The BLTS Archive- Dreams
Eighth in the Love Life series
by Belynda (belindat@ihug.co.nz)

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Date: October 10, 1998

Archiving: Yes to all

Disclaimer: All characters, places and terminology that you recognize
belong to Paramount. Anything else is totally mine.

WARNING! WARNING! WARNING! The story herein is about a male/male
relationship concerning Harry Kim and Tom Paris. If you have a problem
with m/m relationship or you are under 18 please leave now.

Note: This is part 8 in my Love Life series. Thanks to all the people 
- and you know who you are - for encouraging me with their messages. I 
love feedback. This story has not been beta read. So please don't ask
me if it is or not. Now onto the story!

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Tom sat on the bed. He didn't really feel like going to sleep but
having to work the next day demanded that he did. However, the dreams
came when he slept. Dreams of Harry, and now dreams of Chakotay. God,
I am so fucked up! He thought as he rubbed his hands across his eyes.

He could still remember the day he found out that Harry was bisexual. 
Then kissing Harry. Did that man have the sweetest mouth or what? But
Harry had turned him down when he suggested that they become lovers.
Yes, he could see Harry's side, but he wished it wasn't so. And to add
salt to the open wound, Harry confessed that he had began a
relationship with someone else. The same night that Harry had told him
no to becoming lovers.

He had been so angry that night. Angry about Harry, but also angry
that he hadn't told Harry how he had felt about him earlier. So much
wasted time and now it was too late. Harry was still seeing this other
guy, whoever he was. That was another thing that really bugged him.
Harry had been dating the same man he had turned Tom down for, for at
least three months. He still didn't know who it was. He had gone
through all the possibilities, but he had eventually ruled everyone
out. And so he was back where he had started, not knowing who his
competition was.

Then he had broken up with B'Elanna. She had been good for him and he
would always love her but he wasn't in love with her. She had known
it. That had been the reason she told him that it wasn't working, and
he sat there and agreed. She had stopped just short of asking whom the
other person was, and for that he was grateful. They had both known
that for Tom to ever say their name would have done more damage than
good. He hadn't wanted to see the pity in her eyes when he told her it
was Harry. His best friend whom he had alienated and didn't say more
than two words to unless he had to.

She had been really upset and angry when she saw that he and Harry 
were  no longer friends. She didn't understand what had happened
between  them and no matter how hard she tried, she had not learned
what the problem was. It had only taken a day for the word to spread
around Voyager that Tom and Harry were no longer friends. After all,
having lunch together every day for almost four years and then to sit
apart the next day, people were bound to notice. No matter how many
people asked he hadn't told  a soul what had happened. He had come
close though, talking to Chakotay.

Chakotay. His long time enemy, and only just recently, a tentative
friend. He didn't know when he had started thinking of Chakotay as
something more than an enemy or as just his commanding officer. For a
while there he had been certain that Chakotay was finally letting his
guard down and letting them to become friends. Yet soon after Harry
had told him no, he had seen something in his eyes that made him think
that Harry had told him about Tom's offer. He was almost certain of
it, when the day after that scene in the holodeck where he had told
Harry that he didn't want to see Harry ever again, he had seen the
anger in Chakotay's eyes. It shouldn't have surprised him that Harry
had told Chakotay what had happened. After all, Harry was a person who
liked to have a sounding board to which he could tell anything.

Even after Harry's accident, when everyone had feared that Harry was
going to die, Tom had found that he couldn't say those two little
words. 'I'm sorry'. As time went on he had seen the hardness that had
entered Harry's and Chakotay's eyes whenever they  looked at him. He
had stayed away because he hated to see that look in their eyes. But
now that look had changed in Chakotay's eyes. Ever since he had broken
up with B'Elanna.

The day after he and B'Elanna had broken up, he had gone to see
Chakotay. He still wasn't sure why. Maybe because he had never felt so
alone before, but that hadn't stopped him from doing what he had done.
God, he remembered everything he had told him. Then he had done it. He
kissed the First Officer, and Chakotay had responded. Again he had
uttered the same words he had said to Harry all those months ago.
'Think about it.' That had been four days ago, and Chakotay still
hadn't said anything to him. Oh, he had seen the look in his eyes
whenever he had looked at him. At least Chakotay wasn't avoiding him
like Harry had done. Maybe that was a good sign.

