking around.
        "He's feeding Deif in the kitchen.. I just came to.."
She reached out and tugged the blankets up.
        "make sure you were covered up."
        "How long was he there?"
        "I don't know, I had to go shopping.. He was there in
the door way just watching you when I got back."
        "He's feeding Deif?"
        "He pulled the food out and spontaneously decided to
feed him and show him some attention. That thumping you can
hear is Deif expressing his pleasure with the attention."
        "That's a good sign.. He never showed any interest in
Deif before."
        "He's showing a little too much interest in you."
        "You don't have anything to worry about, unless he
shows interest in you."
        "Have you ever considered sleeping in sweats and Ts?
It's not the first time I've caught him doing it and your
top's come open every time - and those pants.. well, you've
almost lost them a few times.. ."
        "What?! Why didn't you tell me?"
        "Well I didn't want you to get nervous and leave it all
up to me.. He responds so well to you."
        "You should have told me earlier. You catch him doing
it again, make some noise, wake me up.. .or just leave him
alone.. and see what he does."
        "He doesn't do *anything*. He just stands there,
watching you .. . then walks away and either curls up in his
chair, or goes back to his bed and curls up."
        "To sleep, or just stare at the wall?"
        "Both, either."
        "Yeah, well if he does something else when he curls up,
then it's something to worry about."
        "Something else?"
        "You know.. Touches himself."
        "Ohhh.. "
        "He doesn't do that, does he?"
        "He doesn't even touch himself when he goes to the
bathroom."
        "Speaking of which, does he react to being bathed by
you?"
        "Does he react to you?"
        "He reacted once.. He started crying."
        "He just.. shakes when I do it."
        "No other reaction?"
        "None whatsoever."
        "You sure? He doesn't get.. turned on?"
        "Yes, I'm sure. He doesn't even react to me towelling
him down."
        Ray sighed.
        "Keep an eye out for a reaction like that.. Any sign
of interest at all is supposed to be a good sign."
        He rolled and picked up a thick tome from the floor she
hadn't noticed as he sat back up she say that it was a
psychology text book on the subject of sexual assault.
        "You should read this when I'm done.. The guy who
wrote it has worked with sexual assault victims of all
kinds.. Including ones who reacted like Benni."
        He found a page marked with a turned down corner and
opened the book.
        "Here we go.. Blah blah blah.. Good signs are
displays of spontaneous affection.. Hugs and crawling into
the carers bed to cuddle are all part of the process. It's
considered a really good sign when they touch their primary
career in a sexual way. Touching, kissing, and in a male's
case, getting an erection are all good signs."
        He looked at her over the bed and blushed at the look
she was giving him.
        "Perhaps. I should hire someone else to care for him at
night," she suggested.
        "No.. It says the primary carer should be someone the
victim trusts implicitly who isn't likely to reject their
needs for comfort, whatever level of comfort that may be."
        "And what are you going to do if he crawls into this
bed curls up and gets .. " she blushed faintly "hard on
you?"
        "What are you going to do if he does it to you? He told
me he was attracted to both of us."
        Her eyes widened.
        "He told you *that*?"
        "Yeah."
        "Well.. I think I can handle it if he shows
spontaneous attention to me, but can you?"
        "I'll deal with it if it comes up."
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        "I have to return to work."
        Ray looked around from his coffee making.
        "Translation?"
        "I have no leave left. I have to return to work."
        "Oh.. I thought you were making a hint."
        He returned to the coffee making.
        "They want to take Fraser and place him in a
Psychiatric facility."
        "Over my dead body."
        He joined her at the kitchen table handing her a cup.
She sipped at it and smiled faintly. It was *just* the way
she liked it.
        "They can't just take him and lock him up."
        "They can and they will. Unless you can have the
temporary order that made you his primary carer extended."
        Ray ran his hands over his head.
        "Has it already been 6 months?"
        "Yes."        
        "G-d, we're sunk.. He hasn't improved at all."
        "I've looked into what would be needed to get the bond
extended or made into a permanent one. To become a permanent
order, it has to be extended for another six months first,
and he'll be examined, we can apply for a permanent order at
that stage."
        "But how do we get the extension in the first place?"
        "Your studies into psychology will help.. How are they
going?"
        "I've got a certificate with High Honours, for 1st and
2cnd level psychology."
        "Already?!"
        "It's not like I've got all that much else to do. You
do all the cleaning, most of the cooking, take Deif for his
walks. There's nothing left for me to do, except make sure
he eats dinner and has a bath. I talk to him for an hour or
two and study. He just sits there and watches me, till he
gets sleepy. Then I put him to bed and study a bit more. If
I can get my level 3 certificate, I can get into the diploma
courses, and gain the certification I'd need to get into
professional counselling. And you should see some of the
courses they've got on offer."
        Meg almost smiled. Ray had developed quite an interest
in the psychological side of things. She made a mental note
to make a few enquiries about seeing if he could study
Criminal Psychology via correspondence.
        "If you get into a diploma course by the time we ask
for the guardianship to be made permanent it should make it
easy for us."
        "There is again. Us - We."
        "The extension will be under joint names.. Yours and
mine."
        "Can we do that?"
        "It shouldn't be all that difficult. It's no secret
you've been "Co-habiting" with me for the last six months..
They'll come through, see two beds, wonder where the third
one is and never believe we've been sleeping in shifts."
        "So.. .how do we handle that?"
        "Well.. either find a bigger apartment, or.. we go to
bed.. together. Tonight."
        His eyes widened.
        "Any particular reason why *tonight* is the night?"
        "I'm ovulating."
        "I'm sterile."
        "What?!"
        "That's why I've got an *ex-wife*. I couldn't make a
mama outta her."
        "Are you sure the problem was yours and not hers?"
        "I spent 8 bloody months having my sex life ruled by a
thermometer a chart and a beeper.. Before I stomped it to
death when it went off in the middle of a stake out. No
joy."
        "Oh."
        He sipped at his coffee.
        "Does that mean we aren't going to have sex tonight?"
        He spurted coffee everywhere.

