The BLTS Archive- Sharing Ninth in the Love Life series by Belynda (belindat@ihug.co.nz) --- Date: 24 January 1999 Archiving: Yes to all. Disclaimer: All characters, places and terminology that you recognize belong to Paramount. Anything else is totally mine. WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! The story herein is about a male/male relationship concerning loving males. If you have a problem with m/m relationships or you are under 18 please leave now. Note: a) This is part 9 in my Love Life series. b) Thanks to Annette for beta reading this for me. Any mistakes left over are mine. c) Thanks to all the people - and you know who you are - for encouraging me with their messages. d)I love feedback. I crave it. I want it NOW! --- Harry took another nervous glance around the room. Good, it's tidy. God, I hope everything goes according to plan. He thought as he entered his bedroom and got into his double bed. Both he and his lover Chakotay knew that what they were going to do with Tom could backfire on them, but they had decided together that it would be worth the risk. The trick would be to make sure that Tom never found out about their plan. Sighing, he looked at the time. Soon, Chakotay and Tom would be finished with their meeting with the Captain and they would come here to see Harry. Soon he thought as he fell into a light sleep. --- "You two have done an excellent job. I want you both to take the next day off and relax." The Captain told Chakotay and Tom. Grinning, Tom nodded his thanks. "Thank you, Captain. I feel that I really need some R & R. It was quite rough on the planet." "I'm sure it was, Tom." The Captain laughed, knowing that life on the planet had been anything but, according to Chakotay. "We'll talk about it later. For now, I just want you to both go and relax. Get some rest. I know that you were both working long hours to get as many supplies as you got. The crew really appreciate it. "Now, go and relax." Kathryn said standing. Chakotay smiled and stood. "We'll talk later, Captain." Tom stood as well. After saying their good-byes, both men left. As soon as they entered the empty turbo lift, Tom turned to Chakotay. "So, Commander. What are you going to do with your time off? Not work I hope." He teased his new lover. Raising a hand, he tenderly stroked Tom's face. A grin softened his features when Tom leaned into his hand. "No, I won't be working. I will go and see the Captain later. For now what do you say we stop by Harry's quarters and see what he is doing?" Puzzled as to why his lover wanted to go and see Harry, of all people, Tom nodded his head slowly. "Okay, I have no problem with that." The lift doors opened and they both stepped out. Making their way toward Harry's quarters Tom couldn't resist asking. "Chakotay, I love Harry and all but you might have forgotten that we still aren't talking to each other. What makes you think that he will see me?" "Tom, didn't we decide that this problem between you and Harry had to be solved before there was no friendship left? You promised that you would give your friendship another go. We've talked about this." Indeed they had. Being on an uninhabited planet with nothing to do but collect supplies and make small talk for 4 days, you began to let your guard down. Especially if you became lovers on the first day. Tom knew that he had told Chakotay more about himself and his relationships. More than he had ever told anyone else. He didn't regret anything he had told Chakotay, in fact he was glad to get it off his chest. Together, they had talked, made love, and come to decisions about what they wanted in the future. One of those things was for Tom to try and solve the problems he had with Harry. He knew that he had caused all the problems between them. After all, he was the one to make a pass at Harry. He was the one who said that he didn't want to see Harry, once he learned that Harry was seeing someone. But going to Harry now, and apologizing? It was a big jump to start from and he wasn't afraid to admit that he was taking a big step in bridging the gap between them. And he owed it all to Chakotay. He had let his guard down and told his new lover exactly why he and Harry were no longer talking. Chakotay had sat there and listened; only asking the occasional question. He had known that he had behaved appallingly towards Harry, but to actually say the words out loud, had eased a pressure off his chest that he hadn't known were there. It was a thrilling feeling, to suddenly be able to breathe with out this weight on your chest. He felt like a new man. One of the things he had decided with Chakotay's help, was that he had to talk to Harry and try to repair their relationship as soon as possible. He just hadn't thought that Chakotay meant as soon as they got back on board. As they came to stop out side Harry's door, Tom relaxed at seeing the love in Chakotay's