The BLTS Archive - Erin'ka Second in the Uluhshan series by BGM (bgmanic@gmail.com) --- /You let me feel your danger I let you make this feeling clear here I want the touch of your charms The heat of your breath I wanna say all those things That would be better unsaid/ You're so physical - Nine Inch Nails --- "Well?" Julian felt himself tremble uncontrollably. The Cardassian, his friend, his lunch companion, was staring at him expectantly from across the table. The roar of patrons laughing and chattering dwindled to a dull distant muffle as the blood poured through his veins and thundered in his ears. He was certain his face was a deep shade of red. Garak's lips twitched with tempered amusement. "I'll understand if you don't want to," he said, his voice nonchalant as he lowered his eyes to the menu. "Perhaps I was mistaken." "No," Julian whispered, shocked at how much he wanted to let Garak know otherwise. He clenched his fists and clumsily rose to his feet. "I'll ... be waiting," he said breathily, beating a hasty retreat out of Quark's. Garak smiled slowly and put his menu down with deliberate care. --- When Julian rushed into his quarters, he felt like the temperature on the station had raised to unbearable levels. He tugged at his collar, leaning back on the wall to gather his scattered wits. Ever since 'Uluhshan' had made his way into his life a week ago, Julian had found no time to really think about the implications of what he was doing. It was fun in the beginning, albeit a little alarming. Then it had lowered into dark waters indeed. He cast his anxious gaze at the chair and gnawed on his lower lip. Soon, Garak would be here, and he would no longer have the safety of privacy anymore. Julian cried out and shoved himself away from the wall when the chime rang. He exhaled, closing his eyes. Before he could begin to doubt his actions, he reached out and pressed the door trigger. Garak was already smiling. With a particularly reptilian languor he placed his hands on the frame of the door and leaned in. "I must remind you, Doctor, that once I step over this threshold, 'no' will cease to have any meaning for me. Do you understand?" His eyes glimmered with anticipation, something the tailor couldn't quite mask despite his sang-froid. Julian felt pinned by it, compelled to nod his head frantically. "Good," Garak drawled, giving him a sinuous smile as he entered. He glanced over his shoulder absently when the door closed then took his time to assess the doctor's quarters. "Much like I expected them to be. It saddens me to see you've not decorated since my last visit." Julian remembered that some year ago, when they had investigated the circumstances surrounding the Padar boy, Garak had been in here. He wondered if the Cardassian had felt the same way about him that night, when he woke him in his bedroom without announcing his presence at the door. Julian turned around, distracted by these thoughts, and moved toward the replicator. "Would you like something to drink?" He gasped, closing his eyes when he felt Garak's hand in his hair. He hadn't heard him move. "Ever the gallant host," the Cardassian purred in his ear, twisting his hair into knots as he pulled his head back. Julian winced, his hands flailing up to grip the replicator dais. "'No' has no meaning for me," Garak continued, stroking his fingers down the length of his throat, "But I wouldn't dream of causing you distress. Now that I know what you like, I have a good idea about what the limits are. But though I am a very good judge of character, even the best of us can err on occasion. When you feel uncomfortable about continuing, I want you to say 'Uluh'. Conquered. I will know to stop." Julian nodded with difficulty and suddenly let loose a strangled cry when Garak shoved him against the wall. He braced himself as best he could, panting erratically. "Don't be frivolous with the word, Julian," Garak said from behind him. "Or it will lose its meaning just as quickly as 'no' has." Julian nodded again, staring wide-eyed at the wall. He didn't know whether to turn around or not. He decided to stay as he was, feeling the heat of his body lick at his groin. "Turn around." Julian hiccuped, twisting and keeping his shoulders splayed on the wall. He stared at Garak, clearly overcome by desire. Garak laced his hands casually behind his back and appraised him from head to toe. Julian squirmed under the defiling observation, craning his neck so that he could rest his head on the wall. "What are you thinking about?" Julian blinked and tried to focus on an answer. "I suppose I'm a bit overwhelmed ... confused." "How so?" Garak wasn't pacing. He wasn't moving at all. His eyes were staring directly into his own and stripping away all useless facades. "This happened so fast," he breathed out. "Ah. You're hesitating. Perhaps I'll encourage your confidence tonight." Julian lowered his head, though