                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                        Part Nine
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        Meg sat on the edge of the bed, sighing while Ray lay
sprawled over the bed, an arm over his eyes, red faced. He
couldn't believe it. He'd been occasionally fantasising
about being in bed with Meg for months, and the moment the
fantasy became reality, his body refused to play along. Or
to be precise, one particular part of it.
        "Sorry," Meg said.
        -You're not the one who should be saying it. I'm the
one who disappointed you- Ray thought.
        Then he sat up thinking - But there's more than one way
to skin a cat-
         Meg felt the bed moving and the mattress dip and there
were two hands on her back, running over it and exploring
it.
        {Mhmmm)
        Then the mattress was dipping behind her and those
hands were moving to stroke her arms and she felt his breath
on her neck.
        "I thought you said you weren't in the mood.
        "But you definitely are.. Relax.."
        His hands slipped under her arms, sliding around her
body and started roaming over her waist and then she felt
the warmth of his body at her back. One hand popped a button
or two, and the other slipped under he waist band and she
arched back as they moved in unison, slipping over her
breast and sex.
        {If you stop now, I'll kill you}
        She felt his body at her back, a little shudder racking
it and then his hand was moving over her and his fingers
slipped into her bra to start toying with her nipple, first
stroking then rubbing it between his finger's as he cupped
her breast. She arched her neck and felt and his hot breath
on her throat, . felt him give a shuddering breath as he
discovered how damp her panties were.
        He started to withdraw.
        "No.. don't stop."
        The hand at her groin moved and slipped under her
panties, then he was caressing her and she felt the bed
dipping, then he was sitting directly behind her, his legs
moving around hers wrapping around them, drawing them apart
with gentle insistence and she could feel the definite
evidence of the fact he was starting to grow aroused.         
        He began murmuring in her ear in Italian and drew a
moan from her as his fingers began to gently play with her
sex.
        Then his hands moved and they were sliding over her
body again.
        "I want to feel your body next to mine.. " He murmured
huskily in her ear as his fingers started working on her
buttons. His hands slipped over her body again, a quick dip
to her sex, a caress then his hands were moving back over
her body and he drew away, just long enough to pull her bra
away. She heard him muttering something in Italian under his
breath then they were together again, skin to skin, from the
waist up.
        Her hands went down to raise herself as his hands moved
over her skirt to slip it away then his hands slipped her
panties away.
        She felt him stiffen and groan against her throat as he
saw Fraser in the door way. Not realising what caused it she
started stroking his legs and he let out a deep moan as she
started moving against him.
        -G-d, do I tell her, or do I just.. Finish what I
started, and hope he leaves-
        The way she was moving against him made him forget all
his intentions and his body began moving against hers and
his hands moved over her body turning her head and covering
her mouth with his, kissing her deeply before his hands
slithered down her body then his fingers were moving inside
her making her writhe with pleasure. Her cries of pleasure
were captured and he didn't stop until she climaxed. Only
then did he pull away, drawing back and panting as he moved
back across the bed to kneel at the center of the bed, a
fine sheen of sweat covering his bare chest as it rose and
fell with every panting breath.
        Then she turned to crawl across the bed and reaching
for him.
        "Now I know you're in the mood," she said, the evidence
of the fact blatantly obvious even though he was wearing
those baggy pants.
         He shook his head and waved his hands around. She went
to her knees imitating his position.
        "No?! After that?!"
        He pointed at the door. She looked around and almost
shrieked in shock when she saw Fraser standing in the door
way. She hadn't even noticed the sound of the door opening.
        "I.. . think.. he's.. been there.. quite a while."
        With a hand to her chest, trying to slow the racing of
her heart, she studied Fraser.
        "I think.. . he's interested."
        "You think so.. I know so. He likes both of us
remember.. "
        "Take off your pants."
        He raised a brow.
        "Either he's going to join us, or he's just going to
watch."
        "That is so kinky."
        "Right like what you just did to me *knowing* he was
there wasn't."        
        "Hey, I didn't know.. "
        "Don't give me that.. That's what made you groan like
that and go all stiff."
        "You made me do that."
        "I didn't mean that sort of stiff - which you still
are.. So work out what you're going to do about it. Do we
have a party or a crowd in the bed?"
         Ray beckoned Fraser and slowly Fraser approached. Ray
and Meg crawled over the bed and kneeled on the end holding
out a hand to him, he took both hands and let them draw him
close then working together, they stripped him, slowly and
leisurely, with much kissing and caressing going on as they
did.
        When he was as naked as they, they moved back across
the bed, and shared looks. Meg's hand slithered over Ray's
body and touched him up, his hand slithered over hers.
        As they mutually pleasured each other, Fraser slowly
crawled onto the bed and across it.
        "Oh.. I definitely think.. he wants to join in."
        Two hands were extended and he was drawn in then Ray
was moving away, panting and drenched with sweat, trying to
control the urge to pounce on Meg as he watched her working
over Fraser.
        -God, this is so kinky.. Positively, definitely,
kinky.. I am such a deviant. I'm going to burn in hell for
this.. But ooooh, god he wants me to join them. What do I
do now?-
        The unasked question was answered by Meg and Fraser as
they both reached for him and pulled him back down to the
bed. The pants he still wore were soon fluttering through
the air to hit the floor and then there were four hands and
two mouths moving over him, driving him wild. He was pulled,
and rolled into Meg's embrace and felt Fraser rolling away
as her hand moved down his body to guide him home. He lost
himself, forgetting about Fraser as their bodies moved
together finding each other's rhythm and then Fraser was
back and he arched over Meg crying out as he felt Fraser
returning. Hands and mouths moving over him, legs, sliding
over and around his. Fraser's talented fingers and mouth
working in unison with Meg's.
        "OHMIGOD!" He cried and heard two satisfied little
growls.
        His cries echoed through the room as he was brought to
the most mind blowing orgasm of his life and passed out from
sheer sensory overload.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray stepped out of the shower to be offered a towel by
Meg who looked his dripping body over and smiled at him. The
towel hit the floor and they weren't too far behind.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Fraser sat in his usual chair, before the window, Deif
curled up at his feet sleeping when Ray walked in and set a
hand on his shoulder.
        "Sorry `bout leaving you alone most of the day, Caro, I
hope you're hungry," Ray said as he moved away heading for
the kitchen.
        Fraser climbed out of his chair and followed Ray. Ray's
first stop was the refrigerator, opening it to look inside
and Fraser peered over his shoulder, reached in grabbed and
apple and then walked away. Ray spun and watched him walk
away munching on the apple.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Meg was not having a good day. The replacement deputy
liaison officer was totally incompetent, she was snowed
under with work trying to sort out the trouble she generated
and missed Fraser's efficiency in the role. Then the mail
arrived. She was working her way through it when the phone
rang.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Fraser was sleeping, but Ray was awake when Meg
returned from work, late, he watched her approach with her
briefcase as he worked in the kitchen putting the final
touches to dinner for her. In this case a light salad with a
thick steak. She looked drawn and tired, but perked up a
little at the smell of the steak which was cooking as he
diced and sliced vegetables tossing them into a tossing
bowl.
        "Bad day huh?"
        "Fraser's replacement is totally incompetent. Worse
than Turnbull."        
        "Now that's bad. Maybe I can cheer you up. Fraser did
something spontaneous again today."
        "Oh, what?"
        "Well, first he followed me into the kitchen and got
himself something to eat."
        "An Apple?"
        "Yes, how.. ?"
        "He's been doing that for some time, that's why I
always make sure there's plenty of fresh fruit."
        "Oh, well, he did something else.. He bathed himself
and chose what he was going to wear without any help from
me.. And for a change, he didn't just curl up in his chair
through the day. He watched me studying and showed a
definite interest in what I was doing."
        "That's good isn't it?"
        "Yes. It's a definite sign of improvement. Cross your
fingers. If he continues to show spontaneous signs of
interest in his own well being and self image it'll prove
he's turned the corner and is on the road to recovery."
        Meg set her case on the bench and opened it.
        "It seems we have two things to celebrate."
        "Two things?"
        She pulled out a now familiar envelope and handed it to
him. He snatched it from her hands and ripped it open to
pull out his third certificate and a letter. He let out a
whoop when he read the letter.
        "You got high honours again, didn't you?"
        "Even better, they've sent my records to one of the
universities who have correspondence programs. I've been
accepted into a university run associate diploma course in
Psychology."
        "I've been meaning to talk to you about that."
        "Do you have a problem with it? Or is it because I'm
spending all my money on getting my text books and supplies
and not contributing to the household.. "
        "Nooo. I don't have a problem with it. Since I returned
to work, you've taken over all the household chores too..
And you're a better cook."
        "Why thank-you."
        "And if you give me receipts I'll have your course
related expenses refunded, since it's directly related to
your care of Fraser."
        "So what's the problem?"
        "Well I made a few inquiries on your behalf."
        "What sort of inquiries?"
        "I couldn't help but notice that you've developed a
real interest in psychology, and I made a few enquires and
how to get you nominated for the FBI's profiling courses,
which would help to improve your career prospects. If you
continue your studies and take up criminology courses you
could be eligible. But that's immaterial. I've been looking
into the criminology courses available.. and written to the
relevant people about wether or not you could undertake them
by correspondence. I've explained the situation your in,
sent copies of your certificates and told them you were
studying to qualify to study at the associate diploma
level.. One wrote back.. I spoke to the Dean on the phone
this afternoon."
        "And?"
        "It was a Canadian college."
        "Oh."
        "But they have an excellent course range and a mature
age student scholarship programme, which the Dean thinks
you'd qualify for. If you pass the scholarship exam and
interview you could study criminology, general psychology
and sexual assault counselling there. They're willing to
come to an arrangement so that you can study part time,
doing the bulk of the course by correspondence. You'd have
to attend some classes.. but they have day care, and often
have parents with young children who bring them into
classes. They're a very progressive college. Since Fraser's
quiet and wouldn't cause a disruption, he could accompany
you and sit in or you could put him in day care when you
attend classes."
        "That would mean going to Canada to study."
        "Yes.. But the Canadian college has the most to offer,
taking up the course schedule they have would not only help
you to help Fraser but enhance your future career prospects.
I could get a transfer to a post near the college, the
Inspector there would like to come to the states, we could
swap places, which would give you a chance to take up the
offer.. "
        Ray mulled it over it while he splashed a little of her
favourite salad dressing over the vegetables and popped the
top on the bowl giving it a good shake.
        "I suppose if I agreed to that plan, it would really
help when we say we're a defacto couple.
        She took a deep breath.
        "I made a statutory declaration, declaring you as my
Defacto three days ago."
        "Oh."
        It didn't seem to bother him all that much so she
pulled a sheath of papers from the case and held them up for
him to see.
        "There's a pile of paperwork to deal with as a result.
I have to start working on creating the right paper trail to
confirm my statement, that means, all entitlements that
would go to my partner on my death have to be transferred to
you, I have to revise my will.. I have to show *evidence*
that it's not just a ploy to make it possible to use your
temporary guardianship of Fraser to get a joint order. And
you have to do the same thing too."
        "They worked it out."
        "It's a pity your sterile.. It would have solved
everything if there was positive proof of a sexual
relationship."
        "If they could have heard going on about enhancing my
career prospects they wouldn't suspect you of having
ulterior motives for declaring me your Defacto."
        She smiled wryly.
        "Now all we have to do is convince them it's a real
relationship, that means making sure we manufacture all the
right official evidence."
        Ray served her meal up.
        "We can do that after you've eaten."
        He held out the plate waving it under her nose. She
took the plate and nibbled on a piece of lettuce as she
headed for the table.
        "If you're not careful, Vecchio, I might develop an
ulterior motive for declaring you my defacto that has
nothing to do with Fraser."
        "And I thought it was the way to a *man's* heart."
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg took Fraser to the consulate with her the next day,
where the other staff, baring the new deputy liaison
officer, fussed over him all day. Ray for his part, slept
half the day away before spending the rest of the afternoon
running around taking care of paperwork, getting records
from the hospital and arranging to make a joint application
for Fraser's care.
        He also managed to fit in a visit to his mother to tell
her there was a possibility he might be going to Canada in
the near future. He wasn't surprised at being smothered with
maternal love and affection, or at being loaded down with
more frozen food than he could eat in a month, even with Meg
and Fraser's help.
        He took a trip back to the apartment, to place all the
food in the freezer and found a message from Meg on the
answering service telling him she'd be late again, and to
please come by the embassy ASAP and bring Fraser's
medication. He hit himself in the head for not remembering
to give Meg, Fraser's midday dose of the medication he took
morning, noon and night. He found the pill box and counted
out enough pills to cover the midday and evening dosage and
slipped the box into his pocket.
        Pills taken care of he set one of the preprepared meals
in the sink to thaw and made a quick check of the cupboards,
drew up a list of food to buy and was about to leave when
the phone rang.
        He raced across the apartment to answer it before the
answering machine kicked it, but didn't reach it in time. He
heard Meg's message kick in and snatched up the phone
cutting it off.
        "Meg?"
        "No. Who I am speaking too?" The caller asked.
        "Ray Vecchio, what's it to you?"
        The caller hung up. Ray wondered what it was about
while he switched the machine back on, and stopped worrying
about it when he saw the time. He rushed around, snatching
up the shopping list and keys running out.
        He reached the consulate in a new personal best time
and was ushered into Meg's office where he handed her the
pill box, and she handed him an envelope and gave him a very
thorough kiss right in front of Constable Cooper and the new
deputy liaison officer. They scuttled off, to spread the
news to the rest of the staff no doubt.
        Ray didn't look at the envelope till he returned to the
car and his eyes bugged out when he found that it contained
a cheque for several thousand dollars. He read the note
attached and was amazed to discover he'd spent that much
money on his studies.
        He made a quick trip to the bank to deposit the cheque
and make a large withdrawal, then he was off to do the
shopping, dropping into a computer shop on the way. He
walked out with a brand new laptop with a fax modem a pile
of programs, manuals and a flat bed scanner.
        By the time Meg returned with Fraser he had the laptop
and modem set up, and dinner sitting on the table. After the
meal was demolished, Fraser followed him over to the
computer while Meg took care of the dishes.
        Fraser nudged Ray away from the computer and began
tapping away. Ray let him play with the computer and joined
Meg in the kitchen.
        "A computer?"
        "For my studies. I can do my work on it and reduce the
amount of paper I waste writing up my notes."
        "And the scanner."
        "Well when I told the salesperson what I wanted it for,
he talked me into buying it. He said I could use it like a
photocopier. They had a special deal on, I also got a free
printer, but they were out of stock on those, it'll be
delivered here by courier as soon as they get some new stock
in."
        "Have you decided which course you'll undertake?"
        "It depends on wether or not we can get the care order
extended. If not, then we can't stop them shipping Benni to
a psychiatric hospital, and there's no reason for me to stay
here or continue my studies."
        He didn't see Meg's reaction to that as he turned to
set a plate aside. He didn't want to see her nodding, but
that's not what she was doing.
        -Don't agree with me-
        {Look on the bright side, at least you didn't make an
utter fool of yourself by declaring your undying love or
anything like that.}
        "Of course if the order is extended, then.. I'll
continue my studies. I talked to my mother about it today,
and.. I wrote to that college you told me about, asking them
to slot me in for the scholarship exams."
        "So you're thinking about going to Canada to study?"
        {Say yes, say anything else, and I'll kill you where
you stand.}
        "It would help Benni too, wouldn't it? And you'd be
able to spend a little time with your family. And being back
in Canada might be good for him."
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Over the next week Fraser began to display more and
more spontaneous action, twice joining the Meg and Ray in
the bed they now shared. On the evening of the new week Ray
returned from a shopping trip to replenish their supplies to
find Meg and Fraser both dressed in Dress Red's their hands
behind their backs, just watching him as he carted in the
shopping and packed it away.
        "Planning to take advantage of his state to put him
guard at the door, milady?" he teased.
        He discovered a moment later that what they had behind
their backs was more than hands, they also hand cuffs. He
was marched off to the bed roof the have his wrists cuffed
to the bed posts, where Meg announced he had to be strip
searched for contraband and ordered the constable to proceed
slapping a pair of latex gloves into his hands. Fraser
snapped them on and gave strip search and frisk a whole new
meaning to Ray.
        What followed gave Ray a definite taste for Bondage and
being dominated by certain dragon lady and declaring that he
was most definitely Bi-Sexual making them laugh. Ray tossed
Fraser's medication for the day down the sink and celebrated
his improvement with a glass of champagne and a trip to an
expensive Italian restaurant.
        The trio was enjoying the night out until Ray noticed
someone at a nearby table was paying just a little too much
attention to them for his liking and cut the evening short.
        The next day, he opened the door at a knock to find the
same man at his door with a woman in a business suit
carrying a briefcase. They flashed their I.D and he let them
in to inspect the apartment. They interviewed Fraser, who
had nothing to say. Then they interviewed him. Midway
through it his watch started beeping and he excused himself.
Fraser disappeared into the bathroom and Ray followed him
in. He was praising Fraser when they left the room and moved
to the kitchen where Ray prepared lunch for Fraser while
Fraser sat himself down at the table to wait. Once he had
the simple meal ready he set it before Fraser who started
eating while Ray fetched his pills and a glass of ice water
to wash the medication down with.
        When he returned to the lounge he found one of the
officers writing in a note pad.
        "You have a regular meal schedule?"
        "For Benni, yes, he's got 4 different kinds of
medication he's gotta take, and it really should be taken
with meals and I make sure he gets a meal with all of them."
        "Snacks?"
        "Meg brings fresh fruit home every few days. When he's
hungry in between meals, he knows where the fruit is and
gets himself a piece."
        "I noticed you were praising him when you left the
bathroom."
        "Well, we used to have to do everything for him. But
he's started taking care of himself. I try to make sure he
knows I noticed and praise him whenever he does something
for himself."
        The note taking one's pen flew over the pad.
        They asked a few more questions about Fraser's general
care, inspected the office that had been turned into
Fraser's bedroom. Then while the female half of the team
tried to get Fraser to answer a few questions again, the
male half asked about their relationship. In particular the
sexual side of things, pointing out the fact he was listed
as Fraser's S.O in past medical records.
        "The last thing he needs sex. What he needs is
affection, to be shown he's cared for and cherished."
        "So there is no sexual relationship?"
        "That's right."
        Which in a manner of speaking was true, while Fraser
might join in on the foreplay side of things he didn't get
involved when it came to full on sex.
        "But there is a physical relationship?"
        "Any time he wants a hug or a kiss or to just be held
he knows we're there for him."
        "*We*?"
        "Meg too.. he's crawled into our bed a few times. He
likes to sleep snuggled up between us. The sexual assault
counsellor I consulted said that's a sign that he feels
secure and safe with us."
        "It doesn't affect your relationship with your
Defacto."
        "She feels the same way about Benni that I do."
        The officer asked a few more pointed questions, then
turned the subject to his relationship with Meg.
        "How long have you been a couple?"
        "We've been sharing the same bed for six months, give
or take a week," Ray said, telling the truth, without
mentioning that sharing meant, sleeping in the same bed at
different times for most of that time.
        "So your relationship began after you became Mr
Fraser's carer?"
        "Well... yes and no.. In a manner of speaking it began
while I was in hospital.. I almost died in a car accident
and she became a regular visitor.. And I had definite plans
to explore how far things could go after I got out, then
this happened to Benni, and when Meg made the offer to share
the burden of care with me.. things just... fell into
place."
        "I see and do you have intentions to make the
relationship official?"
        "Funny I thought we'd already done that by statutory
declarations regarding our relationship."
        "I meant, do you have plans to marry?"
        "Not at the moment.. I'm catholic, she's not, we're in
two different police forces. Benni isn't going to be a
zombie forever and when he's better.. I'll be returning to
my precinct.. Though, she's been talking about going to
Canada.. he thinks it would be good for both of us, meaning
Benni and I.. Him because it's his country.. And he'd feel
more comfortable there. Me because there's a college there
where I can continue my studies.."
        "Studies?"
        "In psychology.. I've been studying it by
correspondence, so I can help Benni.. I've already attained
the certification I need to start studying to gain an
associate diploma, and there's this college in Canada that
she sent all my certificates too.. They're trying to get
mature age students, and they can handle Benni tagging along
with me to classes and she can always rearrange her schedule
to take over when I can't."
        The officer asked a few more questions about his plans
for the future, studies and how he fitted them into his
duties as Fraser's primary carer. He didn't give any
indication as to wether or not they were acceptable and
finished the interview off by borrowing the phone to set up
a physical exam for Fraser before departing with his partner
to corner Meg at the consulate.
        She returned home in a state of high anxiety and they
spent the rest of the night worrying about their application
to care for Fraser being turned down all because he chose
the wrong restaurant to celebrate in.
        Meg was so tense she ended up throwing up her
breakfast, and if she could have trusted her deputy, would
have called in sick. Instead she left to go to work, while
Ray spent the morning pouring over computer manuals until he
heard the door open. He looked around to Fraser walking out
with Deif on his heels. Tossing the manual, Ray jumped out
of his chair, racing after Fraser.
        An hour later, Meg looked up from another mound of
paperwork to see a sheepish Ray peering around the door,
announcing he'd left the apartment without his keys. On
impulse Meg collected her keys and decided to take the rest
of the day off, she wasn't getting much in the way of work
done anyway.
        She joined Ray and Fraser, and made Fraser sit in the
back of the car with Deif. After lunch, they took Fraser in
for his exam and relaxed a little when the doctor announced
that he was in fine health.
        They returned to the consulate where Meg picked up a
pile of paperwork to complete at home and her car. They were
startled to find the Mental Health services officer on their
door step when they arrived, and Meg's anxiety levels
peaked. She managed to hide it well as she escorted him
inside, with the men and wolf on their heels. Fraser sat
himself down at the computer while Meg and Ray sat down with
the MHS officer.
        Nothing could wipe the smiles off their faces when they
were informed the MHS had no problems with extending the
order and making it an indefinite one. They considered
Fraser's care to be more than adequate and Ray's efforts to
educate himself to be a better Primary carer and future
plans didn't hurt. Neither did it seem did their unusual
relationship. The only thing that mattered was wether or not
they were giving Fraser the level of care he required and
they were satisfied he was getting a better level of care
under Ray and Meg's supervision than he would in a mental
hospital.
        Fraser's medication went down the sink again as they
celebrated their victory and Meg made two calls, one to the
consulate asking for specific papers to be brought to her
apartment, and one to Canada.
        "Are you sure you want to go to Canada to continue your
studies?" She asked Ray once the paper's were delivered.
        "Yes."
        She presented him with a pile of paper work and a pen.        
        "Then fill in this paperwork. The offer to swap posts
with me is still open."

                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                        Part Ten
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        A week later, Deif went into quarantine and Ray sat in
his car with Fraser watching Meg give the removalists last
minute instructions, and making dire threats about what she
would do to them if anything was damaged. When she finally
the two men in the car they headed for the airport.
        "I've already made arrangements with a relator to begin
looking for a house that will be close to both the college
and my new post. He said there are six properties, that we
can occupy immediately that fit my criteria to look at,
we'll visit them all tomorrow. I'll take pictures and send
them to you via e-mail so you can look the properties over."
        "I trust your judgement."
        "Are you sure you won't come with me?"
        "I'm not going to be seeing my family for a while, Meg,
I think I should spend some time with them before I head to
Canada."
        "Perhaps Fraser should come with me."
        In the end after a discussion that lasted all the way
to the ticket counter, Fraser accompanied Meg on her flight
out and Ray returned home. Half way home, his watch started
beeping at him and he could have kicked himself for not
swapping watches with Meg. His was programmed to do more
than just beep when it was time to give Fraser his
medication. The tiny LCD display also listed what medication
he was supposed to have at those times which is why he'd
brought the high tech digital watch in the first place.
        "Oh, well, she's sure to ring me up when they touch
down to ask me what she should give him tonight."
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Ray settled down on his bed, rubbing his temples, as
his head throbbed with what promised to become a doozy of a
headache. He was rolling over and opening the bedside drawer
to search for the pack of headache pills he kept there when
he heard Frannie shriek "Raaaay! Phone!"
        With a little groan he bolted up and raced out of the
room. He wondered who the hell was calling and glanced at
his watch before he raced down the stairs. By his estimates
Meg and Fraser should have set down in Canada by now, it was
most likely Meg ringing to tell him they'd arrived. He made
a mental note to discuss Fraser's medication and grabbed the
phone from Frannie as he came to a skidding stop by the
phone.
        "It's Fraser," Francesca informed him.
        "What?! Benni?? Is that you? Say something."
        "Meg."
        "What about her? Did something happen to her?"
        =Of course something happened, it's the first time he's
spoken in God knows how long. God, don't let her..=
        "Meg fainted."
        "What? Where?"
        "Airport."
        "Which one?"
        "Don't know.. They took her away."
        "Rrright.. O.K Benni, listen very closely, I want you
to think about this. Did you get on the plane?"
        "Yes."
        "O.K.. Did Meg get on the plane?"
        Fraser had to think about that.
        "Yes.. but they took her away.."
        "She fainted on the plane?"
        "Yes."
        "Before or after it took off."
        "Before."
        "And they took her off the plane?"
        "Yes."
        "Great.. Look around and try to describe exactly where
you are for me, can you do that for me, Benni?"