eyes. He knew that his lover believed in him, and knew that Tom could set his relationship with Harry to rights. Tom just wasn't sure if he believed in himself. Ringing the door chime, Tom took one last calming breath. The door opened, and they stepped into Harry's quarters. Not seeing Harry, Tom advanced further into the room. Sparing Chakotay one last look over his shoulder, he called out Harry's name. Silence greeted him then Harry spoke up from the bedroom. "In here, Tom." Shyly Tom advanced into the bedroom, only half-aware of Chakotay following. "Give me a minute Tom. I'm still half asleep." Harry called from his position in bed. Seeing Harry in bed and bare chested Tom flushed. He had admitted to Chakotay that he was attracted to Harry still, but to see Harry half naked in bed, sent a spike of desire straight to his groin. Harry got out of the bed naked. He looked as if he had been asleep when they had arrived. Tom couldn't take his eyes off his best friend as Harry gave a quick stretch, with arms raised over his head. He was completely naked. His muscles flexed, showing to Tom that his uniform hid his breathtaking body only too well. It was obvious to both men that Harry worked out. A lot. Tom was so caught up in watching Harry stretch that he didn't notice the grin Chakotay was giving Harry. As it was, he completely missed Chakotay mouthing the word 'tease' at Harry. Stopping the grin that threatened to break out across his face, Harry bit his lip as he shrugged on his white silk robe. Belting the robe, Harry gestured towards the living area. Hoping that Chakotay didn't notice his straining erection, Tom quickly sat on the couch and lent forward, crossing his arms over his lap to hide his arousal. However the other two men had noticed Tom's situation. Being the friends that they were they didn't mention anything to Tom. Harry sat down next to Tom and Chakotay sat down on the other side of Tom. "So, Tom. How was the trip? I suppose it was quite boring down there." Harry asked, as he placed his feet up on the table in a very unHarry gesture. Then he placed one arm across the back of the couch, his arm almost touching Tom's shoulders. His robe parting even more across his chest and parted across his legs, rendering Harry almost naked to the gaze of the two men. Because of this Tom didn't see the two men grasp hands tenderly together across the back of the couch, touching for the first time in over 4 days. Remembering that he was now involved with Chakotay, Tom tore his eyes away from Harry's muscular legs. "Uh, it was quite good actually. Peace and quiet, sunny days. Little animal life. Oh, and near by, there was this beautiful pond, just big enough so you could swim in it. It had the clearest water. I swear Harry, you could see your feet, it was that clear. Oh and the food! The fruit we found, it was so sweet and tender. Better than anything I have ever tasted. And climbing up this hill that was close by and watching the sun set was something to experience. I only wish I had been able to stay there longer. In fact, I might even do hologram program based on the planet." Tom enthused, missing the amused looks Harry and Chakotay were passing behind his back. "That sounds like a great idea Tom. You should do something like that. Although knowing you, you'll add some kind of women's team. Volleyball or Netball, perhaps." Harry grinned, knowing that Tom hadn't thought of adding additions like women teams to the program and probably wouldn't. He just liked teasing Tom about his roving eye. Tom looked down at his hands for a moment, then shook his head. "That would ruin it Harry. And anyway, I've. . . err. . . changed since I helped with the beach resort." He opened his mouth to say something else but then closed it with a snap. Harry shared a look with Chakotay, and they released hands. Leaning forward, Harry took his feet off the table. He couldn't help noticing how Tom's eyes flicked up and down his legs. Resting a hand on Tom's shoulder, he waited until his best friend relaxed before he took Tom's chin in his hand and turned Tom's face around so that they were looking eye to eye. Keeping his hand cupping Tom's chin, Harry spoke. "I know you have changed Tom. You are probably the one person who has changed the most. And I'm sure that everyone recognizes that. But you will always be 'Tom the ladies man'. Admit it." Tom's eyes widened. Then he burst out laughing. A second later the other two men were laughing too. "God Harry, where do you come up with these things?" Grinning, Harry looked up at Tom through his hair. Tom thought that at that moment Harry had never looked more beautiful and sexy. The younger man must have seen something in his eyes, as his laughter died and he became serious again. Watching in fascination as Harry's face got closer to his, Tom forgot all about his lover sitting next to him. He had waited so long