kept his eyes on Garak. It was an instinctual gesture, reverting to the ancient predatory drive. "Perhaps." Garak was clearly pleased by the response but his smile suggested Julian's display only amused him. He broke the spell moments later and turned around, looking as though he were searching for something. When he spotted the chair he smiled over his shoulder. "Ah. Here it is." He swiveled the chair to face Julian and patted the back. "Sit." Julian walked diffidently toward it and slid into the seat. Garak remained behind and lowered his hands gently on his shoulders. Julian softly 'hmm'ed and leaned his head sideways. "I've been thinking about it a great deal," Garak said with an absent air as he slid his hands down the length of Julian's arms. "Wondering why this lovely doctor felt compelled to constantly ask me about my past." Julian moved to protest but Garak clamped his hands over his shoulders and kept him still. "It still puzzles me, Julian. That you would be so interested in something as insignificant as a tailor's past." He relaxed his hold and snaked his hands upward, settling loosely around his neck. Julian shuddered, feeling the beats of his heart thunder in his ears. "Are you still interested?" Garak asked, and Julian knew the question needn't be asked. He nodded helplessly. Garak squeezed his hold, then released him. "Bring your hands behind you." His voice was pleasant, Julian decided. Not at all loud, unlike anyone in Garak's position would be prone to project. No, Garak was subtle. The authority came from the conviction that he was in control. Slowly, Julian brought his hands behind him, around the back of the chair, unconsciously linking them at the wrists. He waited, then started when he felt Garak's fingers caress his palms. The Cardassian's skin felt cool and dry. Garak immobilized his twitching arms with one hand while he bound the wrists with the other. Julian couldn't guess what it was; a stretchy kind of fabric that clung to his skin as soon as Garak let his hands loose. He couldn't imagine where the Cardassian had kept it hidden. When he tested the bond, it merely constricted further, much like a tourniquet but more comfortable. When he relaxed, the material relaxed as well. "I expect that as the evening progress, we'll stop needing this. You're a bit flighty at the moment, and I need to relax you a bit. Later on, we'll let those pretty wrists breathe." Garak walked around the chair and stopped in front of Bashir. He smiled a viper's smile. "Comfortable?" Julian squirmed, not used to the sensation of being restrained. "I'll manage." "Good. Because I want you comfortable. At least for now. I think I'll have that drink now," he said teasingly, moving toward the replicator. "Rokassa juice, warm." He flashed a pleasant smile at the doctor as the drink materialized. "I know this offends your sense of smell, but I'm sure you'll indulge me." Julian raised an eyebrow. "Your nerves need to be soothed? And here I thought you were in perfect control of yourself." Garak paused in mid-sip, his eyes rising to meet the younger man's. A sudden gleam seemed to swallow the blue of his gaze completely, bathing them in endless darkness. He lowered the drink without sipping it. Julian gnawed on his lower lip, wondering what the Cardassian would do. Obviously, he hadn't taken kindly to his comment. "Why do you suppose I was exiled, Doctor?" The surreptitious return of his formal title wasn't lost on the young man, who inhaled unsteadily. "I've given up trying to figure that out, Garak." Garak's lips twitched, as though trying to contain amusement. "Oh don't give up on me so soon, Doctor. You were making such wonderful progress, after all." He took his sip, carefully, taking the time to savor the beverage. Licking his lips in satisfaction, he set the glass down on the table and clasped his hands together. "Would you know?" he asked. Julian narrowed his eyes, his hands twitching behind him. The material flexed as though anticipating. "How would I know you're not lying?" "Do you care?" The retort surprised Julian only in its truth. No, he speculated, he didn't really care at all what the Cardassian might or might not have done in his past. There were a lot of things in his own history he wasn't inclined to share, and he had no reason to force the Cardassian to do otherwise. Julian settled for a comfort zone. "I'm curious, but if you don't want to talk about it--" "No, no, no, Doctor. Such placating answers won't do. I want you to be direct." Julian had to note the absence of 'truthful'. Garak understood that the past was called so for a reason. Julian also realized that during this preamble, he had almost forgotten that he was tied to a chair about to be subjected to Garak's whims. The thought made him flush, and he closed his thighs in a subconscious effort to shield himself. "Tsk." Julian looked up. Garak nodded at his