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray's intention to spend time with his family went
right out the window. He managed to get Fraser to get an
airport official to come to the phone, and arranged to have
someone watch him. Then he tried to find out what happened
to Meg. He didn't get very far. He ended up throwing his
bags back into the car, and drove to the airport, with
Frannie. He collected his bags, opened his mouth and almost
warned her not to wreck his precious car, then the voice in
his head that he called the headshrinker piped up. Instead
of telling her to be careful, he told her to take care, that
he'd ring when he touched down, and raced off.
        He made it to the ticket counter in time to get a
ticket for a flight he just had time to check his bags in
for. He was settled back in his seat after the plane took
off and tried to ignore the tension headache that had taken
hold and made his head pound. Then he felt the seat move as
someone sat in the empty seat beside him. A little voice in
his head made note of the fact the seat hadn't been occupied
when the plane took off.
        He ignored it until a hand settled down on his thigh.
His eyes flew open and he looked around to be confronted
with the pale face of Meg.
        "Meg!"
        She put a finger to her lips and hushed him. He
remembered where he was and adjusted his voice accordingly.
        "What happened? I heard you fainted and when I tried to
find out what happened after that.."
        "They took me to the airport infirmary, I ate
something, and they let me go."
        "You fainted because you skipped breakfast?"
        "I think I caught some kind of bug, I've been feeling
off colour for the last week.. Or maybe it was just the
stress."
        "Tell me about it. I've got headache that just won't
quit."
        "Did you take something for it?"
        "I was about to when the phone rang and I was too busy
trying to work out how to find you and take care of Benni."
        She opened her mouth to inquire about him, but he beat
her to it, covering her hand with one of his own.
        "He's being looked after. He went on to Canada without
you. He's the one who called to tell me what happened."
        She looked at him in surprise.
        "Not that he was very.. helpful. I've had far more
erudite conversations with toddlers."
        "But he talked.. he hasn't done that since.."
        "I know.. I couldn't believe it when Frannie told me he
was on the phone. He is definitely turning the corner. The
next thing you know we're going to be wishing he'd shut up."
        Meg smiled.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        It took near on an hour and a half to sort things out
at the other end of the airport, finding Fraser, collecting
their luggage took up most of it. Fraser wasn't where he was
supposed to be, the official who'd been keeping an eye on
him having been called away to tend to some task. They
eventually found him at a newsstand sitting in a chair
obviously taken from the back of the stand, reading, and on
the counter beside him sat a pile of magazines.
        Fraser's face lit up when he saw Ray and Meg
approaching them. They discovered the magazines on the
counter had been chosen by Fraser. And Ray went through
Fraser's bundle while Meg paid for them. The budding shrink
in Ray found Fraser's choice of magazines interesting. They
covered a whole range of topics, from women's glossies,
decorating, cooking, pet care, two local magazines, three
true life crime & mystery pulp magazines, a science fiction
magazine, a renovators magazine, a bridal magazine and a
literary magazine.
        "Would you like a bag for those?" The stall worker
asked.
        Ray slid them into the bag the woman held open for him,
thanked her, kindly, saw Fraser give a faint smile and the
woman fluttered her lashes and gave Fraser a big smile.
        "Any time."
        Ray rolled his eyes and took Fraser's hand, leading him
away with a loud, "Come along, Amante," for her benefit.
When Meg caught up with them and wound her arm around his
other arm, she was chuckling.
        "So what did I just end up paying almost 50 dollar's
for?"
        "A very interesting range of magazines."
        Fraser freed his hand and took the bag to rifle through
it and pulled out the home decorators magazine to show it to
Meg.
        Meg took it and while they waited at the luggage
carousel she went through it. Fraser took to standing at her
shoulder and pointed to items that he found of interest. She
chuckled when he tapped the magazine emphatically when she
reached the SOHO feature and pointed at Ray.
        "Birthday soon," he said in a low voice.
        She gave him a dazzling smile and marked the page,
tucking it under her arm as Ray approached with three cases.
        "See something you like?" Ray asked.
        "In a magazine like this, there's always something to
like, the question is wether or not you can *afford* to buy
what you like in it."
        She slipped the magazine into Fraser's bag and went to
examine the luggage for her own and Fraser's. Ray found a
trolley and loaded his bags on it, before rejoining Fraser.
When he did, Fraser held out a magazine, folded open to an
article. Ray took it and looked it over, then smiled. It was
one of the true life crime stories, involving a police
detective using psychological profiling to catch a wanted
man of murderous inclinations.
        "So you understand why I came here with Meg?"
        Fraser's mouth opened, but he seemed to have trouble
expressing his thoughts, instead he tapped the magazine.
        "Learn to be like him."
        "Maybe."
        "No."
        "No?"
        Fraser had trouble finding the words to express him
self and it showed. Ray stroked his arm.
        "It's o.k, Benni."
        "No.. It's not."
        "Relax, it's not the end of the world. You made us
happy just by starting to talk again."
        "Hard..words..express.. can't think straight."
        A beeping alarm went off and Ray slid back his sleeve
to look at his watch to see it was time for Fraser's
medication. He looked up to see Meg approaching with a
baggage handler pushing a trolley loaded down with luggage.
When they arrived he pounced on a bag and pulled out the
toiletries kit that held Fraser's medication.
        "We have to find somewhere to get a meal, it's time for
his medication."
        "Can't we just call room service and get a meal sent up
for him to take his pills with when we get to the hotel?"
        Ray studied her face, which if anything had only grown
more pale and drawn despite her pleasure at the positive
proof of Fraser's progress, then nodded. It wouldn't hurt to
put things off a little longer.
        A little longer turned out to be over an hour and a
half as they went looking for a cab during the shift change
over. By the time they got to the hotel and settled the
matter of a change in suites, everyone but Fraser was
grumpy. And it seemed as time went by Fraser grew more
animated as they got grumpier.
        They finally got their accommodations settled and Ray
asked if they could arrange for a doctor to pay a 'house
call' and after the duty manager promised to arrange it, Ray
sent Fraser up to the suite with Meg, while he made all the
arrangements for dinner.
        With the arrangements settled, Ray joined the duo in
the suite and found Fraser on the couch, reading a magazine,
and heard the shower. Leaving Fraser to his reading, Ray
joined Meg in the shower, more out of a desire to make sure
she didn't faint in the shower than anything else. He sent
her to bed wrapped in one of the hotel's fluffy towelling
robes, and then went in search of their bags, to find the
one holding Fraser's medication. He measured out a dose to
take into account the fact he'd missed medication earlier
and popped the pills into their cup before he checked the
bar refrigerator. The was the usual array of miniature
booze, cans of soft drink, snacks and two bottles of bottled
water. He pulled one out and found a glass and set it on the
table with Fraser's pills.
        He left Fraser reading his magazine, and returned to
the suite's main room to sit on the bed with Meg. They
talked about the improvement Fraser was showing until Fraser
poked his head around the door and told them there was
someone at the door. Ray went to answer the door and found
the Doctor and room service on the door step. He directed
the Doctor to Meg's room, and took the tray from the porter.
        Once he had Fraser seated at the dining table with his
meal, he returned to the bedroom. Fraser looked at his pills
then ignored them to begin demolishing his meal. By the time
Ray returned, Fraser had not only demolished his own meal
but made inroads on Ray's.
        "Who's hungry tonight."
        Fraser looked up a little guilty and stopped eating to
push the plate toward Ray. Ray pushed it back and noticed
that Fraser hadn't taken his medication.
        "Take your pills, Benni, and if you're still hungry
after you polish off my dinner then I'll order something for
desert when I ask them to send me up something else."
        Fraser looked at the pills again and then pushed them
away.
        "Pills are bad."
        Ray pushed them back.
        "The doctor prescribed them, if you don't keep taking
them they'll take guardianship away from us and put you in a
psychiatric hospital. You don't want to go to a nut house
again do you."
        A vague memory stirred, of being in a straight jacket
in a padded cell with Ray at his side struggling to get out
of the straight jacket he was in, and Fraser reluctantly
swallowed the pills.
        "Good," Ray said with a little nod.
        He watched Fraser start eating again and hunted up the
room service menu.
        "O.K we've got a few deserts on offer here.. Do you
want me to read out the list or should I just pick something
out for you?"
        Fraser just looked at him.
        "Alrighty, I'll just pick something out.."
        He left Fraser to his meal while he called room service
and ordered another meal and something simple for desert,
something he wouldn't mind eating if Fraser's appetite
vanished before it arrived. With that done he returned to
the dining table to watch Fraser eat and the budding
headshrinker in him started prodding Fraser, asking
questions designed to judge his state of mind. Fraser
expressed concern for Meg's health, and Ray assured him it
was nothing serious. Probably just stress.
        "I know how she feels.. I've got a killer headache."
        "Perhaps you should take something for it."
        "I will.. Later.. The doctor'll probably prescribe
something and I'll have to go and find a pharmacy to pick it
up, and I'll get something for my head ache while I'm there.
Now enough about me, how about you. How do you feel?"
        "Better."
        "As opposed to what?"
        "Before."
        "Before.. we got here, before you got on the plane,
before what?"
        That question was a little too difficult for the
befuddled man to comprehend.
        "I see.. hmm.. Do you understand what's going on? By
that I mean, why you're with us."
        Fraser thought about that and nodded slowly.
        "I've been sick... You and Meg have been taking care of
me," Fraser said, his speech becoming a little slurred.
        "Yes, that's right.. So you do understand what's going
on. That's good.. We had to convince the Mental Health
Department that we could take good care of you to be able to
keep looking after you. They wanted to put you into a mental
hospital and lock you up.. We had to convince them you were
better off in our care than you would be in a place like
that."
        "Is that why we came here? I thought.."
        Ray smiled reaching out to pat his hand.
        "It's O.K, we convinced them to let us keep you with
us. We didn't sneak away to keep you out of that place.
Though trust me, if they'd tried to take you away, I would
have done it. I knew you were getting better, locking you up
at that stage could have ruined all our good work."
        "I'm getting better?" Fraser asked.
        "Yes you are.."
        Something nagged at Fraser, but it was getting harder
to think straight and grasp the thought let along express
it. With some hard thought on the matter it came to him.
        "Is Meg pregnant?" Fraser blurted before the thought
could slip away on him again.
        Ray stared at him, then gave a sad smile and shook his
head.
        "No.. I think it's just all the stress catching up with
her. What she really needs is a break, but she's not going
to get one.. But now you're getting better, half the
pressure will be off."
        Fraser thought about it, with a confused little frown.
        "Are you sure she's not pregnant?"
        "Yes. Very."
        "Are you absolutely positive?"
        "*Yes*."
        He watched Fraser look toward the bedroom where Meg and
the Doctor were, concern etched on his features. He was
ready to stress the point further when Fraser looked his way
again, his mouth opening then the thought slipped away and
Fraser slowly closed his mouth with a confused look.
        Ray was about to continuing prodding Fraser when there
was a knock on the door and he left Fraser in his state of
confusion to answer it. The knocker turned out to have been
sent up with his meal and Ray collected it and as he walked
back to the table uncovering his meal and inhaled the
wonderful scent he mused that Fraser eating the first thing
he'd ordered wasn't so bad, this meal smelled even better.
        When he returned to the dinning Area he found Fraser
had left the table to stand before the window looking out at
the view of the city at night. With a rumble Ray's stomach
reminded him he hadn't eaten all day and he sat and managed
to get half the meal down before the door to Meg's room
opened and the doctor stepped out, closing the door quietly
behind him.
        Ray looked up and then pushed his plate aside standing
to join the doctor.        
        "How is she?"
        "Are you Raymond?"
        Ray nodded.
        "She's fine, it's nothing that a little rest won't
cure," the doctor said pulling out a prescription pad and
tearing off the top sheet.
        "These will help with the nausea, make sure she takes
them at least 20 minutes before meals."
        Ray took the proffered prescription and tucked it away
in his pocket before escorting the doctor to the door and
pulling out his wallet.
        "I don't have any Canadian yet, we only just touched
down.. Can I pay with American?"        
        The Doctor quoted a fee and Ray paid it without
argument and sent him on his way. His meal remained
forgotten as he hurried back to the dining/lounge area and
tugged Fraser away from the window. He wasted no time
getting Fraser bathed and tucked into bed then he peeked in
on Meg to find her sleeping peacefully in the big bed that
occupied the main bedroom of the suite.
        A trip to lobby, a question and a taxi ride to an all
night pharmacy later, Ray returned to throw out the remains
of his dinner, put the desert into the refrigerator, and
downed two aspirins before he checked in on Fraser and Meg
again. Meg was still sleeping, though she'd flipped over and
was now hugging a pillow to death. Fraser had gone to sleep
and Ray smiled to himself when he saw that for the first
time in a long time, Fraser was sleeping in a bed alone
without curling up into a tight little ball. In fact he and
Meg had something in common, they were both hugging pillows
as they slept.
        Slipping into the master bedroom, Ray filched two of
the pillows and found spare blankets hidden in the wardrobe
that he carried out to the lounge. He tested the lounge
chair and found it held a fold out bed. In no time at all he
had the bed out and made and crawled under the blankets
ready to try and get some sleep himself.
        He tossed and turned restlessly for an hour before he
crawled out of the bed and crept through the suite into the
kitchenette to down two more aspirin. When he returned to
the lounge/bed he found that someone had crept out and
slipped under the blankets. it was hard to tell who, all he
could see over the top of the blankets were a few dark
curls, and both Fraser and Meg had dark hair.
        With a little shrug he climbed back into the bed to
settle down and a few moments later discovered the other
occupant of the bed was Fraser when the half doped Canadian
snuggled down at his side and murmured slurred endearment's
that made him chuckle softly as he started drifting off to
sleep.
        When he awoke Ray discovered there was more than one
Canadian sharing his bed, Meg had crawled in at some point
in the night and he was being cuddled on both side's by two
apparently very content Canadians if the little smiles on
their faces were anything to go by.
        "How anyone can smile after a night on this torture
rack is beyond me.." Ray grumbled as he tried to wiggle out
of the Mountie sandwich he was caught in.
        His efforts to slip away woke both Fraser and Meg. Meg
was the first and he noticed it.
        "How are you felling?" He asked solicitously.
        "Much better," she said as she let her hand wander over
his body.
        "And you?"
        Her hand wandered lower and another hand started
wandering over his back and he felt Fraser's breath on his
neck before his lips touched it.
        "Am I the only one in this suite who isn't feeling
frisky right now?" He asked.
        "You still have your headache?"
        "No.. After a night on this, that ache migrated to my
spine. And as much as I enjoy being a part of a Mountie
Sandwich.."
        His half heart protestations trailed off as Fraser's
hands moved over his back and neck, finding the tension
there before he started an expert massage. Ray almost purred
as Fraser's nimble fingers moved over his spine taking away
the aches and pains. But Fraser's hands weren't the only
busy ones. Meg's got busy too.
        Meg stopped and sat up to look at Ray when he suddenly
froze his eyes widening.
        "What is it? What's wrong?"
        Ray looked over his shoulder at Fraser who was close as
he could get. Then the Italio-American rolled and raised the
blankets to peek under them.
        "Ohmigod."
        "What is it?"
        Ray laughed.
        "Raymond Vecchio if you don't tell me what's going
on.."
        Ray looked at her.
        "Its Benni."
        Meg looked at Fraser who looked quite content to
continue stroking and kissing Ray all day.
        "What about him?"
        "How should I put this.. He's *very* interested in this
mountie sandwich idea."
        Meg frowned, then looked under the blankets and her
eyes widened.
        "Now might be a good time to get out of bed and let me
take care of him."
        Ray considered that, then nodded before he shifted
around to give Fraser a quick kiss.
        "Good morning to you too," he said, then switched
places with Meg before sliding out of the bed to head for
the shower leaving the Inspector to deal with Fraser.
        Fraser looked around, following Ray's movements with a
faint look of disappointment that Meg wiped off his face
while Ray took a cold shower.
        Meg jumped into the shower while he was in the bedroom
changing, and Ray was getting Fraser's medication and
breakfast sorted out while she changed. Meg slipped out of
the suite while he was occupied and it wasn't till late in
the day that she returned, while Fraser was taking a nap.        
        "Well, I hope your day was more productive than mine,"
Ray said as he wandered into the kitchenette to make coffee.
        "Nothing happened?"
        "Not a thing. He didn't even talk to me, or show any
interest in his magazines either. All though he did pay
attention when I read an article or two from them to him."
        "He didn't try to get affectionate with you did he?"
        "Apart from this morning, no."
        "Good."
        "Maybe."
        "It won't be a problem after tonight."
        "Oh, why?"
        "The house has locks on every bedroom door, you can
look yours to keep him out while you sleep."
        "I can't lock the door, he might want to crawl into my
bed and snuggle up next to me."
        "That's exactly why you should lock your door from now
on. Today is *not* the first time he's shown a definite
interest in sex."
        "Are you talking about beyond.. foreplay here?"
        She nodded.
        "Why didn't you mention it?"
        "It never went anywhere."
        "Why not?"
        "Because he looses interest pretty fast, there are so
many ways to turn him off in an instant."
        Ray handed her a cup of coffee and hurried off to find
a note pad and pen before collecting his own coffee.
        "Do me a favour, think hard about it, and write down a
complete list of all the things you've noticed that turn him
off in an instant," Ray said handing her the pad.
        She nodded heading for the dining/lounge area with Ray
on her tail.
        "If you won't lock your door. Memorise this list,
knowing how to turn him off in a hurry might help you avoid
a situation you don't want to get into."
        "Meaning Fraser deciding he wants to have sex with me."
        "He decided that this morning. The question now is not
wether or not he's ready to go that far, but wether or not
you're ready to cross that line with him."

