The BLTS Archive- Tears in The Rain
One: A Moment in Time I
by Laura Jacquez Valentine (jacquez@dementia.org)

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Paramount owns Star Trek. I own a computer, a couch, and a couple of
kittycats.  Also three rats and a Persian rug.

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I was furious with him for hiding this--whatever it was.  I stormed
into his quarters, ready to push him down into his chair and hold him
until he told me what the fuck was going on.

But he moved like he'd lost control; jerky and abrupt, not at all like
the Spock I knew.  I almost--I don't know what I almost did.  Hell,
this was *Spock*.  As vulnerable as if he's been stripped naked on the
bridge--no, that wouldn't bother him like--whatever it was.

He moved to put his stylus down, and I saw his hand shaking.  Before I
could think (we don't touch Vulcans, we don't touch Vulcans, they
drilled it into me in the Academy, never touch Vulcans unless they
touch you first, dear God in heaven, don't touch Vulcans...) I took
his hand in mine.

Felt it vibrate in my grip, at though moved by an unknown force
running under his skin.

Felt it burn my skin--he was so hot, but I couldn't tell if he was
feverish--McCoy would have known at once--

--and he was inside my head, inside my body, all at once.  Every part
of me was suddenly part of him--

I let him go and became Captain James T. Kirk again, angry, strict.

But I was no longer quite alone inside my head--

Dear God in heaven, what has happened to me?

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The End