for Harry to kiss him again that he forgot everything but the fact that he and Harry were going to kiss. And then they did. Gently at first, with just their lips touching. Then with more pressure as they grew bolder. Sighing, Tom opened his mouth and accepted Harry's sweet tongue. It was the most pleasant experience Tom had ever felt. Non threatening and tender, it drew you in. Hesitantly he allowed Harry's tongue to gain access to his mouth, sighing in pleasure at the touch of the ensign's tongue boldly stroking the inside of his mouth. It was all shattered though when he felt movement behind him. With a start he realized that his lover of four days, Chakotay, was sitting beside him as he kissed, and was kissed back by Harry. Shocked at his own actions, not to mention Harry's, Tom jumped up off the couch. He didn't know where to look first. Harry with his wet, just kissed lips or Chakotay his lover. "Oh my god. Harry why did you kiss me? I thought you didn't want a relationship with me. I thought that you were in a relationship with someone. Why now? And Chakotay, why didn't you stop me? Oh god, this is all my fault." Tom fell to his knees in front of his lover. "Chakotay, I didn't mean to kiss him. He was just so beautiful sitting there almost naked. And then his lips were so close to mine, and I couldn't stop myself, I just had to kiss him. Please tell me you're not upset. If you are, I'll do anything that you tell me to do. Just tell me that you forgive me. It didn't mean anything. I promise you." Chakotay took in the sincerity that shone in Tom's eyes. He soothingly ran his hand over Tom's head to comfort him. To make him understand that everything was all right. "It's okay Tom. I understand how you must feel. Harry is very beautiful." Running a finger over Tom's lower lip, he felt the moisture left there by Harry's tongue. "Ya' know Tom. Watching you and Harry kiss, it has got to be one of the most erotic things I have ever seen. You are both beautiful, and watching the two of you kiss made me want to join you. It was so beautiful." Sitting at Chakotay's feet, with his hands on his lover's knees, Tom was starting to become confused. "Ha? You're not mad?" "No, of course not. I told you it was beautiful. Don't you believe me? " The Commander asked. When Tom gave a hesitant shake of his head, Chakotay took Tom's hand, and ran it up his leg until the pilot's hand rested on top of his hard erection. Surprise and truth flared in Tom's eyes as he took in the evidence that was under his hand. "You do find it erotic." He said in disbelief. "I don't understand what's going on. I don't know what to say." Harry moved closer to Chakotay's side. "You don't have to understand Tom. You just have to feel." Then his hand joined Chakotay's touching Tom's moist lips. "You have the most kissable lips Tom. Will you let me kiss you again?" Shivering at the picture Harry's words brought to mind, Tom didn't pull away Harry leant forward and kissed him again. This time more passion was involved as Harry was now showing his true intentions. Tom couldn't help but moan as Harry's skillful lips spoke of his every desire. Harry responded by kissing him back harder. Finally Tom had to pull back for air. His eyes were dark blue with passion. He watched in fascination as Harry turned and kissed Chakotay. He was more than stunned, even after considering what Chakotay had said, when the Commander returned Harry's kiss. Watching them together as they kissed, Tom had to admit that it was very erotic to watch your lover kiss another man. And he knew that Chakotay was getting really turned on by what was happening. He hadn't removed his hand from Chakotay's hard erection while he and Harry had kissed. And now that he could think, he noticed that his lover's erection had gotten harder while watching Harry and himself kiss each other. If Tom had sat back and watched this scene without desire running through his veins, he might have picked up on a telling fact. Harry and Chakotay were kissing without any hesitation that new partners had when touching for the first time in passion. But as it was, Tom was too consumed by what was happening in front of him that he didn't notice any of this. He watched as Chakotay reluctantly pulled away. He took in their flushed cheeks, swollen lips and panting breaths, and he wanted more. As if noticing his gaze upon them, they turned their heads to look at him. Chakotay spoke first. "I have to go. I promised the Captain I would come by and catch up on things with her." "What, now? Do you have to? Can't you tell her you're sleepy or sick or something? I want you to stay here." Tom knew he was being unreasonable, but he didn't care. He was having too much fun. Shaking his head, the Commander stood and headed towards the door. "I really do have to go. But Tom, I want you to promise me something." "What is it?" Tom asked as he came to