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                                        Part Eleven
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                                        Part Eleven
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        They say the only thing that causes as much stress as
the death of a family member or loved one is moving house.
Which explained why Meg was grumpy as hell and his head ache
only went away when he downed at least four aspirin to hold
it at bay.
        On the other hand there were moments in time, small
moments at that, which put a smile on Ray's face. Like the
day he'd taken Fraser for a walk. Fraser had plucked a
flower from somewhere and watched him, walking along,
plucking the flower, muttering he loves me he loves me not
until there were no more petals left. The last petal had
been a "He love's me" one, and Fraser had spontaneously
grabbed and kissed him till he thought he'd pass out from
lack of air.
        And then there were times Ray just wanted to bang his
head against a brick wall. Fraser's improvement was on one
hand worth celebrating, and on the other, a little
frightening. He was childlike, except for one area, sex.
Since the move Fraser had grown more and more interested in
displays of physical affection. And on more than one
occasion responding to his need for it had lead to things
reaching the point where he had to choose wether to cross
the line or not.
        His decision was always the same, he wasn't ready to
cross that line, even if Fraser was. The funny thing was,
the more he rejected crossing that line with Fraser, the
more interested Fraser became in crossing it. In the end Ray
took up Meg's suggestion and started locking his bedroom
door when he went to bed.
        Of course Fraser got grumpy about it. Like a child
deprived of it's favourite toy. And it was at those times
Ray wondered if that was how things were going to be, if
Fraser was going to remain childlike for life, and felt like
bashing his head against a brick wall.
        He couldn't complain though. His studies were going
exceptionally well. He'd made friends with a number of
students who were studying the same courses, mostly younger
people who had found the fact he was a cop, and a detective
at that, to be awe inspiring. They were always asking him
about cases he'd worked on. He was keeping up with his class
mates in the psych and S.A.C classes, even though he did the
bulk of the course load at home. But when it came to the
criminology classes he was king of the hill, top of the
heap, or had been till he and the course instructor had a
very big disagreement in front of the entire class.
        He just couldn't back down, and neither would the
teacher, and it had been a rather ugly disagreement. Ending
with Ray telling the teacher to get out of his Ivory tower
and visit the real world sometime and walking out. He'd
apologised later to the frosty teacher but ever since that
day, no matter how hard he tried, how hard he worked, his
grades for the criminology class spiralled downward. Then it
came to the crunch, he had to do better than a pass mark, to
remain in the class, he had to get through the criminology
classes to make it into the profiling programme. If he
failed, he was not only blowing his chances to get into
profiling, but letting down Meg, and even Fraser.
        The scholarship, gaining his psychology diploma,
becoming a certified physiologist, it all hinged on his
being able to do well in his chosen classes, *all* three of
them. If he failed in one class, he'd loose the scholarship.
Without the scholarship he couldn't afford to remain and he
certainly couldn't ask Meg to cover his course fees.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg found Ray slumped on the love seat that was the
main feature of the large verandah that faced a view to die
for. She'd chosen the house for that view and the 5 rooms it
had. Now they all had separate bedrooms, and had converted
another into a study, the other into a library to hold Ray's
ever expanding collection of text books.
        She watched Ray and heaved a mental sigh. The move to
Canada was supposed to have improved their situation. She'd
thought it could only help - both Fraser and Ray. Instead,
while Fraser had improved, he'd also become definitely
grumpy. As for Ray he never joined her in bed any more. More
often than not she found him slumped at his desk, dead to
the world, with either a text book at his feet having fallen
from his hands, or the computer glowing away displaying some
text or another.
        When he wasn't studying, he was clucking over Fraser,
or had his nose buried in a recipe book. He'd started
preparing more and more extravagant meals and kept the house
so clean even a white glove inspection couldn't find a speck
of dust.
        The slim Italian grew slimmer with every day, he picked
at his meals, when he ate, he seemed to exist on coffee and
lots of it and had picked up the foul habit of smoking -
most likely at the college. She remembered the first time
she'd seen him smoking, it was outside the college, where he
and Fraser had been standing with a group of students,
mostly younger men and women. Ray had put a bit of distance
between himself and Fraser and had been puffing away with
the smoking half of the group. When she took him to task for
it, he'd snapped "you'd prefer I took up drinking instead?"
She hadn't said a word about his new habit since, other than
to ask him to refrain from smoking around her and Fraser.
        She wondered how everything had gone so wrong and
heaved another sigh. Ray looked at her, then his eyes
started roaming over her in a clinical fashion.
        "Fraser was right."
        "About what?"
        "You're pregnant."
        She flushed faintly. She still had her figure but she'd
already gone up two bra sizes and it showed.
        "Did you sleep with Fraser sometime I don't know
about?"
        "No. It's yours."
        "That's impossible."
        "When did you decide to start a family? Did you even
want to try at that stage, or did you start trying because
you thought it might save your marriage?"
        Ray looked away.        
        "It's a statistical fact that a great many couples who
try to have children when they're under stress fail - until
the stress is removed and they relax. But then again, most
couples in that situation break up."
        "I'm surprised you decided to go through with it."
        "Why?"
        "You don't need to do it any more. They gave us an
indefinite care order. You could have terminated when you
found out and I'd have been none the wiser."
        "Termination never even crossed my mind."
        "When did you intend to tell me?"
        "I've been trying to work out how, considering that I
knew what you'd say when I told you. Besides which the
Doctor says that unless I reduce the level of stress I'm
under I'll miscarry."
        Ray rose to his feet and Meg found herself being made
to sit down on the love seat.
        "You should apply for maternity leave."        
        "It's too soon for that and my work load is half what
it was in Chicago, the staff under me are extremely
efficient. I don't spend half my day's averting disasters,
most of the stress is a result of worrying about Fraser and
you."
        "Me???"
        "You're the shrink in training, psychoanalyse yourself.
I can't remember the last time I saw you eat a decent meal.
You seem to exist on coffee and cigarettes. Which by the way
is bad for the baby, second hand smoke can affect a child in
the womb."
        Ray pulled the packet of cigarettes he had out of his
pocket and crushed them.
        "That's a start. But unless you start taking better
care of yourself even if I can take this to term, you won't
be around to see your child born."
        Ray looked away.
        =As if you'll want me around when you find out I lost
my scholarship and had to drop out.=
        "I don't understand you at all. Fraser is getting
better, and you're acting like the end of the world is
nigh."
        "He's not getting better."
        "How can you say that? He's improved drastically over
the way he used to be. He talks now."
        "The average toddler could hold a more intelligent
conversation than he can."
        "It's a start.. He's also more active.. And I think
he's grumpy because he's frustrated."
        =It's called sexual frustration=
        "He tries so hard to find the words to express himself
but he can't seem to do it, and he gets frustrated when that
happens and he can't express what he wants to, and that
makes him grumpy."
        Ray jumped up moving away, then spun to face her.
        "Do you think I haven't tried to help him break the
communication barrier, do you think I haven't tried re-
education, teaching him how to express himself. Face up to
it, Dante didn't just mess up his mind, he left Benni Brain
Damaged. He's never going to get better, what you see is
what you get. And all the wishes and hopes in the world
aren't going to change that," Ray snapped before he stomped
off.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Meg despaired of Ray changing his ways when she found
him slumped asleep in the chair of his office. The soft glow
of the computer screen attracted her attention. She saved
the file he was working on without looking at it and
switched the machine off. Then her foot kicked something.
She went down on her hands and knees to pull a stenographers
note pad out from under the desk. Half its pages were
covered with notes.
        She was about to flip it closed when she realised all
those notes were related to Fraser. She went through it
seeing that he was keeping very clear and concise notes,
sequentially dated, about Fraser's condition, what he ate,
drank, what pills he took, what he did or didn't do. What
he, Ray, had done for him during the course of the day, What
she, Meg had done for him. At the bottom of each page was a
0 to 10 scale each scale was marked with a red circle around
the zero.
        In curiosity she flipped through to the last page, then
flipped back two to find the day's date. The first page was
filled with his notes on Fraser's state, the next two were
covered with notes of a different kind. He'd turned Fraser
into a patient, the notes were his analysis of Fraser's
state and what needed to be done to improve it. There was a
list at the bottom of the last page.
        Take Fraser to Doctor for physical
        Put Fraser on diet
        Design exercise regime
        Find Magazines and spend an hour reading to Fraser,
morning and afternoon.
        Involve Fraser in activities that involve Deif, walks,
brushing down, bathing and feeding.
        She flipped to the last page and found Ray's plan
involved trialing a plan to break Fraser of his dependence
on himself and her. She tore a page out and made a few notes
for herself and tucked it away in her pocket before she set
the note pad aside and got the sleepy Italian up to his
feet. Half leading, half dragging him through the house, she
got him into the bedroom and tucked him into bed before she
returned to the office to start going through the drawers.
There she found what she was looking for.
        Turning his computer on, she opened the account keeping
programme and then began sorting through the collection of
receipts and notes Ray had made keeping track of all the
things he'd brought for Fraser.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray sat Fraser down on a chair in the kitchen where he
made a big deal of ripping up every recipe he'd collected
for meals he thought Fraser would like.
        "That's the last time I cook any of that."
        Then he went through the cupboards and refrigerator
throwing out all the ingredients for those meals which he
couldn't use in other recipes. Then he pulled one of
Fraser's women's magazine from under his coat and waved it
before his face.
        "You see this. You chose this. I don't know what it was
that interested you about it. But there is something that
interests me in it," Ray said, then poked Fraser in the
belly.
        "Recipes for Lo-fat meals. Which is all you're going to
get from now on. You're getting pudgy because you don't get
enough exercise."
        The Ray whirled and using the magazine as a guide,
collected all the ingredients he needed to start a meal.
        "The Doctor says you need a lo-fat diet and more
exercise so that's what you're going to get. Tomorrow you're
going to meet your new carer, she's going to look after you
during the day. I've got to do a lot of shopping. I'd take
you with me, only it's too embarrassing to take you out into
the real world."
        Following the instructions he got the meal started,
then marked the page before he fetched another chair and sat
opposite Fraser and flipped to the first article in the
magazine and started reading it aloud for Fraser.
        He marked the page he was on when the timer went off
and served up the meal taking Fraser through to the eating
nook and left him there while he collected a glass of water
and Fraser's pills.
        He sat beside Fraser and counted out pills.
        "The doctor told me to toss most of your pills. He said
they were what left you feeling confused and gave you
trouble trying to think straight. That was the sort of
medication they use in psychiatric hospitals to turn
patients into good little zombies. Your system got used to
them, and they started loosing their effectiveness, that's
why you started to get your wits back. These pills are
different, well most of them are.. Now we've got vitamins,
mostly, two different kinds of anti-depressants and a
sedative, and you only get the sedative if you can't sleep
or have one of your fits."
        He got Fraser to take his pills then fed him and took
him through to the bathroom to clean him up and started his
toilet retraining.
        When Meg returned she found them in the lounge, with
Fraser dressed in baggy sweats while Ray directed him
through some easy exercises. She left him to it and checked
the refrigerator and instead of finding a meal prepared for
her just waiting to be eaten, or popped into the microwave,
she found the refrigerator was mostly empty. All that was
left was a few vegetables, a piece of fruit, milk, juice and
bottled water.
        She went through the cupboards and found they'd been
half emptied too. After exploring what was available, she
collected her keys and went back out to drive away.
        Ray finished with Fraser's exercise then called Deif
and fetched his brush, making Fraser help him brush the
beast down.
        When Meg returned an hour and a half later, Fraser was
tucked into bed, and Ray was seated beside it reading from a
magazine.
        He joined her in the kitchen half an hour later, to be
presented with a plate of steaming Pasta and a glass of
juice. She watched him wolf the meal down and go hunting for
more.
        "That's it."
        "You didn't make any more?"
        "I hunted down an Italian restaurant and got your
favourite meal as take away. If you want more you'll have to
make it yourself."
        He wandered away, and she started doing the dishes. He
returned with a note pad, a pile of magazines and book.
While she cleaned up in the kitchen he sat in the nook,
going through them making notes. When she was finished in
the kitchen she made coffee for two and joined him in the
nook.
        "So how was your day?"
        "Busy. I took Fraser to the doctor, he's going on a
diet and exercise plan"
        He showed her the book.
        "He loaned me this book."
        She took it and flipped through it, finding it full of
recipes for healthy meals, directions on how to care for a
brain damaged patient, and exercises for passive patients.
        "I'm going to be pretty busy tomorrow, I've got to go
shopping tomorrow and get some exercise equipment, and stock
up on the right foods. Try to find a copy of that for
myself, since he wants it back... Then I'll probably spend
the afternoon in the kitchen cooking till I've stocked the
freezer with enough food to keep him going for a month."
        "What about your classes?"
        Ray looked into his coffee cup.
        "I quit."
        "What?!"
        "I don't see the point in continuing."
        "No point!"
        "What's done is done."
        "I don't believe this, I came here to make it easy for
you to carry out your studies without interfering with your
care giving duties."
        "You were the one who reamed me out for not taking
better care of my self. Well I re-evaluated things, like
what's important. And what's important here, is Fraser, and
making sure you have no reason to get stressed out and lose
Fraser's kid."
        She wanted to deck him, her fingers curled up and it
took a conscious command to her hand to make it relax.
        "By the way.. I was wrong, about Benni.. He's not brain
damaged. The doctor I took him too ran all sorts of tests.
He said it was the medication he was on and that the reason
Fraser started to improve was that he'd grown used to the
medication and his body needed more to keep him zombiefied
the way he was."
        "No more medication?"        
        "Oh, no.. He's still gotta lot of pills to take.. But
these ones are different. they're not supposed to make him
docile and passive, and they'll help him through the
withdrawal period without going nuts on us. I also spoke to
the doctor about getting someone else in to look after
Fraser during the day. He's got into a routine, we have to
break it and provide the right sort of stimulus to bring
back the man he used to be."
        "You're going to need money to cover all this."
        "Yeah."
        She handed him a bank cheque for a thousand dollars.
        "I opened up an account at that bank, it's near the
college. They should have a cheque book and a key card for
you by the end of the week. In the mean time that should
cover things. If you need more just let me know."
        Then she handed him another cheque.
        "What's this for?"
        "I went through your desk last night. You should keep
better track of what you spend directly related to Fraser's
care and your studies - since that is directly related to
Fraser's care too. You've got an account keeping programme
on your computer. I was up half the night getting all those

receipts in order and calculating what you've spent.. From
now on you give me the receipts and I'll keep track of your
expenses."
        "Oh.. Thank-you.. I keep meaning to do it myself, but
there's just so much work to do that I never got around to
it. I did try to keep track of everything."
        "You did a reasonable job of it."
        "I did a lousy job."
        She reached out taking his hand.
        "I want you to rethink your decision to quit your
studies, Raymond. Especially in light of the fact you've
arranged for a part time carer. We can schedule things so
that he or she or I can care for Benton when you have to
attend classes or need to devote more time to studying."
         He shook his head.
        "It's not that.. Like you said. I gotta start taking
better care of my self, and something had to give. I chose
to give up the thing that was causing me the most stress.
Those correspondence courses were easy compared to what I've
been studying here."
        "I never figured you for a quitter."
        His eyes flashed.
        "I am not a quitter."
        "No.. It sounds as if that's what you're becoming. You
were ready to give up on Fraser. You quit your studies
because they're harder than you thought they'd be."
        He yanked his hand away, or tried to. She wouldn't let
him do it, wrapping her other hand around his.
        "Something has been eating away at you for weeks now.
And don't tell me it's just the sheer hard work. You
wouldn't turn down my offer to look after Fraser to give you
more time to study if it was."
        He sighed, looking away.
        "Tell me what it is.. Maybe I can help."
        "You can't help."
        "You never know.. Perhaps.."
        "I lost the damned scholarship."
        She sat right back, that being the last thing she
expected.
        "What?! But you were doing so well."
        "Yeah right.. I'm not cut out to be a student.. I could
hold my own in the psych and SAC courses, but I was never
considered anything but an average student in those
classes."
        "But you told me your mid term exams results put you in
the top five student category."
        "And I studied like crazy to get those results, but it
just came easy to the others.. Hell I remember one of the
guys going on about how all he does at night is play music
with his band or party all night.. And he got the top
marks.. Me, I had to knock myself out to get the marks I
got."
        "You didn't have to knock yourself out in the
criminology classes.. that should have come easy.."
        He gave a very deep sigh.
        "Don't tell me you had trouble in that class I won't
believe it."
        "I failed the exams.. I had the lowest grades in the
whole class.. And I lost my place.. When I lost that, I lost
the scholarship."
        "I don't believe it.. How could you fail in
*Criminology* of all things. You must know most of the
subject material back to front."
        "I do.. That's why I failed.. I had it out with the
teacher in front of the whole class because what he was
teaching them was dead wrong.. He was feeding the same pile
of garbage that got drummed into my head at the police
academy."
        "And that makes it wrong."
        "The stuff he was blathering on about was dead wrong.
They stopped teaching it at the academy years ago for that
reason. I corrected him and he didn't like that.. Or back
down.. He's been making me pay ever since.. It wouldn't have
mattered if I'd blitzed that exam, and I probably did, he
had no intentions of giving me a passing mark."
        "Appeal."
        "What's the point?" He asked with a little snort, "It's
his word against mine, and he's the *expert*."
        "Wrong.. You're the expert. You're the one who's been
out there, *doing* the things he only knows about through
books and lectures. You're the one who has *practical
experience* over theoretical knowledge. It makes no sense
for a man with your experience to fail that class. If you
make a complaint and demand an investigation, I'm sure
they'll take it seriously and look into it."
        "There is no point. I wouldn't go back to those classes
even if they made him beg for forgiveness."
        She studied him and knew it was a point he wouldn't
budge on.
        {If you won't stick up for yourself, then I guess it's
my turn to kick a little butt}
        She produced an airline ticket and waved it before his
eyes.
        "What..?"
        "The semester is over soon. I thought it was the best
time for you to take a holiday.. A break from your studies
and caring for Fraser. You were going to spend a week with
your family.. Before you joined us here.. I think you should
go home, back to Chicago and relax, forget about your
studies, Fraser, me.. You need this - and don't tell me
otherwise.. I'm sure your mother will take one look at you
and shriek about how thin you are."
        "And you shouldn't have to take care of Fraser when
you're in a delicate condition."
        "I'll have that carer you found to share the load with,
and take Ben with me when I got to work. I've done that
often enough during your exams to know he's no bother. He
seems quite content to sit in an office with a pile of files
sorting everything into alphabetical order," she said and
pressed the ticket into his hand.
        "You've got a week to think it over. I think you should
return, if for no other reason than to get your car, I know
you hate having to get around in Taxi's. It will save us a
lot of money in the long run if you have your own vehicle
again."
        He gave a little sigh and she tried not to smile,
knowing she'd won the battle with her last argument.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray sat on the grass watching Fraser play with Deif in
the secluded patch of forest he'd spent the last three hours
driving Meg's car to reach. Fraser reacted so much better
when he took him into a wilderness area. He seemed to relax
and enjoyed himself. But for some reason, Fraser didn't seem
to be enjoying himself as much today.
        His game with Deif was half hearted and it seemed even
the wolf sensed it. In no time at all Deif was curling up at
Ray's side with a little whine. Ray gave him a scratch
between the ears and watched Fraser approach to drop down
onto the picnic basket beside him.
        "What's the matter Benni? Not feeling well?"
        "You're leaving."
        Ray started.
        "Going home.. To Chicago."
        "Where did you..?"
        "I saw the ticket."
        "Oh.. Well.. Meg got that for me, she thinks I should
take a break, a holiday, to recharge my batteries.. Before
the baby comes along."
        "Baby?"
        "Yes.. Baby.. She's pregnant."
        Fraser's eyes lit up.
        "A baby.."
        "Yes.. Meg is going to have a baby."
        "You're going to be a daddy.. I think you'll be a good
father."
        Ray laughed and swatted him.
        "Trust me, Benni, the kid's yours."
        "No."
        "Yes."
        "No."
        "It can't be mine."
        "You have sex with Meg. The baby is yours."
        "I'm not the one who goes creeping into other people's
beds when he's feeling lonesome."
        Fraser blushed a little.
        "There is an old saying.. The spirit is willing, but
the flesh is weak."
        "And what is that supposed to mean?"
        "That the baby is yours."
        "Uh-uh, no way."
        "I did not and have not.. had sex with Meg."
        "Never?"
        "Not the sort that produces babies."
        Ray looked at him for a very long time.
        "Meg does not want to cross the line with me."
        Ray's brows defected.
        "And neither do you.. I was grumpy about that, but I
understand it now.."
        "You do?"
        Fraser looked off into the distance.
        "Have I thanked you for taking me to the doctor and
getting me off those horrible pills that made it so hard for
me to think straight."
        "No."
        "I still have trouble...but it is easier now. I can
express myself."
        "I noticed.. Taking you to that doctor was the smartest
thing I've done in a while."
        "You are the best friend I've ever had."
        Ray smiled.
        "Or will ever have."
        "Thank-you."
        Fraser looked at him, then slowly started leaning
toward him. Ray made no move to draw away, and when Fraser
kissed him, he wrapped a hand around the back of his skull
tangling his fingers in his hair returning the kiss. One
kiss lead to another which lead to other things, which lead
to Ray being grateful he'd chosen a very secluded patch of
wilderness as he let Fraser strip away his clothes to
worship his body from head to toe.
        He let his friend and lover use his hands and mouth to
bring him pleasure and then returned the favour much to
Fraser's delight and pleasure. When it was over he looked
down at Fraser lying bonelessly on the blanket with a look
of such utter contentment and bliss on his face that any
misgiving's he'd had, when he'd elected to explore taking
things further, bit the dust.
        He wasn't sure how far he was willing to go, but he was
sure as hell willing to give Fraser the chance to show him
just how good it could get.
        He leaned over his blissful partner and kissed the tip
of his nose, making Fraser open his eyes.
        "You can say I love you that way anytime, Benni."
        Fraser smiled and pulled his head down for a kiss. Ray
was the one to break it up and toss his clothes at him.
        "Meg's part of my life too now.. So if you're still
feeling frisky, wait till we get home so we can get frisky
with her, hmm."
        Fraser dressed with a nod and Ray scrambled into his
own clothes.
        "I forget to ask if.. you're O.K with that
arrangement."
        "You mean.. a menage a trois."
        "Yes."
        "I have no problems with it."
        "Good. Because I'd hate to have to chose between you, I
don't know if I could make a choice like that any more," Ray
admitted, then leaned over Fraser to give him another kiss.
        