Lying back on the bed, he looked up at the ceiling, not really seeing 
it. Tomorrow he would go to Chakotay and ask what was going to happen
with their relationship. He had only seen the First Officer off duty
once and that had been in the corridor with Harry. God, Harry! How he
still ached to kiss those full lips. To taste the sweetness of Harry's
mouth. But no, he had to stop thinking about Harry that way. The young
ensign had made his thoughts clear on the subject of their
relationship and Tom could only hope that with time, they could become
friends again.

Checking the time, he saw that he should get to sleep now or he never
would. There would be time to think about Harry and Chakotay tomorrow.

---

Tom closed his eyes in pleasure as he slowly rocked into the warm body 
of his lover. They flew open when his lover moaned his name. Seeing
Harry arching his back and thrusting back onto his cock, was almost
too much for him and he closed his eyes again.

However, the temptation was too much and he opened his eyes again. 
This time the sight that greeted him was different. Chakotay was with
them  now, standing beside the bed, running his hand up and down
Harry's sweaty back. Groaning low in his throat, he thrust harder into
the ensign's willing body. He watched as Chakotay gave Harry one last
caress, then moved closer toward him. A moan escaped his lips when the
seductive lips of the commander settled over his and kissed him with a
growing passion.

Finally he had to breathe and he pulled away from his lover, blinking 
the sweat out of his eyes. Looking for his lover he saw to his
surprise  that Harry, who he was slowly fucking, had risen to his
hands and was now  being kissed by Chakotay.

But instead of being jealous he found the sight of his two lovers 
kissing highly erotic. He thrust harder into Harry, unable to hold off
any  longer at the sight and sound of his two lovers kissing
passionately. Feeling  the deep heat and tense build up of pleasure in
his cock he knew that he  was going to come any second now. Gasping he
slowed his thrusting for one  last time, trying to hold off on his
orgasm. Looking down at his two lovers again, he groaned and with a
few hard thrusts of his hips, he was coming within the willing body of
Harry. His mind filled with the sight of Chakotay kneeling in front of
Harry, having his cock being sucked into the warm mouth of the young
Ensign, making his orgasm even more intense.

With a groan Tom woke up, his hand squeezing the last of his cum out 
of his erect cock. It had only been a dream, but gods what a dream. He 
lay there panting in the sweat soaked sheets, feeling his cum on his
chest  and stomach. Only another dream, Tom thought as he found enough
strength to turn his head and look at the time. "Fuck!" Jumping out of
bed, he shakily made his way to the bathroom, knowing that before he
left his quarters, he had better throw the sheets into the refresher.
Again.

---

Chakotay exited the main room of Harry's quarters and walked over to
the bed. Harry was still sleeping and he made an adorable sight. But
it was the noises that Harry was making that had brought him in to
investigate. He had been working on the couch, even though it was his
and Harry's day off, when he had first heard the moaning. Putting it
down to Harry just turning over in bed, he had turned back to his
work. But then the moans continued.

Looking down to at his sleeping lover, he watched as Harry rolled over
onto his back, and the cause of the moaning became apparent. Another
erotic dream, he thought as he shrugged off his silk robe and lay down
next to Harry. Waking a sleeping ensign was a good way to start the
day but waking up a horny ensign was a once in a lifetime event.
Getting comfortable, he reached out a hand and laid it on Harry's
chest and in a flash he was somewhere else.

He blinked. Hard. And again, but the sight didn't change. Harry, on
knees and elbows, being slowly fucked from behind by Tom Paris. Within
seconds he was erect and throbbing, the sight more erotic than
anything he had ever seen before. Reaching out a hand he lovingly
stroked Harry's sweaty back.

Harry turned his head and looked at him, and he knew, beyond anything 
he had ever believed before, that he wasn't just in any dream. The way
Harry looked at him, with utter trust and love, told him that wherever
he was, it was just as real as if he were awake. Yet before he could
ask what was happening, Tom moaned. Looking at Tom, as he thrust slow
and then  fast and hard into Harry, he wanted nothing more than to
kiss him again. And with one step he did.

Even better than he remembered it, kissing Tom was an experience like 
no other. Sweet and hot, Tom had an addictive taste that made a person 
look around for the nearest bed. However, just as he was starting to
become heavily involved with Tom's tongue, he heard Harry call out for
him. Not out loud, but in his mind. A picture of what Harry wanted
formed in his mind and he was only to happy to oblige.