knees. "Should I consider binding your ankles, too? Keep those legs spread, Doctor. I wouldn't want the evidence of your arousal so crudely hidden from my eyes." His voice was deliberately lecherous, and Julian bit his lower lip again. Slowly, he parted his knees and closed his eyes. He could feel the heat in his groin - unbelievable heat - encouraging his cock to harden. It was becoming uncomfortable. He clenched his fists, and had to wonder about the odd comforting sensation he felt from the binding material. When he opened his eyes, Garak was much closer. He crouched to his level and lowered his hands to his knees, smiling. "For every act, I wish for you to be silent. I will test the full limit of your control, Doctor. If you are able to suppress the barest sound, I will answer any question you may have about me." Julian raised his eyebrows. "You heard correctly. If, on the other hand, you're unable to resist--" he said this while raking his hand boldly across a slim thigh, "--I may request something of you that will most probably test your strength. Oh not your physical strength," he was quick to dismiss at Julian's horrified look, "I'm no sadist, and it wouldn't do to break such lovely skin. No, Doctor. My tests will challenge your strength of will. Of discipline. It will be a most interesting display ... IF you should fail." Garak straightened up. "Stand up." Julian gave the Cardassian a withering glance. "And HOW do you propose I do this?" "I don't recall binding you to the chair. Do you?" Garak was remarkably patient, and for a moment Julian wondered if the Cardassian was getting anything at all from this encounter. One look at the tailor's tautly stretched pants, however, disabused him of his doubts. Negotiating his hands up from around the backing, Julian stood up, finding strength in his legs he had suspected was gone. Garak hummed with satisfaction and pressed his hand over the nape of Julian's neck, guiding him toward the writing desk tucked against the far wall. He cleared a few things from it, notably the monitor, which he set aside on the sofa along with every other item from the desk. Julian waited quietly beside him, his mind reeling at what the tailor had in mind. A sound 'slak!' forced him to reality and he realized he was no longer bound. Garak threw the flimsy fabric aside and appraised the doctor critically. "Sit," he nodded at the table. Julian felt his heart renew its racket in his chest. Trying to control his breathing, he scrambled over the table and sat at the edge. Garak went to place himself between his legs, making no apology for the uncomfortable proximity he'd chosen. "Still swimming in doubt?" "No," Julian said. He hesitated, looking away from the Cardassian's penetrating stare. "But?" "I don't like to be kept guessing," he confessed. "No you don't, do you?" Garak smiled fondly, as though this was nothing new to him. "I imagine it's torture for you, sitting here and wondering what will happen next." Julian looked sharply at his friend, accusing. "And you're enjoying every minute of it." Garak seemed surprised. "Of course I am. It pleases me to see you torn, wondering how to act, what to say, judging what would please me and what wouldn't ... fearing what I could do if you say the wrong thing." With every word Garak looked as though he was inching closer. His voice lowered and he added, "Do realize one thing, Doctor. I am simply here to enjoy you, and you will have ample opportunity to enjoy me," he said archly. Julian swallowed, unable to respond. So Garak said, "As of now, I want you to be quiet. Let's see if that mouth is disciplined," he purred, splaying his hand on Julian's throat. With a slow, intimate speed, Garak lowered his fingers and unfastened the front of Julian's uniform. He kept his eyes riveted on the young man, watching for any reaction. And reaction there was. Julian's eyes widened, his body trembled, his lips parted, but for the exception of heavier breaths, he was quiet. Garak separated the lapels and tugged the sleeves down his arms, revealing the thin undershirt that was part of the uniform. The silence in the room became nearly oppressive. Julian knew he wouldn't stand it for much longer. Uniform off, Garak was now pulling the shirt above his head and throwing it unceremoniously behind him. Shivering, Julian was now sitting without a shirt and a uniform bunched up at his waist. Without warning, Garak seized one of his erect nipples and squeezed. Julian bit down on his lips but made no sound. Garak looked pleased. "Very good Doctor. You've earned a first question." He lowered his hands and braced himself against the table, waiting. Julian stared incredulously. "A question? All right ..." He sighed, hugging himself. It felt very cold all of a sudden. "What was the reason for your exile?" "I betrayed my father," Garak said simply, choosing not to go into details. Julian had hopes