                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                 Part Twelve
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*
        
        Fraser sat on Ray's bed, watching him pack for his
break away.
        "You and I are going to have a lot to talk about when I
get back Benni. I'll give you a note pad before I go, I want
you to use it. Write down anything you dream about. And
anything that comes up that you want to talk about."
        Fraser nodded slowly. Ray tossed his toiletries pouch
into the case along with the latest psychology text book
he'd acquired. The one he was in the middle of reading was
tucked into his carry on luggage and both bags were closed.
        "And stay out of trouble. Meg's in a delicate
condition, she doesn't need any more stress at the moment."
        "Yes, Ray."
        Ray's watch beeped at him.
        "Time to wash up."
        Fraser jumped up and headed for the bathroom. Ray
collected his bags and carried them out to place them near
the front door, ready for the next morning. He was in the
middle of selecting a meal for the day when he heard the
phone ringing. The answering machine kicked in as he rushed
through the kitchen and he stopped with his hand hovering
over the hand set as he listened to Meg's voice tell the
caller to leave a message after the beep. When he heard
Meg's voice again he turned off the machine.
        "You've got perfect timing, Meg, I was just about to
get started on dinner."
        :"Don't prepare anything for me," Meg said.:
        "Oh. Are you feeling queasy again?"
        :"No, something's come up here, and it looks like I'm
going to be here for a while. I don't know when I'll be
getting home.":
        "Oh."
        :"I didn't want you to waste food or wait up for me.":
        -Well there go my plans for the evening-
        "Are we talking an hour or two here or.."
        :"Possibly longer. Don't worry about preparing
something for me, I'll have dinner here. I sent Constable
Williams out to get take away.":
        "Oh, well.. I don't suppose you'd be back before Benni
drops off will you?"
        :"I doubt it.":
        -Scratch that plan-
        :"Don't worry, I'll be bringing him in with me in the
morning. Don't forget to set your alarm, your flight leaves
at Ten, I've already booked a taxi for you. It'll be
arriving at quarter to nine.. That should get you to the
airport in time. Don't forget to get your left over US funds
from the safe...":
        Ray listened to Meg prattle on about what he should and
shouldn't do and a wicked impulse struck him.
        "Are you alone right now?"
        "For the moment."
        "You realise you spoiled my plans for the evening."
        "Plans? What plans? You didn't mention any plans."
        "That's because I only came up with them this
afternoon. And Benni and I both agreed there's someone else
in this house who deserves a little attention."
        "Ooooh."
        "Mhhhm.. You."
        "Oh and just what did you have in mind?"
        Ray began telling her in great detail his voice
dropping to a seductive little purr, his detailed
descriptions peppered with the occasional bout of Italian
love talk.
        :"Oh, stop.":
        He grinned.
        :"Or I'll end up pouncing on you when I get home.":
        Ray became even more descriptive, describing how he
intended to carry out her favourite bedroom activities and
heard her give a little sound that was half purr/half growl.
        :"You're all talk, no action.":
        He laughed and heard a creaking that he knew came from
the door of her office being opened and it came through ear
piercingly clear, even over the phone it set his teeth on
edge
        "God, get those door hinges oiled."
        "It's the perfect kinetic energy intruder alert."
        "Huh?"
        :"Never mind. I have to go.":
        "See you in the morning," Ray said before hanging up.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        It was a grumpy Ray who collected his luggage at O'Hare
and stomped his way through the terminal. He'd spent half
the night waiting for Meg to return, had to deal with Fraser
having a nightmare, received a black eye in the process of
waking him up. Somehow got him to take a sedative which sent
the distressed man into a deep and dreamless sleep, and
ended up lying on his bed, with an ice pack over his eye.
        He didn't remember much beyond that, he was vaguely
aware that Meg had been into his room, he'd woken up under
the blankets minus the ice pack and half his clothes. He
groaned when he saw that he'd managed to sleep through the
alarm. That was if he'd even remembered to set it, and he
couldn't recall doing it. As a result, he bolted out of bed
with only five minutes to get dressed before the taxi
arrived. He was hopping through the house trying to get his
second shoe on, double checking that all the windows and
doors were locked when the taxi arrived. He missed his
chance to talk to Meg and Fraser before he left.
        And things only got worse, the taxi suffered a flat on
the way to the airport, and the driver had called for
assistance, citing a bad back. Ray had ended up changing the
tire himself, and the taxi arrived at the airport just in
time for him to check in. There was no time to change into
clean clothes. Just enough to hand his suit case over and be
directed to the right gate to catch his flight, for which
the final boarding call went out as he ran through the
terminal.
        To cap off his morning, he discovered his seat mate was
a verbose old lady pushing 90 who babbled on and on about
her family, showing him her collection of pictures of her
children, grandchildren and great grandchildren along with
telling him stories about each every one of them. It wasn't
that he objected to her stories, it was her voice, it had a
nasal quality that set his teeth on edge and after listening
to it for three hours, he was ready to commit grannycide. It
didn't help that the pilot kept announcing that a storm over
Chicago was keeping them in the air.
        He finally got so sick of it that he slipped out of his
seat to pounce on a hostess and begged her to let him use
one of the unoccupied seats, before he strangled the
chattering old biddy that was his seat mate. Fortunately for
all involved, the hostess took pity on him and showed him to
an empty window seat.
        He went from grump to foul tempered grouch after the
plane finally landed and he discovered that even though he'd
taken the time to call ahead and arrange for Frannie to meet
him at the airport, she'd give up waiting, if she'd ever
arrived, which is why he stormed through the terminal with a
scowl on his face.
        His face was transformed, as he exited the terminal to
see his car parked at the curb, its paintwork gleaming.
Frannie was leaning against the Riv, dangling his keys in
one hand, holding up a thermos in the other. He dropped his
case by her feet, collecting his keys before giving her a
hug.
        "And here I was thinking you'd left."
        She patted his cheeks.
        "Ma is going to have a fit when she sees you. You've
lost so much weight."
        He rolled his eyes and moved away to open the trunk,
throwing his bags in.
        "Don't start, Meg nags me about it enough as it."
        "Not enough."
        "Thanks for taking such great care of my car," Ray
said, slamming the trunk closed.
        "You're welcome."
        "Not that I'm ungrateful or anything, but just forget
any ideas you might have had about continuing to use it.
It's going back to Canada with me."
        She climbed into the car, belting up and pouring a cup
of coffee as Ray climbed in. She reached out to wave it
under his nose, and he took it to sip at it, and smiled.
He'd almost forgotten what his favourite kind of coffee
tasted like.
        "How's Fraser?"
        "Getting better every day."
        "That's good news. How are your studies going? Ma said
you were going to .."
        "Don't ask."
        "Oh.."
        "Why don't you tell me how everyone's going instead."
        Frannie took the hint and started chattering away about
various things that had gone on while he'd been away. She
was still chattering away when he pulled up in the driveway.
He didn't get the welcome home he expected. The answer as to
why became obvious when he walked into the silent house.
        "Where is everyone," he asked his sister as she stepped
in behind him with the day's mail.
        "Maria, Tony and the kids are staying with Tony's
family for the holidays for a change. Ma won a holiday on a
cruise liner, and decided to take it while they were away."
        "Oh.. I guess I should have rang and told Ma I was
coming back sooner."
        "Meg called, but Ma and Maria had already made their
plans at that time.."
        "You're not going to vanish on me too are you?"
        "Well.. actually."
        "You've got your own plans too."
        She gave him a weak smile.
        "Rrright."
        "Meg said you needed a break, you'll have the house all
to yourself for at least a week. Make the most of it. I'll
be back on Saturday, Maria and the kid's will be back late
Sunday and once they get back, you'll be wishing they stayed
away a little longer. Why don't you go upstairs and get
cleaned up. I'll get lunch started."
        Ray gave a little nod, and headed for the stairs.
        "You don't have to worry about food while you're here,
Ma cooked up a storm before she left, the freezer is packed,
all you have to do is pick what you want. Which should be
fun."
        "Oh, why?"
        "Because she cooked all your favourite meals."
        Ray laughed as he tromped up the stairs. He didn't
notice Frannie sneaking up the stairs as he made his way up
the hall. The only thing on his mind was getting some clean
clothes and jumping into the shower to clean up. Those
thoughts went right out the window when he opened his
bedroom door, stepping in to stop dead in his tracks when he
saw his bed. There wasn't a square inch of it that was
covered with a brightly wrapped gift.
        "Frannie!"
        "Yessss?" She said by his ear.
        Ray jumped and spun around to look at her.
        "What is this?"
        "Your birthday, Christmas presents for last year and
your birthday presents for this year as well. Oh, and there
are some for Fraser there too. They're the one's up near the
head of the bed."
        Ray looked at the bed again.        
        "We didn't know where to send them," Frannie said in
way of explanation as she moved to the bed and picked up a
brightly wrapped gift and held it out.
        "This is from me."
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray forgot all about Lunch as he worked his way through
the pile of gifts on his bed. He found more than one item of
clothing, a few books, a key chain with a tiny replica of
his car, which he wasted no time transferring his keys to,
there were three jigsaw puzzles, one of them a 3-d puzzle, a
new set of bed linen with matching curtains, courtesy of his
mother, a new set of Lady Killer products, this time there
was a bottle of aftershave, a cologne spray, a bar of soap,
talc and shampoo. He made a mental note to see wether Meg
liked it before he tossed it. It wasn't as if his mother
would find out.
        He opened up the last gift from his mother, and was
glad that Frannie had dashed off down stairs to make the
promised meal after watching him open her gifts. The last
gift from his mother was a mortar board and robe, of the
sort graduating students wore to their graduation ceremony.
The note tucked inside made him feel worse than the actual
gift did and he sat back just looking at it.
        With a little sigh, he pulled out his wallet and tucked
the note into it, making a mental promise to do what Meg
wanted him too and try to appeal the withdrawal of his
scholarship.
        Setting the wallet aside, he looked the bed over again.
There nestled among the presents was a parcel wrapped in
brown paper, he reached out for it and looked it over,
finding his own name and home address on it. There was no
return address, but the postal stamp was for one of the
local postal branches and judging by the date on it, it had
arrived a few days after he'd moved into Meg's apartment.
Wondering who'd sent it and why his mother hadn't given it
to him when he'd returned before heading off to Canada, he
set about unwrapping it to find an equally non descript box
and opened it. With a pfft, he was blinded by a flash of
light, as a cloud of smoke, complete with a foul stench,
erupted from the box and he felt liquid splash all over his
face, chest and hands which had flown up in reflex at the
blinding flash.
        The pain hit seconds later, and he realised what the
liquid was at the same time as it started eating through his
clothes and flesh.
        -Acid!-
        He staggered up to his feet, coughing as the foul smoke
irritated his lungs. he couldn't draw in enough air to
scream when the next wave of pain swept over him as the acid
did its work. He fell to the floor with a thud, fighting for
consciousness, fighting his own instincts, unable to scream
for help, barely able to draw in air between hacking coughs.
Somehow he managed to crawl to the door way and rolled over
to his back. Kicking the door open he started slamming it
into the wall, over and over.
        He heard the sound's reverberating through the
corridor, his sister's voice, then the sound of her approach
and nothing more as he lost the fight for consciousness.