Leaving Tom, Chakotay climbed onto the bed and knelt down before 
Harry. He quickly positioned himself when his young lover took hold of
his  weeping cock and took it into his mouth. Whimpering, he arched
his head back  in pleasure, only to look toward Tom when he heard Tom
cry out. The sight  of Tom shaking as he came inside the hot body of
Harry, left him aching  to hold Tom. But with a start the scene
vanished and he blinked, finding himself on the bed with Harry,
panting and still feeling his lover's hot mouth and tongue teasing his
hard cock.

Before his mind could adjust to the fact to whatever had just 
happened, and the fact that what didn't, he found himself being kissed
ruthlessly by his now awake and aroused lover. Without thought, he
grabbed Harry and pulled their hips together, rubbing their dripping
erections together. It was too much for either of them and within
seconds, they were coming, crying out with pleasure, their lips still
joined.

It was several minutes later, when they were both able to talk without
losing breath, Chakotay asked what was on both of their minds. "What
was that?"

Harry closed his eyes in defeat. "I was dreaming of Tom and the  next
thing I knew, I was in his dream."

"His dream? You didn't influence it?"

"You know me better than that Chakotay. Of course I didn't influence
it. It was Tom's dream, his will. I just replaced the  dream Harry.
What I don't understand, is what you were doing there."

Thinking over what he had done, he could offer only one explanation.
"I touched you. You were dreaming and I could tell that you were
horny, so I lay down next to you, intending to wake you up. I placed
my hand on your chest. The next thing I know, I'm in Tom's dream. It
was really weird but I couldn't stop myself."

Knowing that Chakotay didn't like the thought that he had betrayed
Harry, even if it was with just a kiss, he wrapped his arms around the
commander. "You have nothing to be ashamed of. Hell, I was the one who
was being fucked by Tom. All you did was kiss him. As I was already in
Tom's dream, I probably connected you to Tom's dream so when  you
touched me. Through me." He pressed a kiss to Chakotay's  brow. "I
only have one question. Were you jealous? Of Tom or  me?"

Chakotay was silent for so long that Harry grew concerned that he had
fallen asleep. Finally Chakotay spoke. "I wasn't jealous. Not of you
or Tom. In fact, I'm a little disturbed that I didn't feel jealous. I
should have felt jealous."

"It was only a dream. Only a dream. What you have to remember is  that
we love each other and no one is going to change that. Although. . . "

"Although what?"

"Although we both know that we are attracted to Tom. We know that
there is nothing wrong in being attracted to Tom or even someone else.
It's what we do with that attraction that makes all the difference.
Several days ago we decided what we were going to do with Tom and his
desire for the both of us. We can change that plan if you want. I
won't stop you."

Chakotay thought over their plan and decided that he still wanted to 
go through with it. "We'll stick to the plan. We just have to wait
until the opportunity comes up. In the mean time, what are we going to
do about Tom's dreams?"

Harry ducked his head away from Chakotay's gaze. "I haven't told you
this before but I have been walking into Tom's dreams for a while now,
and I can't stop it. Maybe deep down I don't want to. Nevertheless, he
has been dreaming of us with him for several day's now. I can tell
that he is starting to resent sleeping. It just reminds him of what he
has lost."

"Janeway to Chakotay."

Both of them jumped at the sound of the Captain's voice, as unexpected
as it was. Especially as they were both naked with semen all over
their bodies. Chakotay sat up in bed and pulled the covers over the
two of them before responding. "Chakotay here Captain."

"Chakotay, Tuvok has just informed me that we will be in range of an
uninhabited M-class planet in under an hour. I still take it that you
would like for me to assign you and Tom on away mission together,
although it is your day off?"

Chakotay shared a questioning look with Harry before answering. "Yes
Captain. I really think that it would be best if Tom got away from
Voyager for a while. The situation with Ensign Kim isn't getting any
better. It's time for me to intervene."

"Okay then. Report to shuttle bay one in one hour. If you are going to
go on an away mission, you can at least have some form of comfort. Oh,
and Chakotay. Good luck with Tom. Janeway out."

"It's started." Harry stated.

Nodding, Chakotay leaned in for a kiss. "It's started. No turning back
now."

---

Tom made it onto the bridge four minutes late for his shift. Seeing
the look the Captain gave him, he flushed and looked away hoping that
she wouldn't call him up on it.

"Mr. Paris, my ready room if you please."

Shit, she was going to call him up for it. He had only been late twice
in a row, and he knew he had been pushing his luck, but she wouldn't
bring him up on it. Wouldn't she? Meekly he followed her into her
ready room, avoiding Tuvok's all seeing eyes.

