The BLTS Archive- Destiny's Irony
#8: Take Your Second Chance
by T'Len (tlen@freenet.de)

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Note: This is the 9th part in my AG-Universe, the 4th in the DS9-
storyline, continuing the events from "Triple with Tribble" (KFF), 
"Talks and Tribble-ations" (FF) and "Destiny's Irony" (FFF). Archive: 
Trekiverse, BOBW, WWOMB, BLTS, Heart Attack, Marianne, GSSU, others 
just ask.

Disclaimer: Paraborg/Viacom owns the whole Star Trek universe. I only
borrowed a little part of it for some fun. No moneymaking, no offence
of copyrights are intended. The story is mine and it is just
fanfiction.

If you are under age, please stay away. If you have a problem with
m/m-sex and relationships, then look elsewhere for your entertainment.
English is not my native language, so please be patient with my
mistakes.

T'Lin did a really great job to correct my errors, not to mention all
the suggestions she gave. My greatest gratitude to her. For all
remaining errors, blame me.

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Ezri Dax took another deep breath. It didn't help much to ease her
nervousness. The air in the academy-corridor smelled stale. The
air-conditioner didn't seem to work well. Ezri suppressed the urge to
immediately run away and forget everything that she had planned...
forever. If he would just get here, already, so she could get this
over with.

All the doubts about her decision surfaced again, and she asked
herself silently if she was about to do the right thing? Did she
really have the right to alter the lives of four adult people and two
innocent children? Didn't she take too much responsibility on her
shoulders?

And then she remembered the sad look on Julian's face and the broken
voice with which he had told her about his feelings for Miles. And she
saw Jadzia 's memories about her love with Keiko. No, she decided,
lies and cowardice had cost too much pain over the last years. It was
time to end those farces. Although it was too late for Jadzia, it
wasn't so for Julian and Miles. And she was sure Keiko would
understand why she couldn't be silent any longer.

Ezri took a strong position. She would tell Miles all and just hope
the he was able to do the right thing afterwards.

"Ezri, what a surprise!" Miles O'Brien smiled at the Trill and held
her in an fierce embrace. "What are you doing here? How are things
going on the station? How's Major Kira and Jake and."

He stopped, but Ezri knew all too well which name he couldn't say,
although he wanted nothing more then to know the answer. She observed
him closely and noted the deep shadows around his eyes. He wasn't
happy with his knew life as a teacher on Earth, she could see this
clearly.

And with this, the decision was made. "I have to talk with you" she
said. "About Julian:"

The smile on Miles' face was immediately replaced be a worried look.
"What about him?" he asked, his voice slightly shaken.

"He misses you" Ezri answered.

Miles took a deep breath. "I miss him, too" he stated. "But there was
no other choice."

"You shouldn't have gone." She didn't want to reproach him, but
suddenly she felt anger. There was Miles, obviously full of self-pity
about his lost, when the only one he ever had just wanted him to speak
openly about his feelings.

"He loves you." She spoke louder then she had planned, not caring if
somebody could overhear their discussion. Why could people - adults -
just be that. fucking, stupid idiots? She wondered: Was that Jadzia
cursing in her?

"And you love him, too," she continued. "But you're a stupid idiot ...
you didn't have the courage to stay. Have you any idea how much you've
hurt him? He always had to share you with your wife and your family
and then you just ran away and left him behind and lonely."

Miles had turned pale. "You know?" he whispered. "Why did he tell
you?"

"Because he needed someone to talk to after you'd gone. And I'm a
counselor and his friend. I care about him - unlike you:"

"I care about him" Miles said. "But I have to think about my kids
first: Keiko would never understand."

She couldn't stop her sarcastically laughter. "Oh, really? Are you
sure? Your wife is a lesbian. She slept with Jadzia from the first
time they met until she became pregnant with your son. She would
gladly have left you for her but she feared your reaction."

Miles slumped against the wall, shocked, as she continued on
recklessly. All these lost possibilities made her furious. "Do you
understand? Keiko didn't want you any more. You could have been happy
with Julian and she with Jadzia and Jadzia would probably still be
alive if just one of you had spoken."

O'Brien was pale. "I didn't know," he whispered. "I didn't have any
idea."

"No, of course not. You both where so determined to hold on to your
facade of a nice family that you didn't notice how much you hurt
yourself and others."