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Dressed in his dress reds, Fraser followed Meg, clad in
her own dress reds, with the coat open because her bust line
was exceeded the coat's ability to cover it. They strode
together through the corridor's of the college. It was far
from quiet, but then there were still a number of exams
being held before it closed for the holiday period.
        A student puffing away on a cigarette in the corridor,
directly under a non smoking sign, looked up as the red clad
couple strode down the hall.
        "Which way to the Dean's office?" Meg asked.
        The student pointed and Meg continued on her way.
Fraser though stopped ,and reached out to pluck the
cigarette from the student's fingers before stubbing it out
and proceeded to give the student a lecture on the effects
of smoking on ones health, quoting verbatim an article he'd
read in one of his magazines, complete with statistics.
        The student listened to the whole lecture with a silly
smile, waiting for him to finish, then informed Fraser it
was pot, not tobacco.
        Fraser stared at him for a good three seconds, then
made him turn around and look at the sign on the wall, which
apart from declaring the area a non smoking area, also
stated that anyone caught smoking in it would be fined. Then
he hauled the student off to the Dean's office.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Ray slowly drifted back to consciousness, feeling no
pain, thanks to copious amounts of pain killers he'd
received intravenously after his arrival at the hospital. He
became aware of the respirator tube down his throat first,
the restraints around his arms second, and the presence of
another person last.
        He heard a thump near his head, felt the touch of a
hand on his arm and tried to look around, but he couldn't
open his eyes.
        "Relax, Ray, you're in the hospital.. You're on a
respirator, stop thrashing around like that, or they'll
leave you restrained and I don't think you want that to
happen."
        Slowly Ray settled down as the voice of his former
superior continued telling him to calm down, over and over
in a soothing tone. He heard a door open and the sound of
people entering. The respirator was disengaged, and he was
fed ice chips that he swallowed gratefully, after gagging at
the horrible taste in his mouth while the doctor waffled on.
Nothing sunk in except the fact that the tube down his
throat was gone.
        He tried to raise a hand and remembered the restraints.
He felt the touch on his arm again, heard Welsh telling him
not to fight the restraints and turned his head in the
direction of that voice.
        "Wha.." he croaked.
        "Relax.."        
        "M'eyes.."
        "Have been bandaged."
        Ray relaxed a tad and tried to remember how he ended up
in the hospital. As soon as he thought about it, the memory
of that vicious surprise package returned. Welsh didn't need
to see his face, not that he could, it was covered in
bandages, to know he'd remembered, he felt Ray tense up.
        "Do you remember what happened? Don't try and say it,
just nod if you do."
        "Yeesss. Parcel.."
        "There were three nasty surprises inside, a flash bomb,
an acid bomb and a smoke bomb. The flash bomb blinded you,
the smoke bomb chocked you, stopping you from calling for
help or screaming when the acid hit."
        "Frannie.."
        "Yes, Frannie found you. And you have a lot to thank
her for, according to the doctor. From what I hear she
worked out you'd been splashed with acid pretty fast and
slathered you with something that neutralised it fast.
You've both got mittened hands now."
        "Frannie burned too?"
        "Just her hands from pulling your coat and shirt off to
keep the acid from reaching your skin there. She didn't
quite make it, but the burns there are considerably less
severe than the ones to your face and arms."
        "She here?"
        "No. You've been under for the last three days. She
went home this morning, though she'll back as soon as they
notify her that you've come around."
        "Family know?"
        "She's let the rest of your family know. Your mother is
on her way back now."
        "Meg??"
        "Who?"
        "Dragon lady."
        "Oh, Inspector Thatcher.. Unless your sister informed
her, then no."
        "Frannie.. doesn't know.. the number."
        "Do you want me to call her?"
        "NO. Don't.. tell.. Tell Frannie.. Not to tell Meg what
happened."
        "Did you two have a falling out, is that why you're
back in Chicago?"
        "Holiday.. Said.. I needed.. a break.."
        "Ah.. Well. She has to find out some time."
        "Don't tell.. I'll.. work.. out.. something.. later..
Don't wan.. her to fin.. out.. She's.. in a delicate
condition."
        "Er.. Are we talking the kind of condition that last
nine months here?"
        "Yes.. Tol me.. Doctor said.. she could loose baby if
she didn't relax.. Don' wan her to loose baby.. Make sure...
she doesn' hear.. what happened.. "
        Welsh nodded, then remembered he couldn't see him do
it.
        "I'll make sure Frannie get the message."
        "Don.. mention.. baby to Frannie please.. Juz tell her
not to tell Meg.. If she tells Meg, Meg'll fly out, get
stressed and miscarry."
        "So how do I tell her that she can't tell Thatcher
without explaining why she can't do it?"
        Ray gave a sigh that made Welsh's skin crawl.
        "Can't.. thiz is such a mess.. Got.. pad?"
        Welsh pulled it from his pocket with a pen.
        "Yes."
        "Call Meg.. Before she calls.. home to see how I am.
Make up some story.. to explain away.. why.. I gotta
disappear for.. a while.. Make it good.. but make sure it
isn't something.. that'll.. stress her out."
        "What's the number?"
        Ray gave him the number for both Meg's office and
home."
        "We know who was responsible for that parcel, It was
sent by the same person who scratched that message into your
car. Forensic's went over the parcel and found a fingerprint
to match one of the prints taken off your car when it was
vandalised. And we've found a match for them, and went
through your case files trying to find one involving him
but.."
        "Didn't find anything there."
        "No. Does the name Dante Mc Intire mean anything to
you?"
        "Yesss.. Don' tell me.."
        "He's the one who vandalised the car and sent that
parcel."
        "Noo..."
        "We lifted his prints from the car and the parcel. He's
the one who was behind it. That's why we haven't caught him.
Apparently he was in Chicago for a few months, and flew out
a week or two after the.. incident. He went back to
Australia, where according to the Australian Federal Police,
he's wanted for aggravated assault, rape, and attempted
murder. They've been trying to capture him for almost a year
now."
        "Noo... Muz be a mistake."
        "There's no mistake. We came up with a name after we
ran the prints we lifted from the parcel. The Australian
Fed's sent his particular to our guys months ago. They think
he may have gotten out of the country, using a stolen
passport he had in his possession."
         "You gotta warn the RCMP that he got outta Australia
using Fraser's passport.."
        "He stole Fraser's passport?!"
        "And all his Id.. he had it all.. He's the bastard that
almost killed Fraser. I bet if you can track down Fraser's
accounts here, in Chicago, you'll find out they were emptied
out around the same time that parcel was sent to my place.
Dante got his hands on the pass books for Benni's accounts
here too.. And I knew Benni still had money in them.. He
told me he didn't get a chance to close down the accounts
when he headed down under, that he had enough money to get
by on while he sorted out the mess he was in. And he had a
trust fund set up, for Deif, so he'd be looked after if
anything happened to him.. There was a few thousand dollar's
in that account."
        "Do you know which bank?"
        Ray gave him all the details he could think of, and
Welsh took them down.
        "Is there anything else you can think of which might
help us trace his movements?"
        "Memorabilia."
        "What?"
        "He had all of Fraser's stuff.. Between them.. They had
a collection of memorabilia worth thousands. But all Dante's
assets were frozen and his property was seized.. Meg told me
about it.. But he had Fraser's stuff.. I never did get
manage to get it back... Fraser told me about the
collection.. Dante knows what it's worth.. He knows what
Fraser had.. I'm not sure what it'd be worth but if what
Fraser told me is anything to go by it was worth a few
thousand dollars to collectors. And there was other stuff..
I remember Benni telling me he had it all in storage.. but
the place where it was stored was closed down and they sent
it back to him.. I tried to track it down.. but.. from the
sound of it, he took it all to Australia with him."
        "Do you know what he had?"
        Ray raked his memories and told Welsh everything he
knew about it, which wasn't much, but might have been enough
for Welsh to learn what he needed to know and find out if
Fraser's memorabilia collection had gone up for sale.
        "Personally, I hope the Fed's down under managed to
seize it before he thought of it.. I know Benni kept it all
these years for nothing more than the sentimental value..
There are really good memories attached to it.. I'd hate to
think that bastard profited by stealing it and selling it to
the highest bidder."
        "Is Fraser capable of answering questions?"
        "About Dante.. I don't think so.. And even if he could
answer questions, I wouldn't recommend asking them. The only
time we mentioned Dante around him, he cried half the
night.. He went to pieces.. and I won't be there to help him
pick up the pieces if you send someone around to interrogate
him about Dante. And I didn't spent the last year or so
helping Fraser to get his act back together to have some
idiot come along asking the wrong questions and ruin it
all."
        "In other words, Fraser's still recovering and if he
isn't handled right he could have another nervous
breakdown."
        "Right.. And if anyone sets him off.. It's not just me
coming down on them they'll have to worry about. The Dragon
lady will have their guts for garters. And if something
happens to him, she'll be placed under more stress than she
needs and if that happens.."
        "I get the picture Vecchio.. I'll do everything I can
to track this psycho down without pestering Fraser to do
it."
        Ray heard the door open, and foot steps.
        "That's the doctor.. He'll skin me alive if I don't
leave you to get your rest. Is there anything you want me to
do for you - other than what we've discussed?"
        "That about covers it.."

                 *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                 Part Thirteen
                                 *ooOO0=@=0OOoo*

        Fraser sat cross legged on a chair cushion on the floor
in Meg's office where Meg could keep an eye on him as he
worked his way through a box of paper work, sorting the
papers into some form of order.
        The talk with the Dean had gone well. But then when a
Mountie (make that two) tells you that one of your teachers
is deliberately flunking a student, and asks how a
professional detective can flunk criminology classes you
listen. And the Dean had and promised to look into and
reinstate Ray's scholarship if his investigation into the
matter proved Ray had been unfairly flunked.
        Reaching for the phone Meg dialled the Vecchio
household's number yet again. She listened to the phone
ring, fingers crossed that someone would answer. She needed
to speak to Ray about Fraser's medication. She didn't know
which pills to give him at what time. The Vitamin's were
easy, it was the other pills she had a problem with. Then
there was the matter of Fraser keeping her awake half the
night, as he screamed his way through the night, trapped in
some nightmare or another. She'd given up trying to wake him
from his night terrors, he tended to strike out when someone
tried to wake him. As had been the case each time she'd
tried to call Ray over the last 3 days, no one answered, she
listened to it ring out yet again and sighed as she placed
the handset back on the cradle. Fraser glanced up a curious
look on his face.
        "No luck."
        "Did you try his mobile phone?"
        "He left that behind."
        "Oh."
        The phone rang and Meg snatched it up and for the first
time in three days she smiled. Fraser listened to the one
side of the conversation he could hear and realised she was
talking to the Dean. And if the smile on Meg's face was
anything to go by, he was calling with good news.
        "Yes.. Yes.. As soon as I speak to him, I'll tell him.
Thank-you. That's wonderful news."
        Fraser watched as Meg's smile became a frown.
        "He failed those test too? Are you sure they're not
forgeries too?"
        Meg's frown became deeper.        
        "Oh dear.. Yes.. I understand, but under the
circumstances.. Couldn't he be given a chance to resit the
exam too?"
        After a few moments the frown vanished to be replaced
with a look of relief and she reached out for a pen to take
down some details.
        "Yes, of course, I understand.. I'll talk to Ray about
it as soon as I can.. Yes.. I'll make sure he does. Thank-
you."
        Fraser watched her hang up.
        "That was the Dean, he said he investigated and found
evidence there was something very wrong going on. He pulled
all the exam papers on file for Ray and gave them to a hand
writing expert. The expert said, all the criminology exams
he received low or failing marks on are forgeries. And bad
forgeries at that. The teacher has been fired, and they're
looking for a new criminologist to take his place."
        "That is good news."
        "The bad news is that it wasn't just the criminology
exam he failed. He failed the Psych and SAC exam too. But
the Dean spoke to the teachers. Under the circumstances,
they're willing to let him do a make up exam. If he lodges
an appeal *personally* he'll be given a chance to take the
exams again, and if he passes in all three subjects his
scholarship will be restored."
        "That is even better news."
        "Now all I have to do is get hold of Ray to tell him."
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Frannie looked at the phone in annoyance. That was the
third time the phone had rung out before she'd been able to
reach it. Knocking the handset off the cradle she picked up
a pencil and used it to dial and fumbled the handset up to
her shoulder.
        "Hello.. This is Francesca Vecchio, my brother Raymond
is a patient at your hospital. I asked to be notified when
he regained consciousness."
        She rolled her eyes as the telephonist told her in a
bored voice, they'd ring her when he woke up.
        "Yes, I know that, but someone just rang but I wasn't
able to reach the phone before it rang out."
        The telephonist told her to hold the line and put her
on hold.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Fraser placed the last paper from the box into the
correct pile and then began sorting through each pile,
sorting them into the correct chronological order. Meg
watched him work and made a note on her pad to have him
tested to see if he was fit to return to light office duties
in the near future.
        When the phone rang she picked it up absently and
identified herself. She bolted upright, giving her caller
her full attention when he identified himself as Lieutenant
Welsh.
        Fraser looked around and watched her reactions.
        "Yes.. Yes.. I understand.. Yes.. I appreciate your
call.. Fraser?"
        She looked at Fraser.
        "He's doing much better.. Would you be able to pass a
message onto Raymond for me? I need to know Fraser's
medication schedule. I'm not sure if I'm giving him the
right pills at the right time. He's been screaming his lungs
out every night and I'm not getting much sleep and Ray knows
how much I need a good night's rest now."
        Fraser watched her brows defect.
        "Oh, he told you about that did he.. I see.. He didn't
want me to worry.. Well, you can tell him for me, that
accepting that assignment is a strange way of making life
less stressful for me."
        Welsh cut in.
        "Oh, I see.. Yes.. I understand.. It can't be helped.
Forget what I said, and tell him I also need to know which
doctor he took Fraser too.. And that if he had half a brain
he would have left me a note giving me all the information I
needed to take care of Fraser properly while he was away."
        Then she hung up.
        "Ray isn't coming back, is he?"
        "Not in the immediate future.. He picked the wrong time
to go back to the precinct to see his friends there.. They
were looking for someone to go undercover and because he's
been out of action for the last year he was the perfect
man for the assignment."
        "And he took it."
        "He didn't have much choice.. It was accept the
assignment or take a discharge."
        "Oh dear."
        "He told them he'd take the discharge, but they talked
him out of it and into taking the assignment."
        "How long will he be undercover?"
        The look she gave him was one of sadness. That one
question was evidence that he still had a long way to go
before he could be considered fit to return to duty. He
should have known the answer without having to ask for it.
        "What's the Motto of the RCMP, Benton?"
        Fraser thought about it.
        "We always get our man?"
        Meg ripped the note about having him tested out of her
pad, screweing it up to toss it into the bin.        