"Mr. Paris, I'll come straight to the point. You have been late for
your shift two days in a row. Added to the fact that Tuvok tells me
that your work efficiency has dropped by five percent. Can you tell me
what's going on?"

Watching the Captain as she sat behind her desk, Tom tried to think of 
a good excuse. Unfortunately he couldn't think of one. "I don't really
know why Captain. I'll make more of an effort from now on."

She nodded. "I accept that you will try but also think that you need a
break. That is why you are going to be one of the crew to go on an
away mission for supplies on a M-class planet."

"Away mission? I didn't know that we had come across a M-class
planet."

"If you had been on the bridge earlier, then you would already know."
Displeasure was evident in her voice. "Now, you will be going with the
Commander. He will give you the details on what you will be gathering.
You will leave in one hour and will be planet side for four days.
Hopefully when you return, your performance on duty will return to
100%. You can leave now to get ready. Report to Shuttle Bay One in one
hour. Dismissed."

Tom opened his mouth to give an argument about why he shouldn't go,
but then he saw the look in her eyes. There was no way he was going
get out of this away mission. Turning he left her ready room and
walked off the bridge. Once the doors of the turbo lift had closed
behind him, he sagged against the wall. "Fuck, four days with
Chakotay."  God, I hope that he is going to say yes or this is going
to be the longest four days of my life, Tom thought.

---

An hour later he entered the shuttle bay. He quickly spotted Chakotay
carrying supplies onto a shuttle.

"Lieutenant. Good. I'm ready to go. If you would like to do the
pre-flight check, then we can get under away."

"No problem Commander." God can you smile any  brighter? Performing
the pre-flight check at least gave him something to  do. He was not
going to think about how he would be spending the next four  days with
Chakotay. Four days! He shook his head at the thought,  thinking he
would go insane if he had to put up with Chakotay for four days and
knowing that he couldn't be with him.

"Is something wrong Mr. Paris?"

Startled, Tom turned around in his seat. "Huh?"

"You were shaking your head. Is there something wrong?"

"No. I just have a sore neck. Probably just slept funny."

"Not bad dreams I hope."

Tom almost broke his neck in his attempt to look at the commander. 
Chakotay couldn't know. Could he? "Why do you say  that?"

"No reason. Just a comment. Now, are we ready to go?"

"Ah, yeah. I'm all set." Turning back to his console, Tom quickly
prepared them to leave the shuttle bay.

---

Seven hours later, Tom and Chakotay had finished scouting the
surrounding area around the shuttle craft. It had also given them an
opportunity to collect a few supplies, and now they were back at the
shuttle craft. Taking a long drink of water, Tom looked over at
Chakotay who was also having a drink. "So Commander . . . Have you
gave any thought to what I said the other day?" Great going Tom, put
your foot in it.

Chakotay looked up in surprise. "Yes I have. I've thought about it a
lot Tom and to be honest, I still don't know if I've reached the right
decision. However, life is about taking risks. So I am going to take
one." Chakotay put down the water cannister and the tricorder he had
been holding and walked over to where Tom was sitting. Dropping down
to his knees, he reached out a hand and cupped Tom's cheek. Time  to
set the plan into motion, he thought as he leaned forward and pressed
his lips against Tom's. When he went to pull back, Tom finally moved.

Feeling Tom wrap his arms around his shoulders, Chakotay pulled him
closer, thinking how Tom was such an excellent kisser. With the  dream
still fresh in his mind, he groaned into Tom's hungry mouth.

Pulling back, the younger man drank in the sight of Chakotay with his
swollen lips and passion glazed eyes. "Are you sure about this? You're
not going to regret this are you? I don't want to pressure you into
anything Chakotay. I will understand if you say no."  Please say yes.
I couldn't handle it if you told me no.

The commander's eyes grew tender as he looked upon Tom's face. With a
shy smile he whispered his consent. "Yes I'm sure that I want this. I
want you! Now stop talking and let's go and get the bed rolls out. It
might be a touch more comfortable than the hard ground."

Seeing the honesty in Chakotay's eyes, he nodded. Together they got
their bed rolls and spread them side by side on the ground. Then they
stood by their make shift bed, looking into each other's eyes.
Chakotay took his hand and pulled him to lay down on the bed. Running
a fingertip across the tattoo that was such a part of Chakotay, he
couldn't help the shiver of anticipation that shook his body.

Chakotay smiled and leaned down to kiss Tom again. Soon all thoughts 
of not being here in Chakotay's arms left and he gave himself up to
the commander's will. Groaning into his soon to be lover's mouth, he
sunk his fingers into the into the black hair on Chakotay's head,
arching up into his mouth. Wanting more, needing more, Tom ran his
hands down the commander's back to cup and squeeze his taut  buttocks.