that this was the closest that he had come to the truth, although he knew there was an important link missing. He opened his mouth but Garak held up his finger. "One question at a time. Lie back." Resigned, Julian swung his legs over the desk and laid back. He laced his fingers over his stomach and stared at the ceiling anxiously. He was slightly light-headed, and his heart still hadn't calmed. He wondered just how far this night would go. How far Garak would push *him*. Speaking of Garak ... Julian widened his eyes before he quickly shut them, overcome by the kiss the Cardassian bestowed him. He felt vulnerable, lying there on the table, helpless as Garak bent down to plunder his mouth with such exotic skills. He writhed, feeling the irritating friction of clothes on his erection, and the contrast his bare chest offered as the tailor's hands caressed him there. So it was completely pardonable that he should voice his arousal, a simple moan that bled into the kiss, something Julian was certain the Cardassian would overlook ... Julian shuddered, opening his eyes slowly as he realized he was no longer being kissed. Garak was inspecting him closely, clear desire in his eyes but tempered by a painfully obvious disappointment. "You raised my hopes, Doctor ... I see that I was wrong to be so optimistic." A breath-seizing fear gripped Julian and he struggled to sit up. Garak allowed him, leaning back from the table and helping him off the surface. But where Julian had meant to stand, Garak continued the movement and led him to the bedroom, his hand a firm fist over his own. He yelped when Garak pushed him onto the bed, and for a moment Julian thought the Cardassian meant to take him. It was an exciting thought, but it became evident after a while that Garak had another idea entirely. He retrieved the band of fabric he'd brought with him and stretched it over the doctor's head. When he released it at eye-level, Julian gasped as the material hugged his head and obstructed his vision completely. He could only perceive light and obscure shapes -- nothing he could translate to a concrete image. He jerked his head when he felt Garak's voice whisper in his ear. "Do you trust me? Don't lie." Julian pressed his lips together. "No," he said. "Good. I see you've been paying attention," Garak said, a laugh in his voice. Julian craned his neck as he felt cool fingers dance under his chin before they forced his head sideways, as though perhaps Garak were observing him more closely. "The idea, however, is not to harm you Doctor, and I hope you will at least trust me with that. Keep this in mind for the next hour or so." "What will you do?" Julian's voice was very low. "Nothing you won't enjoy eventually ... when you learn to enjoy it," Garak answered cryptically. Julian moved his mouth to reply, but all he heard was the hiss of a hypospray, and soon there was only darkness. --- Garak smiled behind the rim of his glass of kanar, enjoying the sight Julian Bashir made as he woke. He had the most adorable lost expression on his face, for a moment diluting his fear. Julian has said he did not trust Garak, but Garak hadn't believed him. He had never found a man so blindly trusting, clinging to the ridiculous notion that he was invincible to pain, emotional or otherwise. He had come a long way from the na�ve young man he'd met a few years ago, but Julian hadn't shed his perpetual disposition to see the good all around him, nor was it Garak's wish to see it completely vanquished. Still ... he'd make a poor Cardassian. And perhaps that was why Garak was so taken with him. He had no idea if this urge to seduce the young man was a subconscious effort to rebel against the very institution that had rejected him ... surely this was more than a simple adventure to stave off solitude, but why else then ...? Garak pushed this concern far from his mind. He would consider the matter later, after the evening's entertainment was over. For now, he had a delectable young Human to attend to. "Gentlemen," he said loudly, pleased to see that Julian cowered instantly toward him. A handful of gray faces turned simultaneously to look at him as he spoke. "I hope you appreciate my addition to this meeting. I thought perhaps we could take a breather from these tedious talks." "Garak, what--" Julian began to say, but quickly clamped his mouth when Garak touched his shoulder. He had much to learn about discipline, but the Cardassian was proud to see that Julian recognized when he meant to be serious. He had seated him at the end of a long table, still blindfolded and naked. Garak wondered how Julian felt about the leather that caressed his back and thighs with each subtle movement. Positioned at six of the nine chairs gathered around the table, members of the Obsidian Order waited with anticipation in their eyes. Corbin Entek, with endless night in his gaze, Pythas Lok, Madred, before