The BLTS Archive- What Have We Gotten Ourselves Into?
by T'Lin (linkys@aol.com)

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T'Lin - 0011.13

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PERSONAL LOG ... stardate 48327.4


Damn! This is going to be one *hell* of a long trip home! I mean, in
some ways, I'm actually looking forward to it .. after all, it beats
the hell out of cooling my heels in jail!

But then again, with the way both Starfleet and Maquis look at me, I
might be better off sitting on my ass in the brig! I'm really not sure
if Janeway did either of us a favor by giving me my rank and position.
Shit ... you can feel the resentment from all around ... especially
from the Maquis ... if Chakotay can't keep them in line, this might be
the decision that leads to her ultimate downfall.

And that's another thing ... I can't believe that Chakotay has
personally vouched for my safety among the crew. I would have sworn
that he would have been first in line when it came to *beating time*
... my saving his life not coming into the equation ...  after all, he
considers me a traitor to the  Maquis cause.

So here I am ... alone among two crews who have become one ...
belonging to neither. The only people who are *on my side* are the
Captain, who is a friend of my father, and expecting a great deal from
me, and an ensign who is so green, it isn't funny.

Ah ... Ensign Harry Kim. I still don't know what to make of him. If he
knew what was good for him, he'd stay clear of me ... after all, it
wouldn't do for him to get the crap beat out of him, just because he
was dumb enough to befriend me. I know I couldn't live with myself if
he was hurt because of me.

Of course, I've tried to fend him off ... make him aware of just how
dangerous it could be to get too close, but he doesn't seem to care.

I don't know ... he's so naïve, maybe I should make a pass at him! I
bet he'd run off real quick if I came-on to him.

Hell ... who am I trying to kid! I don't really want to chase him off
... I want to get to know him better. He's gorgeous! I got a chubby
the first time I laid eyes on him! If I didn't think it *would* scare
him off, I'd tell him how I feel whenever he's near.

But then, I think of what would happen if we were closer than friends
... I'm already afraid that his befriending me will cause trouble with
the crew, can you imagine what it would be like if we were lovers?

So I'll sit back and do nothing ... perhaps, eventually, the crew will
accept me for who I am, not condemn me for what I did in the past.

And as for Harry Kim ... I'll leave well enough alone. We have a long
journey ahead of us, and if we are meant to be together ... as
friends, or better yet, lovers ... we will be.

END LOG

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The End