The BLTS Archive - Kathryn
by Suz (suzvoy@yahoo.com)

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Date: 23 October 1999

In the eyes of others.

Archive: Yes Ma'am.

Disclaimer - Yeah, Paramount>own them.

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'In a book or a face you will look for your place and you
point to the  sky and you don't know why.'
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Who am I?

Their faces tell me.

I am their fearless leader, the woman who strives against 
adversity for their cause again and again, never faltering.
I am wise,  beautiful, and unable to get through the day
without indulging in a little cup  of coffee.

I am the woman who gave him a second chance. I am the
woman he should  hate for taking away some of what I gave
him, but he cannot. It is not possible. I am his Captain.
And sometimes, something more.

I am a companion. I am an old acquaintance, although 'old'
is a  relative term when accounting for the history of the
Universe. I am often  highly illogical, but my methods
produce satisfactory results more often than not. I am what
humans call 'stubborn'.

I am the woman who gave him his first chance. Pulling in an
officer so fresh from the Academy that he barely knew which
uniform to put on in the morning. I am the woman who took a
risk to provide him with an opportunity.  Despite all that
occurred, he would not forget that.

I am a human female. Age: 46 Earth standard years.
Designation:  Captain. Use of birth name is not encouraged.
I insist on providing information  which I believe to be
helpful but is frequently frustrating.

I am too hard on myself. Never getting enough rest or sleep,
never eating properly or healthily. I am far too stressed
and under too much pressure. I refuse to delegate, refuse
to give the responsibility to someone else. I often forget
that every member of my crew is a person.

I am Starfleet. Dominated by rules and regulations...but I
gave her an opportunity, and she still cannot understand
why. Even now, after all this time. I never take the time
to talk to her anymore.

I am...

...Kathryn.

I forget that, some days.

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The End