he went insane, Vorlem, Erok and Sayem. He could have easily chosen others - their personality wasn't exactly important at this junction. In fact, the similarities ended at their looks - whatever else was irrelevant, therefore not programmed. They would act to the extent of Garak's preparations. Garak smiled, feeling muscles jump against his hand as he stroked one of Julian's bare shoulders. He bent down, caressing his lips against the delicate shell of his ear. "I thought it would be an interesting diversion to see you act out your fantasy, Doctor," he whispered. Julian glanced blindly at his side, clearly puzzled and not a little frightened. "Have you forgotten so soon?" Garak said, capturing the tender lobe in his mouth and suckling at the flesh. Releasing it noisily, he added, "Though you'll forgive me, I had no intention to make you the station's resident slut. I'm content in making you my colleagues' entertainment for now." Julian backed into his chair, panic gripping him for a moment before Garak relaxed him again with his hands on his shoulders. "You always have the safety of your word, Doctor. But indulge me for a little while ... and see where your strength and your desires bring you. I would like to watch - and I think you would like that," he drawled, noting that Julian's semi-hard cock twitched in response. "This was your fantasy, not mine," Julian hissed, though his voice was roughened by arousal. "Regardless, we are here now, and I've set down the terms of my punishment. Although were I in your place, I'd hardly call that punishment at all," Garak added teasingly, releasing him. He nodded at his colleagues, who in turn began to crowd around Julian's chair. He made a subtle movement, one the computer recognized as one of many visual clues, and the men relaxed. It wouldn't do to overwhelm the young man with raging Cardassian hormones so quickly. Rather, Garak wanted a slow seduction. He chose a chair slightly out of the way and made himself comfortable. Entek was the first. He lured Bashir into a standing position and appraised him. Julian was still blind to the men around him, and doubtless he knew how many they were, or where they were located. Garak smiled at this, relaxing his hands on his thighs and watching in rapt attention. Oh but how he was lovely, he thought. When Entek trailed his hands down the Human's flanks, Garak instantly admired the way Julian's body arched with involuntary craving. It occurred to him that Julian did not know who he was dealing with, and possibly he thought that Garak was among the men. He smiled at this, sitting back as the show continued. Entek was not a man who liked to prolong pleasures. At least, not this simulation. He lulled Julian over the table, face up, and raked his hands down his smooth thighs. Madred and Vorlem smiled wickedly as they loosened their trousers and taunted Julian's lips with their respective cocks. Julian, still blind to what was going on, barely stifled a moan as he caressed his hands over his chest, his stomach, as though he were performing purely for Garak's attention. Entek lifted Julian's legs and buried his face at his groin. Startled by the sudden move, Julian lifted himself from the table as he arched his back. His moan was now undeniable. Pythas leaned down to capture the doctor's mouth in a kiss, and Garak couldn't help but consider the exchange very sensual. Here were all men who had, at one point or another, done horrible things to either advance their careers or establish their reputation within the order - it gave Garak an additional twitch of pleasure to turn them into voluptuous puppets whose only goal was to pleasure the Human now sprawled over the table. Garak hissed and squeezed his hand over his groin. Julian was trying to say something, rushed, hissed words that were incoherent between his animalistic breaths and strangled moans. Madred shoved his cock in the doctor's mouth to suppress his efforts, grunting when Julian suckled noisily at it. Garak bit his lips. Entek was straightening up, his mouth glistening, his fingers preparing his entry into the Human's body. Garak's body tensed as his hand slipped quickly into his trousers to clutch his own painful erection. He was suddenly light-headed, unable to explain his reaction to the scene in front of him. He'd seen this before, recreated it for his own voyeuristic pleasure on countless occasions ... perhaps it was the giddy realization that Julian was real, and that he was so beautifully reacting to the hands on him, the fine sheen of sweat the computer had never got a handle on ... or the way he writhed ... or the way his body jerked downward in a silent plea to be fucked ... Barely suppressing a roar, Garak leapt from his seat and shoved Entek away. He scrambled to free his erection then grabbed flailing Human legs to steady him. He waited, pushed his urge far into the reaches of his