The BLTS Archive - Dearest Dax
by Pixie Child (glitery_insane_pixie_child@yahoo.ca)

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Published: 08-27-03

Updated: 08-27-03

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I sit here and run my hand along her nude, sleeping form, my fingers
lightly tracing her spots. I've always longed to do this with Jadzia,
not Ezri. But Jadzia is dead, and the woman in my bed is the closest
link to her. I know it's wrong to use Ezri like this, but I can't help
myself. I loved Jadzia with all my heart and I always will, and I have
somehow transferred some of my love toward Jadzia into Ezri. I'd ask
the ship's counselor, but Ezri is she and I don't think it would go
over to well.

"Mmm..." She moans and leans into my caresses. "Julian." Ezri opens
her eyes and smiles at me. I smile back as she gets up, covering
herself with my sheet, and walks around my room, gathering her clothes
before going into the bathroom to take a sonic shower. And although I
feel guilty for using her I know deep in my heart I know I will stay
with her. Because as I said earlier, she is the only link to Jadzia
there is.

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The End