Chakotay's side. Casting a quick look at Harry, Chakotay took Tom into his arms. "I want you and Harry to make love." "What? Chakotay, as much as I really want to, I'm in a relationship with you and I don't want to spoil it. Asking me to sleep with another man isn't something you ask of a lover. I'm committed to you." Tom tried to explain as flashes of himself and Harry, making love, danced through his mind. "You don't know what you are asking of me." "Yes. I do. And if you don't want to make love to Harry, then you don't have to. But I know you Tom. Your relationship with Harry is based on friendship as well as love. You are both attracted to each other, just as I am attracted to both you and Harry. To deny what we want, is denying a part of you. I want you to make love with Harry. And later I will join you." Seeing the hesitation that still graced Tom's blue eyes, he sighed. "I love you and nothing you do or say will change that. The thought of you and Harry making love, of him kissing you and making you cry out in pleasure, is giving me the hardest erection I have ever had in my life. I will come back here later tonight after I have talked with Kathryn, and I want to make love to you knowing that Harry has filled you with his cum. Over and over again." Watching for and seeing the flare of desire in the blue eyes of his lover his whispered words provoked, he drew Tom in close and kissed him tenderly. "I love you Tom, never doubt that. And whatever you decide, I will respect you for it." Another tender kiss, and he pulled away. "I have to go now. I will see you later." And with that he turned and left. Tom stood there for several timeless minutes, trying to decide what to do. On one hand, Chakotay had said he wanted Tom and Harry to make love together and that later he would join them. On the other hand, it would be cheating. As badly as he wanted Harry, he didn't want to spoil his relationship with either Harry or Chakotay. Harry was watching this calmly from his position on the couch. He knew that whatever he said within the next few hours could make or break any chance of a relationship with Tom. Chakotay was supportive of the fact that he w anted Tom to join them in their relationship. He might not have understood his reasons but he would do anything for his lover. The ensign didn't even know himself the why or wherefore. He only knew that Tom had to join them and neither of them had a choice in the matter. Turning his vision away from the tempting sight of Tom Paris, Harry watched his Spirit Guide pace back and forth around his quarters. The Black Panther had been pushing for Tom to join himself and Chakotay in a relationship for a while now, of that Harry had no doubt. And he wasn't about to disagree with the panther. He hadn't told Chakotay but ever since he had first seen the panther weeks ago, the form of the panther had change. Not in the shape but in how he could see him. First it was like he was looking at a ghost. Transparent and misty. Then gradually, the panther had became more solid until he could actually touch him. To feel the silky fur under his finger tips had been a awing and humbling experience. In the four days since Chakotay and Tom had been away, the panther had saved his life, as well as others, by giving Harry what could only be called a warning of danger. The warning came in the form of the panther appearing at his side. Then the panther would take his hand within his jaws and lead him to the danger. From then on Harry had been able to search and find the source of danger. Luckily none of the incidents had happened while he was on the bridge. He didn't know what he would do if the panther tried to get him to come with him while he was at his station. It didn't bear thinking about. But every time the panther had been right. For those reasons alone Harry trusted the large animal. And Chakotay did too, once Harry had explained to the Commander what the panther had done for him and what he meant to him. They had talked many times over the last four days that they had been separated. As Harry's powers grew, so did his determination. More than once Harry had dream walked into Chakotay's dreams where they would talk and make love. It was at those times when Harry tried to make Chakotay understand why he needed this. Why they needed this. He was finding that his telepathic abilities were growing faster than he could cope with. It was only the fact that Chakotay was supportive and understanding of what he was going through, that he was able to deal with this new element in his life. And although as much as he liked these new gifts, they scared him too. More than once he had even seen the same fear and worry in Chakotay's eyes. Taking a deep breath, he looked over to where Tom stood still thinking. Making his move, he walked over to Tom and put his arms around him from behind, resting his cheek on his friend's