She took a deep breath and tried to calm down. "It's too late for
Jadzia and Keiko, but it's not to late for you and Julian. Miles,
please, for Julian's sake and your own be honest to yourself and to
your family. He needs you and I'm sure Keiko will finally understand."

Miles closed his eyes, obviously thinking everything he just had heard
over. "I have to see him," he finally said, once again looking at her.

"The ship I've come in goes back to DS 9 in two hours" Ezri said. "If
you can take a spontaneous leave from the academy you can have my
passage. I'm also willing to see Keiko and speak to her. At least I
own her an explanation why I told you about Jadzia and her. I hope she
will forgive me."

Miles nodded. "Tell her that I still love her . as a friend... and
that I wil] come back soon so we can figure out what is best for the
kids. And=" He placed his hands on her shoulders. "I thank you."

---

Ezri felt uncomfortable as the door opened. It had sounded like such a
good idea when she had told it to Miles. If she could remind Keiko of
the happiness that she had felt in her relationship with Jadzia, and
the sadness about not seeing a chance for a joint future, she would
surely understand Miles and Julian and grant them their happiness. But
now she felt unsure again.

"Ezri. I didn't expect to see you so soon again:" Keiko smiled at her
and gave her a welcoming embrace. You have to tell me everything about
our friends at the station. How's Kassidy's pregnancy." She stooped
her small talk as she noticed the sad expression in Ezri's eyes. "Is
something  wrong?"

"I have to talk to you. about Miles." Ezri sighed. That wouldn't be
easy.

Keiko only nodded. She couldn't quell the feeling that something
terrible had happened. "What's about Miles?" she asked as soon as both
women were seated at the couch. "He's at the academy right now."

Ezri shook her head. "No, he isn't He is on his way to DS 9."

Keiko's eyes grew wide. "What?"

The young Trill took another deep breath. "There is something you have
to know. It's not easy but please try to understand. Miles and Julian
were lovers for nearly the last seven years."

She saw the shocked surprise in Keiko's face and hurriedly continued
with her explanation. "After you had gone, Julian and I started a
brief relationship, but it didn't work. He finally told me why. He
couldn't forget Miles any more than Jadzia could ever forget you.
Miles never dared to speak to you 'cause he feared you would take the
kids and leave. I know that, for very much the same reason, you never
talked to him either. So in the end, everybody was unhappy because
nobody took the risk of being open. I finally decided that it was
about time to change a few things. And so I told Miles today about you
and Jadzia."

Keiko jumped to her feet. "How could you do such a thing without
asking me first?" she shouted. "It's my life you have just ruined."

Ezri had counted with this. "It was also Jadzia's life which means it
is now my concern as well. And Julian is my friend. I couldn't see him
suffer any longer. He deserved to be happy, as did Miles. And you -
you're not really happy in your marriage. I'm sure we all can work
something out... not just what's best for us, but especially for the
kids."

She stood up, too and reached for Keiko's shoulders. "Please, grant
them their happiness."

Keiko sighed. "I have to admit, in some ways I feel relieved that the
truth is out. But I'm the looser in this "game". Jadzia is dead and we
will never." She stopped, her voice shaken.

"No, not if you still like a Dax." Surprised, Ezri stopped. She hadn't
thought about saying something like this until now. As any united
Trill she would not have any problem with a same-sex-relationship, but
she didn't think of Keiko in that way till now. But she felt
instinctively that it was right. Probably destiny was not only
offering a second chance to Miles and Julian.

"You want me?" Keiko could barely speak with surprise.

"There is still a lot of Jadzia in me and I've strong feelings for
you. It wouldn't be the same for you, of course, but if you like to
give it a try."

"I think it's forbidden to renew a relationship with a former host?"

Ezri nodded. "Principal yes, but where no suitor. Nobody officially
knows about you and Jadzia. Miles and Julian will not tell. And
neither Jadzia nor Curzon did care to much about such rules, I guess
they have inflicted me." She smiled at Keiko. "I'm willing to give it
a try if you want, too:"

---

Ezri moaned with pleasure. She had never been with a woman before but
there were all those memories of former host and, of course,
especially Jadzia's which surfaces now. So she know what to do.
Although she didn't need to do much as Keiko was doing all the "work".

Tender lips sucked her right nipple in a wet mouth. Then a wet trail
was made from one breast to the other, and then the left nub was
sucked to equal hardness. Ezri moaned again. She remembered Julian
doing the same thing to her, but it hadn't felt that pleasant in any
way. Now she felt as if her whole body was enflamed.

