Liar
by Terranfem
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April 2001

Introduction: This is from the episode "Disease" and is like a stream of thought kind of thing from Tom as he and Harry arrive back from the alien ship and they're walking back towards their quarters. This was started in April 2000 but I only got around to working on it this year.

Feedback: Constructive comments and nice words are most welcome. Flames are not.

Disclaimer: All Star Trek characters belong to Paramount.

Spoilers: Contains a couple of lines from the "Disease" episode.

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"You are such a lousy liar, Harry! Haven't you learned anything from me after five years?" I ask, trying to sound disappointed in him but I grin to let him know I'm just teasing.

I'm not really disappointed, Harry. I'd be devastated if you ever learned that particular talent from me. You're the most sincere and genuine person I know and gods forbid that you even try to PRETEND to lay claim to the title of best damned liar on this ship when it so clearly belongs to me.

Because I'm lying right now by keeping my mouth shut and acting as if all I feel for you is just friendship. Nothing more. But damn it, Harry, I don't want us to be JUST friends. Why can't I just tell you the truth? Right here. Right now. Tell you that I love you, Harry.

But, oh gods, I can't. I'm so scared of losing your friendship. Of losing you. Besides, I think I've lost my chance. Even though you won't tell me anything, I know. One look at you and I can tell you like Tal.

Gods, you don't even realize the torture you're putting me through. I picture you and Tal together and it's ripping me apart. But I do love you, Harry. Your happiness is what's important. What else can I do? Nothing else but grit my teeth, smile, and somehow, force out another lie.

"She's cute." See, I told you I'm the best.

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