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Ray was sitting up, holding as still as possible as the
nurse removed the bandages, gauze and gel that had been
applied to his face. The pain killers they kept feeding him
left him feeling no pain but he'd been warned about moving
or trying to touch his face. He had to keep reminding
himself that there was no point in trying to touch his face
because his hands were wrapped in bandages too.
        He was aware the nurse was touching his face in a vague
way. He'd also learned to take note of every little sound he
heard, and he heard the little intake of air when the
bandages were removed. He didn't need to be told what his
face looked like, he could imagine it.
        He tilted his head and received a light slap on an
unburned part of his arm.
        "Don't move. I'm not done yet."
        More bandages and gauze came away and he became aware
that the bandages over his eyes were being removed. Of soft
dabbing over his eyes.
        "Shield his eyes," he heard the doctor order.
        Then a soft touch on his arm.
        "All right, Mr Vecchio.. You can open your eyes now."
        With an effort Ray's eyes opened.
        "Good, now, keep them open."
        All Ray could see were huge blurs. His view of the
world became one huge bright blur for a moment, then
shifted, and became a huge bright blur again.
        "Follow my pen, if you can."
        Ray blinked and tried to focus. He was aware of
something passing back and forth before his eyes but he
couldn't focus on it.
        "Everything's a big blur," he said.
        "There are a number of tests I'll have to carry out
later, but I don't think it's anything to worry about, just
a temporary side effect of being flash blinded. It happens
all the time."
        "Yeah, right."
        "Hold still. Hmmm... This is excellent. Remind me to
find out what his sister used to neutralise that acid."
        Ray was vaguely aware of his face being touched here
and there and then of the doctor withdrawing giving the
nurse some directions. The click of a pen, and the
scratching of that pen across paper told him the Doctor was
making notes at the same time.
        "Your burns are healing nicely. In some cases, they've
healed completely. You have a great deal to thank your
sister for. They could have been a lot worse."
        "How bad are they?"
        "15% of the burns are 1st degree, 75% are second degree
and the remainder are 3rd degree burns. Mainly here, here,
here," The doctor said and Ray felt a light touch on his
face.
        "Am I gonna need skin grafts?"
        "Here, here and on your hands.. Yes. For the rest,
laser treatment should reduce and eliminate most if not all
of the scarring once the burns heal. But there will be a
permanent side effect.. You'll never have to shave again."
        Ray didn't laugh.
        "It's going to be noticeable, isn't it? I won't be able
to pretend it didn't happen will I?"
        "No. We can reduce or eliminate most of the scaring on
your face and throat, but it's going to be noticeable on
your hands. But you can always cover up the scarring there
with gloves."
        "My chest?"
        "Oh, well, that's one area you don't have to worry
about, the burns there were minimal and healed up quite
nicely."
        "What's the date?"
        The doctor checked his watch wondering at the reasoning
behind the sudden change of subject and gave Ray the date.
Ray made a few calculations.
        "How long will it take? Before I can walk out of her
looking halfway normal?"
        "At the rate your burns are healing, *halfway* normal
will be a few more weeks. With the grafting and laser
treatment, 3 to six months depending on how well the grafts
take. And there is a plus side to the whole thing."
        "There is?"
        "You will most likely come out of this looking
younger."
        For the first time since he'd opened the vicious
surprise parcel Ray felt like laughing.
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Welsh walked into the lounge and looked around to see
Ray curled up on a reclining chair, his face was covered
with a bandage that wouldn't have looked out of place on
your average bank robber. His eyes were hidden behind a pair
of shades that wouldn't have looked out of place on a skier
and his hands were mittened in bandages. He had a walkman in
his lap and earbuds in his ear. A creaking floor board
alerted Ray to the fact he wasn't alone and he looked up and
around.
        "Who's there?"
        "It's me Lieutenant Welsh."
        He stepped closer and reached out to wave a hand in
front of Ray's face.
        "I can see you know."
        "Then why do you need to ask who's there?"
        "Everything's a big blur of shadow's and light, and
when someone waves a hand in my face I know it."
        "Sorry."
        "S'ok. I'm getting used to it. Everyone does it to me."
        He picked up his walk man, fumbling with it, and held
it up.
        "Would you turn this off for me, before I lose my
place."
        Welsh reached out to turn it off.
        "What are you listening to?"
        "Just some boring text book about the links between
Neurological birth defects and psychosis."
        "You're still studying psychology??"
        "You're not the only one who's surprised.. I flunked
out. Before I came back. But thanks to Meg, and my mother I
was given a second chance. When Ma heard I was gonna be
coming home soon, she went all the way to Canada to talk to
the Dean at the college and found out what Meg did to get me
a second chance. Now they send me all the text books on
tape, and Ma reads the papers for me and I dictate the
answers for her to write up for me. Whenever I have to do a
test, a friend of the Dean's from a University here comes
over and gives me the tests."
        "I see."
        Ray gave a weak little grin.
        "And my grade average is improving, can you believe
that."
        "Yes. You don't have the distraction of having to take
care of Fraser while you study now."
        "True. But that's going to be a thing of the past
soon."
        "Oh?"
        "I talked to Meg over the phone the other day. They're
coming back."
        "They are?"
        "Yeah.. She say's Fraser's backsliding and getting
worse every day. The final straw was some dope freak
breaking into our place and trashing it."
        "What?!"
        "Apparently Fraser got him expelled, hauling him up to
the Dean's office for smoking it in the halls. He trashed
the place while they were out in retaliation. But it set
Fraser right off. He won't go back there now, and she fired
the carer I hired to help out."
        "Why?"
        "The whole reason I started studying psychology was to
keep Fraser out of a psychiatric hospital, and if that woman
had her way that's where he'd be. Or at least that's what
Meg says, but then again, Meg took an instant dislike to
her. Right from the start.. And unless I hear it from
Fraser, I'm gonna take it with a grain of salt."
        "Let's get back to place being trashed. Are they sure,
and I mean absolutely it was the addict Fraser got expelled?
        "He was busted for it when he tried to pawn my laptop,
they found the rest of the stuff that went missing at his
place after they searched it."
        "Right... That's good."
        "Why do I have the feeling you didn't come to see how I
was doing?"
        "Because I didn't."
        "Rrright."
        "Do you think you could get Thatcher to speed up the
move back to Chicago?"
        "Yeah, right, if I did that she'd have my head on a
platter. Friday is perfect. These come off tomorrow, *if*
the Doctor was right, I should be able to hide the worst of
it with a little make up a bandage and some gloves."
        "Really?"
        "Well close to it," Ray said pulling his sleeve back to
show Welsh that the bandages extended all the way to his
shoulder.
        "I'll need to keep my arms covered too."
        "So you didn't need any skin grafts?"
        "Oh, no.. I needed those. Across here," Ray said
drawing a finger from cheek to cheek crossing his nose, "and
here," Ray continued touching his chin and brow, "and from
here to here," Ray went on drawing a finger from his elbow
to point where his palms met his fingers on his left arm,
"and here," Ray indicated a patch on his shoulder, "not to
mention from my wrist to my elbow on the other arm."
        "You were shielding your face.."
        "Right.. The worst burns were on my arms, and a lot of
that has to do with Francesca."
        "Speaking of whom.. How is she?"
        "Speaking of which - You understated how bad she got
burned helping me."
        "I did?"
        "Yeah, the burns went all the way up her arms."
        "They did?"
        "Didn't you ask her what happened?"
        "Why don't you tell me and then I'll tell you if what
she told me and what she told you are the same thing."
        "I doubt it.. You see I know her story is not what
happened. She's the one who was understating everything. Not
that she'd admit it."
        "So how do you know she's understating it?"
        "After they let me out.. And I came home, I started
having flash backs, It all came back to me in bits and
pieces.. And what Frannie sez happened, and what really
happened are two different things.. Like for example how she
knew I was in trouble.. She sez I screamed, but I know I did
*not* scream.. I wanted to.. But I couldn't.. I kicked the
door, over and over, hard as I could to make a big enough
racket to get her attention. I remember hearing her coming..
after that.. the next thing I can remember is her dragging
me down the hall, she was behind me, she had her arms
wrapped around me, and she was hissing'n'cursing under her
breath, because the acid was burning her too. And she was
muttering things about what she'd do to the person
responsible if she ever got her hands on him."
        "Uh-hu.. And after that?"
        "She dragged me into the bathroom, and into the
shower.. That I remember really clear. Somewhere along the
way to the bathroom she worked out that it was acid. She
ripped my coat and shirt off and raided the medicine cabinet
and squirted and slathered me with absolutely everything she
could think of that would neutralise it. Then she covered
all the burns with baby oil and wrapped me up in wet towels,
ran back out, and got a blanket and pillow to wrap me up.
And the whole time she was talking to me.."
        "So she knew you were conscious or at least semi-
conscious."
        "Yeah.. Even when she left the room it didn't stop. I
could hear her yelling at me. The only time she stopped was
when she was calling it in. Then she came back with a lot of
ice and packed it into the towels. I don't think she did
anything about her own burns till she was sure she'd done
everything she could do for mine. If I could nail a medal on
her chest for that, I would.. But I can't.. But she's gonna
find out that I haven't forgotten she saved my life soon
enough."
        "Oh, what have you got in mind?"
        "You'll find out when she does," Ray said with a faint
smile.
        "And when will that be?"
        "What's the date?"
        Welsh told him and Ray did a few mental calculations.
        "It'll be about five to six weeks?"
        "What's happening in five to six weeks."
        "You'll see."
        "You're not even going to give me a hint?"
        "Nope. It's a surprise.. Besides.. I don't know if I
can pull off what I've got in mind yet."
        "Uh-hu."
        "And not that I'm trying to change the subject or
anything."
        "Which means you are."
        "But why do you want me to get Meg to get here sooner?
When you didn't know she was coming back in the first place,
and ask about the place being trashed, and don't tell me
it's because of Dante."
        "It is."
        "I told you *not* to tell me that."
        "I'm not saying he knows where Fraser is, though it is
a possibility."
        "But you know where Dante is.. You traced him."
        "I did a lot more than that, I found out why you were
on his hit list. You forget to mention that he was a
Mountie, and took over at the consulate while Thatcher was
on leave and that he had a relationship with Fraser. That's
why your name's at the top of his hit list"
        Ray looked down at his lap.
        "This psycho is obsessed with Fraser."
        Ray nodded.
        "You don't how lucky you are to be alive right now. He
crossed the border and he's been leaving a trail of corpses
in his wake."
        Ray gulped.
        "As for how I found that out, those guesses you made.
You were dead on. He did use Fraser's passport to get back
into the states, he's been using Fraser's I.D and you were
right about Fraser's bank accounts too, they were raided the
same day that parcel was mailed. He also used Fraser's I.D
to apply for 3 credit cards, which he got. He's been using
them and leaving a trail behind. He's smart enough to keep
all his purchases on the cards small enough that they don't
check the cards. The only time he went over that limitation,
it appears to have been deliberate.. I think he knows that
we know."
        "You mean he was trying to get caught."
        "No.. He was trying to lure the authorities out, which
he did.. And they followed him, all the way to the biggest
narcotics farm in the country."
        "What?!"
        "And he also blew up three drug labs, and the whole
thing was controlled by the same man, who's also on his hit
list. Six other's on it are dead. He's left a trail of
bodies behind him."
        "And there's a definite connection between it all?"
        "Fraser. Every one on his list is connected to him in
one way or another."
        "They know who he's after, don't they?"
        "They started drawing up a list of possible victims
after the third murder. He proved them right four times."
        "That makes seven."
        "The crime lord behind all the drugs surrendered
himself to the authorities and confessed to an absolutely
staggering list of crimes. He'll probably spend the rest of
his life behind bars, but he'll still be alive, something
that can't be said for the other men on that list who are in
their own way connected to him."
        "The six people he killed are all connected to the
crime lord?"
        "Yes, but don't ask me how. All I know is what I've
been able to get them to tell me, which isn't much."
        "And what do you know, exactly?"
        "5 of the 6 men Dante's already killed were apparently
involved in an attack on Fraser, which was linked to this
crime lord. There were 7 possibly 8 men involved, 7 were
definitely identified, 5 of them are now dead."
        "And the 6th?"
        "It seems Fraser was the first, and until Dante, last
Mountie to ever find and shut down one of his drug labs. He
didn't take very kindly to that and .."
        "The 6th person was a woman right?"
        "No."
        "Oh."
        "Why did you assume it was a woman?"
        "I think I know who you're talking about."
        "So Fraser told you about this crime lord?"
        "What you're telling me sounds like the one he
mentioned to me. He had all the dirt, and I do mean all the
dirt on the guy, but he couldn't take him down. Because the
son of bitch killed his informant and set him up.. and even
though he got off the hook.. Fraser couldn't take him down.
He was barred from even going back to that guys territory or
having anything to do with the investigation into his
activities."
        "And wasn't thrilled about it either."
        "Of course not."
        "He's lucky. Among other things, this man admitted to
killing six investigators, and arranging the deaths of 4
mounties, had another 3 sent to prison, where they were
killed soon after, and there were apparently five others who
ended up dead just because they happened to stumble upon the
location of his narcotics farm."
        "He confessed to all that?"
        Welsh nodded.
        "Soooo.. How did these guys Dante killed die?"
        "In all but one case, they died slowly and painfully."
        "Uh-hu..and in the other?"
        "He apparently beat the man to death."
        "That I can believe.. He came close to killing Fraser
that way."        
        "When he's not hunting down Killers & Rapists which is
what all the men he's killed so far have been, he's busy
torching places. Apart from the drug lab's, he's also
torched 16 buildings. Including two RCMP outposts, where he
served with Fraser in the past. And in every instance, there
is a link to Fraser some how."
        "That's why you wanted to know if they were sure it was
that dope freak who trashed our place there."
        Welsh nodded.
        "There are five more names on that list.. People
they're almost certain he'll go after next.. Your name is
there.."
        "As far as Dante's concerned, I'm history, he probably
thinks that his little surprise package took care of me."
        "Thatcher's name is on the list too."
        "What?!"
        "He knows she was involved in your attempt to get
Fraser out of his clutches before it was too late. He wants
you dead because A.) He possibly views you as competition
for Fraser's affections and B.) You actively tried to
separate them."
        "Do you know for a fact that he knows Meg was helping
me?"
        "It went beyond that.. Once they started trying to work
out who he'd go after, there were two things that made
Thatcher a definite target. She stood up to him and made no
secret of the fact that she'd nail his hide to the wall if
she could find something to do it with. By all accounts, she
*ordered* Constable Turnbull to go out and slash his car's
tires to keep him from being able to leave in a hurry when
she was trying to do that."
        "I don't believe it."
        "Believe it. Once they found out she helped you, they
started back tracking and interrogated the staff at the
consulate to find out what happened when she crossed paths
with Dante."
        "And he knows about that?"
        "He's not stupid. I'm sure he knows who was behind what
happened to his car. And he knows for a fact that Meg was
taking action to get Fraser away from him. Some idiot called
the Sydney consulate and told him she had made a formal
complaint about him which they intended to investigate. The
timing suggests, that the phone call is what prompted his
near lethal assault on Fraser."
        "Tell me that moron got more than a slap on his wrist
for making that call."
        "I'll have to look into it."
        "Do you know where Dante was traced to last?"
        Welsh pulled out his note pad checking it and gave Ray
the name of the town.
        "Have you got your phone on you?"
        Welsh pulled it out and offered it to Ray. Ray waved a
mittened hand at him, then gave him a number to dial. Welsh
helped him rest the phone on his shoulder and then listened,
a brow raising as he did.
        "It's me, I'm just calling to see how you are... Oh,
aren't we in a snit. I wish I was there to see it... Did I
ever mention you're simply ravishing when you're stomping
around in a snit."
        Welsh snickered.
        "No.. I mean it.. But then again, you look ravishing
most of the time... What's that.. Caro, don't you know
Italian men like their women big."
        Welsh covered his mouth to hide his smile and backed
up.
        "What's more I can't wait to see you and prove it.
Remember those plans I had before I flew out... Yesss, those
plans," Ray purred making Welsh wonder what plans he was
talking about.
        "I can't wait to carry them out," Ray said then smiled.
        "Is there a smile on your face? I just bet there's a
really big smile on your face.. There is.. Ohh.. No.. I'm
not doing that.. Why??? Er.. I'm a cel phone, that's why..
Haven't you heard, idiots with scanners can listen to your
most intimate conversations and record them.... No. I'd love
to, but I can't come to you. You have to come to me. Do you
think you can get here sooner... You can't... Are you sure?
Uh-hu. Oh well. If you say so... But I'm warning you, Ma's
throwing women at me."
        Even across the room Welsh could hear Thatcher's
screech at that.
        "Very attractive women.. Just last night she threw this
voluptuous vixen who was over me like a rash. We're talking
Barracuda here... I told her, I was spoken for as soon as I
said, I wasn't married yet. She said.. Well.. never mind
what she said.. I wouldn't want to make your blood pressure
go through the roof... Well of course I told her to take a
hike.. But Ma isn't going to stop hurling her at me until
you show up and stake your claim.. One look at you my little
beached whale and she'll stop throwing these women at me and
start planning our wedding."
        Welsh wondered what Thatcher had to say about that,
whatever it was, it was obviously amusing because Ray
laughed.
        "You're probably right about that.. But.. It's not
going to happen. By the way.. I forget to ask.. Do you know
what sex the baby is yet?"
        Ray fell silent for a short time.
        "Say that again.."
        Ray broke into a grin.
        "That's incredible news.. Why didn't you tell me that
the other night," Ray asked, then laughed at her answer.
        "That'll teach me to ask the right questions.. here's
another question for you.. Can I pick a name for the girl..
I can.. Great.. I've already picked it.. Francesca."
        "Aha," Welsh crowed, working out Ray's little plan to
show his sister how grateful he was.
        "Yes.. I know it's my sister's name.. And if you want
to know why I want to call the girl after her, well, you're
just going to have to ask me to my face, Bye Caro."
        He flipped the phone closed.
        "That's how you're going show Francesca you're
grateful."
        Ray nodded with a little smile.
        "I thought her baby was Fraser's."
        "It... They are.."
        "Now I'm confused."
        "Meg and I were an item for a while... But that ended
after we got to Canada. But she thinks I'm the father. I
gave up trying to convince her otherwise.. I'm not going to
argue with her about it. She's *thrilled* to bits that I'm
finally admitting they're mine."
        "They?"
        "She's having twins. A pigeon pair, they worked it out
during her ultrasound's."
        "Uh-hu. If you're not careful, that wedding joke may
become a reality."
        "Oh, Meg has no interest in getting married. She likes
things the way there are.. or were. And regardless of what I
said to Meg, the last person my mother would suspect of
fathering her baby is me. She knows as well as I do that I
can't have children which is why she doesn't waste her time
throwing women at me."
        "I remember all the effort you went to trying to start
a family with your wife.. That beeper of yours always seemed
to go off at the worst time."
        "Yeah.. And it almost got me killed."
        "I remember that too. And the time it went off when you
were in the middle of interrogating some one."
        Ray chuckled at the memory.
        "And the way you made him start talking.."
        "How could I forget - it took weeks to live that down."
        "Did it ever go off at anything but a bad time?"
        "Just once. I got so sick of it going off at the worst
times, that I worked out when it was most likely to go off
next, and made sure nothing would go wrong.. I was spot on.
Just as I was about to walk in the front door it went off.
You should have heard the screech Angie let out when I
walked in ten seconds later."                
        Welsh laughed at that.