control, and looked around at the men. Without a word, they backed away from the table and shimmered from their holographic existence. Julian was beyond notice, and he squirmed atop the table in a silent but eloquent demand. How could Garak refuse? He bent over him, bracing himself with one hand near the doctor's head. Baring his teeth, he hissed, "What is it you want?" With an indelicate move, he tore the fabric from his eyes. He nearly faltered at the sight of those wide, dark eyes suffused with a desire he would have never imagined. "You," Julian breathed hurriedly, sitting up to kiss him. Their erections slipped wetly against one another. Garak's body loosened, unable to resist the pull of this young Human. They kissed with savage demand, and though Julian was still pinned by the Cardassian, he gave as much as he was given. Soon Garak was breathless, needing, his control forgotten. But he needed to remember it ... remember old skills, it was very important that he not succumb so readily, despite Julian's intoxicating demeanor. He splayed his hand carefully on the damp, smooth torso and pushed. "Lie ... still ..." Garak breathed unsteadily, taking a few steps that brought him to the side of the table. "Today, I want only to see you ..." he whispered, his palm curling over Julian's forehead and offering enough pressure to steady him. With his free hand he cupped the slender cock, a detached part of his mind marveling at the heat it radiated. Julian moaned with abandon, gripping the sides of the table as he fought to remain still. He was breathtaking. "To watch you," Garak hissed urgently, pumping his hand, "To see you lose yourself to pleasure ... as my hands on you dictate ... you are a wonder to behold, Julian. Such sensual energy, uninhibited ..." His words had the desired effect, for Bashir began to lift his hips without thought, yearning to come. "Not today ... I won't take you today ... the dessert I want to keep for the end, when I've satisfied myself with the meal ..." he murmured, pumping his fist anew. Julian's mouth hung open, his eyes closed, his forehead furrowed with focus. "And then," Garak continued, stroking him faster, "it will be me inside you, fucking you ... can you see it, Julian?" he said, stopping long enough to rub his thumb over the oozing tip of his cock. That small touch, insignificant really, was enough ... as Garak knew it would be. Julian's face suddenly smoothed and a choked half-cry erupted in his throat as he came. The halted cry segued into an animalistic keening wail as his seed spurted thickly over Garak's fist and his stomach. Garak was riveted, focused on that normally sedate face suffused with a lost expression that spoke volumes about his ecstasy. He had much to do with his young Human friend. Much to do. Only after he had processed this thought that Garak bowed his head and stroked himself to completion, a word spilling from his mouth before he thought to keep it tucked in his mind. --- The next morning, Julian sat at his console nursing a Jumja tea and going over his schedule. He had an absent smile on his lips, one he realized was there only after Nurse Jabara commented on it. "Hm? Oh, I'm sorry," he smiled apologetically. Jabara chuckled. "Well don't apologize for it. Here's those results from the weekly physicals," she said, handing him a PADD. She was about to leave when Julian stopped her. "Do you suppose the linguistic database has any information on Kardasi?" The request startled her, though given the doctor's friendship with the only Cardassian on the station, she could perhaps understand why. "I don't think so. Those files were in the main central core when the Occupation ended, so I'm assuming they were wiped out. I know a little bit of Kardasi, maybe I could help?" she offered. She was confused by his suddenly embarrassed look. "I'm sure it's nothing, nevermind," he was quick to say. "Doctor, I don't mind," she smiled reassuringly. Julian sighed and looked up bravely. "Erin ka." A delicate eyebrow rose. For a moment, she struggled very hard to contain a straight face. "Erin'ka, you say?" Julian nodded gingerly. She pressed her lips together and shook her head. "I'm sorry, I wish I knew. Never heard that one before," she lied smoothly, wanting to spare the doctor's embarrassment. As she moved to leave, she wondered if Doctor Bashir knew what he'd gotten himself into. A Cardassian, presumably Garak, declaring Erin'ka could only mean ... She cleared her throat and looked up at the Cardassian in question having just entered the Infirmary. "Mister Garak," she nodded, avoiding his gaze. "Nurse Jabara, what a pleasure," the tailor smiled ingratiatingly. "I was stopping by to see if Doctor Bashir was free for dinner," he added. "You'll find him in his office," she nodded, stifling a grin as he walked by her. When he was gone, she shook her head. "Erin'ka indeed," she smirked. --- The End