Eagerly she combed her hands in the long silky dark hair and pushed
the head deeper down her naked body. Sounds of ecstasy escaped her
again and she became wetter then she already was, as the hungry mouth
finally was on her.

She closed her eyes, feeling the sheer pleasure in every nerve of her
body. Sharp nails were racked over the sensitive skin of her inner
thighs and the fire in her raised even higher. Then a tongue slid in
her - and a nearly animal like cry of lust escaped her as she came.
Keiko's voice soon answered her.

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"Everything is fine with you and the baby." Julian Bashir smiled at
his patient. He gestured through the glass door in the direction of
the figure waiting outside. "You can assure Jake of this fact."

Kassidy smiled. "He feels responsible for us since his father had
gone. He' s really a nice boy, I just wished." She sighed. "Ben would
still be with us."

Julian tenderly patted her shoulder. "I do not believe in Gods and
such things, but the prophets are real and I'm sure he's watching over
you."

The woman nodded. "Yes, I think this, too. And I have friends like you
which help me." She stood up from the bed and walked in the direction
of the door "Thank you, Julian:"

"You're always welcome." He was  just about to turn around and go back
to his office when someone hurried inside.

"Miles?" Julian was surprised. His astonishment grew as Miles grasped
his arm and hauled him in the office. "I have to talk to you.
Immediately," was his only explanation.

Once the door had closed behind them Julian found himself hugged and
kissed over and over again. "I've missed you so much," Miles groaned.
"I'm not leaving you again."

Finally Julian was able to extract himself and to push O'Brien a
little bit away. "Miles, what does that mean?"

"I want you. I need you now and here." Miles grasped for Julian again
and the surprised Doctor found his pants pushes down and himself
places against his desk before he could even think of some defense.
Not that he really wanted to defeat Miles either.

He had already become erect  from the fierce kisses and the feeling of
Miles closeness. And all this suppressed feelings and desires for his
beloved and their union that he had tried to forget over the last
months surfaced again. "Take me" he pleaded as he felt Miles pressing
his own large and now freed cock against his ass. All the anger and
sadness were gone. The only thing that counted at the moment was
feeling Miles inside him again.

"Do you have something?" O'Brien whispered. Julian was barely able to
point him in the direction of the next drawer.

He moaned as Miles pressed two coated fingers into him. He couldn't
wait, he didn't want to wait. Some part of his mind was doubting if
everything was really happening. Probably this was only a dream. No,
he reminded himself. He was in his sickbay and Miles was just about to
fuck him.

He hadn't any idea why Miles had suddenly appeared. And he wasn't able
to ask right now nor did it seem that his friend was in any condition
to answer his questions.

Miles drove his fingers back and immediately pushed his cock inside
the opening. "At home" he growled. "I'm at home."

---

Reality returned after the waves of orgasm had vanished. Julian pushed
Miles aside and reached for his pants. As he did, the feelings of loss
and fury over Miles' leaving a few months ago resurfaced. He had just
started to get used to the fact of Miles' leaving when he suddenly
returned and screwed him over his desk without any explanation.

"Isn't it a  long way from Earth to DS 9 for just a quick fuck?" he
said, his voice full of sarcasm.

Miles also reached for his pants. "It's not that, Julian. I'm back to
stay with you forever."

Surprised Bashir stumbled to his seat and fell down. "You've told
Keiko all of a sudden?"

O'Brien took the opposite chair. "Not exactly. Ezri came to see me and
told me about you and her and that you've told her about us and that
you miss me and. Nevertheless, she also told me that Jadzia and Keiko
had an intimate relationship, which Keiko ended when she was pregnant
the second time. It would be ironic if it wasn't so tragic. She would
have gladly ended our marriage if I only had asked her. On the other
hand she didn't dare to speak to me, either, because of the kids."

He shook his head. "I still can't believe that [what we should have
done all along was speak the truth. Instead we nearly ruined all of
our lives with our fears. In any way I immediately left Earth after I
heard this. Ezri told Keiko the reason and it seems that they will
both be together as well. I spoke with her from the ship and she
wishes us luck. I'm sure we can make some arrangements for Molly and
Kira-Yoshi."

He stood up and walked behind Julian, placing his hands on the
doctor's shoulders. "If you will give me a second chances I'm all
yours."

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The End