Gasping into Tom's mouth, Chakotay rubbed his erection into  Tom's.
Both men stilled, then suddenly they were in a frenzy, tearing  each
other's clothes off, with only the thought of being one with the
other. Soon both were naked.

Tom kissed his way down to the commander's nipples. Licking, sucking
and biting both of them until they were red and swollen. Kissing his
way down until he reached Chakotay's throbbing cock, he paused briefly
to take in the beauty of the tool that was going to give him pleasure.
Thick and heavily veined, it was truly a sight to make him drool.
Licking his lips, he took the purple head into his mouth and sucked.

Soon Chakotay couldn't take it anymore, and he pulled Tom up and
kissed him. Hard and long. Finally he pulled back. "Can I make love to
you Tom?"

Gulping down the need to turn over there and then, Tom nodded. He
watched in surprise as his lover pulled out a tube of lubricant from
the bed roll. Chakotay parted his legs and moved between them to get
better access to Tom's body. With a lubricated finger, he slowly
pushed it into Tom's warm body. First one, then two. Finally three
fingers were slowly moving in and out of the Lieutenant. He took in
the sight of Tom moaning and softly thrusting back down onto his
fingers. The vision was almost to much and he leaned down and kissed
Tom, his tongue soon finding and entwining with Tom's.


Arching his head back, Tom took in a deep. "As much as I am loving
this, I would rather have something other than your fingers in me
Chakotay."

Chuckling, the First Officer took a pert nipple into his mouth and
tenderly bit it. "Your wish is my command Tom." Arranging Tom so that
he lay on his side, Chakotay quickly spooned up behind him. Coating
his hard cock with lubricant, he braced a hand on Tom's hip. "You
ready?"

"God, yes! Please Chakotay, I want you."

Nodding, Chakotay could well understand Tom's need. Slowly he pushed
into Tom until he came to a stop. He let them both grow familiar with
him being inside of Tom and waited until the younger man made the
first move. Finally the pilot moved his hips forward, making
Chakotay's hard cock slid within the hot tight glove of Tom's body.

Both moaned at the sensation. The First Officer moved closer to Tom, 
and started to kiss the side of Tom's neck, while his hand stroked the
taunt stomach under his hand for a brief moment before reaching down
and taking hold of Tom's erection. Both moaned, and increased their
movements. Arching into the other. Thrusting towards completion.

Chakotay was now pounding into Tom, sweat running down both of their
bodies, making them slide ever more erotically against the other.
Unable to stop himself, Chakotay cried out Tom's name, coming within
the shaking body of his new lover. A second later Tom was coming as
well, his cum squirting out onto the commander's hand.

It was several minutes before they could get there breath back. Tom
couldn't help the moan that escaped his lips when Chakotay pulled out
of him. "God, Chakotay. That was better than I had dreamed it would be
like. Why did we wait?"

Turned away from Chakotay as Tom was, he didn't see the pain that
flashed deep in his eyes. "I don't know Tom." Pulling one of the bed
rolls covers over them, Chakotay looked up at the bright blue sky. "I
don't know." Then he joined Tom in slumber.

---

High above them, Voyager orbited the planet. It was at the end of the 
main shift so there were a lot of people out and about the corridors,
and  in the mess hall of Voyager. It was a time in the day, when
people got a chance to see one another and to share a few laughs. But
hidden away in his darkened quarters, young Harry Kim, sat on a chair
by his window, looking down at the planet.

As deep as his connection to Chakotay went, they were too far apart 
for Harry to pick up anything. And even though he had agreed and had
even thought up several aspects of the plan to let Tom become lovers
with them, it still hurt to know, that even now as he sat there, his
lover, his beloved, was in the arms of another. It didn't matter that
in four day's Chakotay and Tom would be back on Voyager and their
second part of the plan would go into action.

What mattered was the fact that Tom now had the ability to take 
Chakotay away from him. And no matter how he loved Tom as a friend,
and despite  the fact that he had pushed Chakotay into this, he knew
that if Tom took Chakotay away from him, he might do something he
would later regret.

"Chakotay, come back to me, my love. Don't forget me."  Harry
whispered to the silent planet, hoping that his love would come back
to him as the same man as he had left. With a lone tear spilling
across and rolling down his cheek, Harry continued to watch the
planet.

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The End