shoulder. He waited for Tom to relax before he spoke. He knew exactly what he was to say, as he and Chakotay had talked about this for hours. "When Chakotay came to me before you left on this trip, he asked what my feelings were towards you. He asked for complete honesty, and I gave it to him. How when you first said that you were attracted to me, I was shocked. Then other the next few days, how I thought about entering into a sexual relationship with you. How nervous I was when I decided that I did want a relationship with you, only to find out that you had also made your move on B'Elanna. I couldn't see past your apparent betrayal so I made up some lies about liking someone else and then seeing that person. And that fight we had on the holodeck and how our relationship was almost destroyed by that. "Then he asked me if I was still attracted to you. I told him yes. He sat there for a minute and then he explained how he was also attracted to you. He went on to explain how in the past he had been in a triad. A threesome. He listed all the pros and cons of going into such a relationship. I sat there stunned. I could only listen to what he was telling me and think about having you as a lover. And then he left after giving me a kiss." Harry pressed a kiss to Tom's neck. The silent man tensed for a heartbeat then he relaxed back into the younger man's arms. "I've thought long and hard about what I want during the time you were gone. About you and Chakotay. He said he would bring you to my quarters as soon as you got back. He didn't lie then and he hasn't lied now. He wants the three of us to become lovers." "And do you want us to become lovers too?" Tom asked, breaking his thought filled silence. Squeezing Tom around the waist, he slowly licked his way up Tom's neck to his ear where he gave it a gentle nip with his teeth. "Very much so. I've thought of nothing else since you and Chakotay left." He rubbed his hips into Tom's ass, letting the taller man feel his erection. Listening to the sharp indrawn breath that Tom wasn't able to hide, Harry slowly released his friend. Letting his hands slowly fall, trailing across the covered flesh of Tom's stomach and hips and felt the shiver that shook Tom's body. Then he stepped away from temptation and made his way slowly over to the door way to his bedroom. Standing there he turned to look at the pilot from under his hair. Tom turned and was watching the ensign's every move. Unable to tear his gaze away from his best friend dressed in only a white silk robe that reached only mid thigh, he watched intently as Harry slowly raised his hand and undid the belt. The robe parted minutely, showing only the slightest hint of flesh. His breath caught and then Harry shrugged his shoulders, and the robe slithered off his shoulders and arms to pool at his feet. After four years, Tom had seen Harry half-naked on several occasions but never like this. Never in his wildest dreams, had his picture of Harry naked ever come close to the Harry that was standing across the room from him. Golden sun kissed skin stretched tautly over hard muscles. The power that shone through, that said he could look after himself and he could easily protect what was his. Eyes' skimming all that was Harry Kim, found the hard erection he had felt only minutes before pressing against his ass. Breath catching in his throat, his eyes took in the full length of Harry's semi erection. Gasping at the width alone, he knew that his best friend would certainly stretch him like no one had ever before. Licking his lips he looked further and saw something black on Harry's hip before Harry turned into the bedroom. Without thought he followed. When he entered the room Harry was already spread out on the bed. Beautiful, naked, and aroused. Unable to take his eyes off Harry who was softly stroking his chest and washboard stomach, he began to take his cloths off. Letting them land where they fell, he was soon naked. Making his way onto the bed, he watched with ever growing anticipation as Harry ran his hand down his chest and took hold of his hard cock. The younger man stroked it slowly, letting him watch as his hand skimmed up and down his erection. Gulping at the sight of the ensign stroking himself into a full erection, Tom couldn't resist any longer. His hand slowly moved over the top of Harry's, taking over the job and replacing Harry's hand. He gasped at the feel of hot satin over rock hard muscle. Not even being able to close his hand around the width of Harry's cock, Tom groaned. Harry moved and then he was being kissed within a inch of his life. Seduced, taken, possessed. Tom had lost all though of not making love to Harry by now. His thoughts were scattered to the four winds and his heart was about to burst out of his chest as Harry's kiss took him to a new level of ecstasy. He could only grasp onto Harry's hips as his will left him. Knowing the