                *~~~~~~~~~~*ooOO0=@=0OOoo*~~~~~~~~~~*

                                Part Fourteen

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Ray blinked away as Doctor Paul Conti pulled back after
helping him to apply the special contacts which would
hopefully correct his vision.
        "Now these aren't *corrective* lenses, they're just
light filters, if your vision is blurred, tell me."
        Ray nodded and his hands kept moving up and down as he
fought the urge to rub at his eyes. The Doctor picked up his
goggles and held them over his face.
        "They don't work. Damn.. I was sure.."
        "No.. I mean.. They're just.. irritating."        
        The doctor lowered the goggles.
        "Alright. It takes a little while to grow accustomed to
lenses the first time. Now do you think you can stop
blinking for a few moments and let me take a closer look at
your eyes."
        Ray heard him flip his head set piece down and fought
the urge to blink and his eyes started focussing as the
Doctor leaned closer to examine his eyes.
        "No pain?"
        "I told you, they're just a little irritating, but I
s'pose I could get used to that."
        The Doctor smiled to himself, the pain he meant was the
pain Ray had complained about suffering whenever he was
exposed to any light brighter than a candle flame, the fact
Ray didn't register the pen light torch's light was a good
sign the contacts were filtering out the light the way they
were meant too. Putting his instrument in the tray, the
doctor reached for the eye drops.
        "Head back and no blinking."
        Ray obeyed.
        "O.K, now.. this should take care of that irritation."
        Ray felt the doctor run something along the bottom lid
of his eyes.
        "There we go.. You can blink away as much as you like
now."
        Ray did and the irritation stopped after a few more
blinks.
        "That's better."
        "Hmm.. Look around, can you focus now?"
        Ray looked around the room and slowly a smile touched
his face.
        "I can *see*. Charlene is sitting on a stool at the
back having a cup of coffee. Frannie was right, this place
does sparkle.." Ray said.
        The doctor gave a soft laugh as he babbled away
describing everything he could see in the room. Then Ray
looked back around and up at the Doctor and gave a little
laugh as he realised why his sister made sure she was never
late for any of her appointments. The Doctor was tall, well
built without being a muscle man and while with the cap and
surgical mask made it difficult to see his face, he had what
he imagined women called eyes to drown in.
        The Doctor held up a hand, one finger up.
        "Follow my finger please."
        Ray's eyes tracked it back and forth and up and down.
        "What colour is my gown?"
        "Claret."
        "O.K. what about this?" The Doctor asked reaching out
to pick up an instrument.
        "Orange."
        "And this?"
        "Emerald Green."
        "Close enough.."
        "What do you mean?"
        "The filter affects your ability to see colours. But
you can differentiate between one colour and the other."        
        "You mean I'm colour blind."
        "No. This is green..But it's fluro green.. The other
one is Fluro yellow, and my gown is red."
        "Bright Red?"
        "Yes."
        "Oh dear."
        "Can't be helped.. It took them 2 months to come up
with a pair of filtered lenses which would block out the
light but still allow you to see."
        "You mean they don't make lenses like these?"
        "They make all kinds. Including light filtering lenses.
Yours are experimental.. They've never had a request like
mine. And considered it quite a challenge. Here, can you
read what this says?" The Doctor said changing the subject
holding up an instrument still in sterile packaging.
        Ray focussed on it, the small lettering was just a blur
but he read out the brand name and other details which he
could make out. The Doctor pointed to the blurred details.
Ray shook his head.
        "I can't read that bit. It's just a blur."
        "I'll set up an appointment with the optometrist for
you."
        The Doctor set the instrument aside and reached for a
mirror holding it up.
        "But I think you can see well enough to see what you
look like now."
        Ray looked in the mirror then frowned.
        "A little ice should take care of the residual swelling
and the bruising will fade soon. Madeleine will give you a
make over before you leave and show you how to hide it."
        Ray raised a still mittened hand and reached out to
tilt the mirror.
        "Is there something wrong?"
        "Wrong?! I've got more hair on my head than I used to
have!" Ray almost wailed, then he touched his nose, "And my
nose is different.. You gave me a nose job, and I look at
least.. Ten years younger, this is terrible."
        "It is? Most of my patients would be *thrilled* to look
ten years younger."
        "Well I'm not!" Ray snapped, thinking of how this would
make it impossible to pretend nothing had happened with Meg.
        "Charlene, get the *before* snaps, please."
        His sister set her coffee aside, placing the lid on the
cup before she walked away to find the file in question. He
walked away with the instrument tray, the whole tray went
down the incinerator chute, then he peeled off his gloves
and tossed them in the incinerator and moved to the sink to
scrub up again, before pulling on fresh gloves and heading
back to the patient chair and pulling out a new tray from
the stand to place up top.
        "While we wait, let's have a look at that arm."
        "Which one?"
        "The one with the itch your sister told me you've been
complaining itches all the time about at home and never
mentioned to me."
        "Ah so you've been using my sister to spy on me."
        "Male patients, are the worst kind, you *never* tell me
if you feel any unusual aches, pains, tingles or itches. For
all you know your arm could be ready to drop off from
gangrene, all because enduring pain without complaint is the
macho thing to do."
        Ray held his arm up and the doctor reached for the
scissors and began cutting through the special bandages that
covered Ray's arm.
        "That's why I decided to go with you."
        "What do you mean?"
        "I mean out of all the Doctors I could have gone with
to carry out the follow up treatment, I chose you because
Frannie said this place was so clean it sparkles. You're so
fanatical about cleanliness that there's no way I could get
an infection or anything like that."

                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*
        
        Mrs Vecchio stood on the porch watching as Fraser
helped Meg to alight from the cab which was parked in the
drive. Frannie skidded to a stop beside her.
        "Was that your brother? He was supposed to be back over
an hour ago," Mrs Vecchio hissed in an aside.
        "That was the Doctor. He said something went wrong."        
        Mrs Vecchio's head swung around and she pinned Frannie
with her gaze.
        "*What* went wrong?"
        "I don't know," Franni said, smiling and wiggling her
fingers at Fraser, "He just said, something went wrong and
he took Ray to the hospital, for tests. He's going to be
there all night."
        "I will kill him."
        "Who, Ray or the Doctor?"
        "The Doctor."
        "Do you think you can wait till he finishes treating my
burns.. One last session and I'll be scar free."
        "Fine, I will kill him later."
        Francesca's eyes widened when Fraser moved to the side,
and she got her first good look at Meg in over a year.
        "Migod... She's huge."
        "She's having twins. They're due within a month"
        "That explains it."
        "Remember not a word about what happened to your
brother.. As far as they're concerned he's been undercover
these last few months."
        "I know, I know.. She's soooo delicate, she has to be
handled with kid gloves, etcetera, etcetera... Maybe it's a
good thing he's not here.. He is sooo clucky."
        "Let me do all the talking.
        Frannie rolled her eyes, and her mother gave Fraser a
big smile as he helped Meg up the stairs.
        "Welcome back, Benton, you're looking much better."
        "Thank-you.. Have you.."
        "Met Meg.. Yes. Come inside, get off your feet," Mrs
Vecchio said as she moved to take Meg's other arm.
        Fraser looked at Francesca noticing the gloves on her
hands and the bandages that were covering her arms.
        "What happened to..."
        "My arms. Let's just say young children and matches
don't mix."
        "Oh Dear."        
        Mrs Vecchio sent a little prayer of thanks upwards
Frannie's "story" was both simple and believable and hoped
she didn't decide to embellish it, but knowing her youngest,
she was about to do that.
        "Francesca take care of their bags," Mr's Vecchio cut
in just as Franni opened her mouth to add a little detail to
it.
        Francesca rolled her eyes and headed for the cab while
her mother took care of their guests, almost dragging Fraser
in as he instinctively tried to assist Frannie.
        "Where's Ray?" Meg asked.
        "Ray is out. He had some business to attend to, he
thought he would be home before you arrived. But it seems
you beat him home," Mrs Vecchio said as she lead them to the
lounge and made Meg sit.
        Fraser looked around and rustled up a foot stool for
her to put her feet up, while Mrs Vecchio slipped a few
cushions behind Meg's back.
        "How is that?"
        Meg settled back, wiggling a little, then gave a weak
smile and a nod.
        "Much better.. After that trip, my back is killing me."
        "I'll just go help Francesca with the bags," Fraser
announced preforming a perfect about face and marching off.        
        Mrs Vecchio sent a prayer upwards that her stubborn
offspring would refrain on embellishing her story while he
was helping her.
        "Would you like something to drink?"
        "Coffee and make it fast, before he gets back."
        With a little chuckle Mrs Vecchio bustled off.
        "He's one of those men."
        "Cluckity Cluckity cluck cluck cluck."
        
                        *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Fraser helped Meg down the staircase, where Mrs Vecchio
met them, wiping her hands on a tea towel.
        "Did Ray come back last night?"
        "Yes," Mrs Vecchio lied, "You were sleeping when he
arrived and he chose to sleep on the couch rather than wake
you. You missed him by half an hour."
        "Where did he go?"        
        "I have no idea. He was out the door before I could ask
him, though he did say something about house hunting. Were
you planning..?"
        "Meg nodded."
        "Yes. It's not that we don't appreciate your
hospitality. It's the stairs."
        "I understand completely."
        The front door opened and Frannie bounded in, Ray's
keys in hand, a big shoulder bag hanging at her hip with a
map sticking out of it.
        "Good, You're up. Are you ready to go?"
        "Go where?"
        She pulled out the map and a note pad.
        "House hunting."
        Meg and Fraser shared looks.
        "There's a great cafe near the first place on Ray's
list. We can get breakfast there. The car's open Benton, why
don't you help Meg into the car. And don't say it Ma, You
know exactly what Ray thinks about Meg staying here, in her
condition," Frannie said rapid fire.
        Her mother threw her hands up and walked away.
        "Ray isn't joining us?"
        "He's already seen all these places, and has his
favourite, which is last on the list," Frannie lied, she'd
been out canvassing every real estate agent in town to find
decent houses for rent and knew exactly what the last house
on the list looked like, it had been the one the family
rented to be near Ray at the hospital.
        "He asked me to take you around," She said, that much
was the truth.
        "Why isn't he joining us?"
        "He didn't tell you?"
        "We missed him."
        "Oh.. He had to go to court.. He could there all day."
        "Ah," Meg and Fraser both chorused.
        Then Fraser began leading Meg to the door. Frannie
moved after her mother and cornered her in the kitchen.
        "Did you see him?" Mrs Vecchio said in a low tone.
        Frannie nodded.
        "How is he?"
        "Do you remember how he kept complaining he had an itch
was driving him up the wall and rubbing at his arm?"
        Her mother nodded.
        "It was itching for a reason, he had an infection... He
could loose his arm."
        Mrs Vecchio closed her eyes at that.
        "He said, Doctor Conti exploded when he saw his arm and
called him every name for idiot under the sun for not
telling him about that itch before now. He shut his surgery
down to take Ray to the Hospital and he's doing everything
he can to beat the infection without going that far."
        "How is Ray taking it?"
        "He's pretty out of it.. They've got him on pain
killers and antibiotics, he could barely stay awake to talk
to me and tell me what to do."
        "We can't afford this now.. There's no money left."
        "You don't have to worry about it, Doctor Conti is
paying for everything out of his own pocket."
        "He is???"        
        "They preformed tests.. They're waiting on the
results.. The tests should tell them what caused the
infection and once they know that they'll be able to work
out how his arm became infected.. The Doctor said, that no
matter what the results were - he would be covering
everything out of his own pocket. If the test's prove he got
the infection at the Doctor's surgery.. Ray will be
compensated.. How much he gets depends on what the end
result is."
        "We don't have to sue him?"
        "No."
        "Why?"
        "That's what I said, he told me to ask him that
question when the whole matter is settled."

                *~~~~~~~~~~*=@=*~~~~~~~~~~*

        Ray lay on his hospital bed, which had been sterilised
to within an inch of its existence by his Doctor's staff.
His infected arm was extended out from the bed resting on
sterile sheet, on a sterile stainless steel mobile table,
under a sterile tent that hid it from view. He could feel
hundreds of something's crawling all over his arm and kept
shuddering and wished he hadn't refused the Doctor's offer
to put him under again.
        He'd wanted to be more aware when Frannie returned,
now, even knowing that the gross treatment his arm was
undergoing was his last chance to keep it, but revolted none
the less he wished Doctor Conti would come back and make the
offer again. All he wanted to do was pull his arm away and
brush the creatures consuming the bad tissue away, among
other things.
        He heard the door open and listened to the foot steps.
He recognised them as Doctor Conti's. He listened to the
Doctor move to the side of his bed and heard the rustle of
cloth as the Doctor checked his arm.
        "Oh. Yes.. This is good.. This is very good."
        "Is it?"
        "I know what your arm looked like, but our little
friends here are showing me just how far the infection had
infiltrated your tissue. And it looks as if it didn't go as
deep as I feared. In fact it looks to me like it's
concentrated in and around the grafts."
        "My other arm?"
        "Looks clean so far."
        "You missed Frannie again."
        "I did.. And I wanted to talk to her about .."
        Ray snorted.
        "You just want to talk to her, period."
        He heard rustling, squeaks and other sounds of nervous
movment.
        "You've got the hots for my sister, haven't you?"
        He heard more nervous movement.
        "She's still a patient, I don't date patients."
        "But when you finish what you started and she's no
longer your patient, you'd like to see her, socially,
wouldn't you..?"
        "Is this when you give me the if you touch my sister,
I'll flatten you speech?"
        "No.. if you want to date my sister, that's fine with
me."        
        "It is???"
        "But if you mess with her, I'll kill you."
        Paul chuckled at Ray's threat.        
        "I'm Catholic, single, rich and a well respected member
of society. Who's on the prowl - for a wife, not a one night
stand."
        "Oh.. So you think my sister might be wife material?"
        "Can she cook?"
        "Uh-hu."
        "What's she like with kids?"
        "Great."
        "Any objections to your sister being *courted*."
        "Absolutely none at all."
        "Good, I hate sneaking around."
        Ray heard plastic tearing then felt something attached
to his forehead.
        "Let's go through the list again shall we. Any aches or
pains in new places?"
        "No."
        "Any itch?"
        "Yeah, my nose."
        Another plastic tearing noise followed, he felt latex
covered fingers touch his face and his nose and checks
started to feel just a fraction warmer.
        "Hmmm.."
        "I *hate* hmmm's. I think Doctor's invented the Hmmm,
just to torture their patients a little."
        The Doctor chuckled.
        "Sorry.. I'm going to move something over your nose in
a minute.. Tell me when I touch the spot that itches."
        Ray gave a little nod and listened to him open
something else. He felt cool metal touch his nose and gently
slide over it.
        "Right there."
        The faint warmth returned for a short time then he
heard a bottle being opened and felt a dab of chill liquid
on the spot. The itch continued for a few seconds and
vanished.
        "There.. That should take care of it. Any other
itches?"
        "There's a really maddening one that keeps coming and
going on the sole of my foot," Ray said, lifting the foot in
question.
        He soon felt the blanket being turned up, and then the
touch of that cool liquid being smeared over the sole of his
foot before the blanket was drawn down and he heard the
doctor moving about.
        "Anywhere else?"
        "No, thank god.. That's the only *good* thing about
this whole disaster.. The itch was driving me insane. Now
it's gone.. I'd be estatic if you could just make those
creepy crawlies stay off the rest of my arm."
        "You can feel them?!"
        "Yeah... And it feels gross."
        "I know you're sick of hearing me say this but.."
        "That's a good sign."
        "Yes, but there's no reason you have to put up with
that, I'll give you a local, that will do the trick."
        "Could you do it, *now*.. In some ways, that's *worse*
than the itch."
        "What did I tell you?" The annoyed doctor asked.
        "To tell you if I felt any pain, but it's not exactly..
Pain, it's just.. It's hard to describe.. the only word I
can think of is.. revolting."
        Ray heard rattling and plastic being torn, then
movement. A short time later he felt soft swabbing and a
prick as needle was put to use. That was followed by the
sound of the needle being tossed and more plastic being
torn. The whole procedure was repeated three more times.
        "There.. Now this one is really going to hurt, try not
to go through the roof, hmm. And don't even think of bitting
your lip, scream all you like.. but don't wreck my work."
        Ray gave a little chuckle at that then let out a scream
as the needle plunged home.
        "Migod, you weren't joking about that hurting," He
panted. "But I s'pose you're gonna say that's another one of
those good signs right."
        He heard rattling and felt the touch of fingers on his
arm.
        "That is a good sign isn't.." Ray's inquiry became a
loud scream and the Doctor's hand flew to his shoulder to
stop him moving.
        "Oh-god.. What did you do?"
        "Sorry."
        Ray screamed even louder and clawed at the bed with his
other hand as his arm was manipulated again.
        "OHGOD, STOP!"
        Ray arched off the bed as the next thing the Doctor did
produced the most agonising pain yet. He thought he was
going to pass out or throw up, maybe both. Then it eased off
and his whole arm was just a mass of throbbing pain and he
heard the rattling and plastic ripping.
        "God.. Give me the pain killer already."
        He felt the prick of a needle again, and the pain
slowly faded but along with the reduction of pain, came the
sensations that told him it wasn't the pain killer he was
given.
        "I said.. The pain killer..not the sedative," he
slurred as he fought the sedative's effects.
        He felt the touch of a hand, stroking his hair.
        "Stop fighting it, when you wake up, it'll be all
over."
        "Don't.. take my arm off.. Please.. I don wanna loose
my arm.."
        
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        "I love this house, what do you think, Benton?"
        "It is certainly the best one we've seen so far."
        "We can turn that bedroom at the end of the hall into
an office, and that one in the middle would make a perfect
nursery."
        Frannie listened to Meg babble on about the house and
what they could do with it with a touch of annoyance. The
house *was* the best one they'd seen, it was better than the
one her family had rented in more ways than one. It was only
a few years old, it was in a nice street, all the rooms were
large and it had a chef's kitchen, a sensualists bathroom,
all marble and sparkling fixtures, a spa and pool in the
back.
        "We would have to have the pool fenced off and
covered."
        "What?"
        "Well once the children start walking it would be a
death trap. Toddlers and inground pools are a lethal
com