The BLTS Archive - Have You Ever?
by Omega (alisasheldon@hotmail.com)

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Disclaimer: ParaBorg, yes. Omega, no way in hell.

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We were always the best of friends.

Always together.

We were closer than brothers.

We grew closer than most people do in a lifetime.

Why did you leave?

Shit, what the hell am I doing?

You're fast asleep,recovering from that meld with that psychotic
probe, and I'm standing over you pouring my bruised heart out.

As if you cared.

//shaken breaths//

But my friend....you do care.

I know that.

After that incident in Sickbay... nothing can erase that look of love
in your eyes.

The damnedest thing is, it's the love I've felt for years.

So many times I've cried to keep it from bursting out.

I didn't want to drive you away, but you left despite my efforts.

//very faint sobs//

There were times when...

I couldn't sleep for wanting you so badly.

There were times when I tried to speak but I couldn't find the words.

Well, now I've found them.

I love you, Spock.

I love you more than life.

I only hope that... someday... I'll be able to tell you.

//sounds of a person getting up//

Sleep well, my friend.

It'll be a long day tomorrow.

//someone else rises//

"Jim." Spoken softly.

Whispered. "Spock?" A smile, undiminished by the dark.

"And I you."

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The End