effect his kiss was having on Tom, Harry grin at the back of his mind. But then Tom arched closer into him, their hard cocks pressing against one another's. Moaning, he pushed the pilot onto his side so that they were side by side. Running a hand down Tom's side, he hooked his hand under Tom's knee and placed the pilots leg over his hip, pushing their erections closer together. Knowing that Tom's was close, the moans of pleasure still ringing in his ears, he pulled his lips away from his friend's. Tom followed, wanting more, but Harry had something different in mind. He waited until Tom opened his eyes with the question burning in his eyes as to why Harry had stopped kissing him. Locking eyes with Tom letting his friend see the desire in his eyes, he grasped Tom's hip and slowly started to rub their dribbling erections together. Tom groaned and threw his head back with a long moan. He quickly jerked back to look at Harry when the younger man twisted his nipple to get his attention. Still reeling from the sharp pleasure the attention to his nipple had just received, he read and understood the request in Harry's eyes. Blue locked on black, their eyes never broke contact as their hips rubbed together faster and faster. Their erections pressed tight between their bodies, the friction of skin on skin, stomachs becoming more slick and wet with leaking pre-cum. Tom knew that this had to be the most erotic thing he had ever experienced. He couldn't take it anymore and clutched tighter at Harry's hips. Harry seemed to know what he needed to cross the line, as the ensign took his mouth in another possessing kiss. Eyes still locked, tongues dueling, Tom arched into Harry as he come across their stomachs. Harry followed a second after, mouth still locked on his. Moans and gasps filled the air as their sensitive flesh was consumed with a orgasm that shook their bodies. Time stood still and light exploded behind tightly shut eye lids. Cum splattered over their twitching bodies.And the panther roared his approval in the background. --- Harry looked up from gazing at Tom's sleeping face into the eyes of Chakotay. With a smile he beckoned the commander to come over from the doorway and sit beside him. Eyes searching one another's for understanding and hope, they both relaxed when they saw that they both accepted what had happened in the long hours since Chakotay had left Harry's quarters. Chakotay stopped still, when coming around the bed, he saw a large black panther relaxed on his stomach beside Harry on the floor. The ensign was slowly stroking the fur of the panther, and if the loud purrs were any indication, he was loving the attention. Shocked he looked up into Harry's uneasy eyes. "You can see him. Can't you?" The ensign whispered, unsure as to what this meant. After all, the panther was his Spirit Guide. Nodding, Chakotay hesitantly made his way to Harry's side. Tentatively, he sat at Harry' hip, all the while keeping a eye on the panther. He barely felt his lover's hand touch his back in a comforting gesture. "How long?" Knowing what Chakotay was asking, Harry looked at the purring animal. "Just after you left 4 days ago. When I first saw him while I was awake, it was just a shadow. Like something you see out of the corner of your eye. Then as time went by, I could see him more clearly. Then 3 days ago I could see him, touch him. It. . . was an. . . experience." Seeing the lingering fear in Chakotay's eyes, he sought to reassure his lover. "He doesn't mean any harm. I've told you about how he has helped me around Voyager, and how he has warned me when something is wrong." "I'm not worried about that. It's just that he is. . . a panther, and he is in your room. Laying on the floor next to your bed. It's a little . . . odd." "You knew that he was a panther. After all, I have his image on me." Harry said puzzled, as he indicated his smooth skin where the panther was tattooed on his hip. "There's knowing what a panther looks like and there seeing what a panther looks like when he is a foot away from you. He's just so big." Taking a look at the content animal, Harry could see where Chakotay could be a little shaken. The panther was big, being 6 feet tall when standing. He did have the advantage over Chakotay by having grown up with the panther. Seeing him almost everyday and night while you were a child and a teenager, did change how you would see something compared to another person. With a tender hand, the ensign pulled his older lover down for a tender kiss. Keeping Chakotay's soft lips only a hair breath away from his, he whispered "I love you." Smiling, Chakotay whispered back "I love you too." And then lowered his lips once again to his lover's. At the side of the bed, the panther purred contently as Chakotay's hesitant hand, guided by Harry's, joined in the stroking of his fur. All was right in the world. At least for now. --- The End