The BLTS Archive - Unborn Fawn
by Bloodraven (jodydieckelt@gmail.com)

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Author's Note: This tale takes place when Kira visits her mother and
realizes for the first time what her mother had become, during the ep
"Wrongs Darker then Death or Night".

As per usual, none of this mine. All belongs to Paramount and to the
creators of Star Trek: Deep Space 9.

Having said that I'd like to dedicate this "drabble" to cruisedirector
for posting the poem seen below that inspired this tale which I would
like to call:  The Unborn Fawn

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By glow of the taillight I stumbled back of the car and stood by
the heap, a doe, a recent killing; she had stiffened already, almost
cold. I dragged her off; she was large in the belly.

My fingers touching her side brought me the reason-- her side was
warm; her fawn lay there waiting, alive, still, never to be born.

Travelling through the Dark - William Stafford
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I stare in shock at my mother as I realize the truth. In silent
support she stands by the one man who destroyed both my life and the
lives of my family. So many words rush through my thoughts as shock
turns to pain and pain into anger, an emotion I've learnt to cling
onto when I know my Pagh is bleeding from wounds that can never heal.

As Dukat prattles on, mocking me with his words and his condescending
smirk, my own mother mocks me in her silence. They say words are
weapons, but in this moment it is silence that is the killer.

The truth hits me harder then I had anticipated, it never once
occurred to me just how desperately I secretly clung onto the hope
that Dukat's words are nothing more then lies. But for once he has
told me the truth and now I watch helplessly, as my entire universe
comes crashing down.

All I wanted is to change the inevitable, to stop the nightmare from
becoming a reality. I did everything in my power to change it, but in
the end it still proved futile.

In blind fury and desperation, I argue with her, trying one last time
to make her see the truth. Yet deep in my heart I know she is lost.
Like a creature that is stunned at the sight of a bright light, she
too is blinded. But unlike a creature that is helpless, my mother
chose to be blinded. She wanted to believe Dukat's lies over the truth
and now I realize that it's too late even for me to change her mind.
As I storm out of their quarters, I don't know what hurts more. The
fact she is lost to me or the fact that now I, her daughter am lost to
her.

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The End